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Slow and steady wins the race... but...

Monday, October 29, 2007

... what about slow and UNsteady???

That... completes the race?

I seem to be kinda random in my weight loss lately. Thought I was catching up to my goal pace, 2.5lbs in two consecutive weeks, and then last week 1lb, this week 1/2 a pound.

I always work hard when I go to the gym... but I don't feel supersupermotivated in my other moments lately. This week is TOM, too, so maybe that has something to do with it.

I mean, I might be getting a little sick, too... hahaha.

SO MANY EXCUSES!!! But seriously. Saturday I had to be at work at 6:30AM which happens once or twice a month, but is always torturous as I usually work from 1-10PM. I got home, watched my recorded "What Not to Wear" (which my husband hates so much he refers to it as my "devil show" hahaha) while DH was asleep, then I fell asleep on the couch. When woken up to go to the gym I was like... I'd rather keep sleeping...

I WAS SOOOO BEAT. I could have slept all day, I think.

I said to DH, so we'll go tomorrow? He was like, no, we need to do laundry tomorrow.

Then the little go-getter in me said -- I'm not missing a day at the gym!!! NO SIR! (which I actually said, minus the NO SIR!)

So I hopped up, and I was like, maybe I'll just take it a little easier today...

NOPE! I get there and I pushed myself harder than I had this week. And it felt good.

Same for DH -- well, he didn't push harder than all week, but he did more than he intended to and still felt really good. So we were very glad we went.

I guess I should be glad I lost anything because I was kinda bad last week. We decided it'd be ok to go over on Wednesday night and splurged on going to Popeye's chicken. So good! I actually could have done without the chicken, and just had the red beans and rice and the biscuit. Anyway. Even not the biscuit. Just the red beans and rice! MMM. I may go back just for that.

But anyway, I ate 2 pieces of fried chicken AND the biscuit AND the red beans and rice, and I just had that overly full feeling in my tummy like I KNEW I ate TOO MUCH FOOD. I should have stopped.

Then on Saturday, it was the gaming group and I ate too much food really.. BUT!!!

I found some hot dogs we enjoyed that are only 45 calories each!!! The kosher beef kind 97% fat free. WOW! I got oscar meyer light turkey franks or whatever... and they're fine... but... I liked that kind and they're even less calories/fat so, why not?? So that was a fun discovery. Unfortunately I had 4 of them. HAHAHAHA.

But the rest of what I ate was veggies and fruit!! And a couple baked lays.

Oh, but then I remember the pumpkin bread muffins which I had 3 of. So yeah.

I did kinda good and kinda bad. If I had had ONE muffin and like 2 hot dogs I think I would have been proud of myself.

At least I know what is GOOD for me to eat now. That is one thing I did NOT know when I started this. Just had no restraint last week, apparently.

I'm not giving myself enough credit -- I did good most days on calories. Low to mid. But truth be told I did not eat enough fruits or veggies -- I didn't go to the grocery store last week until like... Thursday. So we had no fresh produce. Now we're almost out again, just have some bananas as far as fruit is concerned.

Anyway. A so so week. I can do better, but I'm still on the right track. :)

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J~E~N~N 10/29/2007 11:44PM

    MMMM, red beans and rice are one of my Favorites.... Anyhow I just wanted to say that even if its just a 1/2 a pound you are doing a great job! Keep up the good work!

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P.S. to my last entry...

Thursday, October 25, 2007

ALSO. I had a bit of extra time today while shopping, so I swung by Old Navy to try on pants and see what size I really am now, also at WalMart.

In WalMart JUNIORS, apparently I'm like size 19, but in Old Navy and WalMart regular adult size jeans, not the big ladies sizes, but the normal kinds (Faded Glory), I'M ALMOST in a size 16. I can put them on, zip and everything, they're just too tight. The bummer thing is that the Old Navy jeans are like... baggy in the crotch. (not the 16's, but the slightly too big 18's) ? I remember having this problem when jeans shopping before my abdomen ... uh... FILLED OUT as much. So I'm hoping I can do better the smaller I get.

Well!!! So I'm wearing pants that are at least 1.5 sizes too big now... and probably until Christmas unless things get DIRE.

