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Saturday, December 20, 2008

How do you show your individuality?

Voices screaming for originality surround us in today's culture. Problem is, most originality is happening just on the surface level, and is usually not original at all. People are so "original" now that tattoos--once symbols of rebellion and individual freedom--are now a tool of conformity. Sometimes, you can adopt someone else's value system without knowing it. When that happens, you dilute the one thing you have complete control over: your unique self. People who are truly individuals are ones who are true to themselves. They are self-made people, not composites of borrowed personalities and values. They created their own value system and gain strength by living within that system. These are the people who do more than shock; they leave long-lasting impressions.


self love...

Friday, December 12, 2008

i am down nearly 15 pounds
since i started
and this morning after i took
my shower i decided
to put lotion on my legs.
something that i seldom
take time to do...
it was all i could do to hoist
my foot up on the toilet seat and
as i looked down at my ugly foot
and my "not quite so swollen" leg
i started to cry as i rubbed in the lotion.
i realized that i have been disgusted
by myself.
that i am kinder to strangers than
i am to myself...
i was sobbing by the time i was
finished with both legs and i decided
that i am going to start
saying and thinking nicer things
to myself.

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CANUCKGIRL_EH 12/12/2008 12:53PM

    I love your blog you are so right we are often kinder to strangers than ourselves. we have to stop thinking that we are being selfish if we do something kind for ourselves. your blog is a great reminder that we should treat ourselves with kindness and respect like we would others.
thanks for sharing

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TEXASCHEIBEL 12/12/2008 8:34AM

    I love the honesty of your poem. Some days are better than others on this journey. It's about baby steps, one foot in front of the other, ever forward. I am glad you found my post inspirational. I saw it this morning it reminded me to stop focusing on the negative!! Glad to have you as a sparkfriend!

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The Diary of a Snow Shoveler

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

December 8
6:00 PM. It started to snow. The first snow of the season and the wife and I took our cocktails and sat for hours by the window watching the huge soft flakes drift down from heaven. It looked like a Grandma Moses Print. So romantic we felt like newlyweds again. I love snow!

December 9
We woke to a beautiful blanket of crystal white snow covering every inch of the landscape. What a fantastic sight! Can there be a more lovely place in the Whole World? Moving here was the best idea I've ever had. Shoveled for the first time in years and felt like a boy again. I did both our driveway and the sidewalks. This afternoon the snowplow came along and covered up the sidewalks and closed in the driveway, so I got to shovel again. What a perfect life.

December 12
The sun has melted all our lovely snow. Such a disappointment. My neighbor tells me not to worry, we'll definitely have a white Christmas. No snow on Christmas would be awful! Bob says we'll have so much snow by the end of winter, that I'll never want to see snow again. I don't think that's possible. Bob is such a nice man, I'm glad he's our neighbor.

December 14
Snow lovely snow! 8" last night. The temperature dropped to -20. The cold makes everything sparkle so. The wind took my breath away, but I warmed up by shoveling the driveway and sidewalks. This is the life!

The snowplow came back this afternoon and buried everything again. I didn't realize I would have to do quite this much shoveling, but I'll certainly get back in shape this way.

December 15
20 inches forecast. Sold my van and bought a 4x4 Blazer. Bought snow tires for the wife's car and 2 extra shovels. Stocked the freezer.

The wife wants a wood stove in case the electricity goes out. I think that's silly. We aren't in Alaska, after all.

December 16
Ice storm this morning. Fell on my butt on the ice in the driveway putting down salt. Hurt like heck. The wife laughed for one hour, which I think was very cruel.

December 17
Still way below freezing. Roads are too icy to go anywhere.

Electricity was off for 5 hours. I had to pile the blankets on to stay warm. Nothing to do but stare at the wife and try not to irritate her. Guess I should've bought a wood stove, but won't admit it to her. God I hate it when she's right. I can't believe I'm freezing to death in my own living room.

December 20
Electricity's back on, but had another 14" of the damn stuff last night. More shoveling. Took all day. Darn snowplow came by twice.

Tried to find a neighbor kid to shovel, but they said they're too busy playing hockey. I think they're lying. Called the only hardware store around to see about buying a snow blower and they're out. Might have another shipment in March. I think they're lying. Bob says I have to shovel or the city will have it done and bill me. I think he's lying.

