Thursday, July 24, 2014
Lifewalk has it ‘right’ when she says basically that if you are cooking at home, you can be aware of what serving amounts you are dishing out, “but away from home is more difficult.” So this Chapter's challenge is to take half of what you would normally eat. The example Linda Spangler gives is lasagna. You think of what your normal portion would be and then half it! This reminds me of eating at Panera’s or one of those places. They offer a combination half sandwich and half soup or salad. I like that a lot. It’s what I was referring to in an earlier post about wishing more restaurants would offer smaller portions for smaller amounts of money.
The half-off special worked at the buffet, but at the same time, it did not.
Good news: It worked in that I ate much less than I ever would have in that situation. I also appreciated the tastes more than usual although to be frank I have discovered something about me during this process. I 'hurry' through my food and always need a distraction generally that's TV but in this case it was chatting with fellow co-workers during the luncheon.
Closing the TV while I eat my dinner and putting my utensil down between bits has taught me so much. At first I was hurrying through it all to get back to the TV, but then I concentrated on each bite and something magical happened. I realized I was full with the portion I had given myself. This was unusual. How could this be? I usually went back for seconds or something else, but now that desire was diminishing.
Bad news: This lesson was 'after' my luncheon. So in this lesson it clearly states, “decide you won’t go back for seconds – ever.” Oh, boy. Apparently, going back indicates you are hooked the taste of the food rather than needing fuel for your body. Unfortunately I went back twice even though I took small amounts and also left food on my plate (which were learning lessons at or before that timeframe). Going back for seconds is what ran my calories up and if wasn't for the stationary bike exercise I did later, I would have been 'over' my calorie limit. Another thing learned: I thought chick peas had hardly any calories…turns out it did - big time! I can't wait till she gets to 'planning'...lol.
I need to ‘always’ look at my emotional needs as they forever plague me. The challenges for today are:
• Divide food items in half – with five of the foods (did breakfast)
• Record my foods in my journal revealing how it felt to leave those halves because generally my continual eating is a result of emotional issues which require my attention of what’s driving me to eat.
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
I have been down this road before so I am familiar with the lesson. Weight Watcher teaches this lesson v. well. I went ahead and guessed what a cup of cheerios is like. Then I put my guess cereal in a measuring cup. I actually ball parked lower than the actual cup size, but this is because I have been doing this for a while.
The correct serving of meat is the size of the palm of your hand. I used that today for the chicken we had. Then, Spangler mentions that the serving size of chips/nuts fit loosely in the palm of your hand.
Guess serving size of everything eaten today and then actually weigh and measure it before you eat it (been doing this since I read it a few days ago)
Journal the ideal serving size for those foods you eat most.
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
The idea of throwing food away is a mixed bag for me. I have no problems throwing food away, ‘unless’ it’s a matter of leftovers. THAT I find hard. Due to this economy and my money situation, I think it is smart to use leftovers as another meal. So many times, I just ate out and the word ‘leftovers’ was not in my vocabulary. Now it is and I like to make use of it although I don’t always do a good job as I end up throwing it out (cause I waited too long to eat it).
On the other hand, I think my real problem is throwing away food off my plate which is this Chapter’s topic. Since I have tried to retrain myself to put just what I need on the plate, I usually eat everything on my plate. During those times where I have put ‘more’ on my plate, I realize I have to readjust my brain to throw that portion away. I really like the idea to “stop giving food so much power that you can’t leave some of it behind” idea.
