For the past few weeks, I've been having an extremely difficult time staying motivated - let me re-phrase that FINDING MOTIVATION. (that's why I haven't been around many of the message boards or visiting my friends pages like I KNOW I should) :(
I wake up every morning with the best of intentions - but often once 3:00pm rolls around, I find a way to sabotage all of my efforts for that day. And once I board the train to SABOTAGE-VILLE, there's no turning back. And once I start binge snacking - all hope for the day is GONE!!!
I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I continued with the fitness plan I established for myself. But needless to say, I've disregarded that as well. Truthfully, I'm too ashamed to even document my exercise minutes in my fitness journal - or should I say the LACK OF exercise minutes. I think I've worked out a TOTAL of 60 minutes for the entire month of March.
And I don't have an excuse for WHY I haven't worked out this month. I have an apartment full of fitness equipment: a treadmill, elliptical machine, stair stepper, pilate's rebounder, an indoor trampoline, a stationary bike, a magic circle, free weights & resistance bands. ((You'd be surprised at how I found the space to fit all of that into a my modest 2 bedroom apartment :P)) The only explanation I have is my lack of inspiration/motivation
I really don't understand it - because I want this so badly. But for some reason, mentally I'm just not on board. I've resumed my late night snacking. (EXCEPT FOR TONIGHT!!! I'm taking any victory I can find.)
BUT - on a more positive note - the one thing I've tried to keep an eye on is my sodium intake. (some of my friends may know I'm borderline hypertensive) On my bad days I'm averaging approximately 3000mg of sodium - keeping in mind my range is 0 - 2300mg a day.
I suppose if you take into consideration that the average American consumes between 4,000 to 5,000 mg of sodium a day, I'm not doing to bad. BUT, due to my blood pressure concerns I'm not average - I'm someone that NEEDS to be more mindful of a lot of things.
I'm just prayerful that the motivation I need to get back on track hits me sooner than later :(
If you could send up a prayer for me- I'd really appreciate it, because right now I'm in dire need of a divine intervention.