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Thursday, June 21, 2007

So at work today, this dude called me "Red". I was so confused until I remembered that my hair is red now! :D YAY!

I've always thought that "Red" was an adorable nickname and now I can be called that! hahahaha. I should put some new pictures on here sometime soon.

Also I had my Annual Review at work, it was pretty much BS, but I'll get some piddly raise of some sort for having muddled through a year. The rules are all wack -- they're not allowed to tell me how much or when I will see the money until they get an email from someone saying it's been changed. Weird huh? So ... it was ok, but yeah I still have no idea how it will affect my pay rate.


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GUGIE76 6/21/2007 9:09PM

    wow "red" - that's too cool!!!! and to have the confidence to like being singled out instead of wanting to dive under the nearest desk - that's even better!

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Monday, June 18, 2007

SO! Today I weighed in at 243.5! WOOOHOOOOOOO!!! :D I'm back on a roll! :D I am soo close now to 50lbs lost and HALFWAY to my goal. Which is good. Because it's almost halfway through the year.

ALSO. The biggest news -- the DH is going to the gym and letting me help him by tracking his food and packing some stuff for him to eat at work. I hope I don't get to lazy and I can keep it up. And him too. But I'm very proud of him.

SAD news. :( I didn't get that job. WAHHHHHHHHH!

But overall I'm feeling ok today.

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GUGIE76 6/21/2007 9:08PM

    wow - you are losing like crazy!! such an inspiration and that 1/2 way mark makes it seem like it's really happening - you're really gonna do it this time - cuz you already are!! so sory about the job, but something tells me the growth you're making on spark and in your life will take you to just where you need to be when you need to be there - you're proactive and that's what leads to success in all aspects of your life!!! so happy for you!!!!

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MAGNETMAMA 6/21/2007 6:54AM


Sorry hat you didn't get the job you wanted, but sometimes, there is seomthing even better for you around the corner, just keep you options open and look at this as a learning experience and also practice at interviews and keeping your resume current and tailored for whatever position you are seeking.

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HICAT2 6/19/2007 4:31PM

    Congratulations! getting real close.
A better job will come along

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Job stuff...

Thursday, June 14, 2007

SOOOOOOOO. I finally got the guts to ask the HR lady SOMETHING about it at least so I can stop worrying. I heard a rumor from someone (that I don't know how they could even know anything about it so I dunno why I let it bother me BUT) she said that someone had been hired for the position I applied for so I was worrying and all. And I was like, how am I going to find out without sounding all like anxious and horrible? hahaha So I emailed the HR lady and was like, hey, sorry to ask about this, but I've never applied for an internal position here before, so I was wondering if you will email me once a decision is made or how does that work? I figured it would sound more like I was asking about the process than about the position itself, which made me feel less needy.

HOW SILLY AM I? Anyway. I was so mad before because I was like, how could they have decided and she didn't even tell me? Well it turns out I was all worked up for nothing. She said that she would be emailing me when it happened SOOOOOOOO. I still don't KNOW anything except that the rumor was untrue and that I will know one way or the other. Which is good.

So anyway. Ate Indian last night. SO GOOD. And apparently I didn't pick anything too bad according to the Nutrition tracker (assuming it was guessed at correctly). Also the scale went down this morning and not up, even though it's that TOM, SO! I'm pretty jazzed about that and hoping it's not a fluke. :D haha.


Ego Boost! :)

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

So, I had to go to the health department today to get my next refills on BC, and I tell you what, that nurse made me feel SO GOOD about my weight loss. :) Sometimes in the week to week anxiety over "1lb loss 3lb loss please let me lose SOMETHING", we forget about the long run. I have lost over 40lbs!!! That is a huge achievement!!!

Anyway, the nurse was so awesome. She was like, good JOB, Miss Dana! :D hahahah It was adorable. She asked me what I was doing, and I briefly told her about SparkPeople.com. I wish I had a little card with me to give her so she could remember it. But yeah.

