Tuesday, April 29, 2008
I'm in a whiny mood right now & need to pout. Things I don't want to accept in order to reach my goals:
- Now more than ever I have to stay at the low end of my kcal range
- Every kcal counts. That means packing in as much nutrition as possible in a small amount of kcals (feels small to me that's for sure!).
- Animal crackers aren't considered clean eating LOL, & neither are my MIL's cookies
- I need to do two-a-day workouts a few times a week
- My mind will come up w/ all sorts of enticing ways to get me to give into temptation, but I must resist!
I consider myself to be pretty disciplined most of the time, but tightening it up even more sucks! GAH! Only 26 days until vacation - time to push push push even more!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Since we actually had some decent weather over the weekend, I decided to throw in a few sprints into my workouts. Yesterday was something else: 10 burpees + 50 meter sprint + 10 jumping jacks + jog back to start + repeat 10x = fun with sprints!
The mind tries so hard to maintain the status quo. Throughout the workout, my mind kept telling me "I can't I can't I can't..." I can't do more than 5 burpees. I can't run another sprint. I can't do these freakin' jumping jacks. I can't I can't I can't. And every single time I had to set aside those thoughts & push through.
There is no better way to develop mental toughness than to work out so hard you stop thinking & can only focus on gasping for air. To reach my goals, I need to train my mind to win the fight as well as my body. I'm already confident in my athleticism; exercise is a given. It's the damned food that's killing me, & it's the mind that gets in the way. "Go ahead & eat that XYZ, you deserve it." "Why not eat that, it's only ____ kcals, you'll burn it off later today." Uhh, NO, that's not going to work anymore.
I'm taking this fight out of the gym & into the kitchen, the cafeteria, the fast food joints, & to all the vending machines of the world. No more mind games.
"Train the body, the mind will follow." -Ross Enamait.
I plan on doing exactly that.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Remember how I've been talking about alternative ways of seeing progress? Well, last night I took measurements & was disappointed with the results. Compared to 12/31/07, the only recorded loss was half an inch from my bicep. Wrist & forearm = no change. Waist (natural & navel), quadriceps & calf = increase. And yes, my weight is down from December. At first I was angry & threw a fit, but I'm feeling better today. It's all a learning experience right?
Throughout this journey, my body's followed the same pattern: lose a bunch, gain some back, maintain for awhile, repeat. The same thing happened these past few weeks. I lost 8, gained 4, & am currently maintaining. Variety is important for continually confusing the body, & looking at my training log (link at the bottom) it's high time I add some formal strength work to the cardio. Conditioning & explosiveness have been priorities; it's time to work on muscle endurance as well. My plan is to go through a second round of J. Michael's "Making the Cut" making some modifications along the way.
MTC has 4 workout days & 3 prescribed rest days. I've decided to cut rest to 1 a week, reserving the right to add a second if my body needs it. Instead of resting, I will add either a conditioning routine that emphasizes the anaerobic energy systems (ATP-CP & anaerobic glycolysis) or one that emphasizes aerobic glycolysis (a fancy way of saying sustained aerobic / steady state exercise).
Changing my workouts up means I have to change my expectations as well. My recent hope had been to lose weight primarily through cardio since my body experiences rapid muscle gains in both strength & endurance. The last thing I wanted was to gain muscle as I feared the potential overall weight gain associated with more lean mass. I know a lot of women are irrationally worried about bulking up; I seem to be a rare case where I easily gain muscle & bulk (my legs are a perfect example - quads & calves have both grown an inch after adding more squats, lunges & similar exercises to my routine). So, I need to quit fighting my body & start working with what I've got. That means relying more on non-scale methods of measuring progress. Measurements, body fat %, & how clothes fit will need to be more important than that damn # on the scale.
On a different note, I did 4 consecutive pull-ups (palms facing away from me) for the first time this morning. A few months ago I couldn't even pull myself up into starting position. I'm planning on putting chin-ups (palms facing towards me) on hold & working on pull-ups instead. Wuhoo!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Last night DH pointed out a big honking vein in my bicep; looking at my arms it seems I've got veins popping up all over the place. According to wikipedia, increased vascularity can result from the following: extremely low body fat, low retained water, high blood pressure, & muscle engorgement. I don't have low body fat, my water is higher so I'm not dehydrated, my BP is probably fine as it read normal last time, & I doubt my arm muscles have gotten that much bigger. I'm simultaneously amused, puzzled & fascinated by the physiological changes that are taking place as I keep pushing the bar higher. The main goal I've been working on (e.g. fat loss) is slow to materialize, but lots of ancillary benefits (e.g. improved fitness, increased vascularity) seem to happen w/o any deliberate/conscious thought or intention!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Yesterday my friend asked me if I'd like to be featured on the new Weight Loss Success Stories board that's going to be created at my rec center. She's the night supervisor there & this is her latest project. I immediately said yes & was introduced to a guy who's also going to be featured. He's down 100 lbs & isn't at goal yet. He's been a regular at the center as long as me (if not longer) & I saw some of his before pics. The change is amazing! He looks like a completely different man.
I don't have a lot of before pics but my friend said what I have will probably work. I'm debating whether or not to give up some pics where I'm in running tights & a sports bra only; at the time I was 30-40 lbs heavier than I am now. DH says what the hell & to go ahead & do it, & I'm sure I'll get over the embarassment of it soon enough :P
Hooray for success!
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