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Wednesday, November 07, 2007

WELL!! I went shopping this past Saturday. My DH agreed that I could spend some money on clothes and so I DID. But not OVERLY much because of course, I'm not quite at my goal, but I do lose sizes VERY SLOWLY it seems.

ANYWAY. I got some pants... in size 16! WOOHOO!!! That's really close to what I would consider a "normal" size. Many brands go up to 16, although a lot don't... so it's kinda that ALMOST size. If I get down to a 12/14 I will feel like I'm "normal" sized, but really, that may not be right with my frame. I guess we'll just have to wait and see!!! The sizes might go faster now that I'm smaller to begin with, who knows.

UM... and on Monday I weighed in 3lbs lighter than last week! WOOHOO!!! :)

SO. To reflect on how far I've come -- I now have 17.5lbs remaining to my goal. I actually looked it up again and it turns out healthy BMI for my height starts at 195, not 190. I'm NOT changing my goal, because I'd rather not be RIGHT on the edge of overweight. But it is exciting because it means that I actually only have 12.5lbs left to HEALTHY range.

SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

I just need to hang in there and not go back to sad if my weigh-in doesn't go well NEXT Monday.

In UN-Spark-related news... I met new guy. He's OK I think. I'm glad I don't hate him for himself, because it'd b REALLY EASY then for me to turn all my bitterness towards him. But -- he seems ok so far. So hopefully all will be well. And it's a dude. Which means I'll probably get along with him better than a girl anyway. Just my way.

OH and I forgot to mention that in tops I'm already like a 12/14 or a LARGE. NO X's ANYMORE! WOOHOOO! :) hahahaha. OK so this varies depending on brand -- but most things I'll fit a large and a few things I'm still XL. But this is very freaking exciting. :) I actually tried an XL of a top on at WalMart and I looked like I was SWIMMING in it. Not a plus brand, but still. I might have even been able to go for a medium in that style.

I tried on some DRESSES. I REALLLLY want a dress. BUT. The one I liked was WAY too short on me. it was ok when standing -- semi short... but it was well below my fingertips and only a few inches above my knees (and me being so tall that's not too short really), but then when I bent over -- NOT EVEN JUST STRAIGHT BENDING NOW, I'm talking the dress/skirt wearers sqat...

It was not good.

SO! I tried on a skirt, but it looked bizarre, and I didn't like any of the other skirts. So PHOOEY.

But I'm still pleased with what I got, and I think the items will continue to serve me well even as I shrink a bit more. I can't wait to shop more when I'm even smaller. :)

I only tried on ONE THING that was too small when I went shopping and it was a juniors size 17. They were ugly anyway.

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SLCOLMAN 11/10/2007 12:44AM

    Congrats on the new clothes and the fab sizes!!

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THICKNFIT 11/9/2007 10:20PM

    Dana Dane, congrats on the loss! You are really doing terrific.
I wear a size 14/16, but I still have a problem with buying my tops big b/c of my muffin top. :( My friend is always getting on me about that, but I hate to see chicks wearing tops that they know they shouldn't be wearing. I do own some shirts that fit me nice, and you should see me after I get dressed asking my hubby and my oldest son if it looks right on me. LOL.

Anyway, congrats again lady! Keep on doing your thang. :)

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TERRIEBNL 11/8/2007 5:26PM

    sounds like great news all around, girly girl :).. you have inspired me to get my arse in gear this week, at least by monday... Having a rough kick start... I'll get there though... gone too far to turn back now :)

See you in HPC

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    Great news! So glad to hear about your progress-keep it up and you'll be at your goal before you know it!

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LOBO1978_2000 11/8/2007 9:15AM

    That is great news. Keep it up your almost there.

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J~E~N~N 11/8/2007 1:10AM

    That all sounds great. Congrats on the progress so far

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Thursday, November 01, 2007

I didn't actually cry, THANK HEAVENS.

But I'm sure I OBVIOUSLY looked like I was holding it back.

Either that or like I was about to go postal. Hahahaha. I could feel it in my eyes... and when I was leaving the office that chin started wobbling...

But I kept it together enough not to actually let it go. *sigh*

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LOBO1978_2000 11/2/2007 9:14AM

    Keep your head up and look forward. I made my old company regret not keeping me for all the stuff I was doing and not getting good reviews every year when part of the review was setting goals of doing more than you already do. They hired 3 people to replace me. That made them lose a lot of money

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So ticked off.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Yeah, so they hired some external applicant for the position I applied for.

