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mental notes

Monday, August 15, 2011

And I mean mental as in...I'm going mental(ly crazy).

I've had cramps for TWO DAYS. I never ever get cramps like this! I've been waddling around swaybacked, as if pregnant again. Could be due to not taking my usual supplements (? b6, fish oil, etc.) or too much salt Chez Parents or whut??? Hasn't been this bad in ages. I told DH I'm going to call Roto-Rooter.

So....feeling like a stuck pig, and want to move on from this. Trying to figure out how to get *back* into the positive frame of mind I had fleetingly over the past few weeks. It's hard to see the positive when I get back into the rut of school drives, tedious chores, no money coming in, etc.

When I was swimming a lot, just being in the moment, what came to me when I asked, "WHAT DO I DO?" was, "THINK BIG". And I replied, "WHAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN, UNIVERSE?"


Thus, my goal this week is to 1) Think outside the box, 2) Make a PLAN that starts 8/22 (first day of school!) and 3) address some of my own issues outside of family issues. I need to THINK (but not overthink) and make some changes to get out of this rut.

My favorite, simple thing to do to get out of a rut is to be more spontaneous and to just do something out of mode. Drive a different route to your usual destination, listen to a different radio program, part your hair on the opposite side, get up an hour earlier, have breakfast for dinner....WHATEVER.

Toss your life up in the air and see where it lands.


revenge fantasies

Friday, August 12, 2011

Tonight I'm hurting for my husband, who worked for over a decade in an office that was like family to him, only to be thrown under the bus.

Please post your revenge fantasies, be it ex-lovers, ex-employers, ex-landlords, etc. I don't care. And it's not karmic-ly copacetic.

I just need to feel better and vent vicariously. And, if I can vent via everyone else, I won't incur any karmic debt, right? (must stop thinking how to get ostrich eggs and dead fish down someone's chimney w/out getting caught!)


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MEADSBAY 8/16/2011 4:22PM

    We are all just too nice, arent' we?
I just heard about a friend's hubby, 56, who has been laid off after 31 years- with no timeframe for coming back at all. He is SO not the retiring early type, either.
These are some sad times.

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JANEDOE12345 8/12/2011 3:01PM

    Not to be a goody-two-shoes, but I never have revenge fantasies. I have victory fantasies, where I ride triumphantly into town (or my job or the car mechanic or the post office), somewhat Hollywood-Egyptian in tone.

I am riding an elephant all tricked out like in the movies, waving small hellos to the adoring lesser folk, while trumpets play and the air is filled with the beating of angel wings, who are poised mid-flight in the sky awaiting my command.

I suppose I could take a second to whip lightning bolts at miscreants who have not shown proper respect. So I will aim a few at DH's employers on your behalf, if you so desire.

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FARAWAY01 8/12/2011 1:09PM

    Or fish bones/shells in their curtain rods, subscribing tons of magazines to their address, removing them from the 'do not call/mail' list, eggs on their car sitting in the sun (have you ever tried to clean that???), winning the lottery so you can be as sarcastic as you want at work. I could go on and on! Yes, I have rage issues, but I'm in touch with them. I can dream, can't I? LOL

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THE_JENCH 8/12/2011 12:42AM

    I've been sitting here a minute, thinking... I don't have any! All I can think of is how I just want to excel at what I'm doing and let anyone who has doubted me essentially eat my dirt!
I'm the first on here... no doubt someone will have something devious to post!

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THE_JENCH 8/12/2011 12:42AM

    I've been sitting here a minute, thinking... I don't have any! All I can think of is how I just want to excel at what I'm doing and let anyone who has doubted me essentially eat my dirt!
I'm the first on here... no doubt someone will have something devious to post!

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DO4FIT 8/12/2011 12:41AM

  okay, laughed out loud about the ostrich eggs and dead fish! Karma always wins. So if your DH got thrown under the bus then I am sure the doers will get what they deserve, actually I have no doubts.. I've seen it time and time again.

there is the old... I ran into my ex the other day... then I got into reverse and hit him again.. HAHA.

I truly wish you guys good karma, no one needs the bad stuff, and I hope you can work through it and end up in a better and stronger place in the end! Best of luck

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THE_JENCH 8/12/2011 12:40AM

    I've been sitting here a minute, thinking... I don't have any! All I can think of is how I just want to excel at what I'm doing and let anyone who has doubted me essentially eat my dirt!
I'm the first on here... no doubt someone will have something devious to post!

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PINKHOPE 8/12/2011 12:38AM

    Ostrich eggs? Grin - now that's a new revenge on me!

