Tuesday, November 25, 2008
People ask me about this all the time so I'm going to make a big huge blog about it!!! :)
Here are my favorite resources about loose skin:
Now that first one is a little... scammy/optimistic sounding in my opinion.. HAHAHA :D But the theories are interesting.
Here's the thing that's been on my mind -- my loose skin.
YES people. I have it. I look DARN good in clothes now, but naked, I do not look like a fitness model. I promise. ;) I have loose skin/maybesomefatstill? on my stomach -- a kinda bulgey area right above my belly button, and also some low on my abdomen that actually wrinkles a bit. Also I'm a little wrinkly on my inner thighs right were they meet my body, and in my armpit area as well.
If I bend over, my stomach/abdomen kinda hang -- same for the loose skin on my very uppermost arm.
The thing is -- it's not THAT much, and it's not noticeable AT ALL. Unless I'm naked. Or in a swimsuit and you're staring at my armpits/crotch, and in that case, what's wrong with you! HAHAHAHAHA ;) Due to modesty standards related to my religion (I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints), I don't wear tank tops, or sleeveless clothing, nothing really short either (although I don't think anyone but the most scandalous show their crotch area on a regular day to day outfit HAHAHA).
The point is, the only person that sees these things is my husband... and myself. And I know that he doesn't think (in any iota) that I look somehow WORSE now than I did BEFORE. Only a really deluded person would convince themselves that filled out nonwrinkly nonsaggy FAT ROLLS are more attractive than a bit of loose skin in spots.
Now according to the sources above, it's possible that my skin might tighten up a bit more. I've only been maintaining for a few months. I also think I could stand to gain muscle/lose fat -- not really change my weight, but maybe fluctuate it a bit to change my body composition somewhat. This can help.
But I was overweight my entire life. I'm pretty sure my stomach skin is USED to being in rolls, and hasn't been any different since I was a child. It's not likely, based on what I've read, that my skin is going to magically snap to perfection out of nowhere. Some people have amazing genetics. :D
I think of Ali from Biggest Loser and how her tummy bore no signs of loose skin around the belly button, her arms looked muscular and tight -- WHAT THE HECK?!?!?! How unfair! hahaha. (Although it's not like I've ever seen her bikiniline area... *shrug*)
Sometimes the loose skin annoys me. I work out hard and I know that if I could get rid of it, my body would look a lot better. If surgery was a reasonable option for me, I might do it. (Assuming it we could a) afford it, b) I wasn't planning to have kids in the near future and ruin it hahaha, stuff like that.) But as it is, it's not a reasonable option. My skin is not causing any physical ailments -- like some who have gastric bypass or something and lose weight so rapidly and in such large amounts that they have chafing/sores/etc. from the amount of lose skin hanging on their body. No. For me it's a relatively minor aesthetic issue.
I get sparkmails from time to time from people asking me if I have loose skin and they sound terrified. :) I understand -- to be honest, I felt the same way before I got to this side of my journey. But I think that was all fear of the unknown, fear of failure, etc, manifesting itself towards this one issue.
I would never in a million years trade being healthy for not having loose skin.
And for those of you who might be hesitating in weight loss because you're afraid of this -- STOP! GET GOING!!! Everything I've read suggests that the length of time that the skin is stretched out plays an impact in it's retained elasticity, so the longer you stall, you're lowering your chances of skin rebound. :D hehehehe.
In a way, I consider my loose skin a battle scar, and a reminder to stay on this healthy path. Maybe if I had DONE something about my weight issues in high school, when at the most I think I might have weighed 220 or something, and not for too long, maybe my skin would have been able to bounce back better. Who knows?
I still have a small amount of hope that there are some things I can actually do to improve my body, like getting those arm and back muscles I dream of :D things like that. Reducing whatever amount of fat is lingering... so I don't want to give up on my fitness efforts AT ALL!!! Being stronger and faster is a reward to me, more so than just the physical changes. :)
But at the same time I'm accepting the possibility that my physical appearance may not improve that much from this time on. And if that's true, I'm ok with it. I'm so happy with my fit and healthy lifestyle, I'm not going to bring myself down my nitpicking my body. (That's the plan anyway.)
I think that if I continued to have an attitude of being dissatisfied with small imperfections in my body, instead of appreciating my body's ABILITIES, then maybe even if I DO get a surgery later on down the road to help improve the appearance of the skin, once that's fixed I KNOW there could be some other imperfection to focus on.
Let's all love our bodies for what they do for us.
If you are just at the beginning of this healthy journey -- right now your body may not be doing a whole lot for you that you are happy about. But you are getting started. You can walk, you can sweat, you can do all kinds of wonderful things. Your body is housing your spirit here in this lifetime, and as you continue to get healthy, don't just acknowledge the shrinking sizes -- acknowledge your body's increasing accomplishments and capabilities!!!! Maybe you can begin to run, or use heavier weights in your strength training (like I did today, WOOHOO!).
If you can begin this self love now, you'll be in all the better place once the journey is through. And then making the decision to have a surgery will be really made for the right reasons and not because you think that IF you do this, THEN you'll be perfect, and be able to love your body 100%. You know what I mean?
LONG BLOG, BUT I HAD TO GET THIS ALL OUT OF MY HEAD.