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Friday, December 18, 2009

So I had a moment last night w/ some pie....

I REALLY should have left that at my work.

We bought it for the work dinner and it was German Chocolate Cake Pie and my hubby's favorite is German Chocolate Cake and he picked it out so I thought he should have some. Well.

Anyway -- most of yesterday was really good, though. Just this morning I was having some super fat feelings and guiltiness and I finally was like CUT IT OUT.

I looked at the scale damage -- I'm sure some of it isn't real still because the amount of time vs the amount of lbs is just not realistic -- and used that as a kick in the butt.

I remembered the list I made last night and how good I was feeling and got to the computer and crunched the numbers for weight loss, for maintaining... so I REALLY know where I stand with things each day -- the outcome right now is less important but I wanted to know the numbers so I know what options my choices are giving me as a result (in theory).

Then I cooked for lunch, got dressed cute in my skinny jeans (yes they are a bit tight but I can still wear them without looking indecent), BRUSHED MY HAIR, put on some makeup, and complimented my cuteness.



Forgive the flash and whatnot, I was in a bit of a hurry.

Also for fun:

My desk w/ my marathon training plan!


Marathon training plan:


Old polaroids w/ me partly into weight loss (maybe 4 months?) w/ siblings:


Other pictures on my desk:


My weights and slippersocks in a mail bin under my desk:

  
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KASHMIR 12/21/2009 4:39PM

    Woo HOO!!! Look at that skinny girl in the mirror!!! I am SO Proud Of You!!!

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JESPAH 12/20/2009 9:13AM

    Hey, it's in the past. What counts is now. And now is good thing.

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CATIATM 12/20/2009 5:44AM

    The holidays are tough. I'm always torn between wanting to enjoy once-a-year seasonal treat and not wanting to deal with the aftermath for the next several weeks. Good for you for immediately reorienting your mind and making a plan. I think your attitude plays a big role in your success.

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SKYFYRE 12/20/2009 3:40AM

    Looking wonderfully skinny in the top picture, sounds like a naughty turn of events that you have turned right around into a nice & positive day! Go Dana! Glad you decided to shake off the guilt! You don't deserve the beating!

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WHATAGRL42 12/20/2009 1:27AM

    You have such a great ability to pick up and brush off! I am inspired by your ability to put on the jeans, even if snug-for-a-day, and not wallow.
For me, every day is a wagon ride. Sometimes I fall off, and sometimes I don't. But every day, I am aware that I am going for that ride, and have to focus to hang on. If I fall off, I just try to get back on the next day, rather than the next month. I'm getting better at it. But I used to eat pie, squeeze into tight pants, and then get depressed, throw in the towel....and wallow. Being here on SP... getting to know people like u, thru your blogs, msg posts, and convention talk... has helped me realize that I don't have to completely give in to the guilties!


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CURVES_N_CURLS 12/19/2009 11:18PM

    OK, so I am finally getting some computer time to read your freakin' blog!!! Yay! (My main computer is still down.)

Well, I think you look FABULOUS! It's funny how THAT picture is your new 'chubby pic' - a pic where you are wearing skinny jeans and have these slim little arms. How far you have come!

I adored reading the full marathon story. You mastered that freakin' thing, didn't you? SUPER! So proud of ya! *hugs!*

Curious to know how hubby's doing lately...

-Lisa

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SEEHOLZ 12/19/2009 8:15PM

    That pie sounds great and you know, it is pie season.... for whatever it's worth! I know what you mean with not allowing yourself to drag you down! That's just not acceptable and completely counterproductive! You ARE cute indeed and you are living a healthy lifestyle in general and the benefits of health and happiness outweigh the scale... I mean, it's a good goal to reign the scale in-- I'm still working on mine, no doubt about that, but I refuse to allow it to mess with me... and most of the time, lately at least, it's working!
I agree with CC-- you sure are organized!!!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/19/2009 3:34PM

    You are definitely looking super cute.

