Friday, April 27, 2007
I over-did the pizza last night. I planned to have 6 slices, but I ended up eating all 8 and 2 dips. So I deserve the gain! Hoping some of it is just water from all the sodium though-I totalled 2450 calories, which shouldn't be enough to make me gain 1.25 pounds.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
I'M BACK IN THE 140s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so happy and excited. It's been a while and it's great to be able to say I DON'T WEIGH OVER 150 POUNDS!!!
In 0.5 pounds, I can book my reward haircut too-12 days before my target date!
149 is significant in a lot of ways for me-when I first dieted, it was the weight I couldn't get below-for ages, it was my lowest adult weight. It is also the top end of my normal BMI range, so I am almost normal now!
The next big aim is 144 pounds by my birthday (20th May). it would be great to see that because 146 was my boundary last year-I would drop below for a few days, then gain again. It would be so satisfying to be able to stay under 146 for any period of time. For that target, I am going to reward myself with a manicure or an aromatherapy massage.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
And so it continues! another loss. Sorry, is that 1.75 IN A DAY?! I just, bah, I have no explanations any more. But, I like the fact I am losing. My photos don't look any slimmer though, but I do feel like my stomach is flatter.
I went to my first karate session in 3 weeks tonight and it half killed me. My muscles hurt, I'm not sure I'm awake and my arms definately won't be working tomorrow, but I feel so good. I really needed it. We did pressups with someone pushing on our back and situps with someone pushing our shoulders down-it's hard!
I had pizza for dinner tonight, but only a microwave one. And I had a cereal bar on the way home from karate, instead of buying chocolate or ice cream, so I am quite proud of that.
I may even look good in my bikini in the Dominican Republic at this rate!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
That's a whole lot of crazy. But I am now using my scales at uni, not my mum's scales at home and mine weigh at about a pound less, so maybe I am actually 152.75, or maybe my scales are right. Either way, that's probably 5.25 pounds lost this week, not 6.25. But, it's still a lot and 0.75 pounds since yesterday.
It seems by body wasn't slowing down as I thought it was. On the up side, losing so much so quick, i really can see and feel the difference-my stomach feels so flat. Though, getting down to 140 would make it flatter. But on the down side-why on earth is the weight dropping so quickly? Maybe I have worms-wow, I hope not. Or maybe I'm burning stupid amounts of nervous energy from revision. Or maybe I am sleep walking-which I've never done, si I doubt it.
Or maybe this is just my body getting used to the reduced calories and next week it will slow down. Who knows. All I know is I am eating a healthy number of calories and still haven't really exercised, but my weight is dropping like crazy. I will seriously consider seeing the doctor if it continues next week though because 10 pounds lost in 2 weeks would be very very odd and rather unsafe.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Today has been emotionally exhasuting for me. But I have managed to stay in range-1339 calories. I am eating porridge right now because there is nothing else to eat and then I am going to bed. No exercise, but I did drive for 5 hours, so that's not suprising. To exaplain the emotional part, I am just going to copy a message board post:
I wasn't going to come back to uni for another 2 weeks, but this morning, I went slightly insane from being totally alone at home most of the time (and my mum and I don't speak when she is there), so after hitting the wall, crying my eyes out and breaking my favourite bracelet, I packed up and came back to uni.
I tried multiple times to call dolby and tell him I was coming back, but eventually managed to get through at a service station 1 hour from uni. I asked if he was going out tonight and he said no. He has just gone out. But the build up to this was that he said he was 'going out with Will'. It actually turns out he is going out with Will, another guy and 2 girls. One of whom, he doesn't know. It isn't a special occassion or anything, just them going out for a bit of fun. I asked if there was any chance I could go along with him, and he said no. I tried and tried to find out why and he wouldn't tell me. I said that as far as I could see, it was 1 of 2 things-he doesn't feel he can be himself when I am around or he doesn't think I enjoy going out. The priblem is, the more he goes out and has fun without me, the more he is going to associate having fun with me not being there and doing not much around the house with me.
This is by far not the first time I haven't been welcome when he goes out. I can understand with his rugby team or a group of guys, but this is a mixed group of people, 1 of whom he doesn't even know, going for drinks, music and general fun for no particular purpose.
It's just added to the feelings of loneliness. I don't feel i can call anyone and aks to go and chat cos it's already 9:40 and it seems a bit late to suddenly tell people I need someone to talk to.
I feel like such an idiot-coming back to uni cos I was lonely and upset, just to be lonely and upset here.
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