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And the status quo is still...um...status quo!

Friday, December 14, 2012

I am finally over being sick! Yay! And it only took me two weeks!
One thing I have learned in 41 years is that when I get sick, the germs make a beeline to my chest. Do not collect go, do not collect 200 dollars.
I am positive it is a wonderful effect from 25 years of smoking. Sad thing is that I still crave it even though I have been smoke free for a few years now, almost 4 years actually.

I was able to get out and walk a mile on Wednesday and also went out today too. I was afraid that being inactive for 2 whole weeks would have set me back, but I haven't gained any weight and my walking times weren't too bad, the first day out was 23.5 minutes and today was 21 minutes. It didn't take too long for my left ankle to tighten back up. I think that when I fell on it awhile back, I probably sprained it up high.
My plan is to take it easy with the walking until the end of the year. I am keeping it at a mile only every other day, after the first of the year, I want to start ramping up on my mileage slowly and I am holding off on any jogging until after I can afford a new pair of shoes.
Oh yes...and after my beau and I wrenched my foot around a few weeks ago, trying to maneuver the cuboid bone in my foot...that part actually feels better! I am sure that the way we did it was incorrect and I know it put extra strain on my ankle, but at least that part is better!

I did give in and go shoe trying on even though I couldn't afford to buy any. I found a pair of Asics that were pretty comfortable and I also tried on the Nike Lunarglides that some article 'recommended' based on my weight and a few other criteria....they felt HORRIBLE! I was so disappointed because I love Nike. They just don't work for me any more.

Since I let all exercise go while I was sick, I don't know if I am feeling especially lazy or if I am just going to build back up to going all out every day. For now, I will be walking every other day and on opposite days, I will be working on some stretches, yoga poses, and planking.

In other bad/good news....I need hearing aids. In both ears. Worse news is that those suckers cost more than I make in a month. Before taxes are deducted. Each. And my insurance covers zero dollars on them.
The good news and total surprise is that they do carry an 'economy' brand that they didn't tell me about at my first appointment and .....I was approved for a loan! The surprise part is that while I do not have bad credit, I do not have ANY credit history. I never had a credit card or financed a car or anything. Now, when I try to get a loan...or more recently, even a Target credit card, I am instantly turned down, so the phone call from the doctor's office was a huge pick me up! I have a consultation appointment on Tuesday, I can't wait! I am hoping that getting my hearing fixed will help out a bit with my balance issues.

So if you haven't fallen asleep on your keyboard reading my blog full of nothin, I just wanted to let y'all know that I am still here and I promise to make my next blog full of tidbits that everyone will want to read!

Take care of you.

  
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YESCURLYCAN 12/15/2012 4:12AM

  I didn't fall asleep; this was a great blog. I am glad that you are finally over that cold and back into walking. My mother's podiatrist actually told her that Nikes were the worst shoes for people with feet issues; go figure. I love asiscs and new balance; they are the best things to happen to my feet. I am also glad that you will be able to get the hearing aids after all. Great to hear that you are still here and progressing emoticon

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'Home' Improvements

Thursday, December 06, 2012

Since I have been sick for a week now, I actually have more time since I haven't been trying to fit exercising in to my schedule. More time to contemplate about things. I know there are a lot of things that I post on here that may not seem to have anything to do with losing weight...but for me it does. My body is the only home that my mind has and I don't seem to have the ability to make improvements to one without improving the other. When my brain gets bored, I eat, when I get upset, I don't eat anything at all. When I get stressed or depressed, I never know which I will do, eat or starve. So by getting some of the thoughts out of my head on here, it helps mentally, which in turn helps physically.
Its a vicious cycle either way, how I handle it decides which it will be.

I think I am finally coming out the other side of my most recent run of anxiety, thank you God! When it gets bad and my depression decides to chime in to the party in my head at the same time, all I can do is keep my head down, let it ride me, and try to make it to the end of each day. Somehow over the last year or so, I have figured out that it is easier when I go with it instead of fighting so hard against it...I am definitely more gentle with myself, if I have a bout of crying or whatever, I give my permission to feel and express it.