Just stick with it.

ttyl

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CCSDESTINY 12/19/2009 10:42AM

    The pie does sound yummilicious! You are doing really good keeping your sense and being down to earth, I also have to remind myself after one bad day, that the scale WILL LIE TO YOU!

I completely enjoyed the photos - thanks for posting - you are so neat and organized, I am so jealous! :)

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 12/19/2009 3:57AM

    That pie sounds fantastic. And you do indeed look super cute!

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BRE7482 12/18/2009 11:48PM

    I just thought I would stop in and compliment your cuteness too. emoticon You look great!

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SPARKNMOM 12/18/2009 11:10PM

    Cute? DEFINITELY!! Skinny jeans - WOW!! Looking great!!

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NIMAWEYGH 12/18/2009 8:54PM

    Dana,

You look marvelous. I am so amazed to see the before and after and it gives me real hope that one day I will be in some "skinny jeans".

It is the times that I take time to sit and reflect that I see what I need to do and what I need to stop doing.

You are such an inspiration. Keep up the wonderful work.

YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!

Nimma

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HEALTHY4CAROLYN 12/18/2009 3:45PM

    Oh Girl! You look AMAZING!!!! I'm with some of the other folks posting....an occasional treat won't hurt ya! And you still look so good! You know you have the power to get the extra pounds you feel off . . . .you are a powerful, strong woman!! Stop feeling so guilty!

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MBSHAZZER 12/18/2009 3:42PM

    Glad to hear you BRUSHED YOUR HAIR!! LOL! And that the skinny jeans still fit. Listen, what is life without pie?? Especially when you keep weights at your desk to combat it's effects?! Have a great weekend!

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KUANGIE 12/18/2009 3:17PM

    You do look cute in your skinny jeans with your hair up. I had to laugh about your weights in your drawer. I work with a guy who wears ankle weights to work- we are always on the go all over the hospital. I always made fun of him : )

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TAKEONME48137 12/18/2009 3:01PM

    The pictures are really cute. And the one in the mirror is SUPER CUTE! Dana, you're so skinny!!!! I know I keep telling you that, but it still makes me super happy every time I see a picture of you. Also, it gives me more motivation that I am having at any given moment. =) mmmm chocolate pie.

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RHALES199 12/18/2009 2:43PM

    yep, those are cute pics!

oh yeah.... Geramn Choc is like one of mfavs, so I understand....

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EDGEOFSANITY 12/18/2009 2:16PM

    You look fabulous! Is there another marathon in the works?

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KIMCATUS 12/18/2009 1:48PM

    12 lb weights???? You are my hero!!!! Seriously girl....to know that it's ok to not always be perfect and to know that others feel the same way even when they look amazing helps a lot!!! Did that even make sense???? lol

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/18/2009 12:52PM

    OH MY GOD AND MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL

i'll say it once i'll say it again YOURE MY ROLE MODEL YOU LOOK SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FLIPPING GOOD!

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/18/2009 12:50PM

    At one point you thanked me for blogging through it all... RIGHT BACK AT YOU!!!!

Thank you for blogging about everything and the steps and the thinking and the not leaving but talking about it all because it helps me too!

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USARUNNERGIRL 12/18/2009 11:52AM

    You are doing a great job. I would worry about the occasional sweet treat. Great job on your Marathon. I can't wait to get there next year.

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 12/18/2009 11:50AM

    I love that hoody thing, that is super cute!

It is hard not to obsess, I know. But like I always say our bodies are shaped by what we do MOST of the time. Not now and again with some pie ;)

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KARVY09 12/18/2009 11:49AM

    You look fabulous! I really love that top. Don't fret over random sweets here and there. You are maintaining and you are doing a wonderful job!


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Being nice to ME. :)

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Ways I can be nice to myself:

Be patient.

Feed yourself good healthy food -- especially fresh fruits and veggies!