Guy doesn't ACTUALLY even have experience in the same field. He was a manager over loss prevention. We do collections... NOT QUITE THE SAME THING. Ok similar... and he worked for a company which is one of our clients...

But I'm still more presently qualified for the position. They just hired someone with a prettier resume. Oh and probably because the B**** Boss and her best buddy don't like me so well.

The thing I hate is that when I get really angry I get teary. And I'm not crying because I'm weak! That's just what my body does! So I'm sitting there while the boss I like is trying to be sooo nice about it and trying to tell me how there are other positions going to be available and etc.etc. and he just KEEPS TALKING way too long. UGH. Now I'm writing about it an getting angry again and it's coming back.

I applied for a position in another department... and I hope they offer it to me. So I can leave them with a vacancy to regret their decision.

But I haven't heard anything about that one yet... so.

EFF them all.

P.S. -- plus they're probably waiting to try to give me one of the other positions as long as they possibly can because if they hire me before other folks, they have yet another position to fill -- MY OLD ONE. So why pay me more when they can pay me less??? and wait. FOREVER. It's just such BS.

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LOBO1978_2000 11/2/2007 9:12AM

    Wow. That sounds really bad. I hope things start going your way.

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TOBICAE 11/1/2007 11:36PM

    I do the same thing crying. I just leak when I'm upset. And at random times. My poor husband thinks he's made me cry way too often. Good for you looking for another position. Not that it's quite the same thing, but in high school something similar always happened when I was up for a better position in band. When I was completely qualified to be a section leader in 11th grade, I got passed up by a person with no people skills that didn't play near as well as I did either, just because he was a grade ahead and seniority ruled. Then, when I tried out for drum major and just about everyone thought that I would be really good at it (a majority of them wrote it in my yearbook, actually), I got passed up for a soon to be sophomore and junior. The supposed reason was that the director needed me on clarinet, but the people he picked were 2 of his 3 tenor saxes, the third being an incoming freshman. We all knew he did it because the sophomore's mother scared him, but it made me so mad to be taken for granted like that. I almost quit band, like the guy that everyone hoped would be my co-drum major! He got the same raw deal. Sorry, I'm in a ranting mood, lol. TTYL

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AMUNET_RA 11/1/2007 10:47PM

    ((HUGS)) I do the same thing!

Grrr! I'd be so mad, too! Hope you can escape! (and I hope they regret losing you!!!)


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KATHEE3 11/1/2007 10:25PM

Don't let them get to you and don't feel you have to apoligize to anyone for crying, it's only a natural.reaction to such a big dissappointment. Just prove to them they made a big mistake!

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CASSIE_84 11/1/2007 9:47PM

    *hugs*...I am the same way when I am angry...ugh, I hate it. But yeah, that really sucks. :(

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    Holy cow, you really do work in my same office! On a serious note, I am sorry to hear about this. It's just not right. I hope things turn out for you.

And I totally do the crying thing too. I hate that I do it-feels like my body is betraying me in front of the very people that should never see me cry! Grrr...

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J~E~N~N 11/1/2007 6:34PM

    Bastards!! So sorry for ya. I know how you feel with the whole crying thing. Whenever I get upset I cry even if I'm super angry I cry. It drives me nuts :( Best of luck to you though

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Holiday Excitement!!!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007


I just am BURSTING with excitement over my holiday plans for this year. We are actually taking a nice trip to go visit my GRANDMOTHER and uncle in South Florida for the first time ever. (Well, not for ME ever, but for the WE of husband and wife EVer.) Yes, that's right, my Gma has never met my hubby. So I am VERY excited about this.

I was just talking with my mom and we nailed down what dates we're going to be where on our trip so we can reserve rooms and whatnot, so now it's feeling very real! :) We were talking about how we need to go to the beach we always went to... :D It's going to be so fun!

Plus I get to see my in-laws for Thanksgiving, so I'm very excited about that as well. Everything seems to be falling into place pretty well.

I'm also very excited to be seeing everyone so much smaller than the last time they saw me!!! (Not so much for the mother/father in law... they saw me quite recently...) But for the siblings in law that were in school in Utah and I haven't seen since May... they will be seeing a whole new me!

