Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Sorry for the morose title, but I wanted to give a small update without getting anyone's hopes up.
We went to the shelter again today -- kinda to look again, but mostly to ask if they had a record of where he was picked up before as a stray so we could put flyers there -- turns out it was WAYYYYYY out in the county area outside of city limits and highly unlikely he would make it that way again so we decided against that but it was worth a shot.
I really feel we've done everything we can at this point:
1. He had his ID tags and is microchipped.
2. Regular visual searches of the nearby area, walking calling, etc.
3. Laminated flyers up in the apartment complexes surrounding the area he was missing.
4. Regular flyers up in businesses (restaurants, very nearby WalMart, a few drink machines, local laundromat) and stuck in newspaper boxes for the few houses nearby.
5. Flyers taken by me to every Vet, Humane Society, Shelter I could find, checking that they scan for microchips as well.
6. GIANT FLOURESCENT posterboards with our flyer in the middle stating LOST DOG REWARD in 5" high letters stuck up at major intersections nearby.
7. Websites - listings on every free classifieds for the area and every free lost dog website I could find, including the local animal shelter's listing and the County Sherriff's office missing pet listing, etc.
8. A Facebook Group - to be circulated among people in the area to spread his photos and info to local folk.
9. Newspaper Ad - running for 30 days.
10. Calling daily to ensure his information is read on a local hotline -- they change the message each day with a bulletin from messages people leave describing animals they have lost and animals found.
11. Placed an item of clothing saturated in his scent (the hoodie I was wearing when holding him for the drive to and from my in-laws) on our porch to help him scent our place.
This is the hard part because now, other than regularly checking the websites/paper/hotline (and adding our message to the hotline each day because they clear it out everyday) and occasional walks and diligent looking... it's WAIT time. But I do get the feeling when praying that I need to be patient and have faith -- I'm REALLY trying but it's SO HARD.
I'm finding it difficult to focus on anything, yet at the same time in need of distraction. It's almost like I suddenly got a weird backwards version of ADHD and I NEED constant short burst of stimulation or else I sit and just think about him.
It's been STORMING regularly since he went missing and raining almost the rest of the time. Not only is it heartbreaking to think of him being out in that, but we believe it is hindering his getting found. (Probably hunkering down hiding and if not, who has the motivation to go in the rain and chase down a wet dog even if they happen to be out in that weather other than squinting through a windshield in the pouring rain??!?!)
I tell you I keep thinking about a time when my husband wanted to pick up a stray dog and I was feeling iffy about it and by the time we turned around he was gone. I will never do that ever again. If I see a stray dog, we are getting that baby and if he has no ID, taking him in somewhere. I wouldn't ever want someone else going through what we're going through because of me feeling inconvenienced. grr. I just hope that karma isn't playing a role in this event.
In any case -- I ate like nuts Saturday and Sunday with VERY VERY VERY little sleep. No real exercise except walking and some jogging looking around for him.
Then I decided it'd be really great to weigh myself on Monday.
The scale said 181 -- which I'm thinking is a big fat lie.
I'm sure I gained SOME legit weight because of Christmas, but most of that has to be water weight/stress/fluctuation from little sleep... whatever.
Regardless -- I've cracked down on my eating and I'm aiming for at or below 1500 cal (never to go below 1200) at the moment. I'm not tracking, but mentally estimating and sticking to good healthy staples that I am fond of. Gonna head to the gym tomorrow (gotta renew my membership and locker ANYWAY). Finally did grocery shopping this morning. I woke up at 7AM. (which for me is EARLY) It was better than 5AM from the day before. I just can't sleep right now with this stuff bugging me.
But in order not to mope (and be productive) I went grocery shopping. So at least we have food!!! I picked up very convenient items but made sure not to get anything super high in sodium at least. We have some sandwich fixings for some awesome sourdough bread I picked up at the health food store Saturday, Salad Pockets, Veggie Burgers (and buns), light chips (sun chips and baked lays) for my DH who is a chip addict, and they're ok enough for me to partake a bit, a box dinner of an awesome Indian thing (I can't remember what it was...), um.... I got some bananas and egg beaters and pears and string cheese and yogurt and sugar free jello pudding and cereal... yeah. Good stuff. OH and meat and crushed tomatoes and pasta. For Pasta w/ meat sauce obviously... we still have some Green Giant frozen veggie packages.
So it's not the most ideal for me -- not very CLEAN eating for a lot of it... but... I really tried to pick the best convenience foods I could. I don't feel like cooking and DH doesn't feel like cleaning, so I wanted to make it easy enough that we didn't keep getting tempted to eat CRAP.
Also since (according to my bloated stressed weighin) I have about 14-16lbs to lose to feel comfortable within my maintenance range again, I did sign up for my company's SCALE BACK ALABAMA team this year. Weigh-in is happening the week of the 10th, so I figure I probably will still be kinda high then maybe... even if 4-6lbs drop off from water weight or something, I could still lose 10lbs without being dangerous to myself or anything.
The program is to lose 1lb a week for 10weeks -- people that lose 10lbs during the contest time frame get entered into a drawing for small cash prizes, and a team that maintains all it's members from start to finish and has each member lose 10lbs is eligible for larger cash prizes.
I figure with 30+ people participating it's not likely we'll qualify for the group prizes so even if I don't REALLY end up losing 10lbs, it'll at least give me a group of people to be accountable with while trying to work off Christmas and stress gain.
So that's the whole truth and the full update!!!!!!!! I ate badly over Christmas break and I compounded it with terrible stress induced emotional bingeing, but I stopped the rollercoaster after the weekend and I'm getting back on track.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
I am totally devastated and heartbroken.
He broke his leash while out w/ my DH yesterday. We've searched all over but couldn't find him. He has tags and is microchipped, but we are still terrified of losing him.
