Thursday, November 01, 2012
I am fairly pleased with how October turned out for me weight-wise...I dropped 6 pounds for the month, 4 of that 6 was in the last couple of days...since I just blogged about that particular event, I will just leave it be.
I ended up at 600 minutes of exercise for October, which makes another month with even less minutes, I started out with 767, then 619, and now 600. I am still hoping to move my count in the other direction with the cooler weather being in my favor...I don't sweat much and when I am trying to jog/walk out in the heat, I just broil myself.
I went out a few days ago when it was just 40 degrees out there, I wore a t-shirt instead of my usual tank top and it was WONDERFUL! Now, if my feet and ankles will cooperate!
I am also hoping that as I continue to lose weight, I will have less pain in my ankles and feet. I walked/jogged 5k the day before yesterday and could not have done anything other than come to work and go home yesterday.
I have been rice'ing my feet and that have improved but I still have a LOT of residual pain.
Its weird how my priorities have changed...I am not sure how the effect sits with me just yet...I feel VERY selfish since I started taking care of myself. I talk non stop about MY jogging, about MY 5k's, about MY pounds lost, about MY calories, etc...
In some ways, I worry that its taking over, not only my life, but my personality as well. Maybe not a bad thing, maybe not a good thing. I often wonder just how tired people are of hearing me go on and on about it. I mean, skinny people who were always skinny don't seem to do that.
Why is it that I feel the need to blab on about it? Why does it seem to take up most of my waking moments? I am a pretty organized person...I know exactly where my workout clothes are, I know that they are clean and that I have plenty of exercise socks, I know where my yoga band is that I use for stretching out, but I always feel like I have to find my hour a day to be able to get outdoors. I mean...I have the exact same 24 hours in a day that everyone else has, right?
And speaking of 24 hours...I dream about running as well, it started when I first set my goal of a HM in fall of 2013, and I think its the longest recurring dream I have ever had...its not always exactly the same, but its close. The biggest thing is that I am running and able to run pain free. In my dreams, it feels GOOD, and not just that glorious endorphin high that I look forward to now, lol! It strikes me as odd because when I am actually awake and jogging or walking, my pains are always in my feet and ankles, but in my dream, my focus is on just how good my thigh muscles are feeling to be working. Always, in the past, when my pain followed me into my dreams, I hurt in the same place in my dream.
So now my days are filled with fussing over eating too much, or not enough, meal planning, cooking and fretting over what food to bring to work for lunch, when and how long I am going to work out, getting out there and then fussing over my recovery time and how much pain I will or won't be in the next day, etc...
How the heck do people manage this and still have time for anything else?
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
I weighed in at 279 pounds this morning and realized that I am now down by 31 pounds....which puts me at having lost 10 percent of my starting weight!
Somehow, I dropped 4 pounds over the last couple of days...well, not, somehow, I know how, it's been the extra stress lately. When I am over stressed, I under eat. I have been trying really hard to keep my calories on target though. Also, when I am nervous, I move around a bit more....not voluntary movement, like walking, its involuntary like shaking hands, bouncing legs, and I also spend a lot of time with clenched fists, etc....not to mention that most anything is immediately moved through me by my digestive system.
Granted, this is a most unpleasant way to drop pounds, and it may not stay gone, but for today I am at 10% and thrilled about it!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
So...I ended up at 57:30 today with a pace of 18'22, In my age group for females, I am 46/50 so far, but that includes 2 people who have not entered times yet, so at worst, if they do better than me, it will put me at 48th. Kinda sucky, but I ran laps around everyone on the couch, eh?
Friday, October 26, 2012
I could have sworn that I posted a blog last night and either SP ate it or I was thinking about doing it and my meds kicked in and knocked me out....most likely the latter, lol!
We are tightening our belts a bit here...in a manner of speaking, lol! We had to put the gym membership on hold and may have to just cancel it after November, but I did rearrange the entire living room to give us more room to play on the Kinect....I think I will whip someones tail in boxing this weekend!
I did a 5k walk tonight, still sitting at about an 18.5 minute pace, which isn't too bad, and I feel pretty good.
I was kinda hoping to do better because I went right after work so my feet weren't sore, since I didn't do any better, I guess I am just slow and can't blame it all on my feet.
I have noticed that I recover easier and easier after I am done though, so that is something!
I have also noticed that although I like the neighborhood we walk in...it smells so good from the pine trees and there are 2 white ducks that live over there that I like to see waddling around...I am getting a bit bored with the route. I think that I am going to walk/jog it on Sunday or Monday for my Trick-or-Trot virtual 5k that I joined here, because it is relatively flat and I am familiar with the road and know where I need to dodge all the little acorns on the road....oh, and the duck poop too, lol!
