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Virtual 10K DONE!

Thursday, February 25, 2010


I DID IT! :D hahaha It is SO TOUGH to try to simulate racing on my own. I try to go out fast, but not TOO fast -- and then try to maintain the intensity more than I would on a regular training run, and then finish as fast as I can muster without burning out before the end.

This run has a massive hill toward the beginning that really sapped a lot of energy -- I spent quite a while running more slowly to try to recover from really PUSHING myself up that hill! Probably should've taken it easier on that hill but I had race day fire in my brain. :D hahaha.

It was only about 5 seconds slower per mile than my performance at the Marathon relay though! 11:44 pace. :) So not FAST by any means, but for ME -- it's definitely the fastest I've run that distance by myself ever. And pretty close to the fastest I've run that distance period probably. Someday I'd love to be able to run faster LONGER, but just gotta keep working toward that goal and not expect for speed to come overnight. Last year I focused on distance and not at all on speed, so maybe this year I can work in some speed work.

The plan for the rest of the week is to LIFT tomorrow, run a short bit after work on Saturday, and row on Sunday. There's also the possibility of participating in some stuff at this event on Saturday evening but I haven't really gotten all the details on that yet... :D But it will be for FUN for sure. My sister is coming to visit this weekend, too, and I'm so excited to see her.

Right now I feel WIPED. Hahaha! :D My HR was BUMPING during my virtual race -- about the same as at the Marathon Relay -- so maybe it's NOT so hard for me to simulate racing conditions for myself? My pace and HR being so similar?

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DDHEART 2/26/2010 12:52PM

    Fun! Good for you!

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JOYINRUNNING08 2/26/2010 10:05AM

    Yay! You did so well. :) Be proud!

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KKATZE 2/25/2010 11:09PM

    Wow, that's GREAT!! I didn't even know they had virtual races, have to check that out some time!

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 2/25/2010 8:37PM

    Only 5 seconds off your race pace? That's really impressive for a virtual race, especially a virtual race with a big hill included in it. Nice job!

Speed work sounds like a great thing to add a bit of focus on this year, just to give yourself something new to challenge yourself with. You KNOW you've got endurance down after finishing that marathon. =D

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BRUIN2 2/25/2010 5:20PM

    Oooh, I think speed work is a FANTASTIC goal for this year!! And with those legs of yours?!?! Just think of the possibilities!

Way to rock the 10k!

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LAFTERSFREE 2/25/2010 5:08PM

    virtual race is a cool idea! im glad u got to try that.
im hoping i'll burn some calories on sat night too... supposed to be volleyball, dodgeball, tug of war, basketball, and movie trivia :) followed by pizza, so may cancel it all out LOL.. have a great day! emoticon

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KSGROTHE 2/25/2010 4:56PM

    It sounds like you did great on your virtual 10K! emoticon

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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SEEHOLZ 2/25/2010 4:42PM

    Awesome job! I think with hills and all, you ran FAST! So, be proud!

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TAKEONME48137 2/25/2010 4:00PM

    All of that sounds awesome! Keep up the good work! =)

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JOHNBABJR 2/25/2010 3:29PM

    Great job, Dana. You're making progress! Keep up the hard work. It's paying off.

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EDGEOFSANITY 2/25/2010 3:22PM

    Congrats on your race! That's a great time!

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MBSHAZZER 2/25/2010 3:14PM

    Congrats on a very well run virtual 10k! :D

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SWEATONCEADAY 2/25/2010 3:11PM

    woo hoo dana! you did great for racing virtually. hills are killing me right now. i need to start some hill training asap.

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Back in the Groooove

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Trying to work back into my GROOVE.

Or find a new groove? Either way! I'd like that feeling of hitting all marks and feeling like I'm moving along swell again please. :D hahaha.

I'm working on it -- today I got up ready to go run when I was delayed by having to make sure my DH's computer wasn't dying (apparently the system's suggested system restore made it ok, dunno what was up - hope we see nothing else happen from that...) went on a SHORT run (1.82 miles) and it was pretty gorgeous out - except the wind. Ugh if it hadn't been windy the weather would have been SO PERFECT -- when there was no wind, the sun made it feel WARM out, but when there WAS wind, it felt colder than it really was -- irritating. But I think I dressed perfectly for the run, just mildly chilly from the wind at times but otherwise very comfortable.

Did I mention I LOVE my new running cap that I got from the Mercedes Marathon Weekend? It's from racetrackers.com - who offer a 5% discount to race organizers who get their races sanctioned by USATF by the way. :P haha. Something I learned! But yeah -- so cool, got a terry cloth type band in front to keep sweat at bay, the top is sooooo lightweighed and those colored stripes are mesh down the sides. I feel very sporty having an actual hat made to run in. :P Also my eyes have never been so happy as when running with that bill plus the sunglasses I picked up at the expo. YAY! No squinty eyes! And I think the not squinting translates to the rest of the body to aid with relaxation as well.

So post run, to the LIBRARY to pick up a book I had on hold. I've been reading the Sookie Stackhouse series and they are sooooo kind of trashy and sexy and fun, and so addictive. HAHAHA It's just one of those things where you KNOW you're not reading great writing, but who cares? Anyway -- in my impatience for waiting for the next volume to be available I've started another book by one of my favorite authors (Orson Scott Card) called Treason and it is INSANE.

Um, yeah. I really like reading his writing but I am not sure this is one of his best, probably why I have never read it before. :D hahaha. I go to the library and scan through his section and it's like, read it, read it, read it, read it, and then ... what is THIS? But it's still definitely very interesting and I'm plowing through it, and now I have even more incentive so I can get back to Sookie and the supernatural world again! :D

I think I may have mentioned this idea before, but I REALLY LOVE this dish I've eaten a few times now that I randomly "invented" a couple weeks ago.

