Thursday, January 20, 2011
So........ first the bad. It's TOM AKA Shark Week AKA Misery town.
Then the ugly - I hit a car. LAME. Of course it's my fault because I was the rear-ender and not the rear-endee, but when someone is turning and then all of a sudden NOT turning and there are no cars coming and no way to predict a sudden change in movement when you are being a smart driver and checking the oncoming traffic again.... ??? OK ok, so ideally I would have looked forward again before moving but I dunno, I guess I've always been more concerned with looking at oncoming traffic than the person in front of me who according to the last time I looked was taking off into no traffic. ? I didn't get a ticket, I'm fine, our car is really fine, his bumper got cracked, insurance will take care of it, yadda yadda. :( I just hate to be responsible for a raise in our rates for something so stupid.
One more ugly which is funny - I got the jacket I have to wear for my big band gig a week from today. It is a size 46 mens suit jacket in hunter green. HAHAHA. Also I have to wear a white button down shirt and a black bowtie. I don't have such a shirt so that will need to be remedied - I think I will try to borrow one from someone. I mean, if it doesn't fit it's not like it will matter because hello the jacket is enormous.
So now - the good! YAY! I got my gym membership settled to charge me instead of my BIL, and.... I AQUA JOGGED!
I checked the pool and I saw a few open lanes - and one was really three open lanes usually open for classes. One of those got closed when another lady came to swim laps and the far lane was now taken, but I just put on a belt and got in the pool like I knew what I was doing and started going!
I had read a bit before doing it to feel prepared and knowledgeable and it said to basically have form like you're running only hands in fists or straight to avoid extra drag for the upper body (mainly so the upper body can keep up w/ the lower body and try to achieve closer to a normal stride rate). The only thing I was uncertain about was my feet... I kept them dorsiflexed mostly and so today I read to see if that was right and a couple of sources said to keep flat feet or to try to keep your feet like they are when you run, so I think I was close enough. I did a 30 min workout! And burned 315 calories! WOOT! I will be doing that again. I think I'm gonna try to rig my MP3 player to the top of my head though - it was significantly more enjoyable when a good song came on the pool radio (Like Michael Jackson's Rock With You!) but mostly that didn't happen. hahaha.
OH the buffet was ok. I did good with the meal type food, but also had dessert which was amazing, but then I didn't eat much the rest of the day so overall I feel good about how I did.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
So I tried to track what I ate last night - not sure it's a good estimate, but I did try! Came about 200 cal above my 1900 cal goal, so...... eh.
Not great but not as bad as I honestly thought it was going to be before I started guesstimating around.
Tonight I'm heading to the gym after work to fix my account set up... and maybe get in a workout. I'm planning to inquire more about aqua jogging to find out how one should really do that - either there are classes or lap swimming going on in the pool, so where does an aqua jogger go so they are not being a bad pool user? I wonder if they have tethers... I did some reading up on aqua jogging yesterday and they said you can get a tether to keep yourself from going too far away from the wall. I figure if I can tuck into a corner of the pool and just stay in one place I can't be too in the way of swimmer folk, right?
Also my achilles hasn't been hurting at all after this week of rest, of course I haven't done any of the things that were potentially aggravating it when I wasn't resting so it's not surprising, but still. Knowing now as well that my Chuck Taylor's don't go high enough to rub where my running shoes were rubbing I might wear those and be able to do ArcTrainer more comfortably or spin or other LAND exercises if I'm not ready to put on the running shoes just yet. I gotta get moving again!
This Saturday after eating out for lunch my Scale Back Alabama Team and I will be weighing in. WOOT. I'm so ready! I'm excited that I will have teammates at work that we can help hold each other accountable. One friend even wants to do a daily weighin at work and offerred to bring her scale! :D hahaha.
I've tracked my snacks and breakfast for today, lunch is OUT at this BBQ type place with my work group - there's a buffet. I'm going to take this as an opportunity to take as little of various things that I want to taste as possible. Sometimes when I eat out I want to try so many things I end up getting some massive amount of food, or paralyzed by indecision. I get tiny portions of veggies and huge portions of meat and or starches because that's what's typical in American Restaurant Eating. Well with a buffet that means I can load up what looks healthy and get little portions of things I want to taste but don't need to eat large amounts of.