In October 2005 I went and weighed in at 265. Last December when I went in I weighed 294. My chart in there says 289 so I wonder if the nurse felt bad for me and guesstimated it could be less? hhahaha but there is no way I can forget seeing those numbers on the scale because that was the MAIN catalyst for me turning my life around and getting healthy. There was NO WAY. NO WAY. I would ever weigh over 300lbs.

Well I visited again on (checked blog) March 23rd, and at that point in time I weighed in at the Dr's at probably 270 or so. (My records say the Monday after that I weighed in at 266, but I remember thinking at the Dr's office, hey that's more than I weighed in this morning!) so anyway. At that point in time the nurse was impressed and pointed out that I was almost where I was when I first started seeing them.

Now this time I proudly weighed in at 249! :D Now I'm weighing in at home at 247, but that's like, first thing in the morning, naked. hahaha So after breakfast fully clothed at the Dr's at 249 was soooo exciting! :) I'm BELOW 250!!!! I mean, I've been there but it just took then for me to really FEEL it. Because she was using one of those old school manual scales, and you know how there's the BIG counterbalance, and it had to move DOWN so that she could get the right lbs.

Oh it was great. hahahaha

Just had to share, because that moment was very gratifying to me!

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GUGIE76 6/12/2007 8:45PM

    omg - what a fantastic moment to remember - for a very long time - you're so right - we get so caught up in the weekly lbs - you are just doing so amazing!!! i am so happy for you and so happy that you're happy - that's the best part of all!!! woohoo - go you!!!!

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Monday, June 11, 2007

Oh me oh my. So one of my lovely fellow sparkers informed me that SparkPeople recommends re-calculating your calorie goals every 10 lbs lost. Obviously I haven't done it since I started, and considering I upped my cardio by 15 minutes at a certain point that probably helped compensate for the fact that I didn't change anything, and also I never really topped out my calorie range, I was gradually trying to get lower and lower. WELL. I finally actually recalculated it after hearing that news and it's just a LITTLE lower than I thought it would be, but I think I will be able to handle it pretty easily. I usually end up aiming around 1500 calories a day, and my max on the new calculation is 1650. It just means less margin of error for me really.

I would before occasionally be like, well actually I CAN eat such and such, it'll fit in my calories, but today I won't. Or I will. Depending on the day. Considering how much lower my max is now (from 1830 to 1650 = 180 cal), I probably was sometimes over what I really should have been eating on certain days.

I participated in a challenge on Tall Lady Sparkers to track calories for a week and find the average, and my average came out to like... 1529 or something? So I guess I'm already on track to meet my new ranges...

I'm just scared! It seems like so much less! Just the numbers... but I know it's really not. 180 calories is NOT that big a difference. I'm sure I will be able to adjust easily. I wonder what it would be like to try to maintain? I will have to go play in my dummy account out of curiosity.


Old Ranges:

1480-1830 calories
35-71 fat
166-297 carbs
??? protein (I never really looked at protein... I think the max was 160. Min ... ?

New Ranges:

1300-1650 calories
34-60 fat
174-252 carbs
60-136 protein

I wonder why the minimum carbs went up? Is it because I upped my excercise? Either way, I think it will be quite manageable and I'm excited. I'm really hoping that embracing this new range will help jumpstart my weight-loss back to bigger numbers.

This week I only went down .5lb and although I am very happy that I was able to show a loss at all, I want MORE. :D I'm just barely on track for my year end goal and I do not want to extend it if at all possible.


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GUGIE76 6/11/2007 10:17PM

    i do wish you all the luck in the world - but you don't need luck - you're doing great with new found skill and attitude!! i totally understand the feelings your feeling about the calorie range changing - i recalculated mine last week and although it's much higher than yours i lost almost 100cals/day and that made me nervous - i thought - ok - i was doing this, bt had my hard days...what happends when i have a hard day and i have fewer calories??? it's ok though - cuz even now i'm adjusting to knowing my new limit - when you're living it i guess it happends fast..lol...but you are an inpiration to me and your comments always mean a lot - thank you so much!!!

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CARTERM2 6/11/2007 5:03PM

    Way to keep on top of your plan! I didn't know you even could recalculate calories. What part of the webpage allows you to do that? Keep up your fabulous progress!!! :)

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