Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Well, I'm home now. That's the good part. I'm back on track calorie wise today. I exercised today. I didn't smoke today. That's all good. But after 5 days of completely blowing all the goals I had set for myself, I came home feeling like crap. The water, the healthy eating, the FOCUS had really made me feel so much better. It will take a few days to get that good feeling back. The trip was VERY rushed, and very hard on all of us. Saying goodbye to someone you love so much, when you know you'll never see them again, is sooooo painful. He wanted us to stay so badly. I just wish we could have. I wish we could have stayed for him, I wish we could have stayed for the family. I wish we could have stayed for us. But if I never have to eat in a fast food restaurant again, that will be just fine with me. If I never have to drive/ride 750 miles in one day again, that will be fine with me, too. Wish we lived closer to the beach. I'd walk along the ocean all day long!