This is my way of taking control and rocking the buffet! :D That is what I intend to do today. :) I just hope there is something goodlooking on the buffet... I am hoping it will be a hot bar and a salad bar. But I really have no idea - never been there and even if I had, apparently this buffet thing is a new thing to the place. So we shall see!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
I went and backtracked my randomness of food from last night and came up about 60 calories over my 1900 max aim. I'm guessing it might be a bit more or less than that because I had to guesstimate for some things, but I'm confident that estimate is pretty close.
I'm really happy about that! I went to a friend's house for a knitting circle and I brought my own low-cal chips (those baked hummus chips), and cocoa snaps, because I knew they would be making cookies. Well I didn't eat my cocoa snaps, but I did eat a couple of their cookies (they were small and I felt 2 was reasonable) and my chips and I also brought a water bottle thingie so I drank water as well. WOOT! Plus knitting really helps for not eating. I had to take a food break for my chips cause I was getting hungry.
I did eat a filling meal right before going as well, but was over there for a few hours so I knew I'd get hungry at some point. Anyway.
I learned to knit! WOOHOO! :D No purling or anything yet, just knitting and I learned to increase and decrease. At first it was frustrating because I used to crochet and there are no hooks on knitting needles and I was like - HOW CAN I PULL THE YARN THROUGH! It was not really very cooperative. But then I kinda got the hang of it. I have wanted to learn to knit for quite some time now so that was great.
I'm behind on my pushups/situps though cause I didn't do any yesterday - tonight, however, I WILL be doing them! And I will do all of them if it takes me all night. HAHAHA. That will be -14+15+16+17+18+19 for pushups. That's a total of 99! EEK! Gotta get caught up though. I mean if I do 10 sets of 10 throughout the night I'll be good + 1. *shrug* That is definitely do-able. crunches I only need to do 16+16+18+19 (70) but I'm thinking I might try to bank even more on crunches since they are so much easier for me.
Today's cals are tracking a BIT high for a 1550 day, but I should easily be within 1900.
Monday, January 17, 2011
I have a new goal right now - no more than 1900 calories consumed per day.
That is about my BMR right now, and I do not need to gain any weight while I am taking an exercise break for recovery purposes.
Friday night I ate a ridiculous amount of food at dinner. I should've asked for a box at the beginning of the meal - the place we ate gives completely LUDICROUS portion sizes and I KNOW that if it's on my plate, I keep eating it. I will definitely try to remember this trick in the future!
Saturday I tracked breakfast, counted in my head the rest of the day. I didn't do badly at all, but I didn't track the whole day. I also caught up most of the way on the pushups/crunches challenge I'm doing (I'm doing the pushups from the knees so it has no bearing on my achilles.) The challenge is one per each day of the year - since it's still January that's the only way I was able to make up a 4 days at once. I still am behind - today I will need to do 4 days worth again. 14/15/16/17 to get caught up and 18 if I want to be a day ahead so that I will not fall behind when I DON'T do pushups again tomorrow. Crunches right now are so easy to make up I'm not worried about that, but I gotta get these pushups under control before I am so far behind I can't catch up.
Sunday - not as good. It was ok, but I was eating too much throughout the day. Nothing too bad, but after dinner my stomach was so full I felt really sick. I wanted to throw up but I am NOT turning bulimic. No way. So I sufferred through what I did to my body. :(
So I have strong resolve today - and I feel better that I'm giving myself a different calorie goal for this week as well. I need to kind of ease back into getting toward my lowered calorie goal I think... since when I'm not working out like normal, my motivation is lower - I need to take some baby steps to start that positive spiral.
I just tracked my food for so far today and see that with a dinner under 492 I'll stay within my 1200-1550 range - even just tracking that out is inspiring to motivate me to aim for that goal! :) I'm so glad I decided to go forward with that!
I had a dream this weekend where I was running and it felt sooooo wonderful. I miss it.
Friday, January 14, 2011
So, after Monday's 2.5 hr snow bucketing festival (only one snow shovel meant the rest of us helping to clear the driveway had to get creative, I ended up with a bucket as my weapon of choice!), I have declared myself on rest period for a 1 week minimum - the only thing I am allowing myself to do are pushups and crunches. Granted, I haven't done any of those since Saturday so I'm not exactly doing fantastic on that front either.