Do strength training.

Get enough sleep.

Drink plenty of water.

Take time to get ready in the morning - do makeup, brush hair, etc. :)

Compliment your cuteness in the mirror!

Take time to laugh and joke w/ DH.

DANCE when the music and the mood strikes!

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I just got done doing full body strength training tonight a little while ago. Here's what I did:

3 sets of tricep extensions w/ one 12lb dumbbell
2 sets of shoulder presses w/ two 12lb dumbbells
1 set concentration curls, single arm w/ 12lb dumbbell
1 set regular bicep curls w/ two 12lb dumbbells
2 sets chest presses w/ two 12lb dumbbells
2 sets single arm rows w/ 12lb dumbbell

2 sets straight leg deadlifts w/ two 12lb dumbbells
2 sets sumo squats w/ 1 12lb dumbbell
2 sets bridges w/ 1 12lb dumbbell at hips

2 sets weighted crunches
1 crunches giant set - regular, one leg up, switch legs, one leg movement w/ oblique crunch (kinda hard to explain I guess but it rocks!)

I need heavier dumbbells... but I think this will be good to get me going again until I can get back into the gym. And some stuff I can add another 12lb dumbbell to maybe... at least the tricep extensions I could do 1 per arm instead of one for both. Anyway. I love how I feel when I get done with strength training. Empowered, healthy, fit, STRONG DANG IT.

  
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1972ROSES 12/18/2009 3:36PM

    The world is my dance floor and I am not afraid to use it!!!

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OUTOFCONTROL 12/18/2009 1:04PM

    Sounds great!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/18/2009 11:54AM

    Outstanding. Stick with it. You are worth it.

ttyl

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 12/18/2009 10:08AM

    That sounds like a great workout! Maybe Santa will bring you some heavier dumbbells :).

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JOHNBABJR 12/18/2009 10:06AM

    Nice job on the strength training, Dana. Keep it up!

Have a great weekend.

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HEALTHY4CAROLYN 12/18/2009 10:02AM

    WOW...you think you need MORE weight - and I'm just now thinking I need more than the 5 lb. that I have! lol But you've inspired me to go buy heavier ones...so maybe I'll pick up some at Wal-Mart this weekend!! Way to go on the strength training. I'm trying to alternate it every other day with my cardo in between - that's assuming we aren't supposed to do strength everyday?. . .if that's not right - let me know!!

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/18/2009 9:13AM

    I love you following through and putting up these awesome reminders/todo list! YEAHHHHHHHHH

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TAKEONME48137 12/18/2009 8:39AM

    That's a great feeling. And yes to all of those things used to be nice to yourself! Sounds like all around awesomeness. =)

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MBSHAZZER 12/18/2009 8:20AM

    OK, this is a much more upbeat blog! You are doing great! Have an awesome weekend!

PS - I like that you put "brush hair" on your list! :D

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LASHERTHECAT 12/18/2009 8:17AM

    Just in case you forget... When you dance - DON'T fall on your A$$!! (It hurts!) emoticon

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MARLOU4 12/18/2009 7:27AM

    Thank you for reminding us of lessons we all need to learn. Being nice to yourself is so hard for most women.

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JESPAH 12/18/2009 5:49AM

    Isn't it neat to learn that you can -- and should -- treat yourself well?

You deserve it.

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 12/18/2009 1:03AM

    YES! I often wonder why it is that we're our own worst enemies. We do and say things to ourselves that we'd never dream of doing/saying to anyone else! I'm so glad that you're taking the time to be kind!

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SWEATONCEADAY 12/18/2009 12:41AM

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 12/17/2009 11:38PM

    "Compliment your cuteness in the mirror!"

I LOVE this idea. I should start doing that. But I'd feel so silly...

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SKYFYRE 12/17/2009 10:34PM

    Hmmm, looks like you are being good to yourself this holiday season, AND up there with your weight! Wowzer! 12 lb weights for everything? Awesome!