After the breakin things were really startign to feel looking up again but this has just ruined all of my hopeful feelings. (I also ate completely recklessly yesterday -- almost DEFIANTLY unhealthy after finding out...)
I don't want to do ANYTHING. But run looking for him and sit and cry and do nothing.
We've posted flyers everywhere, posted on every lost dog page I can find, notified the microchipping service, and when the shelters/vets are open we'll be giving flyers to all of them as well.
Please -- I feel so needy asking this again -- but if any of you are the praying type, please lend a prayer that our Roscoe returns to us safely. If you don't pray -- consider him in your thoughts.
I'm not sure when I'll be back on Sparks...
Friday, January 02, 2009
So to sum up -- I ate a megaton of not healthy food over vacation.
I dunno if it was a combo of stress/boredom/lots of unhealthy food available and not so much healthy food/feeling like I had to EAT IT ALL NOW cause when vacation's over I'm not eating this anymore! I have no idea. Also TOM started at the beginning of vacation. HAHAHA.
But anyway -- I'm so over it.
The good stuff? I worked out. I ran a little bit, did some powerwalking interspersed with Jillian Michael's kickboxing moves from her cardio kickboxing video, um..... did a BIT of ST circuit training indoors, but mostly I got frustrated with that because the resistance bands weren't really challenging me. One morning I tried an upper body strength yoga video but after about 6 downward dogs in a row, my wrists/hands were like NO MORE. And then all pushup attempts after that were like, not gonna happen.
But I DID workout.
I ran with my sweetface doggie!
And I occasionally ate something kinda healthy. :P HAHAHA.
But now I'm sooooooo ready to get back to my NORMAL life. And guess what -- NORMAL for me these days is HEALTHY and ACTIVE. :) I LOVE that.
My clothes all still fit and whatnot, but I have to admit my smallest jeans are feeling a bit snug. :P
I'm going to wait to weighin until I've had some good healthy on track time to mitigate the damage.
1/15/09 will be my TWO YEAR Sparkiversary.
This time last year I was at about 197-199lbs I think. I came back from vacation at 199, and then after a bit of work got to 197 very shortly afterward.
I can't say how much I weigh today exactly, but I'm assuming less than 175 still at least. And I know I'm much stronger and more fit than last year.
In 2008 I:
Did MAKING THE CUT! :D I started that joker at like the end of February last year. That rocked. It was tough -- but since then I've been able to perform the same workouts and do TWO reps of each circuit instead of only one. I'm considering doing another FULL round of MTC with two reps of each circuit really soon... like maybe starting next week?
Ran 2 more 5k's and improved my 5K race personal best from 2007's 40:20 (1st 5K), to 5/3/08's 33:36! :D I also ran a 10K distance for the first time ever! :D
I achieved a 23% Body fat goal on 5/11/08 after starting at 29.1% on 1/12/08!
I GOT IN THE POOL!!! I haven't really accomplished any major swimming goals as far as skill is concerned, but the fact that I bought a swimsuit, got in the pool, and started teaching myself to swim means a lot to me.
AND OH YEAH.
I ENTERED MAINTENANCE. :) I switched into maintenance mode on 7/21/08 and have maintained in my range of 165-170 since then. Truthfully I went a bit over after Thanksgiving, and probably am a bit over right now -- but because after getting back on track and a bit of work I was able to recover my maintenance range after an obvious splurge time, I'm still considering that a successful maintenance. :)
Goals for 2009:
Lower Body Fat % to 20% (Get professional measured at the gym with the Bod Pod)
Do more swimming.
Get my run back on and train for a half marathon -- also compete in an organized 10K.
Complete MTC twice in 09.
Maintain in my maintenance range for the entire year with a BIG TO-DO made on 7/21/09 to celebrate a YEAR of maintaining my weight loss. :)
Celebrate my Holidays next year in a more HEALTHY way. ;) Not by eating constantly.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I am outta here (from work) in approximately 2 hours. So thrilled. I need this vacation.
Merry Christmas to everyone!!!!
And Happy *insert appropriate holiday here* to everyone else! :D
AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I have declared my "MISSION BACK TO MAINTENANCE RANGE" a success -- weighing in this morning at 167.5, a little less than before Thanksgiving, and smack dab in the middle of my 165-170 maintenance range.
So I've reset all my numbers. Current weight back to 165 as a monument to my low number again (and so people stop commenting on my page telling me I'm ALMOST THERE!!! hahah NO PEOPLE. I'm THERE.), reset my calories burned down a bit, and all that good stuff. :D WOOHOO!!!
Still eating mostly my good healthy food -- but I have to admit we got a sweet Christmas package from a friend in England with some candy -- Whispa and Mars bars? We do not have these in the US. So I of course had to try.
And Romney's Kendal Mint Cake --
The ingredient list for this delight reads: sugar, glucose syrup, peppermint oil.
:) hehehehee. Our package said "one white one brown" which now after reading the wikipedia page apparently those are the white sugar variety and brown sugar variety. I have tasted the brown sugar. :)
Oh and some cute decorated marshmallow lollipop things.
Anyway -- I also have seen what my DH bought to stuff stockings with and it's candy, cookies, and um... a cliff bar? HAHAHAHA ;) He got the treats from the health food store and the local oriental market. HAHAHA. So it's an interesting conglomeration of treats. :)
So from here on out -- mostly healthy, 2/3 healthy meals each day plan, keep up my activity with my resistance bands and circuits and whatnot (will have HRM to track cals burned - first time while on a long vacation, I'm excited!).
:D One more work day.
Thanks for all the well wishes on vacation but I'm sure there'll be one more blog tomorrow. ;) You don't need to feel pressured to keep well wishing me even though I keep counting down. HAHAHAHAHA
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