I think we are finally catching up a little bit financially, it helps that my son is living back with us and helps out, and my stress has diminished a little because he is where I can keep an eye on how he is doing...yesh, he is going to be 22 in a couple of days but there are a few things about him that I am concerned with. Also, his girlfriend seems to have moved out...not sure what is going on there, but I really think it is for the best.

I am SO looking forward to going grocery shopping this week, I plan to get all sorts of veggies and healthy food to get back in to the house. While it is cheaper in the long run to eat healthy, there are times that a full tummy is priority. I think our financial rough spot stresses me out more because it is something that I have not had to deal with in several years. I feel like I got spoiled by having the ability to go to the store and get whatever groceries that I wanted when I wanted. I tried buying some of the premade hard boiled eggs and a salad for work yesterday and everything just tasted....off. Even this morning, I stopped and got a container of the cut up fruit with grapes and cantaloupe and stuff, but it tastes funny, not bad, but just not quite right. I though it may be because I am sick, but I haven't noticed anything off that I have made at home. Maybe it is all in my head, or maybe I got used to not eating so many preservatives and junk. I even remembered to boil a dozen eggs yesterday that I was going to keep in the fridge and use them for a couple of days, but I forgot them on the stove and they kinda burned, lol, its not the first time that I have done that with eggs, and I don't do it with anything else! So into the trash they went and no eggs for me today :(

I am looking forward to being over my cold and get back outside walking/jogging! I have managed to drop those extra couple of pounds I put back on a couple weeks back, and have been status quo since then so I cannot wait to start moving in the right direction, although, I will admit that the pain in my feet is MUCH less since I have been off of them.
*Le Sigh*

What to do, what to do...
Remember that one step and then the next will get you where you are going!

  
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POSITIVELY_EB 12/6/2012 5:32PM

    Anxiety and depression - oh, how I dislike them!!! They really mess with the mind and hence the weightloss efforts! Good for you for finding a way that works for you!

HUGS!

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PICKIE98 12/6/2012 1:57PM

    Great job on the weight loss..


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SQUIRRELLYONE 12/6/2012 1:54PM

    Fresh food is one of the hardest things to not have access to!

Glad you made it through! I totally hear you with the premade stuff... they always seem to have unnecessary "extras".

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I can't tell you how long its been since...

Monday, December 03, 2012

I have been sick! Its been before I changed my diet, so I haven't have a cold, flu, cough, or anything since before May of this year, so 7 months.

AND I am a big whiney cry baby about it too! I'm sick! My throat hurts, I think my voice will be gone soon, I even came home from work early!

Weekends are usually tough for me, I work full time and I do all the errand running and a good deal of the housework so on top struggling with what I eat vs. what I SHOULD eat, I am pretty worn out and catch up on a lot of z's on Sundays.
But this weekend...I think it started out as an allergic reaction...I am allergic to cats, dogs, dust, grass, etc, You know....life!
I have a cat, but she is short haired and spends most of the time outside, She doesn't even have a litterbox in the house, and since being diagnosed with asthma, we have purchased 2 air scrubbers, one in the livingroom and one in the bedroom. Well, Friday, we had to clear out my son's apartment and...have you ever seen the show 'Hoarders'?
Ok, it may not have been THAT bad, but there was nothing put in a drawer or closet, there was trash all over the floor along with clothes and cathair everywhere (his cat has long hair), full litterboxes and where do cats go when the box is full? Everywhere they can.

I started at the back of the apartment and swept every thing to the front and anything that he did not pick up and save before I got there went into the trash. The power has been off over there for about 3 weeks and although they have been living over here since then, they never went over and cleared out the fridge. Everything in it went into the trash as well as about half of the dishes. The fridge was the one thing that I could not handle, I made him and his girlfriend do it. I knew his apartment was messy, but really didn't know HOW bad it was. I came home in the middle of cleaning and cried. I am so worried that there is something really wrong with him and not just the fact that the years he spent with his dad were not filled with housekeeping tips.
With them being over here, the rules have been laid down. If he cannot or will not take care of his cat and catbox, we will find her a new home. They also have chores to do here also. First, it helps me out, and because it will (hopefully) help them learn better habits.

