Tuesday, July 31, 2012
I have been working so hard over the last few months at not being stressed out.
My beau lost his job yesterday and I am not dealing very well right now.
My son lost his job a couple weeks ago and should be starting a new job this week, but we are going to have to help him out with his rent that is due...oh, tomorrow. Our rent is ok to wait until Friday. Our room mate only pays her share when she feels like it. She has been with us for a few months and only paid us about 300.00....150 of that we had lent to her to pay her storage locker fees when she first moved in.
I KNOW he will get a job soon, but the panic is still here. I can't figure out whether I feel like eating, over eating, or under eating. Stress does that to me.
I only hope that my work day goes smoothly and I can work off some of the panic energy at the pool tonight without hurting anything else.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
I just had a thought...maybe my actual knee isn't the problem, even though that's where it hurts.
My beau has extreme and constant pain over his shoulder and down his arm....after a couple of years of misdiagnosis' we found out that he has cervical spinal stenosis and we are to the point now of waiting for surgery for him to correct this....its the nerves that begin in his neck/spinal column, that are being pinched and causing the pain that actually hits in his arm.
When I got up this morning, my back was sore....I have bulging disc in between L4-L5 and L5-S1....I also have a lot of trouble with my sciatic nerve....that begins there and where does it run? From my behind, down my legs! That stupid nerve runs right behind the knee!
Of course I will wait to be sure of what the xrays and stuff say when I go to the doctor again, but if they don't turn up anything definite, I will bring up the problem with my sciatic and see what he thinks about that.
In the meantime, I can work on my back issues and get the right stretches done for that problem and if nothing else, I can get some relief there!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Walked a mile in the pool in the 4 ft section, lol, I can do a mile outside in about 20 minutes...in the pool it took an hour and 15 minutes!
My knee is ok I think, its been sore all day and now its tired too, but I haven't got that sharp pain that I had before.
Wonder if I burned that more calories. Tomorrow is a walk outside since the gym is closed and maybe whippin some tail on horseshoes on the kinect...
Enjoy your weekend and the Olympics, if you are watching them!
Friday, July 27, 2012
I haven't been sleeping well this week and with worrying and dealing with my knee and being in some pain, all the stuff going on at work....when I got home from work tonight, I made a bad decision followed by a worse one.
I had planned on taking our gym account off hold today and hitting the pool this evening, but I forgot that the gym closes at 6 on Fridays and we don't get off until 6.
We had a big storm that came through late this afternoon and the stoplights were out right at 5pm so traffic was a nightmare, it took probably 20 minutes to get home instead of the usual 5 minutes. By the time we got home and I put up the little bit of groceries that I bought before collecting my beau from work, it just hit me.
I'm tired of not sleeping.
I'm tired of feeling like I have to babysit myself all the time.
Sometimes I wish I could just be a normal person.
I am worn out from end of the month stuff at work along with the stress of our company being broken up and sold and hopefully still having a job after August 20.
I am tired of babying my knee and I am tired of this pity party I have been wallowing in all day.
Bad decision....giving in to being worn out and tired.
Worse decision....ordering pizza after feeling extra hungry today AND forgetting to specify thin crust.
Worst decision....letting my guard down, letting the bad habits sneak back in and eating 3 slices of said pizza without even thinking about it.
I have been sitting here feeling like I have a rock in my stomach and my heart has been pounding away like crazy.
Although I was bordering on full, I waited a little bit and ate some cold watermelon which has helped settle things a bit. At least it cut the grease from the pizza anyways and settled my stomach.
Why I let my guard down, ESPECIALLY on the night before weigh-day, I have no idea. I had weigh day scheduled specifically on Saturday mornings because we usually have a night out on Saturday or Sunday night, which gives me a week to correct any mistakes.
It has been a long week, a lax week, a frustrating week full of ups and downs, and thank God its over!
I logged, blogged and now I am movin' on!
I WILL get sleep tonight, I WILL get to the pool tomorrow, and I WILL either get on the Kinect or get out for a walk on Sunday!
I'm NOT normal and that's not necessarily a bad thing, I have my beau who loves me for me and my family and my friends too.
I have made progress so far and will continue to reach my goals.
I GOT THIS!
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