So we are past a month, Scott won January's challenge. I may never actually win a challenge but I have lost 5 lbs. I feel like I am making progress, regardless of how slow.

I also seem to be facing some of the demons that are causing my depression and weight gain. I am feeling more like myself and less like a pathetic shadow of what I once was. You just watch, 6 months from now, I will be a force to be delt with again. (I hope.)

I have quit a job that I now see was not emotionally healthy for me. I am accepting that I need to sell my house, not only for the financial well being of my family, but for emotional as well.

I have approached my old boss and may be working on a project basis to help out, doing what I really was good at. And I am starting to believe in myself again.

I have a long way to go. I still haven't made a real sale through my new job, but I will. I am learning and I have to start pushing myself past my comfort zone. God has shown how amazing he really is when you ask for help rather than try to do it all on your own. My challenge is to continue leaning on Him, trusting that He will take care of me, my family and our future.

Thank you to all who have been encouraging me. Please continue, I need it and it really is helping. You will see it returned the more I return.