Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Ever since my dad had his heartattack I haven't had the "spark" that I used to.. I used to be really good. And follow all the rules! Now my life is like blah.. And I still care. I want to stick to the diet.. I just have no motivation any more. I look at my motivation sheet.. All things which I desire. Yet that they don't really mean anything. I just don't have it any more. And that's making me depressed. My life used to be so full of the rules and I read all day long.. Now it's just full of food. Maybe comfort food.. Maybe I am emotionally eating. But whatever it is it SUCKS! haha. I just need some support. I need to pack a lunch if I go up to take care of my dad. . And I need to stay away from all temptations. And I need to see my goals clear again.. So, if you can, please help me.