I have been admiring this dogwood every day for weeks now, and yesterday, on my walk into work, I decided to capture the blooms in the early morning light...(Not bad for a cheap cell phone!) There is an orange tree behind it, and in "real life" the striking contrast is pretty amazing.

I have fallen in love with Sacramento...never never thought I would say that. I have lived here for almost 20 years, and always believed I wanted to be elsewhere...there was always the grass on the other side...It always felt temporary to me. But now, I (and hubby) have decided to stay. And I am so filled with a sense of relief. And joy. Amazing.

I made the phone call to the coast today. To tell our neighbors that we will be listing our house. It was sad. I have become good friends with the gal across the street, and I really choked up when I told her....I think we were both looking forward to spending more time together....We were supposed to put it on the market today, but we were just too darn tired to make the drive. Four years of living in two places has taken its toll....The thought of coming home from work on a Friday evening, after working all week, loading the car, and then driving four hours just is more than I can bear right now...so we slept in, and have NO plans...just a quiet weekend at home. Everyone thinks we are out of town, so we shouldn't even get any phone calls!

My eating has been horrible. Fortunately I am walking 2-3 miles everyday, so the scale is staying relatively stable...and I think as soon as the heat hits, I will not even WANT to eat! I am feeling it already, now that it is in the 70's and 80s.

I have to again thank all of my dear spark friends for their support, and friendship. I have been terrible about getting back to people. I feel emotionally stretched to the limit right now, but feel a HUGE burden has been lifted by the decision not to leave Sacramento. HUGE. My schizophrenic life style should be winding down....and maybe a sense of normalcy can resume (or maybe I crossed that line already, and it is too late, hee hee....) One of these days I will take the time to get back to you individually....

I do have one buddy that will be coming to CA in May for a get together....any of you other people, please let me know if you will be in the Sacramento area!