Monday, March 12, 2012
That is how I feel today.
I ran, but only 3 miles...and it was after blob inducing eating.
I am going to try something "new".
Back when I first started on sparks, I made a little card/notepad to tally my calories on throughout the day. I could always see how much I had left. I tracked online and on paper.
I haven't tracked on paper in a LONG TIME.
It embarrasses me to admit this ... but my computer is upstairs.
The food is downstairs.
Apparently this is all it takes for me to somedays get wildly offtrack.
So I'm going to start tracking on paper again. Not the same way I did before, but I NEED to do SOMETHING to keep me more accountable again because what I'm doing now is NOT working.
It's like I get on a roll and start self-sabotaging... I wonder if my goals are important enough to me? Is there some reason I'm not letting go of this weight??? I don't get it yet, but I'm working on it.
In the meantime, I need to make sure I'm doing the simple things and not get stressed about the complicated things.
I've also registered for 3 races today to help keep me in check -
Now I've got a half marathon scheduled for April, May, June, AND July! :) WOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!! That should keep me running miles... I don't want to have horrible race experiences.
I've enjoyed the pilates and yoga classes at my gym, so I will keep going to those. I need the extra motivation. I've found that when in public, I push myself really hard. Even if it's just doing ST at the ST floor at the gym, working on my own, but where people can see me. It keeps me on point. I think this is why my home ST suffers... because it's so very... private. HAHAHA. I can sometimes do it... but I don't think I work nearly as hard as if I think someone can see me.
I think my DH feels I'm overextended - so do I.
Too many music ensembles with the work and keeping the household on track is not really all working. He tells me if I want to quit my job we can just get me a gym membership right away, no big deal. I'm thinking about it...
I do want to work in the fitness field, and I like greeting people at the gym, but... I'm wondering when we get our dog back (probably 2nd week of April!) if caring for and training him will kind of put things on the overload. We'll see... by then my music ensembles will be wrapping up and I might need the out of the house stimulation?