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WHATAGRL42 10/29/2007 3:45PM

    Hey I always have that "baggy crotch' thing with pants... I just always figured it had to do with me being short-waisted. It's hard to find pants that flatter me, so I wear a lot of skirts. *sigh*
THe name of the tea is called "BONKERS". It doesn't seem to be a laxitive or diuretic, but just kind of takes the edge off my cravings for nibbling!

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AMUNET_RA 10/26/2007 2:51PM

    Yeah, shopping can be frustrating! I wish the stores would just standardize the fits!

My 16s are so big that I can pull them on and off without unzipping them (so you can imagine how great they look! LOL) But I can't get my 14s pulled up past my hips! Aargh!


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SLCOLMAN 10/26/2007 2:43PM

    Congrats!! I know what you mean about being between sizes... LOL not fun. The totally crazy thing for me is that I am wearing size 18/20 pants that are too big when in reality I can fit into 12/14/16 depending on the brand and cut! Talk about clothes falling off and looking like a bag lady!! Oh and I fit into Large tops but everything I own is basically a 1x or 2x!!

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LOBO1978_2000 10/26/2007 9:01AM

    Good job!

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So... Stress+Weightloss related nightmare? Kinda?

Thursday, October 25, 2007

It's funny now, but at the time it was a traumatic dream. After thinking about it, I determined I had it because I was nervous about a job interview the next day and looking schlumpy due to not having fitting clothes...

But I had this dream that I found a book in which my bigheadhonchoboss had written his opinions about the various management staff at about my level of management, including the one that recently left that I applied for her job. My title is technically a "Team Lead" and she and the other sup are "Supervisors". The distinctions basically being they're salaried and can administer disciplinary action and annual reviews. All other tasks are PRETTY much the same. ANYWAY!

I opened this book at work, and no one else was there -- it was after everyone else had gone home... somehow it was like I was sleeping there, woke up, and found the book.

So I start reading and it's talking about how awesome one of the other ones or the other is... and then it started talking about how I was horrible, lazy, and look sloppy and dirty all the time like a homeless person, and I'd never be able to make the "leap" from Lead to Supervisor. It was horribly awful.

So in the dream I start sobbing and I wake up Henry (my hubby) and I tell him, and he's like, "IM GONNA KICK HIS A**!!" Hahaha. Which was awesome.

But in the waking hours, it's kinda related to my frustrations with being told I'm not good at my job for un-job-related reasons, and also worries about looking frumpy in too big for me clothes.

There's a lady at work who says I look more and more poor everyday. That's her way of complimenting me that I'm losing weight, because poor folks can't buy clothes that fit. It's VERY AWKWARD when she says that... I think it's actually quite... I dunno... rude?!? But she means it in a nice way... so I try to appreciate the hidden compliment.

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AMUNET_RA 10/26/2007 2:56PM


Sorry about the stress! I hope that things start getting sunnier for you soon! ((HUGS))


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SLCOLMAN 10/26/2007 2:40PM

    I totally can relate to this homeless person look with the clothes that do not fit... I also understand the situation at work - very uncomforatble to say the least. I have been searching the clearance racks and slowly getting items that actually fit. I have a few pairs of pants now but basically still no shirts/sweaters which doesn't help the look :( Just keep trying to not let it get you down and focus on the positive!!

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LOBO1978_2000 10/26/2007 8:59AM

    Maybe you might look to buying clothes out fit at a time. I know what you mean about clothes fitting very loose. My jeans are so loose that the belt now is the only thing that keeps them up. Clothes can be expensive for people losing weight and on a tight budget. So do not worry. That is kinda rude to say you look like a poor person.

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First missed goal.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Well -- I'm only down 1lb this week, which means I missed my goal for today by 1lb. *EH* I'm not really too distressed about it.

I went crazy with food on Saturday, but I've been very good except that day and been doing really great with excercise lately, so I'm not feeling too down. I know that I'm still moving in the right direction and if I don't hit my goal right on time, I know I'll get it soon after.

So I'm trying to stay positive. Very tired today -- was sniffling all morning. That seems to have ended, but I'm still not feeling 100%.

Work is actually going... OK. Things aren't awesome. But they're good. If only I could get that position I applied for I'd be really pleased. That is hanging over my head right now, so I'm having a hard time appreciating the positive changes because the only real reason I'm making an effort is because I want that job. If I don't get it I'll feel so... angry. I think I deserve it anyway, but I'm doing what my boss+coworker had their little meeting with me about last week.