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FIRENUT34 12/17/2009 10:21PM

    You need to be good and nice to yourself. Your the only one that knows what you really need.

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LILHLFPINT 12/17/2009 10:01PM

    (::hugs:: i love it - being nice to yourself.)

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Be nice to yourself, Dana!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I'm trying hard to treat myself as I would treat others -- give myself the advice I'd give to my friends.

That's what I tried to do in my last entry.

This morning I was feeling pretty happy with my productivity for the day and everything until I got dressed and put on those old "fat" jeans and they fit. URHGUHG. They're really supposed to just be baggy, I still like them baggy when I'm smaller but right now they fit and I am soooooooo not happy about that.

But slow down hold up, wait a minute!

Think, Dana, Think -- what happened yesterday?

I ate the holiday lunch and there were so many leftovers I took a bunch home to the DH so that he could enjoy as well. While I was getting changed after work, he had already made me a plate! It was so sweet and easy I didn't say no.

So I ate Holiday lunch food TWICE.

At lunch I filled half of the plate w/ green beans, had a tiny bit of dressing, and the rest was turkey. That turkey was GOOD. I suspect it was brined, it was so juicy and flavorful. My DH doesn't even like turkey and he liked that. I also sampled some of the dessert. Mostly just tiny tiny tastes, except some pecan pie.

THIS WAS MY ONCE A YEAR PECAN PIE SPLURGE! :)

I didn't eat till I was overfull. SUCCESS!

But eating that food twice, plus staying up WAYYYYY too late cause I was having so much fun with DH watching So You Think You Can Dance, and The Sing Off, and listening to music and watching funny shows... yeah.

lots of sodium + not enough sleep = BLOAT!!

So relax, Dana. Calm down. Today you ate a rather large bowl of kashi and cottage cheese for breakfast, but you also feel full enough that you're not eating a snack and it fueled you all morning while you packed a ton of boxes and got a lot accomplished! Lunch is a sandwich, baby carrots, and an orange.

If need be there is a nice yogurt for a snack.

YOU WILL BE FINE!!!

I actually had some lower body strength exerted this morning w/ lifting some boxes full of books. HOLY MOLY those were heavy. It felt good. I think I might be up to doing some squats and whatnot now -- my IT band is not hurting for a few days at least now. Just my right ankle/AT still feeling kinda stiff and odd. So I think I'll be ok with something like that not requiring a WHOLE lot of flexion from that area. I didn't do any ST last night at work, so I'm thinking tonight maybe I'll rock a nice full body workout to help keep the happy positive vibes going toward my body.

I'm just so not comfortable in my own skin right now -- which if I think about it is REALLY a good thing. How long did it take me to feel that way BEFORE??? Till I was in the 290's. YEAH. I'm well over 100lbs less than that right now and I feel like I'm getting too fluffy for my taste. I'm not even pushing out of the "healthy" BMI range. I LIKE for my comfort zone to be below that. I hope it doesn't shift so that I can make sure that I NEVER EVER EVER go back to where I was before. And I WON'T!!! Because as soon as I feel that it is reasonable for me to shift more focus and energy towards this situation it will be GONE. :P

It's hard to push those negative feelings toward the back of my mind, though, sometimes. Sometimes I'm not thinking about it but sometimes I can't stop thinking about it. I hope that it will make it easier for me to continue making better healthier choices each day through the rest of this stressful period.

Oh and I REALLY need to do a little grocery shopping. NO FRUIT LEFT after today!!

  
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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/18/2009 10:35AM

    It is great that you are feeling this way. Don't overstress about it. Here in a few weeks, life will get back to semblance of normal and then you can kick it into high gear again.

ttyl

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MBSHAZZER 12/18/2009 8:20AM

    Dana - deep breath! You will be OK. It is great that you are uncomfortable NOW, when it is only 5 or 10 pounds instead of 100! You have the tools and the knowledge to stop it now before it gets out of control. Also... you have a lot going on with the move and the holidays and the rodent situation... sometimes the best you can do it to eat as well as you can given the situation... Hang in there!

