Monday, March 31, 2008
in one of my bizarre fits of fat-paranoia today, i tried on my fiance's jeans. i was folding the laundry and they were sitting in the basket, just tempting me. he's a svelte 31-30, so i figured there's no way i'll ever actually fit in them. still, i couldn't resist.
i was right. there was no way those buggers were going to zip. but, to my shock and surprise i was able to pull them up over my hips. i lost five pounds this month. i think i'm an inch smaller around the waist (though i discovered it's really hard to measure yourself with any real sense of accuracy). the way i figure it, i'm maybe ten pounds away from being able to zip these bad boys up.
so i'm going to make this my new mini-goal. i want to be able to wear his jeans comfortably. not because they made my butt look REALLY good (better, i daresay, than my own jeans), but because i think that'll put me one step closer to fitting decently into a pair of skinny jeans. i've been wanting to sport a pair of those under these awesome calf boots i got in january, but i can't even bring myself to try a pair of them on for fear of what they'll look like on me. but now i think i know: when i'm thin enough to wear his pants, i'll be thin enough to pull off the jeans-in-the-boots look. i hope.
i also decided to start in on the infamous 'rewards' list. subject o future revisions, here goes:
150 - new dress. a cute one that i can wear out to dinner here in the city.
140 - massage! haven't had one since last summer in thailand, and it's time again.
130 - trip to the salon for a waxing. whatever hair i decide needs to go when i put on a bikini for the first time since my pre-teen years :P