Monday, February 18, 2008
UGH. I just can't find any time to relax. Well -- I had time to relax this weekend, but I blew it on Saturday and went shopping instead. It was nice to be able to do that but I came home, played Rock Band, went to a party, got home at 3AM, went to bed, got up early went to church, came home cleaned house because we had the missionaries coming over for dinner which, oh yeah, then I had to cook.
I took a nap for like... 1.5hrs. Then cooked. Then after dinner, we watched a movie - Dreamgirls! And I didn't want to go to bed because I wanted to chill and hang out with my DH, but now I'm pooped and I have to be in to work tomorrow at 8:30AM. I was planning on going to the gym tonight but I think I'm going to have to call that off. I don't think I can handle it. At least I won't be working this weekend finally.
Friday, February 15, 2008
So... I definitely did not have any actual FOOD last night. Just chocolate. My dear sweet husband got me a little mini heartshaped cake from a local bakery. It was about .... maybe 4 inches long from hump of heart to pointy heart butt. And it said _____ (hearts) Dana on it. ;) AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! And 6 chocolate covered strawberries... and some rich dark chocolate truffles made by the Target Chocolate brand CHOXIE! :) (I love their style...)
So I definitely ate 3-4 of the strawberries (I gave at least 2 to DH, maybe 3)... and most of the little cake (gave DH a couple of bites).... and 3 of the truffles. 3 of those things are 230cal, 14g of fat, of course a bunch of sugar!!! WOW!
I had ONE this morning. And everything else is healthy food today! But at least a dinner of chocolate doesn't seem to make you bloat cause this morning was 187.2 again, and at work fully clothed I weighed in for Scale Back Alabama (minus shoes only) at 188.2! WOOHOO!!! I initially weighed in at 198.6 on 1/11, so I've lost 10.4 lbs in about a month!!!! THAT'S ACTUALYL really GREAT progress for me at this stage in the game.
It's SO EASY (as I was saying to somone else recently...) to get stuck on your small recent failures and lose sight of the big picture and the overarcing curve of success. YES, I could be doing better right now -- but I'm still trying MOST of the time to be good, and I'm not COMPLETELY not working out even though I missed one workout this week...
I wonder if I'm not getting complacent with where I am right now and losing the driven-ness I used to have now that I've surpassed my 100lb goal. I know I want more, but maybe I secretly want to just CHILL for a while?
I think it's a little bit of that and also the factor of the extra work hours I've been having recently. Yesterday and today are regular 8hr days, but I also have to come in tomorrow for 6.5hrs. So if we count MON-SAT, I'll have worked a total of 58.5hrs this week at LEAST. Probably a little more since I really was here at about quarter till 9 on Mon-Wed, and my lunches haven't been full hours every time... and I get stuck a bit late sometimes at night, only a few minutes here and there, but it can add up.
I printed out some information from ISSA (was reading on Gina Wood's blog lately about how she got a job at Curves as a Fitness Instructor and was feeling slightly jealous, she got certified through them) about Certified Fitness Trainer Courses and Nutrition Performance (Performance Nutrition? I don't remember, but you get the drift...) Certifications. It's expensive -- like between $500-$600 for most of the courses like that I looked up, through various different companies last night. But if you think about the costs of like... college tuition and whatnot, it's not really that bad. There's just part of me that's really curious about what it would be like to make health/fitness my living. I'm not sure I would have what it takes, but it kind of sounds awesome.
Then there's the part of me that is like -- Dana! You can't do EVERYTHING GOOD. Yes, it would be cool to do that, but what about your other dreams? What about going back to your trombone playing? What about getting that degree in Music Education? Just the other day you were talking with that co-worker who's a teacher and kind of fantasizing about how wonderful it would be to have your own High School Band program.
And then when will you have time for any of this while being a stay at home mom, which is REALLY REALLY what you want to do???
But I do want to complete some type of degree before going into full time mom mode. I feel like that's something I need to have to prepare me for the what-ifs in this world. Maybe go back to school full time doing the Music Ed degree and complete the CFT course in At Home Study?? BOTH?!??!? Or maybe not.
I have time. I can't really move on to anything like this until my DH is finished with his schooling. Right now I'm in a supporting role for him completing his education.
LONG POST. Anyone read it all??? ;)
Thursday, February 14, 2008
UGH is for the fact that yesterday I was just plain too exhausted to go to the gym. And for the fact that I planned instead to go today and didn't.
AHH is for the fact that I actually SLEPT WELL last night and although I had to get up early still today to go get my car from my sister registered and whatnot -- I had a RELAXING MORNING and didn't come into work until my REGULARLY SCHEDULED TIME. I really feel refreshed -- which is good. Because I have to work this Saturday as well. I do not want to just get completely burned out and throw in the towel on everything.
