Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I fell off the veggie wagon last night at my bday dinner out w/ family. Went 4 weeks veg & now I'm starting over. I'm more irritated that instead of coming out of the veggie closet, it was easier for me to reach for that chicken & calamari. Physically, my body felt terribly bloated & heavy. Emotionally, I felt sad & guilty that I chose convenience over conviction.
Today's a new day & I'm determined to improve on my 4 week streak! Tonight I'll be attending a lecture called "Living the Vegetarian Lifestyle," put on by a local veggie advocate group, Northwest VEG. Woohoo!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Thank you to everyone who nominated me as a SP Motivator! I am so happy & grateful to be part of this community, & for the opportunity to connect with so many wonderful people.
I truly wish everyone happiness, joy & success, however you may define it!
My journey is ever-changing & ongoing, & I hope to continue sharing & growing with Spark!
Monday, September 22, 2008
Had a girls' weekend w/ three good friends who also happen to be my biggest enablers when it comes to overeating. Today's weigh-in reflected a big gain; it'll fall off (I hope) as this week progresses & I'm back in a normal eating routine. Will compensate by eating closer to the low end of my calorie range & go for longer cardio sessions (40-60 mins.).
My friend D & I came up w/ an accountability plan called "For Reals, Not for Fakes." We've agreed to the following:
1. Pick a baby step that can be accounted for daily.
2. Check-in with each other at the end of each day, either by phone, text or email.
3. Follow the baby step for 2 weeks, then re-assess & either add on, replace, or continue w/ the baby step.
My baby step for 9/21 - 10/5 is to be cookie-free. So far so good :)
Friday, September 19, 2008
CINDESHELLI, one of my Spark Friends, came up w/ this great idea of listing 27 goals to accomplish during her 27th year. I'm stealing her idea since my 27th birthday is next Tuesday, the 23rd. I've decided to come up w/ 9 goals for 3 categories: body, mind & spirit.
27 For My 27th - Body
1. Hood to Coast 2009
2. Cedar Hills Fitness Challenge 2009
3. 18% BF (I'm currently at 23%)
4. Buy a 2-piece swimsuit
5. Lose the last 25 lbs. to bring my grand total to 100
6. Take two consecutive terms of yoga class
7. Set a new PR for Work Capacity 101 - Current PR is 10 rounds in 20 minutes*
8. Become a regular fitness instructor at my rec center (I'm currently on the substitute list)
9. Love & accept my body unconditionally!
*Here are the instructions for Work Capacity 101. Begin a new circuit of the following four exercises on every second minute, resting approx. 30-45 seconds until starting the next cycle. The exercises are:
1. Pull-ups x 5 (change to body rows if fatigue sets in)
2. Medicine ball slams x 10
3. Burpees x 15
4. Jumping jacks x 20
27 For My 27th - Mind
1. Read "Basic Economics" by Thomas Sowell
2. Read "Applied Economics" by Thomas Sowell
3. Find 3 killer vegan recipes that can be my go-to dishes for food days & potlucks
4. Attend NorthwestVEG's "Living the Vegetarian Life" presentation on 9/24/08
5. Enroll in a vegetarian cooking series offered at my rec center
6. Take an Excel 2003 course through MindLeaders.com
7. Read "The Worldly Philosophers: The Lives, Times, & Great Ideas of the Great Economic Thinkers" by Robert Heilbroner
8. Visit the Portland Art Museum, the Chinese Gardens or the Japanese Gardens
9. Continually engage my mind in lifelong learning!
27 For My 27th - Spirit
1. 90 day streak of intuitive eating
2. Go to church w/ my sister at least three times
3. Write in a gratitude journal 5 days a week
4. Sponsor 1 cat from the Oregon Humane Society
5. Sponsor 1 dog from the Oregon Humane Society
6. Become the Red Cross blood drive coordinator for my company
7. Attend at least 2 OA meetings a month
8. Create a personal, solitary retreat weekend
9. Explore different experiences to keep deepening an authentic spirituality!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I'm addicted to fad diets. This aha! moment hit me last night after doing some reading. Yes, there are certain foods that when eaten, cause me to feel unbalanced on all levels, but the core addiction is to fad diets.
I love the thrill & excitement that precedes a new diet. I drool with anticipation when I come up with meal plans, exercise routines & food substitutions. I can't get enough of what each one promises: the Thin Fantasy I have about what my life will look like when I finally lose the last 20 lbs.
In my fantasy, I feel: empowered, confident, warm, safe, strong, proud, self-assured, secure in myself, invigorated by being alive, passionate, happy & calm & peaceful, trusting of & trusted by others, accepting of my self & acceptance from others, spontaneous, creative, independent, intelligent, competent, like a leader & not a follower, purposeful. I want more of these in my everyday life.
More importantly, I want my need for human connection (e.g. affection, appreciation, closeness, support, trust, etc.) to be met. I want my need for honesty, integrity, & authenticity to be met. I want my need for autonomy, play, well-being, & inner peace to be met.
I can't use fad diets & Thin Fantasies any more, but I also can't imagine how I'm supposed to quit using them. Fortunately, I've got OA in my corner, both on SP & IRL. Here's to finally recovering from disordered eating & being free from food/weight/diet obsession!
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