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SWEATONCEADAY 12/18/2009 12:41AM

    i had a salt fest the other day then was all down on my bloated tummy and tight pants too. we need to give ourselves a break.

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 12/17/2009 11:35PM

    Glad you're being kind to yourself! Sodium can do the MEANEST things to somebody who is mindful of their figure...

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SSPANIER 12/17/2009 8:52PM

    Funny sometimes these same thougts go thru my head! LOL It isn't nothing a few clean eating days cannot cure...time for the food detox! You won't go back to where you started, because you are so aware of the little changes caused and know what to do about it. Once a year won't hurt you. You have come so far. I think of the days WHEN I was not aware....whoa! now that is SCARY!

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MDTWEETY 12/17/2009 8:47PM

    Dana: I'm glad you're realizing that you need to be nice to yourself!! I hate when there's no fruit left! ;P

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LAB-LOVER 12/17/2009 7:30PM

    No negative feelings -- just THINK of how far you've come. This time of year is tough, but it sounds like you're keeping your wits about you. I also had holiday party excess yesterday, but buckled down today and got back in the groove. I had a moment of temptation tonight when I *tried* to open the GIANT leftover bag of tortilla chips from the party. I couldn't get it open, reached for knife, and then came to my senses. Now it's back in the closet, and totally out of sight, still unopened!
-LL

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CATIATM 12/17/2009 7:11PM

    I think re-setting our internal sensors takes time, but it sounds like you're on the right path. And you gave yourself sound advice, too!

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MSSUNBUG 12/17/2009 5:50PM

    It's good that you're being mindful and putting on the brakes NOW. And you're right--you should be good to yourself. That body you're feeling uncomfortable in just did something AMAZING this past month--it ran a marathon! Give it the TLC it deserves. Those jeans will be baggy again in no time.

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MISSY_MAGOO 12/17/2009 5:23PM

    I was just thinking the other day while getting rid of my size 12s and 14s about how fantastic I felt in them. I was especially sad to see one particular pair of 14s go- the ones I had on in my profile pic here on spark for so long (it's still in my gallery). I felt so small and cute in those jeans and now (I'm in an 8 but keeping the 10s for baggy jeans days) those old jeans look so big to me. I think it's great that your not happy when your a bit bloated and the baggies are fitting- to me it says that there's no way you'll ever let yourself slip into that size (or bigger) permanently.
Over Halloween when we went on our Seattle trip I got back and felt huge- got on the scale and had gained 2 pounds. It was all water weight from sodium filled restaurant food- but was so strange that I could feel 2 pounds when in the past I could gain 30 and not even know it!
And you're right- go grocery shopping and fill your fridge with fruit- give it a day or two of eating healthy, drink drink drink your water and you'll feel good again in a day or two :)

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YOOVIE 12/17/2009 5:12PM

    A+ You are doing so well. Your mind has come a long way for sure! :)

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BOVEY63 12/17/2009 5:12PM

    Way to go on pumping yourself back up! We can all take a lesson from that.
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CCSDESTINY 12/17/2009 5:02PM

    I think you are doing great - just being mindful and not giving in to it all is a success in my book!

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 12/17/2009 5:01PM

    Awe, Dana, I am sorry that you are going through these mind games. I completely understand! I do the same thing, I think we all do. But like you said, you are not going to be back where you started ever! You are a marathoner, a medal winning rower = AN ATHLETE who takes care of her body. So you ate pecan pie ONCE in 2009, no big deal!