I have already mentioned on Day 17 that I was v. skinny and my mother made me eat everything for fear I would never gain. If she could only see me now…sigh…although she’d probably like it! The thing is I never had to train myself in anything regarding food because I ate whenever and whatever I wanted at any time. When I started to gain weight, it was near impossible to retrain myself. I didn't know where to start. My mother and sister had problems with weight and they didn't support my attempts to lose. Of course those attempts included such schemes as not eating but drinking liquid for a week. And, although I was young and did it, I put everything right back on because I had no skills to change things. Plus it did not help that I denied getting heavy. I remember a guy telling me I was gaining a little weight around my stomach and I just replied “oh, pa-lease!” I wouldn’t admit it. It took years of the scale telling me I was overweight before I would admit it in the mirror. I only saw my skinny self. Interestingly enough, my sister told me (as did others) that when she lost weight and looked really good, all she saw in the mirror was her 'heavy' self.
The idea of leaving one item, even the size of a pea, at a time, is a really good one. Now, of all things, I am going to a restaurant today to say ‘goodbye’ to my most favorite co-worker here. It is an Indian buffet. There is no ‘take out’. The idea that “restaurant meals are often higher in fat and calories’ and that when you take home the leftovers, they actually end of being “2 oversized meals.” I never thought of it that way. My fat side of the brain is already saying, “it’s okay to take more of chickpea’s cause, after all, it’s not ‘that’ many calories…” It is a never-ending battle.
My mantra’s before the restaurant:
STOP giving food so much power that I can't leave some of it behind.
MY WEIGHT AND MY HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN STUFFING MYSELF WITH THIS FOOD.
I am committed; not just interested.
I CAN DO IT!
The ‘Clean Your Plate’ mentality I had when I was growing up no longer applies to me!
Monday, July 21, 2014
Before I talk about this chapter, I have to say yesterday was a total bust. And with that I have good news and bad news:
Bad news: First time in 4 weeks, I blew it and went over my calorie level. Two days ago, my scale showed a 2 pound loss. Today it was a .2 gain. My first and usual instinct was to say "heck with this...all week day-by-day doing well and one day messes everything up. I quit!" But I want to break that habit of always quitting.
Good news: I am going to continue trying to lose weight which is a v. different experience for me. And to be honest, I don't know if this is a fleeitng moment of weight plan sobriety or not. Still, I plan to put yesterday out of my head and continue as if I was doing well. My scale may not tell me what I want, but my body is indicating loss.
I certainly am not losing fast, but I am going in the right direction. A couple of people said something to me that made me realize my striving for weight loss helps them too. Fortutiously, I read a blog today put out by "Meditations for Weight Loss" that I subscribe to. "Sometimes knowing the impact you're having as you lose weight can be the difference between sticking with your goals in the long run, and giving up when the going gets rough."
One more IMPORTANT thing: Rawcookie talked about Linda Spangle's declaration that one must make a commitment not to waste food by putting it in one's mouth. Spangle stated that, "If you can't do this, you'll probably continue to struggle with reaching your goals." What was important to me about this is my SP friend's response...'My negative head took it as 'well, if you can't do this lesson, you might as well give up now! But, of course, I can see it doesn't mean that at all. That 'fat person' inside us tries to trick us into giving up, giving in, using devious mind games to let us know that 'you'll never be slim - you might as well give up now - now give me the cookies! Brat!' Rawcookie intuitive remarks spoke for me when she said this - except that I'd change the cookies to brownies...lol
I loved it. I explained earlier that my mom always made me eat everything on the plate. I was so skinny that my uncle said in jest that if I turned sideways, you couldn't see me. Kids in grade school made fun of me for it. So I know my mother was worried about me. If she had known about genes, she might have realized she need not have been. But she did and it did me a great disservice because I rarely leave anything on the plate even as an adult.
Spangle says that we need to retrain ourselves because overeating doesn't satisfy nor does it make us feel better in the long run. "With a little effort, you can train yourself to feel better after eating only a small amount of nuturing food."
The task is to:
throw some food away (done)
journal about throwing the food away and how you'll manage leftover food in the future
(took 2 hours to get up nerve to throw out delicious spaghetti)
journal about how to manage not having excess food in the house (not sure what this means)
100 Days of Weight Loss and Friends with the Scale by Linda Spangle
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