Tuesday, July 03, 2012
I was bound and determined to get out and start my couch to 5k today, and I did! Well, sort of...the plan was 20 minutes of alternating a quick walk with a light jog....
My beau and I got off of work a bit early and just as we were driving home, it got darker and the wind started picking up and cooled it down about 10 degrees in just a few minutes.
As soon as we got in the door we ran into the bedroom to get changed, my beau grabbed his water bottle and we zipped out the door just as a few fat drops were thrown our way by the wind. We decided that it wasn't going to hold off 20 minutes so just decided to make one trip around the block...its a city block so its not too little.
We set off at a quick pace and before we got to the corner, I could feel my shins complaining....I told them that was too bad and they would get over it.
Halfway around and I could feel it in my lower back, not too bad though.
Three quarters and my shins are complaining louder and my beau asked if I needed to hold on and he would pull me....
Made it back in the door and yanked out my floormat and stretched my legs out...although I am not too sure about how to stretch my shins and give them some relief....
Heard lots of thunder outside about 5 minutes later and peeked out the door and saw this...
Which was quickly followed by this...
And then....sideways rain!
My legs and feet are a bit tingly and my shins are mad at me, but I feel good....oh, my distance was .22 miles timed at 5 minutes and 50 seconds. Not much but I am thankful that I was able to make a start.
I am also thankful for the rain and for it holding off just long enough to accomplish my goal of making a new beginning today.
Oh and edited to add that I am thankful that Mother Nature decided to wash my nasty car too!
Monday, July 02, 2012
Working on end of the month stuff at work....my least favorite time! On top of the end of the month workload, we switched to another payroll format...(and will have yet another when we are bought out in a few weeks), had a headache that just wouldn't quit, my beau was 30 minutes late getting off work and no one at home thought to start anything for supper.
I think I did a good job, I ordered pizza for everyone, but for me, I warmed up some split pea soup leftovers...oddly enough, someone ate all the ham out of it, so I substituted cheese, lol, it actually tasted pretty good! If I am to be totally honest...the pizza smelled better, haha!
Still....I managed to come close to my minimum calories today, with my head feeling like it is trying to eject my eyeball all day and being bummed because I had to put off my beau and I's first walk/jog/walk until tomorrow....I just wasn't really hungry much. I had to force myself to eat a hb egg and hb egg white this evening just to get a bit more protein in for the day.
This week, I am going to work on getting more good protein. Today was at 20% - ish, and my doctor wants me to get more than that.
But for now...sleep.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
I have a feeling that I am going to pay for my antics tomorrow!
After running errands ALL day today, my beau and I stopped by the new greenhouse place on the corner and bought a bunch of new and fresh house guests....a fennel plant, a basil plant, a mint plant, a rosemary plant, and a chive plant.
All the herbs were half off so all five plants only costed me 8 bucks! They are all healthy looking and look so beautiful sitting in my window. The smell so sweet too!
We finished out the day by getting a daiquiri and going to see Rock of Ages....it was AWESOME!
I had a pina colada daiquiri, something I haven't had in a LONG time! I rarely drink anymore (cause I got tired of hearing people tell me what I did the night before, lol!) So it tasted extra yummy!
I don't think I will be having any more any time soon though, that baby was over 500 cals for a 10 oz service (according to the nutrition thingy) And it put me over for the day.
OH! I have the best news....my beau told me today that he wants to be something other than a computer potato....he does have a lot of health issues right now, we are waiting until we can afford for him to take off 3 weeks and then he will be having neck surgery for spinal stenosis. His other bg issue is that he had a heat stroke when he was younger and his body doesn't regulate its temp like it should any more. We have a few plans to put into action for him, but it sounds like he is going to go out with me and start on the couch 2 5k plan!
I am so excited for him and to have him with me for this! He always makes my heart pitter patter so!
Friday, June 29, 2012
Self realization = kicking your own ass back onto the right path!
My weight causes a lot, if not all, of my leg pains.
My weight affects my breathing, I now carry 2 inhalers for asthma.
My weight affects my movement.
My weight torments me when I look into a mirror...I rarely look.
My dad's weight caused his diabetes and was a factor in his first and only heart attack...he did not survive.
The pleasure I get from eating is only for a few moments, then the physical discomfort, guilt, shame, embarrassment, and self loathing kick in...along with the vow to never overeat again.
I have never been 'kind' to myself, I am always the first one to put me down, always expect more from myself than anyone on the planet and am severely disappointed when I don't meet or exceed my own expectations.
I am in my own way, I use all my aches and pains as a way to NOT get my ass up and do what I should! If it hurts, I don't want to do it!
I also know...
I have spent far too long passive-aggressively hurting myself.
I do not want to have a heart attack and leave my kids and my grandbaby.
While it hurts physically to put strain on my muscles and joints, it feels GOOD to stretch my body.
The sense of accomplishment I get from meeting a calorie goal for the day feels GOOD.
I cannot do a complete sit-up right now, but at least I try and I CAN get my shoulder blades off the ground!
The day WILL come that I can do a sit up...many of them!
The day WILL come that I can jog or run and know that I can feel my body and muscles working working to move me to where I WANT to be!
I am reassured that all my recent medical exams say that I CAN do this.
I know that my body is an amazing work of nature and is designed to heal itself with a little help from my mind and willpower.
I REFUSE TO BE MY OWN ROAD BLOCK ANY LONGER!
MY PATH WILL NOW BE OF MY OWN CHOOSING!!!!
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