Basically, the snow days happened after a Saturday wherein I was out all day from eating lunch out at a nice healthy favorite place (a place called the Happy Tummy, fresh, homemade food with good ingredients and many healthy options - I got an AWESOME chili w/ curried carrot corn muffins that I gave away 1/2 as well as samples of my chili), and ended up eating a slice of pizza, a couple pieces of bacon, and a couple pieces of birthday cake w/ homemade fondant on it (my first try of fondant, a friend of mine made it - marshmallow fondant, and it was amazing).
So I had busted the sugar dam wide open and it has continued. I have made attempts here and there of not overdoing it with the food and making healthy choices, but my will power level is SO LOW right now. It's like, ok I decided to eat this healthy thing - wait someone's offering me something delicious and unhealthy? YES PLEASE! Whereas before, my will power was iron. I was turning down things left and right.
Right now, I haven't been tracking. I know that's a bad thing for me, but my motivation is like zilch since I'm not working out. It SHOULD be the opposite- no working out means food needs to be ON POINT. *sigh* But the mojo just isn't there right now. We have already planned to go out to eat tonight. It's a special occasion, we're driving over an hour to meet some friends that we haven't seen since we moved, and I hate to restrict myself when I'm eating at a place that I will rarely if ever go to again... but they do have their menu online, so I'm going to review it and see what healthylooking option looks also really delicious to me. It shouldn't be too hard to find something with a good healthy/delicious ratio since it's a mediterranean type place. LOVE.
Starting tomorrow - I am kicking myself in the butt on this no tracking thing. I'm not going to bother tracking today since I've already eaten and will still eat some somewhat unquantifiable things... (namely an unnumbered amount of peanut butter & white & milk chocolate chip cookies at my first break of the day - I literally do not know how many I ate. 6? 8? and dinner at a restaurant without nutrition info)... but - I have a healthy lunch packed and I didn't pre-serve the serving, so I won't feel compelled to eat whatever I packed, I can dish out something smaller, whatever will make my tummy feel happy. It's not happy about all the sugar right now. :(
I also joined a Scale Back Alabama Team w/ co-workers- I may have mentioned that before? I don't remember. The first weigh-in is 1/22. On the one hand, it makes me feel like not doing anything until then. On the other hand, that's stupid. So don't be dumb, Dana. But it does make me feel a little better about the fact that I'll be resting my achilles and therefore not meeting my 2lb per week weightloss goal as originally scheduled for right now since I am at a healthy weight and dropping that much without doing something unhealthy is just not really feasible for me when not exercising. (more than pushups and crunches!)
One of my scale back teammate potentials was saying I couldn't join because I can't lose skeleton. BWAHAHA. She is nuts. But I have to admit it made me feel less like a gigantic blob.
It's hard to be above the lowest weight of a long loss - I think I've mentioned it before. Because it was always going down, going back up just makes me feel 300lbs again. I'm not 300lbs. I'm a healthy weight, I'm still fit even though I'm probably losing a little fitness with the less working out and now no working out for a bit, but I'm no lump. I was a snow bucketing CHAMP on Monday. It's hard to retain perspective since it's been so skewed at several times over the past 17 years or so of my life. I'm guessing when I got to be around 10 is when I started caring about the fact that I was chubby... maybe sooner. When I skipped grades from 3rd to 4th grade is when I first got teased for my weight. so I was around 9-10 -- I skipped halfway through 3rd grade year.... so I was almost 10 (birthday in Feb). THAT REMINDS ME! I'm almost 28! So closer to 18 years!
Back then I wasn't like OBESE, I was a chubby/fat kid, and stayed a chubby fat kid for a long time. I dunno at what point I obese - I just checked to see if I was extremely obese/morbidly obese at my heaviest and apparently I was under that- close though. BMI of 38.5/39 and 40+ is where that starts.
But I felt like the fattest kid ever. And the fattest girl in high school... I had some confidence about my appearance at times, but never about my body shape/size. I thought I had good style, a pretty face, good hair... if only everyone could just ignore everything from the shoulders to knees. (I was ok w/ my calves.) Someone said that on What Not To Wear the other day and it almost made me cry because that's exactly how I felt. Anyway -- then I started losing weight and it took me a long time for my mind to catch up with my body. Then it kind of did - but still sometimes I forget. Especially when I'm having a "fat day" as every woman calls it when you just feel puffy. And when I've been eating poorly and not exercising - definitely feeling like that. and "fat day" to me takes me back to the beginning.
ANYWAY. I can do better. I know how, I have the tools, I DO have the strength, I'm going to do it. No more moping and willy nillyness.
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