Brown Rice + Cooked cubed/cutup chicken + Broccoli Slaw + Makoto Ginger Dressing =


I think when I made it for DH last time I might've used a veggie blend instead of broccoli slaw but what I do is pack the cooked brown rice and chicken and broccoli slaw and at work I add the ginger dressing, mix it all up, cover w/ a paper towel and microwave a couple minutes. It is so freaking good I am not joking. I'm actually excited for lunch later because I get to eat that again. But after today I'll be out of the ginger dressing again! Sad. So the rest of the week's lunches will be slightly less exciting and that is ok.

Tomorrow the plan is to do the Sparky Marathoners Virtual 10K (put on by the Sparky Marathoner's team). Everyone is to report their fastest 10K time from the week of 2/22-2/28 and tomorrow will be the best day for me to try to do it so off I will go tomorrow!!! I started pushing it at one point on my run today and then I remembered I was going to try to race tomorrow so I backed it on down again and tried to send myself chill vibes.

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 2/25/2010 7:58AM

    Sorry I am behind, I am trying to keep up the best I can, but I definitely think about you Dana! Sorry about the job promotion. I know you will find a groove and hit all your marks, I have no doubt!

That hat sounds great! I am with you on the wind, hate it :P! I am ready for spring!!!!!

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WOLFKITTY 2/25/2010 1:42AM

    Run, Dana, RUUUun! HEheheee. Good luck on your 10K time.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 2/24/2010 7:24PM

    Yummy food and a good run. What more could you want for a good day?

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MDTWEETY 2/24/2010 6:38PM

    Where can you buy Makoto Ginger dressing?

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KSGROTHE 2/24/2010 5:31PM

    Hmm... I'm intrigued by the ginger dressing. Is it spicy/hot? I'm assuming Makoto is the brand. Is it easy to find in the grocery store?

Good luck with your 10K tomorrow! Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 2/24/2010 5:10PM

    I've seen several people mention the Sookie Stackhouse series now, and I must admit, I am intrigued...

::adds to long list of books to read::

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HEALTHY4CAROLYN 2/24/2010 5:09PM

    Glad you're getting your GROOVE!! That recipe sounds amazing - I will HAVE to try it since the hubby is on board for trying new low-fat things! YUM

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SEEHOLZ 2/24/2010 4:58PM

    I just read about those benefits of ginger- what is the dressing? I'd like to get some of that!

Kick some butt tomorrow! Hope the cap helps with that! The simple joys in life-LOL!

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CLOVERR1 2/24/2010 4:35PM

    hehehe...did you see my LJ post where a running joke out of the Sookie books? (I'm about half way through the series)

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TELERIE 2/24/2010 4:22PM

    That lunch sounds delicious! I made a turkey, whole pasta, natural yoghurt, dijon mustard, cauliflower concoction today which was really tasty.

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FINDINGMYWAY09 2/24/2010 4:07PM

    I love the stackhouse series I own every book and if I can get my weight into the low 160s maybe even 150s I'm going to get the latest book when it comes out in May!!!

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MBSHAZZER 2/24/2010 3:36PM

    RRRRUUUNNNN Dana!! Good luck in the virtual 10k. I'll be doing mine as part of the HM on Sunday.

Your lunch sounds awesome! And a great run also!

So funny about the books. For every "real" book I read, I reward myself with something trashy. I just finished "I, Claudius" by Robert Graves, which technically falls under "real literature" but those Romans, they were full of intrigue! So, my next book is non-fiction about people who clean up crime scenes! LOL!

Hope the computer is feeling better!

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And rejected again!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

YAYYYYYyyyyyyy....... *sarcasm*

Although I knew that one person I was up against did not only have experience from my department (thereby having the one advantage I have of being an internal hire and knowledgeable about company processes) but also was actually taking courses in MIS or something and therefore has more academic computer knowledge than I do and possibly a better fit.

So - the bright side?

I don't have to become a morning person! I don't have to work on Sundays, EVER! I don't have to do the at-home once or twice a month Sunday morning checks from 3-7am! I don't have to feel conflicted about taking a new position and then leaving really soon (which may or may not happen, but theoretically DH will be done with school this semester and if that's the case, I'd be in the new position like...4 months?)! Obviously I didn't mention the possibility that was over SOON but they know that he's in school working toward his PhD, and that I'd likely return to school when he's done. Oh well.

It was worth a shot. There is comfort in knowing things can stay the same to a certain extent. Also it would have been more of a challenge with the transportation I think -- since we have one car. DH would have had to take me to work EARLY in the AM so that he could have the car for meetings, and if he had a meeting that lasted longer then my shift would have been (which apparently happens on a regular basis) I'd be stranded at work again.

Not to mention that it was likely not a difference in pay, a possibility of it being less, not that I would have taken it if I thought it'd be consistently less, but my current position earns a commission, but does not really have any overtime, whereas the new one would have overtime on a regular basis, but no commission. So..... if my base pay stayed the same I might break even, might be less -- but it's kind of hard to say. Either way it would NOT have been a significant INCREASE.

I was mainly interested in shaking things up and learning something new. It would have been a good experience but it's not heartbreaking -- the main thing is being disappointed about not leaving a position that I'm dissatisfied with. BUT! I know that a lot of that is in my own hands -- my own attitude towards my job and the vigor and vim with which I take it on will make a big difference in how I feel about it as well. It's so strange how that goes -- but attitude and perspective make such a HUGE difference.

I have learned that this is applicable in all aspects of life.

