Monday, August 27, 2012
Bonus point if you have seen that movie!
I swear that I am either stuck, or have bad karma of some such thing! Since I have started the program, I have had asthma attacks, panic attacks, twinged my knee, twisted my ankle, fallen in a hole, lost a pet, made a huge job transition, struggled to eat enough and/or eaten too much, ripped all the skin from my knee, and in about 6 weeks, I haven't made it past week two!
I made the decision to start over and progress the weeks like I should be doing and jogged w1d1 on Sunday and what is headed this way? Hurricane Isaac!
I would like to make a polite request to the universe to hold off the gale force wind and sideways rain until after my w1d2 tomorrow evening, thank you very much!!!!!
*drags the good karma fairy out of her hiding place*
Now get back to work!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Things are a little calmer at work and / or I am starting to adjust to all the changes and stress.
I also weighed myself this morning, my official weigh day is tomorrow, but it looks like I was able to flush out the salt and garbage and will come in with my usual -1 pound. At this point, I will take it because I thought I might end up with a gain. I'll weigh in the morning and get my measurements and track it all in the morning.
My beau and I went to watch a 5k this evening. It was the Run Through The Jungle 1 mile fun run and 5k.
All of the proceeds went to the Miles Perret Cancer Services.
It was raining on and off today, but by the time we got to the park, it had stopped but it was still VERY cloudy. All those low fast moving clouds kept it cool but definitely promised more rain.
As we sat there listening to the music and people-watching (one of my favorite activities), I found myself commenting on shoes and watching the runners stretching out....I felt it. a little tingle in my chest.
I saw people stretching out in ways that I had not thought of, but will be trying out, a guy in a bright yellow tee was 'skipping' along and I told my beau that I didn't think I would be skipping around any time soon...I hadn't skipped since grade school, lol, he informed me that the guy was merely doing knee lifts...which I could see just fine, but it still looks like skipping to me, hehe!
A super skinny....well, I thought it was a girl, but later turned out to be a guy when I got a closer look at the finish line was running sideways while warming up, looking as light as air.
We also saw several in-shape, thirty-somethings strutting around. I made mental notes on who I thought would finish quickly, who would come in mid-pack, and who might struggle a bit.
Then an older man in orange shorts jogged (slowly) past us and I could have cried. He was doing just what I want to do. His body language seemed quite guarded, like he may have back problems or something of the sort. But the look on his face, nothing but confidence.
I had to look away and do a bit of deep breathing to keep myself from crying....it was finally back....my spark. It is little, but it's back!
Why would I identify with this older man? I have no idea, but I did.
I have no idea who he is, but if I see him again, I will be able to recognize him and will definitely have the courage to ask him.
After the starting gun went off the super skinny guy shot into the lead and it was mesmerizing to see the rest of the pack moving all together. After they all passed where we were sitting, we walked to the other side of the field so we could see where they came out of the woods and ran diagonally across the field before going back into the woods.
After that, we went back across the field and waited by the finish line. The really skinny guy came in first with a time of 15 minutes. I think the next few were within 2 minutes of that.
I was surprised that some of the people that I thought would do better didn't and some that I thought might have trouble did better.
Yes, it started raining...its Louisiana, after all! It didn't rain hard though, just a light sprinkle. I am glad I brought the umbrella because the sprinkles were covering my glasses. There were a few people that came in two at a time and sprinting like mad to the end!
There were 3 little boys that ran 5k as well, they were maybe 8-ish years old...2 of them came in around 25 minutes and the third one was closer to 35 minutes.
Most people left when their runner or runners finished, but we stayed and clapped for everyone! We saw the older man coming out of the woods at around 38 minutes, by this time the only ones at the last stretch were my beau, myself, one of the other runners, and one of the volunteers.
They took the clock down at 45 minutes, just before he made his last turn and headed down the final stretch, which upset me a little because he was almost there! He never stopped though, he glanced around at his audience of 4 and made it over the finish line and raised his arms!
I think I am going to restart my program and work on just moving forward each week and getting myself where I want to be instead of lagging on each week until I find a comfortable rut.