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TELERIE 12/17/2009 4:37PM

    You're doing so well, Dana. Thanks for letting us in on your thougth processes. I admire you so much and you're SO RIGHT you've got this. The awareness IS there. And it IS ok to not be hyper-vigilant at all times. Because if MOST days are good, you can have peacan pie once a year splurges and other stuff happening and still be healthy. Hugs, Marit

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STRESS!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

So I didn't go erg this morning...

I woke up to my alarm and was like... I have to pack stuff today... do I really want to spend the energy and gas to go across town to get like 15 min of cardio in? (Cause I don't think I'd probably be erging longer than that...) Kickbutt crazy Dana would have said yes, but right now I'm barely hanging on Dana and barely hanging on Dana needs her sleep.

So I slept, and then I got up and set Biggest Loser Australia playing while I packed stuff in the office. I decided to do the hardest to pack stuff first -- all the little stuff that was sitting in my desk and on my shelves that is not regularly shaped, that is all kinda random. And it's almost all packed! But it was mostly small items and because of the oddness it took quite a while, I only got two boxes packed. However, I know that when I finally get to the shelves full of books that will go SO quickly. I think it was smart to get that stuff mostly done first. Tomorrow I should be able to make more obvious headway.

So after that, I dunno, I was just in a foul mood. DH and I pretty much argued all morning which is not usual, just happened a bit yesterday as well. We're both majorly stressed by all the things we have to do, and his minor OCD is kind of acting up due to the mice situation so we're all a little on edge. 95% of the time these days we're fine, but the other 5% we're like crazy tearing out our hair. HAHAHA. *UGH* I know it would help w/ stress if I could get some cardio in, but I still think early this morning was just not a good idea with my schedule right now.

We're also having our work holiday lunch thing today. Honestly -- this whole calorie tracking thing is not really working right now. I mean I'm mostly doing it, but at the same time I'm not that committed to any numbers with it right now so..... it just doesn't have the OOMPH in it that I usually have. I think I'm going to continue to track, but I'm not going to have a cow about the numbers. I have a habit of eating better when I'm actually tracking my food, I think. So I think I'm just going to take these next few mega stressful weeks with a grain of salt and just track and be very forgiving of myself for any mistakes. I'd like to lose some soon but then again, I mostly just don't want to gain while I'm not burning the mega cardio calories that I'm used to, and I want to have a healthy holiday trip for the most part sticking to my 2/3 meals healthy a day plan and getting in exercise. I know the place we're staying has a fitness center so if I still am not up to running by then I can always hop on a bike or elliptical or something and get some extra calorie burn in while I'm on the trip.

As for today -- I know that there is turkey, ham, and green beans in the menu selection so I plan to stick mostly to those items, and very little of anything else, and stop eating something if it turns out I don't really LOVE it. I want to make my return to being a picky eater as well! :) Healthy food rocks and unhealthy food is only worth the extra calories if it really tastes amazing. If not, why am I eating the garbage?

There is a party this weekend I intend to be my "cheat meal" this week and I will aim to just be mindful of when I am full and STOP EATING at that point. Back to the uber basics here.

I feel like right now this stuff has to kinda just simmer on the back burner because of LIFE in general. There is a LOT I can still do to reach my goals, but it's honestly not my top priority right now and if I can admit that maybe I can press forward and do all I can without all the guilt and pressure and stress adding on from THIS area of my life. I am healthy. I am strong. I just want to weigh a little less. It's not a major problem.

  
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MDTWEETY 12/17/2009 8:50PM

    "Healthy food rocks and unhealthy food is only worth the extra calories if it really tastes amazing. If not, why am I eating the garbage?" .... I totally agree with this!!!!! I have lists in my head of "worth it" and "not worth it" foods. Before I eat something that is questionable calorie-wise, I try to stop and think: Is this really worth it? Depends on the situation and where I am, but usually the answer is "no." My "worth it" splurges are usually meals I don't typically make at home, such as Indian food, for example.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/17/2009 4:24PM

    Moving and the holidays are major stressors. You also JUST FINISHED MARATHON TRAINING!!! (Yea, still very proud of you for that).