If I get a poor attitude about my job - even if it might be founded in something very legitimately upsetting - it makes it difficult to rectify those things I'm upset about and to move forward in a positive manner. If I remain negative and keep to myself, with all my negative emotions and thoughts and bitterness swirling within me, and just keep doing the minimum because I'm resentful, and count down the hours till I go home -- everything SUCKS.

When I get a positive and go-get 'em attitude -- when I turn my negative experiences into positive ideas of how things can be better, and reach out to my colleagues, and pro-actively take steps to make things happen, I get a sense of accomplishment, my colleagues become more friendly and positive, and the only thing I risk is the sense of being undervalued.

That is the one thing that I struggle with really -- this feeling of not wanting to do TOO MUCH because I'm not being adequately rewarded for it. Considering my options are limited, I may not have a lot to GAIN from doing my best (in a worldly monetary and praise type way), but I can still be proud of what I do and portray myself in my best light.

I have often let my bitterness about not being promoted already lead me to not performing to my potential. Why shouldn't I be the best I can be at what I do?

It's frustrating to feel that I don't have the opportunities to really benefit in a tangible way from stepping outside the box, but it's what I have. So I need to make the best of it.

I am very grateful to HAVE a job and I want to make sure that I keep it and appreciate it! I know not everyone is as lucky as I am in that respect and there are a lot of positives here that I DO appreciate vs other jobs I have had in the past - *AHEM* Radio Shack *AHEM*!

In other news --

Rowing this morning was GREAT! :D It was a bit slow at first, and every time we STOPPED rowing I got cold, but when we were moving I was feeling good. I feel like I'm maybe getting the hang of being the STROKE seat. I hope that my music background will help me keep a consistent rhythm and whatnot -- the worst thing is being behind someone who is inconsistent and having to always adjust and second guess the timing. It was a LITTLE hard to tell at times how things were going because the starboard rower behind me today is one of our BRAND NEWBIES and so she was doing a lot of relearning -- but at times things were really good along the boat.

It's kind of hilarious -- our cox is a tall dude. Usually coxswains are tiny women. Well -- he's slim, and a man, so his narrow hips fit in the seat, but he has to fold up quite a bit. I hit him in the leg with my oar! A few times... ok the first time felt like kind of a hit, the others like I brushed probably mostly clothing - he said I didn't wound him or anything. HAHAHA. But I wanted to ask to make sure that although it didn't feel like I hit hard for me, I wasn't just like -- oh WHATEVER WILL'S FINE and I was bludgeoning him. (Not that he's a wimp, I just wanted to make sure I wasn't being a jerk!) The good thing is that means I'm getting a really good stretch, making for a longer stroke -- but then again, I'm 6'2" so that's kind of expected of me. If wasn't reaching far then something would be wrong!

After rowing I headed to the gym for NROL4W. Today was the LAST TIME I'm doing the normal Stage 1 Workout A! :D YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.

Next week I'm doing a version of the Stage 1 Workouts A&B that does not require multiple sets of anything, just one set - using the same weight/setup as the FIRST week, but as many reps as possible. It's used as a demonstration to show how much stronger you've gotten.

I remember my first workout I squatted without any additional weight, I was doing wall pushups, and my step ups were on kind of a low step. Those are the main things I know will be significantly different, and I'm excited to BLOW THROUGH THOSE. I wonder how many wall pushups I can do now? :D hahaha. Today I was working on the second rung of the bench press thingie for my pushups -- so I'm still working my way down to full. I might need to push myself faster, but honestly, I want to be able to do them VERY STRONG when I get down to the full military pushup and not just be squeaking out reps with bad form. Ya know? So I'm taking it slow on that particular exercise. Upped my Squat's weights today and it felt good. Did better on my prone jacks -- completed two sets of 15 in a row without re-setting.

So I went home, had my protein smoothie, got things cooking for lunches, ate some PB & Pretzel sticks... and then I went CHOCOLATE CRAZY.

I have learned something I need to NOT buy again -- or possibly after a long absence reconsider w/ putting them in the freezer -- Dove PB Filled Chocolates. I went psycho on those beasts. I didn't eat the whole bag today -- because I had some on Sunday (didn't count, not sure how many), and I left TWO for DH today (with other lunch things so I'm sticking to my lunch prep plan for him, too). But yeah -- I had a lot of them.

I've discovered that the Dove FILLED chocolates just eat too quickly and are too rich for me to have as much self control with them as I do with the regular individually wrapped dark chocolates. THOSE I'm good with. They're a nice treat and easy to limit. But for some reason those PB ones DID ME IN.

I'm going to aim for very good behavior ALL WEEK, I hope to even avoid a splurge meal this weekend, although this will require careful planning on Saturday especially. (I added an estimate in the tracker and maybe I'll just aim to over burn calories this week?)

LONG BLOG. Who made it through?

P.S. -- Yes even more. Just wanted to add that I got direct feedback from the interviewer that I got just edged out with experience and that I did quote "nothing wrong", and that was the deciding factor, and encouragement to apply again if another position in the dept becomes available. So that was nice.

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CLOVERR1 2/24/2010 4:33PM

    Rats on not getting offered the job, but you've got a good attitude about it all. Your training and exercsing seems to be going well....I'm envious (but still unmotivated)of the cross training factor!

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KJNE8O 2/24/2010 3:05PM

    I read the whole thing!

With the job - from the way you describe it, sure it would have been something different, and new, with lots of learning, but in the end how much more would you have hated it? The Sunday's and mornings and late night installs? I've been there and done that and it's no fun. I think that the interview process was a great learning experience for you that you will be able to carry forward with you when the right job comes your way.