December 22
Bob was right about a white Christmas because 13 more inches of the white crap fell today, and it's so cold it probably won't melt till August. Took me 45 minutes to get all dressed up to go out to shovel and then I had to poop. By the time I got undressed, pooped and dressed again, I was too tired to shovel. Tried to hire Bob who has a plow on his truck for the rest of the winter; but he says he's too busy. I think the jerk is lying.

December 23
Only 2" of snow today. And it warmed up to 0. The wife wanted me to decorate the front of the house this morning. What is she nuts!!! Why didn't she tell me to do that a month ago? She says she did but I think she's lying.

December 24
6". Snow packed so hard by snowplow, I broke the shovel. Thought I was having a heart attack. If I ever catch the man who drives that snowplow I'll drag him through the snow by his nose and beat him to death with my broken shovel. I know he hides around the corner and waits for me to finish shoveling and then he comes down the street at 100 miles an hour and throws snow all over where I've just been!

Tonight the wife wanted me to sing Christmas carols with her and open our presents, but I was too busy watching for the snowplow.

December 25
Merry -bleeping- Christmas! 20 more inches of the slop tonight. Snowed in. The idea of shoveling makes my blood boil. I hate the snow! Then the snowplow driver came by asking for a donation and I hit him over the head with my shovel. The wife says I have a bad attitude. I think she's a fricking idiot. If I have to watch "It's A Wonderful Life" one more time, I'm going to stuff her into the microwave.

December 26
Still snowed in. Why the heck did I ever move here? It was all HER idea. She's really getting on my nerves.

December 27
Temperature dropped to -30 and the pipes froze, plumber came after 14 hours of waiting for him, he only charged me $1400 to replace all my pipes.

December 28
Warmed up to above -20. Still snowed in. THE WITCH is driving me crazy!!!

December 29
10 more inches. Bob says I have to shovel the roof or it could cave in. That's the silliest thing I ever heard. How dumb does he think I am?

December 30
Roof caved in. I beat up the snow plow driver he is now suing me for a million dollars not only the beating I gave him but also for trying to shove the broken snow shovel up where the sun don't shine. The wife went home to her mother. 9" predicted.

December 31
I set fire to what's left of the house. No more shoveling.

January 8
Feel so good. I just love those little white pills they keep giving me. Why am I tied to the bed?

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WASCALLYWONE 12/10/2008 9:30AM

    LOVE THIS!! Here in the Frozen North, we can SO relate! Thanks for sharing. (Cute potatoman.) emoticon

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9 Dec 08

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

it is all about improving my health...
every thing that i can do to become healthy
is my "mission"
i am down a little over 10 pounds
in less than a week, mostly water
but heck
that is painful when it is under your skin
and going every where with you.
i am not sure why i have been on such
a destructive path...
almost like digging my grave with my spoon
who know why we do what we do...
all i know is
i can fix me
it is not too late
life sucks sometimes
but i have ALOT
to be thankful for.
yesterday was a good day
i am thankful that
i have today and hopefully
tomorrow to heal myself.
little steps add up
not to mention the nice feeling
that making good choices brings
i am thankful that
being a member here
doesn't cost anything.
today will be a great day :)

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PAM1968 12/9/2008 7:04PM

    Loved the blog and the pic! Congrats on losing the 10 lbs!! Something you said really struck me "almost like digging my grave with my spoon"! Wow! That is how I feel!! But you are so right...it is NOT too late!! We CAN change this...one day at a time!

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6 Dec 08

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Outside the snow is falling
and friends are calling You Who
We'll bundle up together
like birds of a feather....
and I never remember the rest...
This is day #3
I thought I messed up yesterday
but I decided to "log" the 3 oatmeal
cookies that I ate and I ended up
with 100 calories left over !!!
We got a new toaster oven for
Christ mas from Jenny and family
and Gary picked it up from Walmart.
It is a Sanyo convection digital oven
and it seems really cool !!!
We have never had a toaster oven
in the 33 years we are together !!!
I made a piece of toast ( 70 cals )
and I reheated 5 McNuggets ( 266 cals )
and 24 grams of McD's french fries
( I forgot the cals on those )
I was only down 2 tenths of a pound
probably from the salt but
GOSH that toaster oven is FUN !!!
Now I need to find some neaty cool
recipes here to use it with :)
Sewing today, I need to make a
pattern from Mandy's old ( favorite )
winter coat so that I can make her
a new one .

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KNAUGHT61 12/6/2008 10:36AM

    Sounds like a cool oven. I have heard you can make great cookies in a convection oven. Good luck with your Spark goals and have a great weekend! Kathleen

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