One step and then the next gets you where you're going.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
I am tired. I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired.
Last week was a long week at work. The sale of the company I work for finalized. Last week was a whirlwind of trying to get paperwork done. I worked 50+ hours last week, with no breaks I might add.
Monday was payroll day, no break but I ate like I was supposed to. I caught up my previous weeks paperwork and tried to get HR stuff pulled, copied, and put into folders for the new HR people.
Tuesday I spent 3 hours in a meeting with the new HR girls. I managed to avoid the doughnuts that someone bought, but caved in and ate a sausage breakfast burrito...when I put it in my tracker later, I could have cried. It was 300 calories!!!! How did they manage to get that many calories into something I ate in like 4 bites!
Lunch came around and pizza was ordered. I ate 2 slices. I somehow managed to stay within calories for the day..
Wednesday, HR was back out and fried chicken was ordered for lunch. I only ate one piece and a few fries for lunch. No breakfast, no morning or afternoon snack. Within two days all the drivers, salesmen, dispatchers, mechanics, myself, and 1 manager were properly paperworked, pee tested, and processed into our new company. 43 in all....I think its 43 anyways!
Only ran my c25k on Sunday and Tuesday. Tried to work some of the fast food off my behind on Wednesday, and thats the evening that we lost our ferret and I fell on the side of the road and hurt my knee and ankle. Perfect excuse to do nothing Thursday.
Speaking of Thursday, another long day at work, its getting to crunch time now. Stopped at BK for lunch.
Friday...got everything wrapped up at work. Ended up just under 50 hours for the week....went out to dinner. Chinese buffet. I worked hard and made better choices, but still no exercise at this point. Saturday, worked an hour and a half which will get me some nice overtime on my check.
We had to go out to Baton Rouge so my beau could get his testing done for his insurance license....peanut butter crackers from the vending machine for a snack and Greek food for lunch.
I MADE myself go walk on Sunday. We walked 3.10 miles in an hour (snail pace) I told my beau that I didn't WANT to go, but I NEEDED to go. I wasn't excited, I want to sit on the couch, I want to go to bed, I want more junk food.
The only plus to all this is that I can't eat the sheer amount that I used to. I think its the only thing saving my weight. I lost nothing last week, I am just glad that I didn't gain.
Today was another busy day at work, I actually hit McDonald's, Not only did I eat a double fish sandwich, but I ate fries as well.
I am feeling miserable. I am bloated, my fingers and toes are swelled up from the salt. I dragged myself to the pool today but only manged to walk out a half mile in there. My legs...no, not just my legs...my whole body feels fatigued. My spark is barely there. I'm afraid to actually not try for one day because I can feel the "I'll do it later's" looming, you know....
"I'll do it later, when I have time."
"I'll do it later, when I don't hurt."
"I'll do it later, when I get around to it."
"I'll do it later, when I feel better."
That "Later" never happens for me.
Now instead of fighting to lost that one measley little pound that I have been getting each week. I am fighting just to get up off my butt and DO SOMETHING.
We don't have internet at work yet, the new network is just thrown together, and evidently, me spending time on SP is not high on the to-do list.
I want to let y'all know, that even though I haven't been able to leave comments on the blogs and message boards, I have been trying to read them on my phone, but replying is difficult.
My beginning is close....just trying to reach it again.
Friday, August 17, 2012
It has been an exceedingly long week for me. A lot of stress and many bumps in the way.
Today was my last day with my company and Monday we start for the new owners. This week has just been totally crazy. I cannot believe it myself when I think of just how much paperwork that I processed through today! I do not mind big projects in the least...its doing all the teeny tiny things that irritate me!
I got a lovely email from one of my supervisors telling me how much she appreciated me 'working my a$$ off' and I thanked her for the opportunities she gave me when she hired me. She wrote back saying that if I ever moved out to that area, and needed a job, she would hire me again in a heartbeat and to keep in touch with her.