I agree that your attitude is what makes or breaks a day. I have having a heck of a day yesterday and I could have totally let it affect me, but I refused to let it get me down. I knew that I would get it all done, that what happens happens and I am doing my best. That's all it took and it wasn't a bad day at all!

Hang in there - do a great job on your job if for no one else but yourself! Don't do it for anyone else.


(PS - yes, there is more, love the rowing story - LOL. I need to get the NROLFW book myself. Great job on that.)

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SEEHOLZ 2/24/2010 12:30PM

    OMG-- reading this was so good for me right now, as I am struggling with having a good attitude towards my job...
But, I'm working on it and I think the grieving stages applied-and I feel good today! Today is what matters, right?

I love your attitude, because you're honest and so dead on--- real people just rock! I know we'd be good friends in real life.... all interests aside.

Here's to great opportunities that await us- if we seek them out!

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 2/24/2010 2:10AM

    So sorry to hear that the new position didn't happen for you! Sounds like you've really got the right attitude about the situation, though... an attitude with which I'm sure you'll be able to find (or make) plenty of positive from this negative.

I'm impressed you managed to save two of those peanut butter filled Dove's for the husband, by the way. I would have been tempted to eat those too just to destroy the evidence. =D

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/23/2010 9:50PM

    Wow. Those Dove Things sound like Reeses on steroids.

And Reeses CANNOT be in the same house as me. They are not allowed in here. So I can totally see how it might be hard to control oneself around something like that! Yoiks.

Good insights about your approach to your job. I suspect that sort of thing applies to lots of life situations, and well worth revisiting for all of us! LOL

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DDOORN 2/23/2010 9:45PM

    Sorry to hear the news @ the job...but you KNOW you're on the right track to apply the SPARK to your career and shake things up for yourself...it's gonna pay off, keep at it!



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ZORAHGAIL 2/23/2010 9:19PM

    Your attitude's amazing! & way to go on NROL4W (y'know I just had to throw that in there hehe)

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EDGEOFSANITY 2/23/2010 8:35PM

    Sorry about the job, but like others have said it just means there's something better waiting for you!

Awesome job on finishing up stage 1! I did 50 squats before I got bored lol!

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SWEATONCEADAY 2/23/2010 8:32PM

    hmmmm. i thought i commented on this earlier. too bad about the job. it wasn't right for you if they didn't pick you! well that is what i tell myself and i am ALWAYS right. enjoy your easy nrol week next week. i remember one of the exercises i actually just stopped doing cause i was at like 50 reps! you behave yourself this week you hear or emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon will be all over you!

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KSGROTHE 2/23/2010 7:52PM

    Sorry that you didn't get the new job, but I like what you say about trying to have a more positive attitude in your current job. I need to follow that advice!

emoticon on the rowing and the NROL4W workout!

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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MDTWEETY 2/23/2010 7:44PM

    Sorry to hear that the new position didn't pan out, but you have an AMAZING attitude about it. That attitude will take you far in life and will give you many wonderful opportunities in the future. Cliche alert (but it's true): Everything happens for a reason! :) emoticon

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JOHNBABJR 2/23/2010 7:23PM

    Dana, your attitude is amazing. I was always told that if it was meant to be, it would be, so this wasn't meant to be. I applaud and congratulate you on your positive take on everything.

Have a great Wednesday!

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KNH771 2/23/2010 6:33PM

    You know, probably not getting the new position is a blessing in disguise. It just means that there is something much bigger and better out there waiting for you!

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HEALTHY4CAROLYN 2/23/2010 5:17PM

    I made it through!! Always do though - I love your blogs! I have a dark chocolate problem myself! LOVE the stuff and find it hard to have just one little serving. Glad you got to row - I bet the weather will start getting even nicer for it soon.

Way to go with the attitude with work and the other job and all! You will be rewarded - if not by man than by someone higher just for doing your best!

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    Never Give Up

In that dark lonesome place
between a dream dreamed
and a dream realized,

I have left a little light for you
so you will know that someone cares
and believes in your dream.

Just where it becomes the most dark
and difficult to find your way,
there is the light I left for you.

It will light your way,
through the doubt, the confusion,
and the fears,

It will stay with you
all the way to the realization
of your dream.

And when your dream has come true,
please go back to that darkest place
where you have been,

And set the little light there to give heart
to the next sweet soul that braves the path
to his or her dreams.

Dreamers are the architects of greatness.
There wisdom lies within their souls.
Dream long enough and hard enough
and your dream can be attained.

--- Unknown Author


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NCAZULL 2/23/2010 4:29PM

    dont ever give up your dreams... you do what you have to do to be happy and from the looks of it you seem pretty perky hehe
I'm sorry things didn't work the way you'd hoped but maybe it's for the better hon keep at it and keep up the good work at work hehe..


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MBSHAZZER 2/23/2010 4:28PM

    Dana, sorry to hear about the job thing. But you have a fantastic attitude! Things tend to work out for the best, even if that best is not clear at the start. I had a similar issue with my work thing... and you know, even though I decided not to go for it, it made me appreciate my current job a little more.

Sounds like you had a great workout this AM, despite the abuse of your co-rower! :D

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LIZZABETH1986 2/23/2010 4:25PM

    i did i did!! teeheehee. i'm sorry to hear about the job stuff... that really sucks. my boyfriend is in a similar situation right now too, and he has the same feelings you do. i know thats got to be really tough. i hope things get better for you soon.. but like you said, your attitude can make all the difference!
and i feel ya about the PB filled candy... it gets the best of me everytime. argh!!!!

