Sunday, March 30, 2008
I got Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred on Thursday. I couldn't find my smaller weights so I started doing the level 1 workout with 10 lb weights - OMG!!!! I made it for 6 minutes and stopped. We bought some 3 lb and 5 lb weights and I did the whole workout yesterday. Not an easy workout. Some of the things I didn't do them all, especially the jumping jacks and jump rope, they hurt my ankle, but I did keep moving the whole time. After that I did some weeding, so I burned a ton of calories yesterday.
After that I set a goal of doing the DVD everyday and then getting to the gym at least Tuesday and Thursday nights and maybe some yoga Wednesday nights.
Today I was so sore. It was so hard to move, that was going to be my excuse to not do the dvd today. I went on google and researched and tried to find something that told me it was better to not work out when you are sore, then I went on the Jillian Micheal's site and read the message boards from others that are doing the dvd and they are all doing it every day and pushing through the soreness - that motivated me, so I did it. I'm still sore, but I was fine while I was doing the work out and I did better at it than yesterday and now that I'm done, I feel great. I feel accomplished and I'm so happy that I did it.
The other thing I have been trying is intuitive eating. It's tough and it scares me. I like the idea of eating what I want when I want and not having any off limits food. The principles are common sense, but it's still hard to get out of the diet mentality and feel ok with eating pizza and not being scared that I'm going to gain and not lose like I want to. But I also think about when I'm not losing, I eat what I want, nothing is off limits and I don't gain, but I'm also not working out - so maybe adding in the working out will help me lose without giving up the food I love.
It's just so hard because I have so much that I want to lose before the wedding, and from reading the book it says that you can't have losing weight be your focus, your focus should be how you feel and how it feels to be healthy - that's great and everything, but honestly my focus is how I'm going to look in my wedding dress right now. So, I'm not sure how well it's going to work. What I'm thinking right now is that I'm going to make 95% healthy choices, but if I want something specific I will have it, I'm not going to tell myself no. Nothing is off limits, but healthy is the priority. I'm gonna see how that goes. I don't want to tell myself for the rest of my life I can never have chocolate or I can never have ice cream or whatever, so I want to be able eat what I want without feeling guilty about it and without gaining weight, I know intuitive eating is the answer for that - so now if I can just get out of my diet mentality things would be great.
I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow and then not again until April 14th. Hopefully I will be down at least 6 lbs - I would be happy with more though.