I'm still eating well -- and I actually got to walk a bit this morning.
The stupid Courthouse Annex is on a different block than the Courthouse and is a completely... NON Courthouse-y looking building with NO identifying signs or marks other than a tiny sign in the window that lists a building permit information and the name handwritten on it? YEAH. So I drove around forever in the same couple of blocks looking for it -- then parked a couple of blocks over from the courthouse and figured if I walk the distance in between (where it's SUPPOSED to be) I'll find it. I didn't. I got to the courthouse and there was a sign in the window explaining where it was -- then I was like THAT building?!?!? It's like... a low wide building with windows lining the entire thing -- tinted windows with blinds so you can't make out anything inside. ? Anyway.
So then I go in and they tell me they have to "inspect" the car, so I have to walk back over to where I parked it and drive it over. HAHAHA. It was so cold outside, too! (I say "inspect" because the dude wrote down the VIN, Tag # and mileage (which I read to him). I don't think I'd call that an inspection, but whatever...)
Then I was looking at the time and realizing if I went to the gym, I'd be running home to get clothes for work and making a lunch and going straight to work and I am just sick and tired of running running running all the time so I was like -- well -- at least I walked a bit. I'm going home!
And that's my story!!!
Also I weighed this morning at roughly 187.6 after a pretty high sodium dinner last night, so I'm pretty relieved and the ticker is staying. We'll count next Tuesday's OFFICIAL weigh-in no matter WHAT it says and no more playing around. :P
I got my DH chipotle caramels and some special aged cheddar chips from the health food store. The calories are comparable to regular potato chips -- but the fat is almost all monounsaturated!!! If there's any saturated fat (I can't rememer), it's barely anything. So it's a special treat but it's not AWFUL for him. ;)
I couldn't wait so I presented him with that stuff this morning, but I apparently have a gift waiting for me for tonight so yay!
4 more hours of work. :P *sigh* But the afternoon went very quickly and so I think the evening will as well.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Still up today -- but we had kinda a high sodium dinner and still not enough sleep. SOOOOooooooooooooo.....
I'm also having a feminine health problem. So fellas -- TUNE OUT NOW if you're not interested.
When I went to get my hair cut and visit my sister, I forgot to bring my BC with me. I missed two pills. I took the missing ones and my scheduled one when I got back, and the next day I started bleeding. It's been a week and I'm still bleeding. It's not heavy -- well it was the first few days, but it's not stopping either. It's like JUST enough that I don't want to leave it to a liner, but not enough that I really feel like a tampon is necessary either. It's like a steady trickle at this point. It's really getting on my nerves and I'm starting to be worried since it hasn't stopped yet. Should I be worried about this? I'm also wondering if I should just start my next pack back to back without the hormone free pills because do I really need another period already???? This is the last week of hormone pills in my current pack. I really don't want to go talk to a Dr so just some thoughts -- opinions??? Anyone have this experience before? My periods are usually med flow for like 3 days as a reference point I guess.
But anyway -- I'm also kinda wondering if my plumbing being all off schedule is messing with the scale as well.
EDIT: Thank you for your replies!!! I don't have a regular Dr - I go to a Health Dept for BC, so I'm not sure who I would call. I posted to a forum on WebMD that is hosted by an RN, RNP, soooooo I'm HOPING she'll reply and not just a bunch of goobers on the site. hahaha :D The information for my BC (Lo/Ovral) says to take 2 pills a day for 2 days if you miss two days, which may be where I made the mistake, but it doesn't really go into detail about anything like my current situation. I might just try calling a nurse at the Urgent Care place I usually go for when we get sick, etc., if I can't get a reply from the nurse on WebMD. :) Thanks everyone!!!!!!!!!
EDIT AGAIN: She responded and said not to worry, and just finish out this pack normally and start a new one. She said that if the missed pills were in the 3rd active week to skip the placebos, but they were in the first active week (the end of the 1st week) so I am just going to go on as normal. Yay.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I'm down a little bit, but still up from last week as of this morning. I haven't been getting a good night's rest though and I always weigh less on a day when I get more sleep.
I'm going to hold off on moving the tracker for a while and see how it goes. I know I'll probably get to sleep well tomorrow night -- I'm still getting up super early tomorrow. :P So if Thursday Morning's weigh-in is still up, I'll face reality and move the tracker.
I think I'm going to try to remain consistent with my weigh-ins though too -- if all last week it had been getting higher and higher, that's one thing, if it jumped up the day after pizza that's another. I really don't know because I wasn't weighing as often as I usually do. I really like being able to be aware of these things. So this week it's daily weigh-ins to check my status!!!!
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