I'm kind of sad.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Well, so far today I have done ok on what I have eaten. It has all been healthy, however I am really wanting some chips or chocolate from my kids' Valentine's candy that they got at school. I'm not hungry so I know I shouldn't eat it. I am also starting my period so I am sure that some of these things are from that. I always have cravings of some kind when it's that time of the month. I have changed my background to fruit & veggies to help me to see that & hope that it will motivate me to eat more of those throughout the day. I haven't been getting all of my servings per day in. I also changed my pictured of my kids to me closer to my weight now & me when I was in high school. I am hoping that those will also be better motivators for me than just looking at my kids. I can see them everyday & I don't see me in pictures everyday. I do see myself in the mirror but for some reason it isn't the same as me in pictures. I don't seem to look at fat in the mirror as in pictures. It's the strangest thing. I guess it is just my perception of myself the same as it would be if you have an eating disorder seeing a fat person in the mirror when you are really skinny & bony. So that's why I made the change. I haven't lost anymore weight over the last 2 weeks & I think that is because I am working out at the gym but haven't really increased my caloric intake & I am not getting my allotment of veggies & fruits for the day. It is really hard to do what I know needs to be done when everyone else in the house is eating whatever they want including the Valentine Candy & chips & dip & junk food all day. Oh well, that's life I suppose & something I am going to have to get use to because they aren't going to change.