I appreciate feedback of any sort and I am a bit of an attention-princess at times. It was even more appreciated because I know how busy this week is for her too and she took time out to write me a personal email.
I am not happy about how my diet went this week, but I am being 100 percent honest when I say that I didn't have time to do it right. I skipped a lot of meals at work, and when I wasn't skipping meals, I was skipping snacks. And veggies were all but nonexistent this week.
No working out tonight either due to being at work for 11 hours with no break, and nothing to eat between noon and 6:30 and by the time I got home, we just decided to go out to eat. The place we wanted to go was packed with a 25 minute waiting time for a table, so we ended up hitting the chinese buffet.
I will say that although I overate, I did much better than usual and since I didn't have a chance to eat much today, I was probably still within calories. Chinese buffet is such a huge trigger for me! I had one trip to the buffet for a little of my favorites, and one trip to the salad bar. I figured that if my head was screaming for me to take another trip up there...it was getting salad! S, I ate salad and now feel stuffed to the eyeballs. We made a trip to GameStop and then to Walmart before we had to pick up my son and the walking helped settle things some.
I am feeling very full and satisfied, both with Chinese food and the satisfaction of knowing that I did a great job at work today....all week for that matter! Heck....make that for the last couple of weeks!
Tomorrow, my beau and I go out to Baton Rouge for his insurance license testing so he can start his new job Monday, so I am doubting that I will get any exercising done tomorrow either.
Sooooo, Sunday is it for me, back on track, back on food plan, back on tracking cals, and back on jogging!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
I appreciate all the lovely comments on my blog yesterday. I don't get 'those' days too often, everything just snowballed up on me and being short on sleep for so long just made it all seem that much worse. I am usually a 9 hour a night person and I have been going for about a month now on 6 hours or less.
We are missing Ferris, but glad that he isn't hurting anymore. We found a resting place for him in a nice little patch of woods that I drive right by most days in my errand-running for work. We gave him a nice soft towel and a box with crinkly paper in it...two of his favorite things.
He was always so cute after a bath, all frizzy and hopping around or burrowing in a towel to dry off and keep warm.
Work was more bearable since the new company was not there, my phone still rang off the hook and everyone still needed me to do this and that, but at least there wasn't the background noise of a dozen truckers there all day long! Lots of noise wrecks my nerves most of the time.
With all the hours I have been putting in at work, I have been eating like total garbage. I even ended up stopping by BK this afternoon for lunch. I thought I would be able to get off work just a little earlier today and it didn't work out and I didn't have enough with me to eat.
I am still waiting for my tastebuds to tell me not to eat something because it is too salty, I thought between the bacon, the burger, and small fries...SOMETHING would be too salty....but honestly, the fries didn't seem salty enough.
Between exercising and my blood pressure always having been in a good low range, I am not too worried about the salt. I drink plenty of water, but it still makes me physically uncomfortable because my fingers and toes will swell up for a day or two.
As for my ankle and knee...
My ankle is stiff if I stay off it too long and a bit sore if I stand on it too long, lol
My knee is pretty much ok, except for the missing skin from the entire front of it! Ok, maybe I exaggerate a little, but it took a two inch square bandage to cover it.
We didn't go to the gym and didn't go walking today. I am just worn out. We did go by the Fresh Market store and I got some sushi to bring from lunch tomorrow. Way healthier than what I have had for lunch all week and easy to eat. No fuss, no muss. I am also bringing lots of fruit with me. The only fruit I had today was a half cup blueberries with breakfast.
After I got home, I grabbed a protein bar before we went to the store. I couldn't figure out why I was so hungry, I think I actually drooled a little when we walked by the precut fruit trays at the store! My beau pointed out that maybe I was hungry because I didn't have my usual amount of fruit today. I felt better after dinner I had a cup of grapes.
My beau passed his pre exam for his new job and has an appointment on Saturday afternoon in Baton Rouge to take his real exam and get his insurance license. He is supposed to start work on Monday! Yay!
I am so blessed and I am stronger than these little setbacks and obstacles. I can do anything with my awesome support system!
Namaste, my SP friends and family.
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