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Am I the only one that feels this way?

Sunday, March 23, 2008

So I've always been the quiet/moderately shy type person. That's fine I've always got along well and no one ever really questioned it. No one has ever pushed me or tried to coax me to be anything else. But I've really tried to become a little more open towards people and be more outgoing. I feel I've made progress but I have a long way to go. Well anyway I'm rambling a bit so let me get to the point of my post tonight. Here it goes: I've never really had to deal with being the "center of attention" or have the spotlight on me. And everyday that passes I feel like more and more people are now paying attention to me. This makes me feel slightly nervous and scared because I'm just not used to all this attention. I've noticed lately that when people center their attention on me I try to sway their focus in a different direction. I really have no idea why I do it. Is it because I'm self conscious? Is it because I feel judged? Perhaps its both or really deep down I feel it's because I feel like I don't deserve it. I don't feel like I'm good enough for others to treat me as though I'm important.

This was just something that has been running through my head today and I just felt like I need to get my thoughts written down.
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    I used to be this way as well, and I still have my moments for sure. It got better when I went to college and better still when I started waiting tables. When I was super shy and self-conscious I ended up attracting needy and self-centered friends (I knew that I would never be in the spotlight as long as I was with them, they wouldn't allow it). I can't tell you how or when my shift in self occurred, but I know that it was something that I worked at. I forced myself into new situations and eventually got rid of the toxic people in my life. You have to learn to treat yourself as you would treat a friend (I will admit that it is way harder than it should be). I wish you much luck on your journey!
    3649 days ago
    I used to be the same way. Before I went to college and got super involved in a lot of organizations, I was really shy and self conscious. Even now I still occasionally shrink back into the limelight so that the spot light isn't fully on me.

    Somethings that helped me is realizing that people are really selfish, it's human nature. By saying this, I mean that people are more concerned with their own flaws than yours. We judge ourselves 100x harder than anyone else ever will. You have to view strangers as potential friends. I have met some of my best friends by being random and suddenly talking to them when I never had talked to them before. You never know if your future best friend is sitting beside you in class or waiting in line at a grocery store with you.

    On that note, never ever judge yourself out loud, it's true when they say people view you how you view yourself. If you feel uncomfortable or awkward or think your hair isn't right...don't mention it. More than likely the other people didn't notice until you said something.

    Just be positive and positive people will be attracted to you.

    Enjoy the spotlight!
    3650 days ago
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