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BLAZEGRRL 2/23/2010 4:21PM

    Lol, I'm still here. I completely understand what you're saying about negative attitudes at work. They tend to just perpetuate themselves and I think if it goes on too long, it becomes VERY hard to reposition your thinking, so to speak. It's great that you recognize how much more accomplished you feel when you are striving toward progress or doing the best job you can, rather than holding yourself back. I know I feel the same way myself. For awhile recently I was down on myself and my currently employer for not getting a promotion I thought I deserved. Well, it finally came through a few weeks ago, and even though it's not much of a monetary benefit, it feels good to be recognized. I'm sure you have some deserved praise coming your way soon!!

And now I'm trying to get the thought of chocolate PB out of my head, haha. I've been eating super well but have had to wrestle sweets cravings a lot lately. Argh. I'm holding out for a worthy indulgence sometime soon (or so I keep telling myself).

Hope all is well, girl!

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Simplifying Life

Monday, February 22, 2010

So I'm gonna try streamlining my SparkPeople involvement, last week I had a little scare that I couldn't get to my email from work anymore! OH NO! Well it's back today, but really, should I be that dependent? I was going nuts on Friday. HAHA.

Well, I could get to SP but still if I get this job I'm angling for my time will likely be limited to home only usage of the internet for personal stuff (which is probably how it really should be), and while I have it I will take advantage, just being honest, but I'm still going to try to shift a little.

This morning I deleted allll of my notification emails, so I'm going to slowly be getting unsubscribed from stuff. When I have time I will manually go and check on people from their pages and go to teams and look at threads, but I don't think it's necessary for me to be up to the minute on everything! :D I need to settle it down basically.

Anyway -- just wanted to give everyone another heads up, I know I talked about this last week but still.

This weekend was FUN! Food was... strange. It's not that I feel I really overate in total calories, but my meals were kinda more like I was before Sparks. LUMPED ALTOGETHER AT ONE POINT OF THE DAY. So I did indeed feel a bit overstuffed. Not TOO TOO bad -- not as bad as I have done it at times, but still -- not comfortable. :P I need to eat regularly! That is my new M.O. and I need to accept and plan for that because otherwise things get totally wonky.

I made DH his lasagna yesterday. :D I'm also going to try to get back in the habit of prepping healthy lunch stuff for him to eat with whatever crappy main entree item he'll eat for lunch... cause that's got to help a little bit.

So this weekend -- Saturday morning was yoga, zumba, and then a short run. Dude - yoga totally killed me! I didn't realize it at the time but my shoulders and arms are SO SORE. I think it might not have been a great idea to do that the next day after NROL4W -- but all the downward dog to plank and then ..." crocodile"? Slow tricep pushups (not that I did those great, I semi collapsed at some point but part of the workout was there) over and over are I think what did it. I definitely think I want to start doing yoga regularly but I may need to rethink my schedule -- either that or just get used to it?

Zumba kind of sucked -- I think I might just not like the instructor, but she also after the first song or two swapped everyone front to back and left us in the back. That class is packed and I make sure to get there early to find a good spot so I was ticked off the whole rest of the class, later on I just moved up on my own cause I was like screw this crap I'm gonna stand where I want to stand and it was ok but yeah... lame. Apparently there were some latecomers in the back who were making fun and being distracting to other class members, but honestly -- they were too late to have been let in the class in the first place, and because they were obnoxious the people who got their early to get a good spot get punished??? :P She should have at least rotated back or something. Honestly I think they should limit the class size even more....

Then a quick SHORT run -- 1.75 miles, 11:30ish pace, it was soooooo gorgeous outside and I was so sore already but I wanted to run so bad. It was a great run but I need to get running more this week so I don't just fall back to short mileage too much. I'm eyeballing the Oak Barrel Half Marathon - trying to do it with CLOVERR1 on 4/3, but not sure yet if we'll be able to do that, still kinda waiting on the budgetman's approval. ;)

SO! After that - home, quick shower, and it's BASEBALL GAME TIME! :D We went to a UA Baseball game w/ a friend who has season tickets and it was soooooooo fun. The weather was so perfect on Saturday it just felt great to still be outside. :D

But... I didn't eat after my workout, and didn't eat much before, and all those hours without food resulted in a massive meal postgame and that was pretty much all I ate Saturday. :( wah!

Sunday -- church, visit at home, then eating some food before ROWING and Officers' Meeting, then LASAGNA MADNESS! :D hahaha.

Rowing was sooooooo great. The weather was perfect, and it was all experienced rowers. We did some drills with inside arm only (The one closest to your oar blade so on whatever side you row toward). We've done lots of drills in the past with OUTSIDE arm only, but not much with inside only. OH MAN -- apparently I don't usually pull in a very balanced manner. Those first 15 strokes/rotations with inside arm only felt totally insane. BUT, I really got the hang of it pretty soon I think, and it felt great. I feel like I really learned some technique to improve my rowing on Sunday and that is AWESOME. :) The hard thing is remembering to implement the technique when you get tired/add more power.

Officers' meeting was tough, but not as tough as last week and I think we're getting somewhere with things anyway.

My DH is the greatest support for me and I've been feeling like he REALLY needs my support lately so I'm definitely going to try my best to be the sweetest most supportive helpful wife in the world these days and try to be there as much as possible. DH came with rowing on Sunday, but I was gone allllll morning Sat and Sun. This is pretty typical, but then again, he sleeps most of the time I'm gone so I guess it's ok. But still -- I dunno, I'm just thinking I am going to try to give of myself more to him than to anyone else. Life gets so full of STUFF and things that are important start slipping down the priority ladder. I haven't really let the workouts slip down, but maybe I've let him slip a little and that's just not right. I don't think it's really been anything BIG or BAD just something I want to pay attention to BEFORE it get's messed up, ya know? Family is the most important thing and HE is my family.