Get through the move and then get back on the horse.

You are an amazing lady and we are pulling for you. You'll be back at it in no time.

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 12/17/2009 9:48AM

    I think your attitude is spot on, Dana. I think you are just setting yourself to make yourself crazy frustrated if you freak about numbers right now. Just do what you said and use tracking to stay within reason.

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/17/2009 9:27AM

    You're awesome Dana..... YUP it DOES sound stressful! and it IS... but you're tracking staying conscious and you're in the moment and everything will be FINE! *promse*

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TAKEONME48137 12/17/2009 8:59AM

    I think this season is just stressful in general with the various holidays, work parties, etc. and then on top of that you are moving, so I totally understand the stress. However, you can get through it all, and if you have to slack off here and there with regard to tracking, now is a perfect opportunity for starting over in the new year. Good luck with everything. Hang in there!! =) =)

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AMYTAIF 12/17/2009 3:37AM

    all you can do is do your best for the moment and it sounds like you are aware of what that is:). just like mike(kayakid) said... you may be worried about gaining a little, and you would really rather be losing, but even if you do gain........... you know exactly how to get back on track. it's funny how when we are not able to be uber-diligent and "on" that we get anxious and stress. it's like we think we are going to slide and maybe just keep sliding? try not to worry:). life will balance back out and you will be back to feeling like kick butt crazy dana:). sleep, take care of yourself and enjoy the moment for what it is. -amy:)

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LAFTERSFREE 12/16/2009 8:30PM

    very realistic way of seeing things dana. sometimes life has to take priority, u have had an amazing year with fitness, the mice thing and the moving are completely stressful and right now you need to just focus on reducing stress the best way that you can. recognize when you need a break and recognize when its ok not to be super hard on yourself. life's got bumps like this, and sometimes exercise/fitness just can't be the number 1 focus. hugs pal, you guys will be fine soon enough.

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KAYAKID 12/16/2009 8:02PM

    Dana, we all have weeks like yours and its ok! just get though and go on. it would be nice if you didn't gain a pound if you do its not the end of world - you know why? Because We know how to get rid of it. No worries be happy - I think is how that song goes. enjoy the holidays and you'll be ready once there over to get serious again. your an inspiration too many and even sparker's like you and I we have bad patches. hugs

Mike


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TAIMOIRAI 12/16/2009 7:46PM

    It's a very stressful time of year, and you've added moving to that. I think you are doing remarkable given the circumstances. Keep strong, Dana. You're doing great!

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SWEATONCEADAY 12/16/2009 6:50PM

    i have had a hard time tracking too. between eating out and parties my tracking has really been guessing lol. stop being so stressed! ok i am guessing you have tried that lol. lots going on for you right now. bunny hugs!

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BRAVE_NEW_ME 12/16/2009 6:44PM

    Hey, when you're in the middle of a move and the holidays and everything else, just barely hanging on is quite an accomplishment. =D

For now, just keep your focus on being as healthy as can be reasonably expected given your circumstances (without worrying about the scale), and then once you're settled in the new house and are through the holiday craziness, you'll be able to quickly settle back in to a stricter eating/exercising routine to get that scale moving again.

Good luck with the packing!

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JOHNBABJR 12/16/2009 6:29PM

    "I am healthy. I am strong. I just want to weigh a little less. It's not a major problem."

It sounds like you have your priorities in order, Dana. I hope your week gets better!


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MISSY_MAGOO 12/16/2009 5:47PM

    hang in there- and think about how great it'll be once it's all done! You'll get through this- and your plan for the holiday meal is a great one- that's going to be my plan through the next few weeks too- it's only worth it if it's AMAZING- if it's only okay I'll pass :) Good plan.