The ducks are cute, but I bet that stuff best avoided! I fall enough on my own without having to come on here and say how I broke something because of a duck-poo accident!
Things at work are same as usual, my boss did turn in his resignation but is giving them a couple of weeks before he leaves. I told him flat out the other day that I was mad at him about it and it has helped me somewhat. We didn't even have to talk about it, I just told him and was done. It may be a silly thing to be upset because your boss is leaving, but I don't deal very well with ANY kind of changes in my routine! I swear, I could win the lottery and be boohooing about it!
Actually, I cry a LOT easier since I started changing my whole lifestyle. I am not sure if its because my mind thinks its being punished by the lack of mindless eating, or just trying to deal with a change in my life, or if my hormones are shifting a bit with my little bit of weight loss and generally improved health.
I had a few doctors tell me that my 'male' hormones were a bit higher than they should be and that is normal with overweight women...and overweight men's usually are a bit lower than they should be. (And no, I don't have a beard or anything, lol)
My thought is that maybe I am shifting back to more 'female' hormones....hence all the crying...?
Weird but very interesting. The medical part of my brain is interested in researching that a bit further, but the have-a-job-need-time-for-exercise-gotta-cl
ean-the-house-and find-a-few-hours-for-sleep part doesn't have much patience in that area for now.
If it were just one doctor that ever told me that, I would say that might just be his opinion, but its been a few doctors over the years. I will get a round to looking into it one day!
Eating is going better this week, last week we were a bit broke and ate mostly processed junk (i.e. cheap), and my body can tell the difference for sure!
My digestive system is most unhappy and my normally turtle-paced weight loss has flat out stopped. My fingers are usually swollen from the added sodium, and I sat here last night with my tummy as puffy as it was right before I got my gallbladder taken out!
Thank God my paycheck was decent and I hit Fresh Pickin's first and then the grocery store!
I got like 6 shopping bags full of fruits and veggies from Fresh Pickin's for $32.00....and since we were out of pretty much everything else, I spent quite a bit at the grocery store, but at least we will feel good again!
That junk food makes a body feel terrible!!!!!
Monday, October 22, 2012
Oy, its been another one of those days! I was determined to have a good day today...but I seriously think my karma is broken!
My boss, well, the sales manager who has been more my boss than anyone else in months, was gone almost all day today...when he got back he said he needed to use my computer, not too unusual because lots of people use mine since its in the front of the building. He sat there and typed up a resignation letter!
And not only that, I found out that the operations manager already has one typed up, but says that he hasn't quite made up his mind about it yet. For me personally, if I had a resignation actually typed out, that means I have already made up my mind.
I went and picked up my beau from work, as I said before, his boss and co workers are great....on the way home, I stopped at Walgreen's to pick up my anxiety script....ironically enough....the car was flat out dead when I came back out. And there it sits. And on came the panic attack.
One of my beau's co workers came and tried to jump the car on her way home but it was just too dead. I took the battery out and she gave us a ride home, it is charging now...I will have to see if one of the guys at work will come get me in the morning and see if we can get the car going, or take me to work and then take my beau to see about the car since he doesn't go in to his office tomorrow.
I have a hard time when I get upset with eating....not overeating, but undereating.
I was short on breakfast because I was busy at work, Mondays are always busy. I didn't have a morning snack, but I did eat lunch a bit early. With all the happenings with the car, we didn't get home until like 630 and by that time, I was cried out, but my appetite was gone.
Since it was late, I couldn't make the meatloaf I was planning, so I just warmed up a spinach and artichoke sausage that was left over, I put it on a slice of whole grain bread and put some fresh spinach on it. I managed to eat the sausage, a couple bites of the bread and maybe 10 spinach leaves.
Even though I don't like walking out in the dark, I went anyways. My beau didn't go as he was in a good deal of pain tonight and also had some phone calls to make for work. I am not so much worried about the neighborhood (even though its not the best), but I am afraid of tripping and falling because I can't see as well.
I went back and forth on my block, I didn't even go around the block because its darker on the other side. I only did about 1.25 miles and even jogged for a little bit. I don't know if it was the dark, or the lack of other people outside, but I finally figured out is that if I just RELAX and jog, it is MUCH easier! Sure...I could feel all my bits jiggling...namely, my butt...and decided that I don't care any more. If anyone is out there sees me jogging by and doesn't like seeing me jiggling, well...thats just too bad for them. They can just look somewhere else!
So, I am short on cals for the day, and I only maintained my weight (and inches) this week, but I am glad that I got up the courage to go out alone (and in the dark) tonight. I am glad I jiggle, because for now, it means that I am active!
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