Wednesday, October 31, 2012
I weighed in at 279 pounds this morning and realized that I am now down by 31 pounds....which puts me at having lost 10 percent of my starting weight!
Somehow, I dropped 4 pounds over the last couple of days...well, not, somehow, I know how, it's been the extra stress lately. When I am over stressed, I under eat. I have been trying really hard to keep my calories on target though. Also, when I am nervous, I move around a bit more....not voluntary movement, like walking, its involuntary like shaking hands, bouncing legs, and I also spend a lot of time with clenched fists, etc....not to mention that most anything is immediately moved through me by my digestive system.
Granted, this is a most unpleasant way to drop pounds, and it may not stay gone, but for today I am at 10% and thrilled about it!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
So...I ended up at 57:30 today with a pace of 18'22, In my age group for females, I am 46/50 so far, but that includes 2 people who have not entered times yet, so at worst, if they do better than me, it will put me at 48th. Kinda sucky, but I ran laps around everyone on the couch, eh?
Friday, October 26, 2012
I could have sworn that I posted a blog last night and either SP ate it or I was thinking about doing it and my meds kicked in and knocked me out....most likely the latter, lol!
We are tightening our belts a bit here...in a manner of speaking, lol! We had to put the gym membership on hold and may have to just cancel it after November, but I did rearrange the entire living room to give us more room to play on the Kinect....I think I will whip someones tail in boxing this weekend!
I did a 5k walk tonight, still sitting at about an 18.5 minute pace, which isn't too bad, and I feel pretty good.
I was kinda hoping to do better because I went right after work so my feet weren't sore, since I didn't do any better, I guess I am just slow and can't blame it all on my feet.
I have noticed that I recover easier and easier after I am done though, so that is something!
I have also noticed that although I like the neighborhood we walk in...it smells so good from the pine trees and there are 2 white ducks that live over there that I like to see waddling around...I am getting a bit bored with the route. I think that I am going to walk/jog it on Sunday or Monday for my Trick-or-Trot virtual 5k that I joined here, because it is relatively flat and I am familiar with the road and know where I need to dodge all the little acorns on the road....oh, and the duck poop too, lol!
The ducks are cute, but I bet that stuff best avoided! I fall enough on my own without having to come on here and say how I broke something because of a duck-poo accident!
Things at work are same as usual, my boss did turn in his resignation but is giving them a couple of weeks before he leaves. I told him flat out the other day that I was mad at him about it and it has helped me somewhat. We didn't even have to talk about it, I just told him and was done. It may be a silly thing to be upset because your boss is leaving, but I don't deal very well with ANY kind of changes in my routine! I swear, I could win the lottery and be boohooing about it!
Actually, I cry a LOT easier since I started changing my whole lifestyle. I am not sure if its because my mind thinks its being punished by the lack of mindless eating, or just trying to deal with a change in my life, or if my hormones are shifting a bit with my little bit of weight loss and generally improved health.
I had a few doctors tell me that my 'male' hormones were a bit higher than they should be and that is normal with overweight women...and overweight men's usually are a bit lower than they should be. (And no, I don't have a beard or anything, lol)
My thought is that maybe I am shifting back to more 'female' hormones....hence all the crying...?
Weird but very interesting. The medical part of my brain is interested in researching that a bit further, but the have-a-job-need-time-for-exercise-gotta-cl
ean-the-house-and find-a-few-hours-for-sleep part doesn't have much patience in that area for now.
If it were just one doctor that ever told me that, I would say that might just be his opinion, but its been a few doctors over the years. I will get a round to looking into it one day!
Eating is going better this week, last week we were a bit broke and ate mostly processed junk (i.e. cheap), and my body can tell the difference for sure!
My digestive system is most unhappy and my normally turtle-paced weight loss has flat out stopped. My fingers are usually swollen from the added sodium, and I sat here last night with my tummy as puffy as it was right before I got my gallbladder taken out!
Thank God my paycheck was decent and I hit Fresh Pickin's first and then the grocery store!
I got like 6 shopping bags full of fruits and veggies from Fresh Pickin's for $32.00....and since we were out of pretty much everything else, I spent quite a bit at the grocery store, but at least we will feel good again!
That junk food makes a body feel terrible!!!!!
Monday, October 22, 2012
Oy, its been another one of those days! I was determined to have a good day today...but I seriously think my karma is broken!
My boss, well, the sales manager who has been more my boss than anyone else in months, was gone almost all day today...when he got back he said he needed to use my computer, not too unusual because lots of people use mine since its in the front of the building. He sat there and typed up a resignation letter!
And not only that, I found out that the operations manager already has one typed up, but says that he hasn't quite made up his mind about it yet. For me personally, if I had a resignation actually typed out, that means I have already made up my mind.
I went and picked up my beau from work, as I said before, his boss and co workers are great....on the way home, I stopped at Walgreen's to pick up my anxiety script....ironically enough....the car was flat out dead when I came back out. And there it sits. And on came the panic attack.
One of my beau's co workers came and tried to jump the car on her way home but it was just too dead. I took the battery out and she gave us a ride home, it is charging now...I will have to see if one of the guys at work will come get me in the morning and see if we can get the car going, or take me to work and then take my beau to see about the car since he doesn't go in to his office tomorrow.
I have a hard time when I get upset with eating....not overeating, but undereating.
I was short on breakfast because I was busy at work, Mondays are always busy. I didn't have a morning snack, but I did eat lunch a bit early. With all the happenings with the car, we didn't get home until like 630 and by that time, I was cried out, but my appetite was gone.
Since it was late, I couldn't make the meatloaf I was planning, so I just warmed up a spinach and artichoke sausage that was left over, I put it on a slice of whole grain bread and put some fresh spinach on it. I managed to eat the sausage, a couple bites of the bread and maybe 10 spinach leaves.
