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Monday, July 07, 2014

I haven't blogged in forever!
I have been trying to keep busy and pick up any extra hours that I can at work. I also had more injections in my hips for the bursitis. It did make my blood sugar jump up, but it was to the point that I couldn't stand the pain any more. On the right side, I had one in the outside of my hip and one in the backside...on the left they did the outside and then went into the joint from the front side which HURT!
They even gave me extra whatever in my iv because I lost my breath and couldn't hold still for that one. Sad part is that it only helped me hold myself still and didn't really help the pain of the injection. I stayed hugged up to my ice packs for a few days, I even brought them to work with me, lol!

Since then, I have been doing lots better, little to no pain in my hips when I walk and riding my bike has been awesome (since I adjusted the seat and everything!)
I even made it halfway to my goal of riding my bike to and from work...half out of necessity, lol, my bro in law had to make a trip up to the U.P. this weekend and we only had one car, normally, I take my sisters car to work on the weekend but she needed it. I told her I would take my bike to the bus for work and then ride home because the bus doesn't run as late on Saturdays. She gave me cab fare and was griping that I could ride my bike some other time, I finally took the money and told her that I would lock my bike up somewhere and use it if I HAD to.
2 miles to the bus, popped my bike on the rack, worked my shift and rode my bike ALL THE WAY HOME!!!!!
My gps said 8.5 miles. I was so surprised when I made it, even more surprised that I could walk afterwords! The next day (yesterday) I was sore when I got up, but after some caffeine and excedrin, I loosened up about halfway through my shift at work and have been feeling pretty good since then.
I haven't pushed myself too much with the walking, I am just afraid that I will hurt a hip and they said no more steroid injections for me for at least 6 months!

My brother got married on Friday the 4th and it was lovely! It is a second marriage for both of them so it was very casual. My niece was there with my baby button so I got to cuddle with him all day long! The weather was awesome, very sunny out and not too hot, the only drawback was it was over an hour ride to get there and there are a lot of parades on the 4th, lol!
He and his new wife have been together for a couple of years, they go together like cake and ice cream! They both have kids and they all get along as well.

I will say that as much as I hate the job situation here in Illinois, I am glad to be back home with my family!
I was worried that this summer was going to be brutally hot because the winter was so frigid this year, but so far it is tolerable...although my time spent down south may have helped it not seem so bad, lol!

I have been trying to stay caught up on reading blogs, I am so wiped out by the end of the night, I am usually out cold around 9:30...10 if I push it, lol! I don't comment often, but I do keep up with y'all!

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KAREN608 7/7/2014 2:51PM

    Wow, shots, biking, wedding, babies... your blog has it all.
Our humidity has been brutal this past week. So glad you are in less pain now and enjoying life!

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ARNETTELEE 7/7/2014 2:50PM

  Welcome back!

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I totally had a meme moment!

Monday, June 16, 2014

I was walking in to work yesterday and saw a (blood glucose) test strip laying in the crack of the sidewalk and thought about this meme....and yes, I pronounce it me-me!

I know I must have had a big, dorky grin on my face because I almost laughed out loud!

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LOLATURTLE 6/17/2014 12:11PM

    hahaha! I love Fry. I love Futurama. I love memes. :)

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ALICIA214 6/17/2014 12:36AM



Good one...

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KAREN608 6/17/2014 12:17AM

    Glad you had a happy moment!

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ADARKARA 6/16/2014 10:30PM

    emoticon That's a good one!

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I hate pictures! But I am posting them anyways!

Thursday, June 12, 2014

These are my comparison pics from 2012, on the left, to today, on the right. Front, back, left, and right sides.

While I CAN see the improvement, especially in my belly and the lumpiness of my butt, I still hate my general shape. I know now that my hips have a lot of swelling (hence all the injections recently), and there isn't much I can do about that. I take an anti inflammatory and have been getting steroid injections for a few weeks now.

I keep telling myself that I know I won't be happy with my general body shape when I reach my goals, but I am 42 and don't have to impress anyone in a bikini. MY beau loves me for me and I am doing this for my health first and foremost. Any aesthetic improvement will only be icing on my cake.

Now that I have blah blah'd to put off the inevitable (if you have a weak tummy, turn back now!)....here goes.

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KAREN608 6/13/2014 12:13PM

    Small improvements are still improvements. You go girl! You do such amazing amounts of exercise with your job and walking etc. You inspire me.

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LOLATURTLE 6/13/2014 7:56AM

    I hate pictures of me too! they are a great way to see progress though. hope to see a third set in a few months! :)

Take some inches measurements, too. It's fun to see how much your inches can change, especially in places where you might not notice in photos!

You can see in your photos that you have built some muscles! Keep at it!

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BILL60 6/13/2014 7:27AM

    Well done!! Keep it up.

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Tuesday, June 03, 2014

Tonight was the first time I was able to bike 5 miles at once. (5.5 to be exact)
I think it will still take me awhile to build up to biking to work though. It is 10 miles one way, then I will have to work a shift on my feet, then 10 miles back...my goal is to be able to accomplish this at least once by fall.
In the meantime, I am going to make some adjustments to my bike seat and see if I can take some of the stress off of my knee...I am pretty sure that I just need to raise the seat so I can get a full extension on my knee.

