Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Don't look Ethel, LOL!
Anybody else think of that song when they hear someone mention a streak, or am I the only one this old around here, LOL? It cracks me up every time I hear it!
All kidding aside, I think about streaking (the clothes on kind) A LOT.
I've always been aware of the Spark 'streak' blah blah blah philosophy, but I was too preoccupied putting out any number of other fires to give it much thought.
I started thinking about it seriously right about here:
DAY 300: Prepare for Glory!
That anyone could actually really truly manage a 300 day exercise streak was to me nothing short of miraculous... not possible for a mere mortal like me.
...And then Shelley drew me in... because she's not miraculous at all... and I started paying attention.
Shelley's not all that different from me, actually... she is a mom, with weight to eliminate, with a really cool kid (and some guinea pigs, and a dog), and a job, and a family to care for, with ups and downs and demands and disappointments and challenges and hurdles... pretty ordinary on the face of it all (like Clark Kent)... yet she is as different from me as night is from day in one very crucial respect: she's figured out how to live her truth, desire, dreams, and best self NO.MATTER.WHAT.
In this critical respect Shelley has managed to work her way into SuperHero status. LOOK!
Shelley - MOSTMOM1
Day 1000 (with a little help from my friends)
Shelley has maintained a just over THREE YEAR daily intentional exercise streak!
...and I cannot blah blah blah my way around this idea any longer.
The whole streak thing has been drilling down on my heart since January... and truth be told, I feel like a SparkFraud in some respects because, even though I have achieved some success and I can clearly recognize the value in streaking, I can't personally claim a steak of any kind... well, except being pretty consistent about being HERE for six years now, and never giving up.
Another SPARKling told me today that she thinks I rock because I do so many things right, and suggested that perhaps all I really need with regard to accountability is to begin documenting what I am already doing. Hmmm....
While I may 'rock in so many ways' (sometimes even in the corner under a blanket, LOL), consistent intentional daily EXERCISE, and getting on top of the clutter/mess in my house, continues to defeat me (I am a FlyBaby wannabee www.flylady.net/
, and I struggle with CHAOS).
The wheels fell off of my life with regard to these things some time ago when our house flooded, and I just cannot seem to get traction under me again.
(I don't even recognize my house anymore, and it is a burden on my heart unlike any I've ever had)
If I had to put my accountability needs into specific words...
(even this is hard to do... there is something about getting very specific and focused that terrifies me... likely because this challenges and puts to the test some very real and negative core beliefs I hold about myself... and what if I find out they are actually true?):
...I want to:
#1. Do my 5-minute rebounder routine, plus at least 5 minutes of other intentional exercise, Monday through Friday
#2. Do my 'Bring Sally Up' routine for 20 minutes, every second day: Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday.
#3. Engage in a family physical activity (walk, bike ride, other) twice a week at least... but absolutely for sure on Sunday
#4. De-clutter for 15 minutes, twice a day, Monday through Friday
(right after breakfast, and right after supper)... once things are under control again, this will likely become once a day while the rest of the family is clearing away supper, doing dishes and packing lunches.
#5. Tackle one big cleaning/fixing/organizing job a day, for two hours, Monday through Friday, until my house/yard is back to where it was before we flooded FIVE YEARS ago (I'll need to make a comprehensive list)
#6. Getting out of bed at 6:00 AM... and staying OUT, LOL!
To quote another SPARKLING: "I have started by making it a priority to get up 30 minutes early and do something anything as long as when the alarm went off I got out of bed." JOJOSLIVIN
(as you can see, knowing HOW to do these things is not my problem)
UGH! Just writing out this list out gives me the heebie jeebies.
My SPARKling friend's point that, "it might be a simple matter of documenting what you are already doing" is well taken.
I do all of this (or at least something similar... and so much more) many days, but I am NOT in any way consistent, so my effort doesn't really show at all, and I can't get any life-changing momentum going.
