Tuesday, March 29, 2011
So yesterday work was suuuuper stressing. I was a bundle of nerves and stress and anxiety as it was time to go try running again for the first time since December.
Well... it went well! I'm not going to lie or decieve myself, I did at times feel my achilles. It was maybe a 0.5/10 at the end when I was walking the cooldown. While running, it felt perfect. As long as it doesn't get worse than that, I'm going to keep going! I think I'm accepting this idea that that part of my body may never feel perfectly flawless again like my right achilles/heel does. Maybe that's just not the way it will feel when I'm recovered. Maybe it'll just still feel weird most of the time and occasionally very mildly painful. If that's the truth - I'm ok with that.
I'm accepting a new zen form of patience with my running because I just KNOW (even though I don't have legitimate medical testing to corroborate this) that I'm not damaged to the point that I can't run. I mean I've been teaching zumba and aquajogging and doing all this other crap just fine, so why not? I know my achilles isn't broken, it'd be a lot more painful than just feeling odd and maybe a hint of pain that might be psychosomatic it was so small.
So knowing this, I do not have the same kind of impatience I had at first after the marathon. Going into the marathon my brain was focused on - recover fast, don't build back too slow, get that mileage base UP so you can do a better marathon next year, already knowing this one wasn't going to be much better than my first if at all (couple min slower in fact), so when I wasn't ready to run when I thought I would be.... I was gutted.
And then it was like - ok! Rest a week, then you'll be better! Cross train your butt off! And I think I was just delaying recovery. I finally said - ok Dana. You are limited to Zumba - only your class, not both classes - and aquajogging, and some ST as long as it doesn't aggravate anything. THE END.
And during the time I was working on those things, my attitude completely changed. I really needed to have this attitude change, I think, in order for my ultimate goals to really be reached. I have gained a patience about the marathon - I want to run another one but I want to be REALLY REALLY ready next time. Now that I know how AWESOME half-marathons are... I feel I can be pretty satisfied running-wise by getting a bunch of those in, and waiting on the marathon until I feel really strong with my running base first. If things go REALLY WELL, I'd like to think about Chicago 2012, but I'm telling myself no marathons this year. It's too soon to really build up the kind of base I want to prior to training again to do it this year. Next year might be too soon as well, and I'm ok with that if that happens.
Here are my guidelines I'm giving myself for my return to running:
1) Do ONLY COUCH TO 5K WORKOUTS to begin with.
2) ONLY add extra running once feeling confident that everything is feeling good and not being aggravated by the running I'm already doing. Until then, if I want an extra running workout - it'll be IN THE POOL! I can STILL AQUAJOG to get in a longer session!
3) IF the pain comes back and is really aggravated after doing all this, I will finally go see a doctor. I will feel ok about this because I will feel that I've done truly everything I can on my own, so I won't feel like I'm wasting money for a doctor to tell me to do something I could have figured out on my own.
4) Assuming things are feeling really good, eventually follow workouts from Pfitz return to running build up thingie -
It looks good to me because it builds up using time, and by the last set of workouts you're running 5 days 35-45 on weekday workouts and 55 on the weekend and suggests aquajogging or other workouts on the other days. I think building using time to begin with will be best, and not using mileage as my guide (although I will know what mileage I have run because garmin will tell me, so I can track my mileage on my shoes and all that good stuff - it won't be my target).
So while I feel optimistic based on how things went, I'm trying to restrain my emotional reaction so that I don't get let down if I can't continue as planned.
Other goals this week: Get my eating back under control. It's not crazy right now, but it's not exactly the way I like it to be, which is less willy-nilly. When I was sick I was not up to thinking about calories or anything. Then this weekend I had an extra splurge meal, so that's not good. That night, though, I picked up a copy o f clean eating magazine to help me plan some great clean meals. Gonna go shopping tonight!!! My pantry is SERIOUSLY lacking right now. My MIL is also going to let me use her breadmachine, so I am going to see how that goes - I'd love to just use that all the time and not buy bread (almost) ever again!
Also - figure out a Strength Training plan again now with the running and zumba being my only cardio (so no aquajogging filling every evening of the week!) - I also want to make a commitment to the gym every Saturday morning - maybe a long aquajog session earlier on followed by Holley's awesome yoga at 10:15. She is truly the best and I feel so WHOLE after finishing one of her classes, it's the best feeling ever. So far I have a plan to do a longer ab circuit before Zumba- I brought my yoga mat so I can just lay that down somewhere and get cracking. I think I'll do some single leg hip raises to work my glutes and hammies - SWEATONCEADAY mentioned thinking glute weakness was leading to some of her hip/back problems and I think that may be true for me as well. That's something I can easily do from a mat without extra equipment. And maybe I'll add in some upper body stuff, too. I dunno we'll see how the time goes, if I get bored doing ab stuff. hahaha. :D
Monday, March 28, 2011
So first I would like to discuss the BIGGEST deal of the day - RUNNING.
