Saturday, April 05, 2014
How the heck has it been 44 days since I last logged in?! Oh my god.
Things have been crazy - I'm not even sure where to start. I've been working hard at college to get good grades. I've dealt with a few sexist remarks but they seem to be more out of ignorance than true sexism. I'm one of the top in my class. I've also been executing some personal projects at the campus - including creating course related events and having rep's from companies in so we can get free product. I installed my first toilet!
Every day I'm in contact with potential employers - I've been trying hard to get my name and face out there which means a lot of job-shadowing and ride-along's, and interviews and on-site meetings with journeymen. I've got three potential employers right now and the DND; I've been hired on by two of them but its still only a trial period. This is HUGE, by the way. To put this into perspective... from what I understand, most students are still only typing up their resumes.
I have final semester exams coming up starting this week and I'm trying to wrap up my final project of the semester - getting everyone some tools at a discount from a local supplier that I've built a reputation with.
SO NEEDLESS TO SAY! it has been busy!
I've been working out, but not tracking it. I wish it was more but I do what I can. I'm also focusing on building muscle rather than losing weight. I've kind of been trying to accept that I'm never going to look like what I want to look like - not because I cannot reach my goals but because they're just not realistic. I'm not built like a model and I will never function like one - therefore I will never look like one. That skinny, frail, perfectly tanned and toned woman that I've always idealized as being the ultimate goal isn't the ultimate goal after all.
^ No matter how hard I wish, I'm just not built like Paulina Gretzky
I also have not lost anymore weight - actually not in a while. Not sure I've plateau'd, but maybe my body just doesn't want to go any lower. I've never been skinny so I'm not sure my body knows what to do at a low weight. When I get below 150, I'm uncomfortable - constantly hungry, moody, grumpy. I'm pretty steady at 151-152. As long as I can hold here for now, I'm ok with that. Especially while I'm trying to build muscle mass.
I miss you guys and look forward to catching up. Cheers to the future.
P.S. I downloaded the C25K app today for my phone - my first app ever! - and look forward to getting back into running for the season. t-minus 3.5 months until mud hero 2014!