Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Last night DH & I were talking about what I really want when it comes to weight. A few weeks ago I decided I wanted to go for a 100-lb. loss, even though I've maintained a 75-80 lb. loss for over a year now. Some would take that as a sign that my body's happy where it's at, because I'm effortlessly maintaining. So, what do I really want?
To have food be a non-issue. To be a normal eater. To be completely relaxed around food.
I have this if-then statement in my head that doesn't follow any logical order. If I lose 100 lbs., then food will be a non-issue. The funny thing is, I've lost 80 lbs. & food's been a issue the entire time!
What do I mean by normal eating anyway? I googled the phrase & found this written by Ellyn Satter in 1987:
"Normal eating is being able to eat when you are hungry and continue eating until you are satisfied. It is being able to choose food you like and eat it and truly get enough of it -- not just stop eating because you think you should. Normal eating is being able to use some moderate constraint on you food selection to get the right food, but not being so restrictive that you miss out on pleasurable foods. Normal eating is giving yourself permission to eat sometimes because you are happy, sad or bored, or just because it feels good... It is leaving some cookies on the plate because you know you can have some again tomorrow, or it is eating more now because they taste so wonderful when they are fresh. Normal eating is trusting your body to make up for your mistakes in eating. It is overeating at times; feeling stuffed and uncomfortable. It is also undereating at times and wishing you had more. Normal eating takes up some of your time and attention, but keeps its place as only one important area of your life. In short, normal eating is flexible and moderate. It varies in response to your emotions, your schedule, your hunger and your proximity to food."
If my weight stays the same for the rest of my life but I learned how to be a normal eater, I'd be totally at peace with that.