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APONI_KB 6/12/2014 6:46AM

    Good luck with the goal. I think you're right about raising the seat. It seems like I read somewhere that if the pain is in the front of your knee the seat is too high and if its in the back of your knee the seat is too low. I'm not sure about that though.

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LOLATURTLE 6/11/2014 8:17PM

    What an awesome goal to work towards! I wish I could bike to work... It's over 15 miles, but mostly the issue is bridges/highways, no bike friendly route.

I'm looking forward to celebrating with you when you get there!!

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TADZIO 6/5/2014 10:50AM

    I bike commuted one summer -- but my commute was only 4 miles each way.

Good goal though!

Here we have buses that have racks on the front for bikes--- if you had that availability you could decide where you wanted to start your commute :)

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    emoticon You can do it!

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BILL60 6/4/2014 7:37AM

    The seat adjustment that you mention should do the trick. Good luck

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KAREN608 6/3/2014 11:49PM

    Ooh a new goal!

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Phantom Fat.

Monday, June 02, 2014

Maybe this is a bad analogy, but it is stuck in my head lately...People who lose a limb or body part often get phantom sensations. I know that when my mom had part of her leg amputated, she would have pain, itching, or tickling in her foot. She had this for years until her nerve endings healed and her brain caught up with the fact that this part was no longer there.

After having to get smaller shirts for work recently, I got to thinking....I have phantom fat.

I have lost 52 pounds so far and I can SEE in the mirror how much my body shape has changed. I can SEE the difference in the tape measure, and I can SEE how much fabric I was having to stuff into my pants. (Dress code requires tucked in shirts) I bought a new belt a couple months ago and I am already down to the smallest hole. And my pajama pants hang off my hips because I don't want to fumble with the tie string on them at night when I have to pee, lol!

But having to replace all my work shirts...I would have never thought of it without prompting.
A very good friend of mine at work mentioned that I curve inwards at my waist, in fact, the word she used was tiny. (She is well endowed and also straight-waisted)
Being one that has always hated the shape of my body, I deflected her compliment. She was having none of that, she is so supportive and always points out how hard I am working to me.

For now, I still feel like I take up the same amount of space.
I have no idea what size to try on at the store when I shop.
I have been surprised lately when I see myself in the mirror.
I mind it just a bit less and less that I have to tuck in my shirt at work.
Wearing actual JEANS that don't stretch is also something that is very new and hard for me to wrap my head around...I keep waiting for them to pinch my thighs or cut my stomach in half so I can't breath, but so far so good!

It seems silly that my conscious brain KNOWS things that my subconscious brain can't or won't grasp....silly in the fact that I always considered my sub-c to be the part that keeps me alive.
It signals my lungs to breathe, my heart to beat, and tells me to move my hand away from a flame, etc.
It is the part that keeps me from smacking myself in the face when I touch my nose, one might think that it should know better shouldn't it? If it knows where my body is in relation to itself, it should know how much room it takes up.

Me and my phantom fat....that is our 2 cents!

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    I loved this blog post! Thank you so much for givine me food for thought!!


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    I SO know how you feel, and no one seems to have the key to the mind body disconnect. I have hit my goal weight, and stayed there for 4yrs, before. When I was fit and small I still felt fat. And when I gained it all back (plus a few) I still found myself grabbing clothes off the rack that were too small and being surprised at how big I looked in photos.

Now, on this second time around, I am trying very hard to train my brain along with my body. I am only 11lbs down, but I hope that going slow this time will help me learn to 'be present' in my body.

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LOLATURTLE 6/3/2014 10:10AM

    I think this is one of the difficult and rarely discussed parts of weight loss! I think for me it was a big part of why I plateaued for over a year after losing 50lbs! It was so weird and new to be smaller, I had a hard time realizing/accepting that I still have a ways to go!

A lot of people are all positive talk about how happy they are in their new bodies, and I'm happy for them, but for a lot of us I think it's weird and difficult to adjust to being smaller - no matter how much and how long we have wanted and wished for it! If you think about it, why should it be easy to accept yourself as completely different from the way you have always viewed you? I have always either been fat, or at least THOUGHT I was fat. The last time I remember not being or feeling fat I was 7 years old. So of course it's hard to adjust!

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TADZIO 6/3/2014 8:41AM


I totally think my body has a "predetermined" weight --- now it's up to convince it to be smaller!

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BILL60 6/3/2014 7:53AM

    Congrats on your loss. Keep up the progress.

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KAREN608 6/2/2014 9:54PM

    Have not got there yet but very interesting to read about your thoughts on this. You are so busy working as well, being distracted, too. Someday you will do some measurements maybe?

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PARKSCANADA 6/2/2014 5:58PM

    Well said. I lost 60 pounds and gained back 40. I think a lot of that was because I couldn't reconcile my new body with the old one and my mindset was still that I was fat. I am back on the weight loss journey and am hoping with better knowledge and a little wisdom that I will be better able to maintain once I reach my goal weight.

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LASCHWAB 6/2/2014 5:16PM

    That's a really interesting thought and actually helps explain my own feelings too... I've lost about half the weight that I'd like to but somehow, I don't notice it or still really want to lose more. In my head, I look the same as I did when I made the commitment to lose weight. I really hope this feeling will correct itself when I reach my goal! Otherwise, how can a person be happy with where they are at? Your biog post is very helpful - I'll keep your thoughts in mind!

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