Wednesday, October 31, 2007
I just am BURSTING with excitement over my holiday plans for this year. We are actually taking a nice trip to go visit my GRANDMOTHER and uncle in South Florida for the first time ever. (Well, not for ME ever, but for the WE of husband and wife EVer.) Yes, that's right, my Gma has never met my hubby. So I am VERY excited about this.
I was just talking with my mom and we nailed down what dates we're going to be where on our trip so we can reserve rooms and whatnot, so now it's feeling very real! :) We were talking about how we need to go to the beach we always went to... :D It's going to be so fun!
Plus I get to see my in-laws for Thanksgiving, so I'm very excited about that as well. Everything seems to be falling into place pretty well.
I'm also very excited to be seeing everyone so much smaller than the last time they saw me!!! (Not so much for the mother/father in law... they saw me quite recently...) But for the siblings in law that were in school in Utah and I haven't seen since May... they will be seeing a whole new me!
And MY family hasn't seen me since EASTER. :D Who knows what I looked like when I saw my Gma last... I really can't remember. It may not have been as bad as I got, but it's probably still bigger than I will be by the time we go to see them.
Well. Anyway. I'm bursting with excitement about this, but I'm still at work for another good TWO HOURS so no one to really share it with except you lovely sparkpals!!! :) So you're the first to join me in my excitement!
Monday, October 29, 2007
... what about slow and UNsteady???
That... completes the race?
I seem to be kinda random in my weight loss lately. Thought I was catching up to my goal pace, 2.5lbs in two consecutive weeks, and then last week 1lb, this week 1/2 a pound.
I always work hard when I go to the gym... but I don't feel supersupermotivated in my other moments lately. This week is TOM, too, so maybe that has something to do with it.
I mean, I might be getting a little sick, too... hahaha.
SO MANY EXCUSES!!! But seriously. Saturday I had to be at work at 6:30AM which happens once or twice a month, but is always torturous as I usually work from 1-10PM. I got home, watched my recorded "What Not to Wear" (which my husband hates so much he refers to it as my "devil show" hahaha) while DH was asleep, then I fell asleep on the couch. When woken up to go to the gym I was like... I'd rather keep sleeping...
I WAS SOOOO BEAT. I could have slept all day, I think.
I said to DH, so we'll go tomorrow? He was like, no, we need to do laundry tomorrow.
Then the little go-getter in me said -- I'm not missing a day at the gym!!! NO SIR! (which I actually said, minus the NO SIR!)
So I hopped up, and I was like, maybe I'll just take it a little easier today...
NOPE! I get there and I pushed myself harder than I had this week. And it felt good.
Same for DH -- well, he didn't push harder than all week, but he did more than he intended to and still felt really good. So we were very glad we went.
I guess I should be glad I lost anything because I was kinda bad last week. We decided it'd be ok to go over on Wednesday night and splurged on going to Popeye's chicken. So good! I actually could have done without the chicken, and just had the red beans and rice and the biscuit. Anyway. Even not the biscuit. Just the red beans and rice! MMM. I may go back just for that.
But anyway, I ate 2 pieces of fried chicken AND the biscuit AND the red beans and rice, and I just had that overly full feeling in my tummy like I KNEW I ate TOO MUCH FOOD. I should have stopped.
Then on Saturday, it was the gaming group and I ate too much food really.. BUT!!!
I found some hot dogs we enjoyed that are only 45 calories each!!! The kosher beef kind 97% fat free. WOW! I got oscar meyer light turkey franks or whatever... and they're fine... but... I liked that kind and they're even less calories/fat so, why not?? So that was a fun discovery. Unfortunately I had 4 of them. HAHAHAHA.
But the rest of what I ate was veggies and fruit!! And a couple baked lays.
Oh, but then I remember the pumpkin bread muffins which I had 3 of. So yeah.
I did kinda good and kinda bad. If I had had ONE muffin and like 2 hot dogs I think I would have been proud of myself.
At least I know what is GOOD for me to eat now. That is one thing I did NOT know when I started this. Just had no restraint last week, apparently.
I'm not giving myself enough credit -- I did good most days on calories. Low to mid. But truth be told I did not eat enough fruits or veggies -- I didn't go to the grocery store last week until like... Thursday. So we had no fresh produce. Now we're almost out again, just have some bananas as far as fruit is concerned.
Anyway. A so so week. I can do better, but I'm still on the right track. :)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
ALSO. I had a bit of extra time today while shopping, so I swung by Old Navy to try on pants and see what size I really am now, also at WalMart.
In WalMart JUNIORS, apparently I'm like size 19, but in Old Navy and WalMart regular adult size jeans, not the big ladies sizes, but the normal kinds (Faded Glory), I'M ALMOST in a size 16. I can put them on, zip and everything, they're just too tight. The bummer thing is that the Old Navy jeans are like... baggy in the crotch. (not the 16's, but the slightly too big 18's) ? I remember having this problem when jeans shopping before my abdomen ... uh... FILLED OUT as much. So I'm hoping I can do better the smaller I get.
Well!!! So I'm wearing pants that are at least 1.5 sizes too big now... and probably until Christmas unless things get DIRE.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
It's funny now, but at the time it was a traumatic dream. After thinking about it, I determined I had it because I was nervous about a job interview the next day and looking schlumpy due to not having fitting clothes...
But I had this dream that I found a book in which my bigheadhonchoboss had written his opinions about the various management staff at about my level of management, including the one that recently left that I applied for her job. My title is technically a "Team Lead" and she and the other sup are "Supervisors". The distinctions basically being they're salaried and can administer disciplinary action and annual reviews. All other tasks are PRETTY much the same. ANYWAY!
I opened this book at work, and no one else was there -- it was after everyone else had gone home... somehow it was like I was sleeping there, woke up, and found the book.
So I start reading and it's talking about how awesome one of the other ones or the other is... and then it started talking about how I was horrible, lazy, and look sloppy and dirty all the time like a homeless person, and I'd never be able to make the "leap" from Lead to Supervisor. It was horribly awful.
So in the dream I start sobbing and I wake up Henry (my hubby) and I tell him, and he's like, "IM GONNA KICK HIS A**!!" Hahaha. Which was awesome.
But in the waking hours, it's kinda related to my frustrations with being told I'm not good at my job for un-job-related reasons, and also worries about looking frumpy in too big for me clothes.
There's a lady at work who says I look more and more poor everyday. That's her way of complimenting me that I'm losing weight, because poor folks can't buy clothes that fit. It's VERY AWKWARD when she says that... I think it's actually quite... I dunno... rude?!? But she means it in a nice way... so I try to appreciate the hidden compliment.
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