It's after work, and I've got my running clothes packed for the first time in wow, months, and I'm so nervous and excited.
I honestly do not really feel much difference in my foot/achilles area. I mean it hasn't hurt in ages, aside from occasionally morning heel pain (on the bottom, where PF pain is) because the PF is still working with me, but I do still have a strangeness on the back of my ankle. I'm hoping that giving it all this time will at least mean it won't hurt or get aggravated and maybe it will just take a long long LONG time, or never, for it to feel like it did before, and I am really truly ok with that IF it means I can still run.
I'm WAY excited about all the people that are going to be starting their running journey for the first (or returning after yearsandyearsandyears) time today! :) I programmed a workout into my Garmin to beep us through the C25K intervals, and I should be leading a little group of the LG Couch to 5K'ers down my favorite Greenway. I miss that greenway - sometimes when I was aquajogging I'd close my eyes and pretend I was there. :) With the cows.
Next: CIGAR BOX GUITAR! It WAS indeed ready on Saturday and I've got it and it's beautiful.
I LOVE IT. I'm still learning how to make MUSIC with it and not just musical sounds that don't go together hahaha, but I'm still excited to have it and to learn. I want to build my own amp for it, too.
Next thing: MILESTONE.
I never wore a belt before. Ever.
I had stomach rolls above the waistline that made wearing a belt just plain ridiculous. In fact, I didn't want people to ever see the waistline of my pants because it would sink in between the rolls, unless I was wearing my pants low at my hips (which I STILL prefer!). In any case, I was very self conscious about that entire AREA of my body and since losing weight I still feel that way to a certain extent. That area still has a little baby roll that is more like a tiny bump when standing and will fold over a bit when sitting, but anyway - it doesn't suck in my waistband anymore really unless I'm wearing pants kinda high and even then not entirely.
Bottom line - I GOT A BELT. My sweet DH saw an artist's studio at the same place I was picking up my guitar (Lowe Mill, Flying Monkey Art Studios - awesomeawesome favoritist place ever, home of the Happy Tummy and more!) that had all these really sweet belt buckles. I had, in fact, lusted after them - and I think even said, NOT THAT I WEAR A BELT... but man I love those.
Well, I took my guitar out to the car since it was raining off and on and right then was off and also didn't want to carry it all around and we wanted to still look around, so when I got back he was like - Hey I want to show you something! So I start following and he's like, check out this belt buckle! And I'm like yeah that's awesome! And DH is like, I want to get it for you, and he'll make you a belt.
I still felt very skeptical about a belt working on me. REALLY REALLY. But... I decided to go along with it and realized I could probably do this... well! LOOK!
!!!! I LOOK NORMAL! hahahahahaha. Well anyway, I am so wearing the buckle and belt today at work. Best thing is the buckle snaps onto the belt leather so I can get other buckles and swap em out. Also I think I need him to make me one smaller hole and the dude was so cool I'm sure we can just go back and he'll punch it in there for me. :) WOOT!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Good thing about being healthy, you almost NEVER get sick. Not like really sick - maybe you feel a bit under for a couple of days but you bounce back. Well I was out. Slept alllll day Monday pretty much. Most of the day Tuesday. Tried to come to work Wednesday, wasn't able to think or concentrate on anything, so I went home at lunch. :(
But I feel MUCH better today - muchmuch.
Not teaching zumba tonight, gonna wait till I feel more 100% for that, but I've got hooping tomorrow at lunch YAY.
AND - next week - Couch to 5K begins! I am soooooooo excited. also nervous. I hope I am able to run pain-free! I can't wait! I did most of my aquajogging program, so I hope that I am able to get back to a decent level of running before too too long.
Great news I got today - my work is going to pay the entry fees for everyone doing the Couch to 5K to a local 5K! :D WOOHOO! I was kind of hoping to do this race, but now that it's paid for... yes please! Assuming I'm running well. And if not, then I didn't lose out my own money, am I right? Anyway. I'm way excited. I was thinking of doing the 10K, but there's another 10K in May and I wanted to do both, so maybe this is a way of doing both races. I just looked at the registration and the fees are the same for the 10K and 5K.... wonder if I could get them to register me for the 10K? But I won't, I'll do the 5K with the group. Word. And just in case the return to running isn't amazing.