Ugh, back on track! So, I think all the dust, cat hair, and who know what else kicked my allergies, and they, in turn, decided to kick me right in the face and throat!
I was reduced to buying soup for the day on my way in to work, the warmth feels so good on my throat. Don't get me wrong, I love soup, but it doesn't stick with you for long, I have eaten 3 cans today and shudder to think of my sodium intake. I tried to bulk up the last can I ate with an egg and some crackers....so far, so good, but its only been about an hour and a half since I ate.

I did indulge in birthday cake and ice cream for my birthday the other day...and all weekend long. We didn't get a big cake for my birthday, I knew better than to do that and I did watch my portion size when I had some. The ice cream is another story. Part of it is because of my throat, but mostly its because I am a sucker for ice cream!
I had a good run of 12 days exercise streak but lost it yesterday. My goal is still 365 miles from Dec 1, 2012 and Dec 1 2013. I am in serious doubt that my sinus', throat, and chest could handle a brisk anything right now, but as soon as I can breathe, I will be at it again.

My first goal of a 5k is done....10k next up!

  
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NEWKATHYNOW 12/4/2012 2:55AM

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YESCURLYCAN 12/4/2012 2:42AM

  Not sure if I would of been brave enough to weather that storm of mess in your son's apartment; eeek! I hope he appreciated the help. I agree with another commenter that taking care of yourself is top priority and I am glad that you are doing just that. Can't wait till you reach 10K status emoticon emoticon

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POSITIVELY_EB 12/3/2012 10:24PM

    Good for you for taking care of yourself! That should always be your #1 priority!

HUGS!

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TRAVELIN_FOOL 12/3/2012 5:05PM

    Sorry you are feeling so badly. I totally feel your pain. I too am allergic to "life". I even had an allergist tell me that if I would "just quit breathing" it would solve all my allergy problems.

You are a better person than me to go an clean up after your son like that! I have helped my daughters move several times (and they both have cats too - thank goodness for short hair) but although they are somewhat messy they usually try to clean up before I come over.

I really do hope you feel better soon! Being sick is no fun! Here's some OJ and a nice cup of herbal tea to help you feel better! emoticon emoticon

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Happy Birthday and 100 miles!

Thursday, November 29, 2012



19.5 weeks, 100 miles, and over 17,000 calories burned just in jogging/walking!
Happy birthday to me! Next goal is to average 365 miles from Dec 1, 2012 through Dec 1, 2013!

I GOT THIS!!!!!!!!

  
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MISSB8604 11/30/2012 4:40PM

    Seriously fantastic!

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KAREN608 11/30/2012 2:12PM

    Wonderful!

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YESCURLYCAN 11/30/2012 12:42AM

  What a wonderful birthday gift to yourself! emoticon emoticon

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POSITIVELY_EB 11/29/2012 9:48PM

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LESLIESENIOR 11/29/2012 9:16PM

    Wonderful. Congratulations on this great milestone and your new 2013 goal!!! That is simply awesome!!!

I've been using this strategy too. When I joined Sparkpeople I didn't have a goal, but I ran/walked 450 miles. So my goal this year has been 500 miles. I'm on track too and should meet my goal by January 1.
Another Sparker said that I can sing the song "I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more..."

Isn't Sparking fun?
Good luck on your goals!
Leslie

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JENAE954 11/29/2012 8:49PM

  emoticon ! Wow!!! What a wonderful way to celebrate.

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ADARKARA 11/29/2012 7:47PM

    Happy birthday! emoticon

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FEMISLIM 11/29/2012 7:15PM

    Hey birthday emoticon . emoticon achievement. I am sure you can do the 365miles. I am so sure you can!!!!

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Being stubborn is all I have lately.

Friday, November 23, 2012

When I signed up on SP, I filled out my website registration, closed the page and forgot about it for a month. When I came back, I fiddled around with the meal tracker and also started blogging like mad. After I got over that initial few days of dragging my butt around, I regained my energy level and then got that amazing burst of energy that comes with a nice detoxed body.
I cruised along on this energy for about 4 months and it was amazing!

Then I don't know what happened. Life happened, I suppose. My beau and I have had lots of setbacks financially, and I have had some setbacks physically. I made it through problems with my knee, fell and twisted one ankle, followed by the other ankle about 10 days later...then my nice big fall in the road banging up both knees and peeling the skin off both palms several days after that. There have been days that I have been so stressed that I felt like I was climbing the walls, and my panic attacks are worsening again.