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    I totally feel ya! I, too, had to take a step back. I was spending HOURS on SP and that's not ok since I don't have a sit-down-computer-job. So not only was I at work for 9-10hrs, I was then coming home and getting online for 2 or 3 and STILL was not caught up w/ everything. I think I may need to turn off the notifications too. I feel like I HAVEt o click on the button to get my SP points and I HAVE to read up on what's going on on my favorite threads. Plus, i love reading everyone's blogs...but it's so much!

Anyway, good luck w/ everything!!


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HEALTHY4CAROLYN 2/23/2010 9:44AM

    I know exactly how you feel. I too, have felt I've made Sparks and exercising my priority over my husband. I am also trying to find the balance of it all and hopefully over time I can come up with a schedule that is good for us both. He too is very supportive of my health efforts and has even begun incorporating them for himself - he's lost 19 lbs. in 3 weeks (seems men can always lose so much faster than women!). I wish you all the luck with your prioritizing but most importantly - taking care of you and DH!!

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WOLFKITTY 2/23/2010 2:50AM

    I've been Spark-Community MIA a little for a few months. I was a little overwhelmed with all of my online maintenance, however, it is good to find a BALANCE, like you're talking about. You don't want to be gone too much (like I was), because there is lots of value in reflecting on your own thoughts, encouraging others and the entire community experience.

I know you'll do fine!

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MOM5INFL 2/22/2010 6:36PM

    We understand the importance of balance! If you need additional support you know SparkPeople will be there for you when you need it! Keep Sparking and keep up the good work! Birdie.

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CLOVERR1 2/22/2010 6:29PM

    Life's all about finding that perfect balance. :) Sounds like you are doing well.

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KSGROTHE 2/22/2010 6:20PM

    emoticon for all your exercising over the weekend and for deciding to simplify things and be more support of your husband! It's always good to examine your priorities to make sure you're on the best track!

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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TELERIE 2/22/2010 5:20PM

    Great to have your priorities straight. I know what you mean about emails building up - I haven't caught up from the last two weeks at work and might haev to do just what you did and unsubscribe to a lot of stuff.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 2/22/2010 4:52PM

    I think it is sooo important to keep the priorities straight. sometimes it is hard. I have loved all your encouragement but, take care of yourself and hubby. Just talk to him and see how he feels about the time you are gone. Sometimes my DH cares and others he is very encouraging. But, he is not home much so really he does not ask much as far as during my exercise time which is early in the mornings or first thing in the morning.

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SWEATONCEADAY 2/22/2010 3:29PM

    yeah i unsubscribed from all my regular bloggers that i tend to check on anyway. the people that rarely blog though i keep them subscribed so i don't miss them. how is henry doing lately after all that paper stuff with his adviser last year? i find it great you try to balance your needs and henry's. dh and i could sure learn from that.

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_RAMONA 2/22/2010 2:46PM

    I'll be SO happy to SEE you when I see you... but I'm the first person to say that SaprkPeople should never replace active involvement in a FULL 3D life, lol! You go ROCK IT, Dana!

To everything there is a season, and to every purpose under heaven, time.

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 2/22/2010 2:30PM

    I'm constantly amazed by how much you manage to pack into your weekends, particularly in the realm of fitness. Yoga, zumba, running, AND rowing? How impressive!

As for the prioritizing... it's great that you know what your priorities are and are willing to work to make sure you're taking care of those things that are most important. Do what's right for you and your family, those of us here on Spark will understand!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/22/2010 2:27PM

    I know I wouldn't be nearly as active if I could only do this at home. I do try to pare it down to just early in the morning when everything is starting up and then over lunch, but I am going to try to get more lunch time walking in. We'll see where it goes.

Here's to the half marathon,


Just make sure you have enough training time.

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KIMCATUS 2/22/2010 2:04PM

    I hear ya on the cutting back....like I always say you gotta do stuff for YOU!! Have a great week my friend!! *hugs*

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ASIAMORA 2/22/2010 1:39PM

    I totally understand about the priority ladder thing. Sometimes I feel like I might be focusing a little too much on my fitness and not enough on the DH.

Good luck remembering to make time for him too!!!

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MISSY_MAGOO 2/22/2010 1:34PM

    I agree with cutting back- I've done the same after I realized I was spending more time reading friends blogs then playing games with my kid... had to get my priorities straight :) So I'm still here, just not checking in with friends daily anymore :P
Sorry to hear Zumba went so cruddy- did you think about talking to the instructor- explaining to her that you make a point to come early so that you can get a good spot, maybe she doesn't know that there are some in the back that are distracting...

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JOPAPGH 2/22/2010 1:18PM

    Agree on the cutting back.

I am not as points focused as I once was, and just concentrate on food tracking, fitness tracking and a few teams and friends.

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MBSHAZZER 2/22/2010 1:13PM

    There was this weird work thing a few years ago where we couldn't access Yahoo for like 2 weeks and I didn't have internet at home... the buildup of email was INSANE!!! But I hear you - I try not to get too sucked in to too many boards - it becomes too much of a time drain. When do you find out about the job, btw??

Sounds like a good weekend... what's up with Zumba class? I hate it when people have BAD gym etiquette! Someone came in for the last 20 minutes of a 75 minute spin class the other day. What's the point of that? Of course, the only bike open was all the way in the back so she disrupted a whole row of people for her measly 20 minutes! Then again, a city truck ran a red light this AM and nearly ran me down, so I suppose the gym has it's advantages! :D

Also, I am with you on the eating! After spin class on Sunday I didn't eat, bc it's not running so it's not really exercise, right? HA! I was a little chowhound for the rest of the day!