(THAT I'M NOT A PEOPLE PERSON??? WTF? So not true. Anyone who's actually ever talked to me has said this is ridiculous... so anyway....)

I'm trying to circulate and be sociable. Weird huh??? Some people get ragged at work for not doing enough work. I'm getting singled out as not being personable and chatty enough. O--- KAY...?

So anyway. It's not like I'm improving things that I think are really necessary and would rather not because I'm lazy or anything. Just wanted to clarify the whole "The reason I'm doing this is to get the job" thing.

So anyway.


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LEONAMASHA 10/23/2007 6:06PM

    Sorry to hear about the weird problems at work. Good for you to stay positive on the whole weight loss thing. You're doing great and it's so nice to see your progress. Keep on being you and don't let that job completely overpower who you are. Stay wonderful!

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 10/23/2007 11:21AM

    Wow, if I didn't know better, I'd say that you work at my office! Dumb people. We could all tell them a thing or two!

I hope things get better and that you get the new job!

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LOBO1978_2000 10/23/2007 9:59AM

    Sorry about your work. Just go burn that frustration off by going out to exercise. Congrads on losing the weight. Any weight loss is a pound less to reaching your overall goal.

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LAURANICOLE3 10/22/2007 11:36PM

    So as you know I've been having work related stress issues as well but I have found the solution... evil wizard rock. It's so awesome I can't worry about work anymore, not when there are songs like "Potions Yesterday" out there. Seriously you have to go check it out. It's a whole other subculture and it's awesome. It will at the very least make you smile but be careful because you just might find yourself rocking out. http://www.myspace.com/dracoandthem

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SLCOLMAN 10/22/2007 10:27PM

    Sorry about the work crap and the missing the goal by 1 lb... Great job still :)

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Update. What? You want something clever??

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

So anyway... :) Yesterday I was thankfully without any gastrointestinal issues, so we went to the gym and I WORKED IT.

Also, yesterday morning I did some ST for the first time in ages. UPPER BODY LIKE WOAH.

Yeah. I was NOT feeling it yesterday morning, but yesterday night right before I was going to bed I had to reach up in a cabinet to get the fish food, and my arms were soooo sore. So, I've got that going on today.

Ok, so then at the gym I got on a treadmill for the first time in ages. The last time I used a treadmill (other than the distastrous running attempt 2 weeks ago), was BEFORE the running, BEFORE the elliptical... so like... at LEAST 3 months ago???

Anyway -- it went phenomenally well. I WALKED. Previously I felt somewhat challenged, but also competent, at about a level 6 incline and 3-3.5MPH. That speed at that level felt like NOTHING last night. I felt like I was taking a stroll in the park. So I kept upping it and upping it.

I finally started feeling exerted at a level 9 incline 3.5MPH and 10 incline 3MPH. OH YEAH!!!

Since I've been feeling all wonky when it comes to my running attempts lately, I had not been feeling as great about my physical fitness improvements, but that really showed me that my cardiovascular strength has REALLY improved... not to mention the loss of the weight I've dropped in those few months. :) So that was very exciting.

THEN, I got brave and finally did the ARC TRAINER!!! (Pictured above, link to the CYBEX website about it below)

I've been wanting to try that sucker out since I first went to the gym but was too timid. HAhaha. :)

Well, it's hard. I did it for 15 minutes. But it was awesome. I think I will be frequenting that machine now. :) It's my new challenge. And I am thinking I will try running outside on some gym off days.

AND this morning I did some lower body and core ST. WOOHOO!

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LEONAMASHA 10/18/2007 4:58PM

    AWESOME!!! You go! Little by little you're getting it all done :) So happy for you!!!!

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AMUNET_RA 10/18/2007 12:23PM

    Yay! Sounds like you've got it going on! The arc trainer looks cool! I'll have to check it out!


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SLCOLMAN 10/18/2007 10:33AM

    WTG with all that working it!!!

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TERRIEBNL 10/18/2007 10:15AM

    I'm so proud of you girl... You've lost all that weight and you STILL have a drive to go for more... woohoo!!

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LOBO1978_2000 10/18/2007 9:56AM

    Great work. Keep it up.

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LAURANICOLE3 10/18/2007 8:12AM

    That machine looks scary to me. You're a brave one Dana doodle! =)

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BLUEFISH2 10/17/2007 10:14PM

    Oooh, ARC trainer looks cool! Congrats on the fantastic workout!

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