Wednesday, April 09, 2008
This is Day 180 that I've signed into Sparkpeople, but my #1 Blog entry. I hadn't wanted to do a Blog, but I'm at Stage 3, Step 5 on the Diet and it says Do a Blog. So, I'll start one.
1:46 P.M. Start.
I've only lost 30# which is 1/2 of what I'd like to have lost since I started, but I've been doing this daily and changed a lot. My back hurt so bad that I couldn't stand at the sink to wash dishes without pain across my shoulder-blades and lower back, and that has gotten much better with 30# off my fat gut! I had this "shelf" roll beneath my bra that I could lay my arm across. Not there now.
I'll get to my goal, because I'm not going to gain any of this back ever again. I'm going to stay on this every day.
I've been sad the last month, because I've gotten to 58 years 5 months, the age my mother was when she had a heart attack and died when I was 17, the age Maggie is now. She smoked and her "nerve symptoms" were not noticed for heart disease. She was 1/2 cherokee Indian and they have a 90% chance of gall bladder disease, which she had at age 40 with 4 hands-full of gallstones, that the doctor removed. They are from cholesterol. So, it is something I understand now. I've had an ultrasound and have no gallstones.
I just realize that my mother wasn't very old when she died. I don't feel "old" at all, and in fact, I never intend to feel old. I'm going to be like OLAN in THE GOOD EARTH and not complain. I'm just going to be thankful for having lived.