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major life changes

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Three things weighing on me today, that I want to cast out of my mind, so I may sleep more lightly (and wake to tread more lightly on the scale!):

1) Husband is still looking for work. Lots of interviews, some missteps, no money coming in. Oy.

2) One of my oldest friends (for 36 years!) met someone through a dating site, and he proposed to her after 2 months of dating. He's been divorced for 8 months. Um.....my head is saying NO NO NO! Something just isn't right, and she hasn't talked girlfriend-to-girlfriend with me AT ALL. Weird. When she texted (yep, not even an email or call) that he'd given her a ring last night, I really didn't know what to say that wasn't alarming! So I just texted back: Congrats!

3) My Mom confided in me that they may be moving into an assisted-living place in the Spring. They've had a place in mind for a while, but both of my parents are fairly active, so I thought....way off in the future. My dad has had a few heart issues, though, and may be getting a pace maker. Surprisingly, he is the one pushing for moving in sooner, rather than later. It wasn't so bad discussing it with my mom, though, because we joked about how much crap my parents have and yard sales and such. And stabbing relatives to get what you want. (Her sister swiped a lot of my Grandma's stuff when no one was around.)

Anyway! Too much to process in one day, so I'm sending it out on virtual prayer flags to the Universe.

Good night!

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MEADSBAY 8/12/2011 8:52PM

    Geez- she's your friend of 36 years- you've gotta speak up- just say 'You know I love you but you're making me nervous moving so fast- what's the hurry?' or some such.
Best wishes to dh on hos job search.


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JANEDOE12345 8/11/2011 10:05AM

    the girlfriend situation is just wrong. what is the guy's deal? just out of prison? i understand loneliness, but it is better to be alone than to wish you were. I hope she communicates more with oyu, perhaps you can make a little meow for sanity.

parents moving = whatever they want except what about vacations at their place, which you may miss.

DH's job is one you cannot fix, the kind of issue that I would need help with. The frustration would be unbearable for me and I would stalk into the office of any available therapist and commence sobbing...but that is me. You seem to made of firmer material, fortunately, and he probably relies on your stability.

I hope a job comes along asap although it will likely take time. Heck, my son with the fancy phd is out there, too. No jobs to be had. They both need a big old bag of good luck.


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BIZBYPEARL 8/11/2011 12:28AM

    Well, first of all, you're completely right to be alarmed about your friend! Divorce makes people nuts and they don't get sane for a couple of years. Ask me, I know. And not just me, but, really, I've observed this a LOT, from both men and women. You're her friend of 36 years...that's amazing. It's very interesting that she's only texting. She may have her own red flags and doesn't want them brought to her consciousness...tricky. What will you do?
Assisted living - my Dad and his wifelet moved into one of those places. It was great, much to my surprise. They didn't need any assistance, but liked not having to cook, etc... (and by the way, your mom's sister and my sister obviously went to the same school of Stuff Acquisition...)
I hope the job situation solves itself nice and soon. Major stressor (like you need me to tell you that). It will work out in a great way!
And I hope you're having sweet, wonderful dreams ~
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ROCHELLE62 8/11/2011 12:28AM

    seems like a lot of uncertainty. I'm thinking that would case me a bit of stress.

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Heat Madness

Thursday, August 04, 2011

A friend forwarded this article from Slate to me. I think it's true!

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BIZBYPEARL 8/9/2011 12:32PM

    Oh, yeah. I have a friend who lives in Tennessee - he unofficially tracks the heat-rage connection just out in the community. Makes people crazy.
Me, I just go inert. Thank God I like movies lol (no one has air-conditioning here, so the movie theaters make serious money when there's a heat wave).
Hang in there.

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2 Good Things About the Heat

Monday, August 01, 2011

I can think of a gazillion things that are terrible about this Summer, many due to the incessant high temps and lack of water.

But I actually thought of two GOOD things heat-related:
1) my appetite is actually suppressed, and
2) NO MOSQUITOES. I can't believe it, but it seems to be the case.

OK, off to bed. DH's first day tomorrow. Hello, new Life! emoticon

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MEADSBAY 8/12/2011 8:54PM

    We have had NO mosquitoes in RI this summer, too- I cannot aver remember a summer without those pesky little thangs.
It's sorta nice.


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JANEDOE12345 8/1/2011 11:43PM

    best of luck as the page turns bringing you into a new chapter.

emoticon on contracting job. this may give him a freedom that he can enjoy his autonomy.

emoticon Yay for your family

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