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LAFTERSFREE 2/22/2010 12:48PM

    im glad u can see when u need to cut back on things, a lot of people take on too much and it leads to an extremely stressful life. family IS most important, and so are you, so if u feel ur being pulled in a million directions, just cut some of those strings! I know, easier said than done though, so best of luck prioritizing. so cool that u went to a baseball game, yesterday was the perfect weather for that. and i definitely agree-- zumba has TOO many people in it, WITH the cap. i think its currently at 40, i think 25-30 would be better, gives more space to move. yesterday's zumba class was even worse in my opinion. i thought it was going to be leigh but it was not. :( the whole class i kept thinking in my head... WHEN will this END?! and i never feel that way for zumba, i was pretty annoyed b/c i wasnt very motivated to go to begin w/ but when i thought it was leigh, i was like, OK this will be worth it..... eh, but life goes on.. hopefully classes will be better this coming weekend! emoticon

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KAYAKID 2/22/2010 12:47PM

    Dana, I think we all have to do what we need to. Your family is number #1 uno. I now just check in with a couple teams and check out the blogs of my friends! of course there is fb too. Good luck to you - the weekend was great and looks like yours was great too.


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    Good luck with the cutting back. I totally understand, and it's something I've had to do as well. Now I only stay involved on a couple of teams and don't feel like I have to check everything every single day. It's pretty liberating!

Great workouts (though I'm sorry that Zumba was kinda rotten for you.)!

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Working Out feels GOOD.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Why is that hard for people to learn?

Sure, you have to exert yourself, but doesn't it feel so good to have done that? Don't you find joy in making your body move? I know I do. Maybe at first it felt strange -- I didn't want people seeing me sweat.

I was always self-conscious about that -- don't breathe hard, don't sweat, that will make people notice how fat you are.

BAH. So stupid. People can see you, they know what size you are by visual input. So do whatever you want to. There's no shame in WORKING hard. In fact, I like seeing people that are working hard. It's more impressive than someone who looks like they're doing nothing. HEY ok I admit, I do find it impressive when someone is doing something that looks really HARD to me, and they look like they're just having a stroll in the park -- but why are they just strolling in the park? Why not take it to the next level? (And most of the time I might not notice someone who's just CHILLING in the gym anyway) So I have the utmost in respect for someone who is really working hard in the gym, regardless of their current physical condition. I don't mean people have to be miseralbe or look like they're in pain! I personally try not to grimace or moan or anything, but sweat?? I'll pour sweat out all day! :D I'll breathe hard, too! I don't feel self conscious about that crap anymore because I know it just shows I'm working it! :D

And then the feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment post workout is hard to beat.


Anyway -- honestly my workout this morning was not spectacular as far as those things go, but it was good and it felt good to do it and I was happy. :)

I forgot to buy frozen fruit at the store yesterday!! NOOOO! I must get some this weekend or perish next week post lifting without my handy dandy smoothie. :P Or get creative. Today I had JUST enough frozen banana left to make a really nice tasting PB/Banana smoothie. I put the recipe up on Spark Recipes -- I think it came out to 396 cal and 30g protein? More calorically hefty than my usual, but still delicious and good.

1/2 cup silk unsweetened
85g cottage cheese 2%
75g frozen banana
1/2 scoop vanilla whey protein powder
1 Tbsp Natural PB

So good!

Also pictures went up for the Marathon Relay and I don't hate any of them as bad as I hated my actual marathon pictures -- maybe because I ran 18 less miles this day? HAHAHA But seriously -- this one I look like I'm Salsa Dancing:

I'm pretty sure I was air drumming. :) hahaha.

I kind of like this one cause I look like I'm actually moving - yay ponytail!


Apparently I also felt it was important to cheer myself on to the finish line:

I actually think that was my enthusiastic reaction to them calling our team name (from the mat right before where we are in this picture).

And me crossing the finish line! :D This will be the lowest clock number I'm ever below in a Marathon finish picture probably ever. OK so I'm not going to be super harsh on myself, maybe someday, but I'm certainly not counting on it so I'll take this!!! HAHAHA

And a couple others I don't think are awful just for the heck of it.

All the photos - Our bib number is 6018:

There are like -- a trillion pictures of CLOVERR1 because she just kept running to the end after her leg. :D hehe.

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SEEHOLZ 2/22/2010 10:27AM

    I guess I'm late to the party, but pink looks great on you and the ponytail pic is awesome-- great for sharing these, seriously!

As for the exertion-- I find that the people who i admire the most are the ones that sweat, workout like crazy one day and then stroll in teh park on another.. that seems somehow balances-- I guess it's all about consistency for me!

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ANEPANALIPTI 2/22/2010 9:29AM


Thank you x20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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CATIATM 2/22/2010 9:19AM

    Great photos!

Why do people hate exercise? Hmm ... because I don't llike sweating. Because my joints scream. Because people stare.

But I do it anyway, because I always feel better afterwards!

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KJNE8O 2/20/2010 11:39PM

    I think you look great in ALL the pictures! Love your comments - they are a hoot!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 2/20/2010 9:40PM

    Love the cha-cha photo.

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JOHNBABJR 2/20/2010 9:22PM

    I wish you could tell that to my 15-yo daughter, Dana. She just doesn't get it about exercise making you feel better.

Thanks for sharing your relay pics. And congrats again!

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WOLFKITTY 2/20/2010 1:08PM

    You look good, Dana! And you're so right!!


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MSSUNBUG 2/20/2010 12:20PM

    Love this blog! It's so true!

