Monday, July 07, 2014
I haven't blogged in forever!
I have been trying to keep busy and pick up any extra hours that I can at work. I also had more injections in my hips for the bursitis. It did make my blood sugar jump up, but it was to the point that I couldn't stand the pain any more. On the right side, I had one in the outside of my hip and one in the backside...on the left they did the outside and then went into the joint from the front side which HURT!
They even gave me extra whatever in my iv because I lost my breath and couldn't hold still for that one. Sad part is that it only helped me hold myself still and didn't really help the pain of the injection. I stayed hugged up to my ice packs for a few days, I even brought them to work with me, lol!
Since then, I have been doing lots better, little to no pain in my hips when I walk and riding my bike has been awesome (since I adjusted the seat and everything!)
I even made it halfway to my goal of riding my bike to and from work...half out of necessity, lol, my bro in law had to make a trip up to the U.P. this weekend and we only had one car, normally, I take my sisters car to work on the weekend but she needed it. I told her I would take my bike to the bus for work and then ride home because the bus doesn't run as late on Saturdays. She gave me cab fare and was griping that I could ride my bike some other time, I finally took the money and told her that I would lock my bike up somewhere and use it if I HAD to.
2 miles to the bus, popped my bike on the rack, worked my shift and rode my bike ALL THE WAY HOME!!!!!
My gps said 8.5 miles. I was so surprised when I made it, even more surprised that I could walk afterwords! The next day (yesterday) I was sore when I got up, but after some caffeine and excedrin, I loosened up about halfway through my shift at work and have been feeling pretty good since then.
I haven't pushed myself too much with the walking, I am just afraid that I will hurt a hip and they said no more steroid injections for me for at least 6 months!
My brother got married on Friday the 4th and it was lovely! It is a second marriage for both of them so it was very casual. My niece was there with my baby button so I got to cuddle with him all day long! The weather was awesome, very sunny out and not too hot, the only drawback was it was over an hour ride to get there and there are a lot of parades on the 4th, lol!
He and his new wife have been together for a couple of years, they go together like cake and ice cream! They both have kids and they all get along as well.
I will say that as much as I hate the job situation here in Illinois, I am glad to be back home with my family!
I was worried that this summer was going to be brutally hot because the winter was so frigid this year, but so far it is tolerable...although my time spent down south may have helped it not seem so bad, lol!
I have been trying to stay caught up on reading blogs, I am so wiped out by the end of the night, I am usually out cold around 9:30...10 if I push it, lol! I don't comment often, but I do keep up with y'all!
Monday, June 16, 2014
I was walking in to work yesterday and saw a (blood glucose) test strip laying in the crack of the sidewalk and thought about this meme....and yes, I pronounce it me-me!
I know I must have had a big, dorky grin on my face because I almost laughed out loud!
Thursday, June 12, 2014
These are my comparison pics from 2012, on the left, to today, on the right. Front, back, left, and right sides.
While I CAN see the improvement, especially in my belly and the lumpiness of my butt, I still hate my general shape. I know now that my hips have a lot of swelling (hence all the injections recently), and there isn't much I can do about that. I take an anti inflammatory and have been getting steroid injections for a few weeks now.
I keep telling myself that I know I won't be happy with my general body shape when I reach my goals, but I am 42 and don't have to impress anyone in a bikini. MY beau loves me for me and I am doing this for my health first and foremost. Any aesthetic improvement will only be icing on my cake.
Now that I have blah blah'd to put off the inevitable (if you have a weak tummy, turn back now!)....here goes.
Tuesday, June 03, 2014
Tonight was the first time I was able to bike 5 miles at once. (5.5 to be exact)
I think it will still take me awhile to build up to biking to work though. It is 10 miles one way, then I will have to work a shift on my feet, then 10 miles back...my goal is to be able to accomplish this at least once by fall.
In the meantime, I am going to make some adjustments to my bike seat and see if I can take some of the stress off of my knee...I am pretty sure that I just need to raise the seat so I can get a full extension on my knee.
Monday, June 02, 2014
Maybe this is a bad analogy, but it is stuck in my head lately...People who lose a limb or body part often get phantom sensations. I know that when my mom had part of her leg amputated, she would have pain, itching, or tickling in her foot. She had this for years until her nerve endings healed and her brain caught up with the fact that this part was no longer there.
After having to get smaller shirts for work recently, I got to thinking....I have phantom fat.
I have lost 52 pounds so far and I can SEE in the mirror how much my body shape has changed. I can SEE the difference in the tape measure, and I can SEE how much fabric I was having to stuff into my pants. (Dress code requires tucked in shirts) I bought a new belt a couple months ago and I am already down to the smallest hole. And my pajama pants hang off my hips because I don't want to fumble with the tie string on them at night when I have to pee, lol!
But having to replace all my work shirts...I would have never thought of it without prompting.
A very good friend of mine at work mentioned that I curve inwards at my waist, in fact, the word she used was tiny. (She is well endowed and also straight-waisted)
Being one that has always hated the shape of my body, I deflected her compliment. She was having none of that, she is so supportive and always points out how hard I am working to me.
For now, I still feel like I take up the same amount of space.
I have no idea what size to try on at the store when I shop.
I have been surprised lately when I see myself in the mirror.
I mind it just a bit less and less that I have to tuck in my shirt at work.
Wearing actual JEANS that don't stretch is also something that is very new and hard for me to wrap my head around...I keep waiting for them to pinch my thighs or cut my stomach in half so I can't breath, but so far so good!
It seems silly that my conscious brain KNOWS things that my subconscious brain can't or won't grasp....silly in the fact that I always considered my sub-c to be the part that keeps me alive.
It signals my lungs to breathe, my heart to beat, and tells me to move my hand away from a flame, etc.
It is the part that keeps me from smacking myself in the face when I touch my nose, one might think that it should know better shouldn't it? If it knows where my body is in relation to itself, it should know how much room it takes up.
Me and my phantom fat....that is our 2 cents!
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