Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Well, here I am, another year older. I haven't been doing the best the my eating and exercise the last couple of weeks. Why??? Well, I think I figured that out yesterday. I am just OVERWHELMED. I'm working 50 hours a week, trying take classes on-line, and trying to totally revamp my lifestyle, all while continuing to deal with "firsts" regarding my Dad's death. First Dad's birthday without him, first Thanksgiving, first Mom's birthday, first Christmas and New Year, and now my first birthday without my Dad. I just feel totally overwhelmed.
To make matters worse, I know I am putting my own health and well being on the back burner because of all the other responsibilities I have. Doesn't seem fair, I should get to come first once in awhile. Something's got to give, I'm just not sure what. Maybe I need to put off taking classes for awhile, or maybe I need to just focus on one healthy habit at a time. Instead of trying to get 5 work out days a week in and making all the right eating choices every day, maybe I need to try and get 2 or 3 days in at the gym and make one nutrition goal a week. I just don't know. Some days, I feel like I am drowning......and I KNOW that is setting me up to fail somewhere.
I really could use that year off to do nothing but work on getting healthy........wonder what my boss would say.......LOL.....she would laugh at me. Oh well, I'll figure something out.
Just needed to vent.