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TAKEONME48137 2/20/2010 11:05AM

    Yep. I know working out feels good hence why I'm going now. It's a little later than I originally wants, but meh I'm doing it. hehe Hopefully it will indeed feel awesome. The pictures are awesome. That's still really cool with everything related to the marathon relay. =)

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EDGEOFSANITY 2/20/2010 10:18AM

    Cute pics =) I always seem to get caught with strange looks on my face or in weird body positions... Oh well =)

Thanks for the motivation to get my butt out on the roads!

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LAFTERSFREE 2/19/2010 11:30PM

    i had to come back here again and comment dana...
when i was first reading this, i had already decided "i dont feel like going to the gym, even though it was in my plan for today" i was sitting here, resolved that i wasnt going and that i would "make it up" tomorrow, i was already cozy and content and filling my mind with justifications for why i shouldnt go. when i read this, i sort of felt.. like i was hearing things i DIDNT want to hear at the moment LOL.... "working out feels good!" i do agree!! but today was just one of those days. anyway after i logged out, i turned the TV on... and then.... turned it off, went to the gym and burned 900 calories!!! emoticonsooo thanks for posting this. i didnt want to hear it tonight, but i definitely needed to!!!! u never know who u will directly influence when u write a blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 2/19/2010 10:40PM

    Is that guy in the grey shirt coming across the line with you girls REALLY on his cell phone???

You did indeed get some pretty awesome race pics. That's hard to do!

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DDOORN 2/19/2010 10:39PM

    Great pics, great thoughts...getting used to my sweating...still sweat just as much as I did when I was double my present weight...! :-)


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KAYAKID 2/19/2010 9:34PM

    Dana, great pictures! Thanks for sharing them with us. You did great on your marathon relay! your awesome!!!

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TELERIE 2/19/2010 7:57PM

    Yay photos! Lookin' gooood!

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LAFTERSFREE 2/19/2010 7:54PM

    i like the marathon pics! thanks for posting! hope u have a great weekend :)

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CLOVERR1 2/19/2010 5:06PM

    lol...sure, lots of pics of me, but only one of them was fairly decent! Picture perfect and purty, I'm not. At least you got some cute pics! :)

However, I don't care how ragged or rough I look after finishing tomorrow's race.....

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LILHLFPINT 2/19/2010 4:28PM

    (i laughed so hard when you said that would be the lowest number you'd ever seen at a marathon finish line because i know EXACTLY how you feel. i mean my DREAM is to one day finish a marathon in under six hours. ::smiles::

i love that your personal shined through in the pictures. ::grins::

you are so inspirational to me, girl.)

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    I loved these pictures! I'm running my first race in March and these photos just pumped up my enthusiasm! Also I agree about the sweating. At first I used to HATE sweating but now I sweat more than anyone else I know. It feels great and I love walking past the people who are just "half" doing a workout. It makes me feel strong! Call me over weight but don't call me weak!

And you are definitely not weak either! You are looking good! CONGRATS! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KSGROTHE 2/19/2010 4:21PM

    I know what you mean about working out hard. When I was going to Curves, I would work hard enough to sweat and push myself to do as many reps on each machine as I could (I would count to myself, too). I noticed some women just seemed to be going through the motions, never breaking a sweat. I kept wondering if they felt like they were getting their money's worth. To me, if I'm going to pay for membership at a gym (or Curves), I'm going to work hard. Also, my time is valuable. I'm not using my time well if I'm not sweating when I work out!

Cool photos!

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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BTRFLY9IRL 2/19/2010 4:07PM

    great pics :)

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SWEATONCEADAY 2/19/2010 4:00PM

    maybe you can make a new sport of salsa/running? lol
great blog and great pics. i saw a girl the other day when i got there busy sitting on a bench in the changeroom texting away on her blackberry. when i got back 1.5 hours later she was still sitting in the same spot on her blackberry! seriously? why didn't you just stay home??? have a great weekend!

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SWEETZMIX 2/19/2010 3:49PM

    Cool pics! Thanks for sharing!

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LIZZABETH1986 2/19/2010 2:14PM

    dana - those pictures are GREAT! the salsa one really does look like you're dancing... lol. and gym workouts where you go all hardcore ARE the best! sweating is wonderful. i always feel like i havent done enough at the gym if im not all sweaty when i leave. it makes me feel like i've really accomplished something!

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MBSHAZZER 2/19/2010 1:59PM

    I love the relay photos!! Did you all get to run in to the finish line together?? There is only one picture of me where you can actually see me during my marathon... and it looks like I'm WALKING!!! I'm like, "NOOOOOOOOOO! I wanted to walk but I DID NOT!!" . I love your "salsa" picture.

I also agree with you on the gym thing. I mean, if you're going to bother to get up, get dressed and make it to the gym, don't you want to sweat, just a little??? There is this woman who comes to my gym at 7AM without fail - full makeup, a TON of perfume, cute workout clothing... and then she proceeds to get on the elliptical and talk on her cell phone! I find her offensive in so many ways... but I'm trying to just not let it bother me... it's her wasted workout!

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RENA1965 2/19/2010 1:54PM

    love your photos!

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PSYCHABOO 2/19/2010 1:51PM

    Great pics!!

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KARVY09 2/19/2010 1:50PM

    Awesome photos of your relay! Congrats.

I agree. I love it when people look like they're sweating. I don't love it when the chick next to me on the elliptical is reading a Cosmo and lightly going at it. I mean, I'm glad she's doing that on the machine THAN NOT DOING ANYTHING at all, but still. C'mon. Read the Cosmo in the bathroom.

As always, you rock!

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