Plus I want to do a 5 miler in Kennesaw, GA - same people that did the half I did last year as my first half marathon - with my sister, so there is plenty to work toward. (and to spend money on bwahaha) So I can settle down. Plenty of time. The 5 miler is $25 until 5/19 and it's on 5/22 so no rush to register, either. There's also a local 10K that same month that is a DIFFERENT one so I can try that as well if I feel the need for a longer race - and to finally race a 10K goshDARNIT.
My Cigar Box Guitar should be done... a couple days ago... hope to be picking it up this weekend. :)
The Gospel Instrumental group was fun, no rehearsal tonight because it's spring break on campus where they hold their rehearsals, so they don't have a practice space this week - good for me because I get some more rest time to get better.
Weight is holding about the same, which I am pretty lucky for because I haven't tracked my food since... Friday? Part of Saturday? I think I tracked all but dinner on Saturday, which that evening is when I started to feel bad with a headache. I'm working on getting back on track as I start to feel better and more up to eating whatever foods I think I should be eating and normally taste delicious to me that for some reason when I was sick I was like EWWWWW. I just wanted simple foods and generally speaking, simple carbs, when I was feeling sick. Badbad for me.
Yoga last Saturday was SO GOOD, by the way. Right before I got sick - best yoga ever. It was fantastic. I want to always go to Holley's yoga class on Saturday because she's amazing. The way she describes what your body is supposed to do REALLY WORKS. The simplest of movements becomes a journey through your body's control systems and as she says the things and I try them I feel exactly what she's talking about. She also opened the doors at the back of the classroom to the beautiful spring day and we had sunlight and birds chirping. :) Also I'm glad I have my own yoga mat now, too. Hehe.
I don't know if I blogged about this, but I got my own yoga mat and also thicker fitness mat from WalMart with the gift card my workplace gave me for my birthday. $30 gift card + $0.24 - $9 yoga mat w/ "carrying strap" cute little string thing to carry it with, and $19.99 thicker, 3/8" I think, microwhatever style pad to cushion my bones. I'm gonna try to do pilates on that so I don't hurt my tailbone, haven't tested it for that purpose yet.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
So yeah, I am one of those cool people now that GOES PLACES and DOES THINGS.
Instead of being a slug that stays at home and eats and vegs at all times. I love this about my new life! :)
On the one hand, it means that I feel like home is only for eating and veg-ing so I need to work on that, because sometimes I'm NOT out and about all day! hahaha.
Anyway - last night I was just feeling total and utter dread about trying to aquajog.
I am getting so sick and tired of the whole pool debacle - changing, trying to get a spot in the pool, hoping inconsiderate people don't splash at me or are rude to other people in the pool filling me with rage, the time it takes to get ready afterward, wringing out my pool clothes and then spinning them in the stupid water remover thingie, blahblahblahblahblah.
So I decided not to go. I was veryverygood on my program last week and other weeks, so I decided not to kill myself. This week is going to be a fail on aquajogging pretty much - I'll go tomorrow and Saturday but that will be all for this week.
Last night I went to....
I've been reading Nancy's posts on facebook talking about pilates and I was missing it and when I was dreading aquajogging I realized... even though I don't have clothes and shoes fit for the cardio floor or strength area....
I don't need shoes for pilates! and the pilates class is today! and at the perfect time to make it to band! And what I wear in the pool is actually a running skirt and singlet and people wear that kind of stuff to workout in all the time!
I just don't because I don't like to have all my legs hanging out everywhere. It was sooooooooo not cute when she had us foam roll our hamstrings and everything was gushing everywhere. But hey, whatever. It's a gym. We're not there to look cute (well...ultimately, but not WHILE we're at the gym! HAHAHA).
I felt like such a weakling!!!! I used to do pilates regularly, but haven't in quite some time - and the teachers at this gym do pilates on a foam roller for part of the class - aligned along your spine - and let me tell you, that is so killer. First part of the class. I think I might have handled some of the later stuff better had I not gone through that gauntlet first.
In any case - my abs are nice and sore today. :)
And tonight I am trying a NEW activity into my full life - playing w/ a little instrumental gospel group. And because it starts at 8PM, I have time to go to the gym but not to aquajog, so I will STILL be going to the gym - but doing upper body strength training instead. WOOT. Go muscles go!
The week after next is when I am supposed to start trying to run on land again - I am so excited and nervous!
JUST got an email this morning that my work is starting a Couch to 5K program - which will begin that week! :) So I am going to go once a week with that group, and then two other times a week with my friend Ashley and maybe some others that want to do the program on those days with us. (The work group is actually doing Mon+Thursday - but obviously Thursday conflicts with Zumba!)
So we'll see how this gospel group goes, I'm not sure it's gonna work out for me schedule wise and also musically- but if it does work out I think it could be SO COOL and amazing so I don't want to just NOT even TRY it, you know? So I'm gonna go tonight at least.
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