Even though I don't like walking out in the dark, I went anyways. My beau didn't go as he was in a good deal of pain tonight and also had some phone calls to make for work. I am not so much worried about the neighborhood (even though its not the best), but I am afraid of tripping and falling because I can't see as well.
I went back and forth on my block, I didn't even go around the block because its darker on the other side. I only did about 1.25 miles and even jogged for a little bit. I don't know if it was the dark, or the lack of other people outside, but I finally figured out is that if I just RELAX and jog, it is MUCH easier! Sure...I could feel all my bits jiggling...namely, my butt...and decided that I don't care any more. If anyone is out there sees me jogging by and doesn't like seeing me jiggling, well...thats just too bad for them. They can just look somewhere else!
So, I am short on cals for the day, and I only maintained my weight (and inches) this week, but I am glad that I got up the courage to go out alone (and in the dark) tonight. I am glad I jiggle, because for now, it means that I am active!
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Its been a weird week...I haven't blogged this week because I haven't been able to get my brain to think and my hands to type anything that anyone other than me would be able to decipher....my thought process is a wreck sometimes! Please keep my beau in your prayers, he is such an angel for being able and wanting to deal with me. Through everything....he is always there for me. We have been walking a LOT more this week, and in our down time, we have been kicked back a bit, we are enjoying the new season of The Walking Dead and he is enjoying that I have become a Dr. Who fan, lol...I am planning on going back and watching the old old old episodes on Netflix, old, like from the 60's, haha!
We also sat and watched and were totally amazed at Felix Baumgartner's jump from the edge of space on 10/14. What an amazing experience to watch! I cannot even fathom doing something so great. While I am pretty much ok with my little place in the big scheme of things, sometimes I get a bit jealous of the people out there who do great and important things.
We are very much enjoying having our apartment back to ourselves for the time being...my son and his gf will be moving in at the end of November. Yes, after all the problems we have had with room mates, and I am the one who put forth the idea.
I guess the only reason that really matters is that he is my son. He is a good boy...yes he is 21 but still my little boy! In short, he just is not ready to be on his own. This will give us a chance to help him save money and learn how to manage his finances. Something he did not get while living with his father.
On my walking/jogging...I am confused...I wondering if I am overdoing it, or am I under doing it...how much how often should I be going jogging or walking anyways?
One person says one thing, one person says another. Both make sense too...letting muscles rest/repair for a day in between versus keeping moving while I can because with my aches and pains, I never know when I will be unable to get out of bed or walk to the door much less walk out of it.
I have been trying to stick with every other day but I think that I got that stuck in my head when I started with the c25k....which was a great start, but I have not followed the program for many weeks now. I have decided that I need to work WITH my body and when it is able to jog or when it should walk instead of letting a timer decide for me.
Is there really a reason that I can't or shouldn't go anytime I feel like it? My body is feeling better and better and is GETTING better and better too, hell, I finally figured out that I have legs for a reason, surely its not a bad thing to go out and use them every day....?
I was able to walk 5k 3 times this week. My pace times were 18'04, 17'42, and 18'09, I am very proud of myself. I went out on M,W,F and rested on the days in between, but I feel very anxious when I am not out there walking.
I would love to make it to the gym on the opposite days, but things are still up in the air with the car and I have a very limited amount of time in between getting off work and when it gets dark. (need a new alternator so we don't go out at night...no headlights, lol) If it doesn't get fixed soon, it will be an even bigger issue when the time changes in a couple weeks since it will be dark even sooner.
I also have not figured out how I am going to get an hours worth of walking in after the time changes either...will worry about that when it happens. I will have to either get over my fear of tripping and falling when its not very light out, or walk approximately 3 million circles in my living room during the winter to get exercise....I am betting on me putting on the big girl panties and dealing with walking in the evening in the winter.
I already have some reflective tape on my list for The Great Pumpkin or Santa...whichever one comes up with the spare cash first, lol!
My beau is getting some time in at work, the people he works with are such a blessing, they have been helping him either get to work or helping him get out to some of the jobsites. It is very frustrating for me though because with him working on commission only, and then the car breaking down right after he started, he has barely made back what we spent on getting him licensed.
I actually got two whole hours of OT this week because there is actually a bit more for me to do at work. I know no one would really say anything if I sat there and rode the clock, there are plenty of people there who do....but I can't live with myself being dishonest like that. On days that I have nothing to do there except read or mess around on my phone, its only because I am supposed to stay there until 3-ish. I love the overtime, but I want to get it by being a benefit to the company.
The diet side of things is going pretty good. I have been snacking a bit more than I probably should be, but at the same time, I am either maintaining or (very slowly) still losing weight. My 'official' weigh in day is Monday now, and I am thinking that this week will be another maintained week.
I think that my new absolute favorite snack is pears and peanut butter...my favorite pears are the brownish color ones...lol, I have no idea what kind they are! I am just trying to be very careful on the peanut butter amounts because if I don't take extra care, I could eat like a thousand calories of it!
Oh, and I learned that eating turkey, speckled beans, and rice is very yummy...I tossed turkey legs, a few handfuls of speckled beans, and seasonings in the crock pot with some water and beef broth and let it go all day like you would for ham and pinto beans...and ate it over a bit of rice.
While it was so good and stayed with me for awhile...it is another thing that I shouldn't eat before heading out for a long walk....I thought that the heartburn was going to be my demise. The other no-no exercise food for me is pizza...even several hours before because it sticks in my stomach like a rock!
So, not that that ^ was short, but in short, I am still here, alive and kickin.
Take care of you.
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