Sunday, October 07, 2012
No pun intended.
My goals are to do a 5k by the end of the year, a 10k in the springtime, and a half marathon by fall of 2013.
I am wondering if I am asking more than my body physically is able to do.
So far, I am able to WALK a 5k.
In my c25k program, I have not been able to progress past week 2. I was able to jog for 3 whole minutes ONE time, in all these long weeks. I went for my first jog/walk on July 3, 14 weeks ago.
Granted...I CAN tell a difference between then and now and I KNOW I am much improved, but except for that one single time of jogging for 3 minutes, I usually don't make it much past 1.5 minutes.
I don't understand why either. I know that I have had a few falls and other assorted mishaps, but they are livable, I know that I am still 285 pounds and that is asking a LOT of my lower joints and muscles...and I know that I shouldn't compare myself to anyone else, BUT I see people who weigh more than I do and they don't seem to have any problems.
Today is also the first time in a LONG time that I punished myself. I MADE myself walk 5k, just because I my body did not WANT to get out the door to do even 1 mile. I keep telling myself that my body needs to do what *I* want it to do because I am the boss now.
But the whole time I was out there, I was wondering if my goals are unrealistic or will EVER be realized.
I have a 5k picked out for November 21 and all I can imagine is me having to walk the entire thing. I haven't even dared to imagine how I will accomplish a 10k and a HM at this point is almost unthinkable.
My mindset tonight is that I am not afraid to try....but I am terrified of failing.
Saturday, October 06, 2012
Since the room mate started moving, I got to put MY kitchen back together how I like it!
I washed out the fridge and filled it up with healthy food...I think it looks B-E-A-UTI-FUL!
I also got all my grain jars washed and filled back up, looking all pretty on the countertop. I am SO glad the junky food is gone, healthy stuff looks so much prettier! I love having my kitchen back!
Amaranth and quinoa, speckled beans, flax meal, flax seeds, steel cut oats and wheat mix for mornings, and jasmine rice....my favorite!
Oh, I tried something new for breakfast today as well....I made french toast using 15 whole grain bread...in the waffle iron! You make everything the same but cook it in the waffle iron instead of frying it. I got the idea from ravenous.runnersworld.com/#
The only thing I added to the recipe was a few drops of almond extract...it was super yummy!
I hope y'all have a great weekend!
Friday, October 05, 2012
I stopped at the store after work...something I have been trying to put off due to...well, a lot of reasons. I got a text from my beau while I was there "guess who is moving out this weekend."
Thank God, the room mate has started to move her stuff! She took her bed and about half of the stuff in her room and will be getting the rest tomorrow.
We were out walking tonight while she was moving her stuff, my brain keeps trying to tell me that I am a bad friend for not offering to help her load stuff into the car....but then again, I would never take advantage of a friend the way she has, so, I really don't feel bad.
I had intended on walking 5k tonight, but we had a truck that passed us twice and was spraying for bugs (PeYew!), we finally resorted to walking back and forth in front of the apartment for awhile and watching her move stuff out. I was worried about a couple different things, for one...she has my desk in her room, a desk that she moved into her room "for one night", which was a several months ago...and I don't want it walking out the door with her. My anxiety got worse and worse until I finally told my beau that I was done with walking for the night. I don't think it would have been so bad if I had not been burned before, I have had room mates walk out with my things, things my dad gave me, my dishes, etc....I even had one walk out with every single bit of food in the house, down to the last can of beans.
I got 1.88 miles done with a 19'44 pace. I started out with my elastic ankle/foot braces on, thinking I would be nice to my ankles and before we got a half mile, the bottom of my right foot and ankle were screaming! I pause my Nike app and yanked the brace off...it was IMMEDIATE relief!
I can't wait until I get to the doctor on Monday so he can check it out, at this point, I would even take a shot in it, if that would help!
Things on the food front are going pretty good still, I got a bunch of good-for-us-stuff at the store today!
I also got a couple of sweet treats...I have been doing very well with portion control and have never had a problem with binging. I have a bigger problem overeating carbs than I do with sweets.