And MY family hasn't seen me since EASTER. :D Who knows what I looked like when I saw my Gma last... I really can't remember. It may not have been as bad as I got, but it's probably still bigger than I will be by the time we go to see them.

Well. Anyway. I'm bursting with excitement about this, but I'm still at work for another good TWO HOURS so no one to really share it with except you lovely sparkpals!!! :) So you're the first to join me in my excitement!

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SLCOLMAN 11/1/2007 2:53PM

    Woo Hoo on getting to go on a vacation!!! Enjoy the time with your loved ones!

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    Awesome! I can't wait to hear about their reactions to the new smaller you!

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LOBO1978_2000 11/1/2007 8:53AM

    That is some awesome news. That is a great feeling to be visting someone for the first time as husband and wife. I am sure your so ready to show your new self off to everyone. Keep it up. Your an inspiration to us all.

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J~E~N~N 10/31/2007 10:38PM

    That sounds wonderful. The best part will be seeing those relatives and having them comment on how wonderful you look. Have fun :)

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Slow and steady wins the race... but...

Monday, October 29, 2007

... what about slow and UNsteady???

That... completes the race?

I seem to be kinda random in my weight loss lately. Thought I was catching up to my goal pace, 2.5lbs in two consecutive weeks, and then last week 1lb, this week 1/2 a pound.

I always work hard when I go to the gym... but I don't feel supersupermotivated in my other moments lately. This week is TOM, too, so maybe that has something to do with it.

I mean, I might be getting a little sick, too... hahaha.

SO MANY EXCUSES!!! But seriously. Saturday I had to be at work at 6:30AM which happens once or twice a month, but is always torturous as I usually work from 1-10PM. I got home, watched my recorded "What Not to Wear" (which my husband hates so much he refers to it as my "devil show" hahaha) while DH was asleep, then I fell asleep on the couch. When woken up to go to the gym I was like... I'd rather keep sleeping...

I WAS SOOOO BEAT. I could have slept all day, I think.

I said to DH, so we'll go tomorrow? He was like, no, we need to do laundry tomorrow.

Then the little go-getter in me said -- I'm not missing a day at the gym!!! NO SIR! (which I actually said, minus the NO SIR!)

So I hopped up, and I was like, maybe I'll just take it a little easier today...

NOPE! I get there and I pushed myself harder than I had this week. And it felt good.

Same for DH -- well, he didn't push harder than all week, but he did more than he intended to and still felt really good. So we were very glad we went.

I guess I should be glad I lost anything because I was kinda bad last week. We decided it'd be ok to go over on Wednesday night and splurged on going to Popeye's chicken. So good! I actually could have done without the chicken, and just had the red beans and rice and the biscuit. Anyway. Even not the biscuit. Just the red beans and rice! MMM. I may go back just for that.

But anyway, I ate 2 pieces of fried chicken AND the biscuit AND the red beans and rice, and I just had that overly full feeling in my tummy like I KNEW I ate TOO MUCH FOOD. I should have stopped.

Then on Saturday, it was the gaming group and I ate too much food really.. BUT!!!

I found some hot dogs we enjoyed that are only 45 calories each!!! The kosher beef kind 97% fat free. WOW! I got oscar meyer light turkey franks or whatever... and they're fine... but... I liked that kind and they're even less calories/fat so, why not?? So that was a fun discovery. Unfortunately I had 4 of them. HAHAHAHA.

But the rest of what I ate was veggies and fruit!! And a couple baked lays.

Oh, but then I remember the pumpkin bread muffins which I had 3 of. So yeah.

I did kinda good and kinda bad. If I had had ONE muffin and like 2 hot dogs I think I would have been proud of myself.

At least I know what is GOOD for me to eat now. That is one thing I did NOT know when I started this. Just had no restraint last week, apparently.

I'm not giving myself enough credit -- I did good most days on calories. Low to mid. But truth be told I did not eat enough fruits or veggies -- I didn't go to the grocery store last week until like... Thursday. So we had no fresh produce. Now we're almost out again, just have some bananas as far as fruit is concerned.

Anyway. A so so week. I can do better, but I'm still on the right track. :)

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J~E~N~N 10/29/2007 11:44PM

    MMMM, red beans and rice are one of my Favorites.... Anyhow I just wanted to say that even if its just a 1/2 a pound you are doing a great job! Keep up the good work!

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