Today, I realized something. I probably will not live to be very old. I have treated my body very poorly throughout my life and I cannot get the stress under control. I hurt. All the time. In doing some checking online and I am pretty sure that one of my falls twisted the cuboid bone in my foot. At the moment I am not able to get to the doctor to have him check it out....so brilliant me decides that while I cannot afford a co pay right now...I will try to manipulate it back into place myself. The result being that now the area surrounding the cuboid bone feels much better, but I put a lot of pressure on my ankle joint...so I am still walking funny. Along with the heel spur on the other foot...well, I have been hurting from my feet clear up to my hips from walking funny.

Both of my ankles are swollen 24/7, sometimes I wrap them, sometimes ice, sometimes heat, always elevated when I am at home. I have tried pushing my way past the pain while walking/jogging, and I have tried not jogging at all. Nothing is working for very long. I am only moving now out of stubbornness and refusing to give up. I have backed my walking/jogging down to 1 mile at a time, but I am going out every day now. Funny thing is that my feet and ankles hurt LESS when I jog, but I am not able to keep up a slow jog for more than a tenth of a mile.
I will be hitting the 100 miles of exercise in a few days, it is my birthday present to myself. Actually, I will hit 100 on the day before my birthday with doing 1 mile per day.

I am VERY bothered and upset lately with not being able to progress past 5k, and now not even being able to do that much. Every day that I have to limp through a mile, or limp to the bathroom from the living room, I feel like my goals are slipping away. I accomplished my 5k goal within the timeframe that I wanted, now I am worried that I will not make my 10k goal by the end of spring 2013 and my HM....I feel like I should just forget that all together.

Soooo....if you have made it reading this far, thats my excuse for being MIA. I just needed a break. I feel like I am slowly failing in all that I had set out to do in this. I am back to those few days in the beginning, congratulating myself for being able to actually make it out of bed and drag myself to work every day. I feel like my diet has gone to hell, I spent a couple of weeks playing with the same 2-3 pounds, but I am pretty sure at this point that I have just put those 3 pounds back on. I am, however, making the effort to get my water intake back up and have been getting my fruit and veggie intake back as well.

I just wanted to check in and let y'all know I am still here and I will continue to cruise on my pigheaded-autopilot for now.

I. Will. Not. Quit.

  
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MOSTMOM1 11/25/2012 10:59PM

    Oh, please be careful and take care of yourself! I hope you can get to a doctor soon and get some help for your injuries. Maybe you could do some chair exercises, to prevent further injuring yourself? Please, be careful. There's only one of you out there.
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POSITIVELY_EB 11/24/2012 11:14AM

    I agree with Serene! Do what you can and be kind to yourself! You are NOT failing - it is just setbacks which CAN be over come! Give yourself time and keep making the next right choice!

HUGS!!!

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THE-MORE-GIRL 11/24/2012 12:06AM

    You can do this. Be kind to yourself. You've got a LOT on your plate.

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.DUSTY. 11/23/2012 10:52PM

    I'm so sorry!

If you go to the ER (hospitals that accept payments from government programs. Most all do.) and tell them up front that you can't pay or make payments, by law they have to take you.

You need to get yourself checked out!

As far as all the stress, go to your local Mental Health Clinic. They'll work with you on a sliding scale.

Please don't "wait" for something to happen. Take action. You're worth the effort!
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YESCURLYCAN 11/23/2012 10:03PM

  That's right; you will not quit! emoticon on having that attitude because there have been far too many people that have fallen off and never return. You acknowleged your setbacks and continue to push anyway. I am sorry that you aren't able to get to a doctor and that you are so full of stress. I pray that there will be brighter days ahead. Take it slow, do what you can do and keep sparking Mobii emoticon emoticon

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JENAE954 11/23/2012 9:18PM

  Sorry you are having such tough times.
Sometimes it is almost impossible to continue with the positive attitude stuff.
There are some days when just slugging thru the day is the only accomplishment.
One thing we can all count on is that change is constant.
Hang in there. Change is a inevitable.

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