Tonight's dinner was turkey Italian sausages with baked tater tots (sweet tots for my beau) and some roasted fresh broccoli, and dessert was 2 devil's food cookies at 50 cals each, yummy! I had them along with some really good hot tea that I found. Its made by Lipton, its orange blossom hibiscus flavor...decaf and it has rosehips and other good stuff in it.
Now that I have my kitchen back to myself, I can get all my good stuff back in order. I have all of my grains and seeds back on the counter in their pretty jars, flax, amaranth, jasmine rice, flax meal.
I also have my big jar of a mixture of steel cut oats, wheat, flax seeds, and groats that I make in batches for breakfast throughout the week. Pop a couple cups of that stuff in the rice cooker and set the timer for the next morning...its perfect! (I don't even make rice in that thing!)
I have to work for a couple hours tomorrow and then when I get home, I am planning on cleaning out the fridge and moving all of our stuff back from the little fridge into the regular one. (she had so much junk food in there we ended up buying a small camping fridge just for our healthy food.) We will put the little one to use by putting our pre-made containers of food in there, then all we have to do is grab and go in the mornings before work!
My beau and I have a lot of hard work to do to catch things back up financially, but I am sure we can do it. We have been through rough times before and I am sure that we will get through this one as well.
We can do anything together.
Monday, October 01, 2012
September is completed.
1- Complete 1500+ minutes of fitness.
I fell even shorter on this goal than I did last month with only 619 minutes. I missed 12 days of exercise in September...so I improved by one day but my average times were shorter.
I know it is better than nothing, and I KNOW it has been a difficult month (6 weeks actually), for me with falling and whatnot, but to sit here and say that...it sounds and feels like a copout.
All I can do is what I can and as long as I am continuing forward, I can accept it.
I am renewing this goal yet again for October.
2- Lose 7 pounds.
I lost 3....I am not sure what to say about this. My first instinct is to be disappointed, but I am just glad that I lost any.
3- Lose 2 more inches from my waist.
I lost 1 inch...I'll take it! (Again!)
The goal is still 2 inches for October!
Since September's routine was not effective to my satisfaction, my new change-ups are:
1. Jogging/walking every other day, so will be out 3 days one week and 4 days the next.
2. Distance we will be doing is 5k every time, no more 1.25 miles at 22-24 minutes each.
3. Every OTHER day that we go out, I will be doing jogging intervals as long as I am able. I should be able to jog a bit longer each time.
I feel that I am doing quite well in what and how much I am eating. I will have to try to find time to track it again though, because I think that I am actually coming up short on calories most days...which might be causing my body to hang on to everything.
In other news...
I have a doc appointment on Monday, I plan to ask him to check my hearing...because everyone else mumbles, lol!
I also need him to check on all my bumps and bruises from falling...I actually have several unexplained bruises, I know I got them when I fell but they are on my shins, which I did not hit.
Also on the agenda is having him check on my knees, ankles, and right foot, I am worried that I have either another heel spur or plantar faciitis. He can give me a splint, or tell me how to massage it (tennis ball isn't working), or give me a cortisone shot....what he is NOT allowed to do is tell me to stop jogging or walking.
Yes, I know staying off of it, or off of hard surfaces is probably going to be the answer, but he will have to work around that one! Besides, all I have is hard surfaces to walk on...we have concrete floors at home, so another treatment will have to be found.
The room mate should be moving out at the end of the week, she pretty much let us know last night that she would not be coming up with any money any time soon and gave us a vague 'when I have money, I will pay you back' statement.
She did offer to sell my son a sofa that she has in storage for his apartment though....I went over there and verified that I heard correctly...to SELL it to him and I told him over my dead body. If he decides that he needs one, we will help him get one.
We have come to terms that we got screwed yet again for helping someone, and we will just mark one on our 'we're too nice for our own good' slate and move along.
C'est La Vie!
I am happy that October is finally here. Autumn is my favorite time of year, I am always more at peace in the fall for some reason.
As I sat at work today with the door open and smelling the clean air, I couldn't help but thinking what a perfectly fall day it is! It was cloudy and cool this morning but the sun peeked out here and there during the day. The wind picked up for a little bit this afternoon so that I could hear it blowing through the equipment outside which always reminds me of Winnie the Pooh and the blustery day!
Enjoy your cooler temps, changing leaves, pumpkins, and take advantage of the great outdoors!
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