Additionally, my on-going issues with the idea that if I can't do all I want to do, I just don't start, remains my central battle in this process of creating the me, and the life, I want.
Looking at the list in black and white (now also in order of importance to me), I now realize that I can't start all of this at once, or I'll fail the first day out (I think I can begin #1 & #4 simultaneously... but I'm going to start with #5 immediately and see how that goes).
I'm going to have to tackle my potential streak components in a 'build on my success' sort of way (another Spark blah blah blah, LOL)... focus on one habit at a time, and when it's solidly in place (2 weeks, perhaps?), add/focus on the next one, until I'm doing it all, as planned, consistently, and for as long as it takes (daily intentional exercise and daily de-cluttering are forever deals).
If I could be doing these five things consistently by September 1st, I'd be so excited and grateful.
Sound good? Crazy? See any loopholes?
Maybe I just need to be more public about this in general (time to stop being ashamed/overwhelmed and be courageous and bold and proactive).
Okay... just entertaining the idea of streaks and accountability, and me going through the process of writing this all out, has lit a fire under my butt... I just now went and took BEFORE pictures (80 of them!) of every room in my house, and of the things I desire to be different!
You see! I think about this A LOT... I just never buckle down and DO IT.
Back in January, I even purchased a stack of rainbow coloured note paper (like Shelley's!) upon which to record my days.
As I type this I have a snazzy planner heading my way to facilitate turning my desire into a rock solid plan (I buy a planner of some sort every September, and use it to varying degrees... this one seem well-designed for my current purposes).
I'm even toying with some checks and balances (accountability partner, rewards) to shore up the cracks in my burgeoning resolve.
Finally, while I'm getting myself organized to finally do this streaking thing, I'm going to blog in greater detail about some of the things that have come up for me as I've contemplated this in detail today:
why I think even attempting a streak is important
the burden of shame
some very real and negative core beliefs I hold about myself... and what if I find out they are actually true?
why each of my streak components are important to me
"Being lazy is reactionary to being fearful of change." Hmmm...
whatever else comes up
...and speaking of 'whatever else' I'd really appreciate some well-considered feedback.
This is my blind spot... I need the eyes of others to help me see myself and this process clearly. The rah rah stuff and pats on the back feel really good, but they don't help me grow in ways I must to realize my goals and intentions.
So how about it? Can you help me get to where I need to go?
...Because CONSISTENCY & ACCOUNTABILITY are the glue that holds your goals and dreams together!
So, JUST DO IT.
UNTIL. (My 'Just Do It' blog)
'BEFORE' Pictures (May 31, 2009 - September, 2011) & Continuing PROGRESS (February 2012)! Next pictures April 2014!
(I'm now keeping these right under my nose... in addition to being part of every blog I post, they are printed off and taped to my bedroom mirror... and I update whenever I feel the need... to either see for myself what feel like significant changes, or to encourage myself to keep the faith when I feel no change at all despite my efforts)
Measurements, Musings & Motivation to MOVE!
(UPDATED/rewritten: JUNE, 2012)
I've Reached My Goal Weight!!!!!!!
NOTE: My weight tracker is NOT a truthful representation of my weight. Instead, I am using it as a tool to help me visualize my goal as though it's already been achieved!
DONE Girl Love...
(the footsteps into which I place my own feet)
Why I'm STILL here... my SparkJourney Saga
Words CAN Be Enough... page 4
Paleo... Do you really know what you're talking about?
In Answer to Your Questions (Letter to Our Family Regarding Our Nutritional Plan: RESEARCH LINKS)
Comparison Chart: Primal/Paleo/Ancestral, etc.
What Does It Mean to Be Fat Adapted?
What Does It Mean to Be Fat Adapted? (Part 2)
Gender Differences in Fat Metabolism
Motivation Is Out, Mindfulness Is In – Why Motivation Doesn’t Make Lasting Changes
5 Emotional Roadblocks That Are Keeping You Fat
The Myth of Loose Skin