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MBSHAZZER 12/16/2009 5:44PM

    Hey Dana, good call on the xtra sleep! It sounds like you have A LOT going on... when that happens, it's folly to try to keep up with everything. If you end up going over calories a bit, you can make it up later when things calm down. Same goes for exercise... do what you can and don't stress about it. The last time we moved, I didn't exercise for a week and I was eating whenever and whatever I could.

Good luck with the move!!!

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CECINOAKLAND 12/16/2009 5:09PM

    even when you're having a tough time, you inspire me. maybe more so because then i know even the champions of sparkpeople have rough patches every now and then, just like us mortals.

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moving is stressful. mice are stressful. hang in there!

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Doing ok.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I'm not giving myself an A+ for yesterday, but an A- at least.

I didn't track my dinner IN sparks but I believe I was within or just barely over range by my mental calculations... :) ALSO I did a short Pilates routine at work -- about 15 minutes, but it feels like more when all that time is spent contracting your abs! HAHAHA. But actually it did involve a couple rolldowns and whatever you call it when you're laying extended and roll your upper body up and over and stretch and some spine stretching, too. Just did Hundreds, single bent leg stretch, single straight leg, double whatever the heck (where you're closed up and opening up again), bent leg lowering thingie (kinda similar to a reverse crunch)... yeah. Today is upper body! RAWR!

This morning, I went a little nutso w/ the breakfast.... our PB was almost gone and so I went ahead and took all of it even though it was more than 2 Tbsp left.. then I had some cereal, and a bit more... and a bit more. EEK!

But then I stopped. And now I'm feeling nicely full and I don't think I'll be that hungry at lunch.

I'm thinking I might be one of those people that needs to eat a larger breakfast? (not as large as today's, which was like 1000 cal... HAHA) Prior to the marathon I think breakfast (or at least - pre-work food) was the largest of my calorie groupings throughout the day so now that my overall calories are reduced maybe I need to shift a larger percentage to breakfast to help myself feel more balanced throughout the day.

In any case -- I believe I will be a little over my calorie range today. But actually I had put in a range in Sparks, and then changed a couple of things on my fitness area and it reset it automatically (although I had already put in what I wanted) and it reset it lower. So I don't really mind if I'm within like... 300cal over what it says occasionally -- but I'd prefer to aim to the mid range. (which is around 1400 cal, 300 over would be like 1850? I think?) It'll be better once I can start getting some cardio in and counting SOMETHING of a calorie burn.

One of my rowing club teammates is going to erg tomorrow morning at 8AM so I am planning to join her to get my heart rate up! WOOHOO! Then run by the store quickly for a few things, and then home, shower, PACK!

I didn't get a lot in the packing vein done this morning, but I did to something that was an annoying tedious task that I was putting off. You know how you get things in the mail that need to be shredded??? Well I had a stack of stuff to shred. Our shredder SUCKS. MAJORLY. It jams all the time, can only handle about 2 pages at once... yeah. So I procrastinated that a lot. I plan to pack up more of whats in the office tomorrow, and I really wanted to do some of that today but instead it turned into sorting and shredding. It's good PREP work for packing, but nothing to really show for it but a trash bag. :P

It was tough cause this morning my DH reminded me that a year ago today is when we adopted our dog, Roscoe, who has been missing for almost a year. (gone Jan 3rd!) We had him such a short time, but it was like... 100% family time since it was the Holidays and we had seriously bonded and loved him like crazy. We still worry about him, wonder if he's dead, or if someone found him, or if he's still stray... he's a beagle mix. He's microchipped so, in theory, someone could take him in and he'd be scanned and we might (in a fantasy world) still get him back.

We also started to adopt another dog once, Columbus -- but DH couldn't handle how much of a puppy he was and not only that it was really too soon since Roscoe and he couldn't handle how NOT ROSCOE the dog was (Roscoe was like his freaking doggie soulmate) so we had to take him back. It was so heartwrenching because we didn't want anything bad to happen to him. But we did find out that he got adopted by a family with a yard (that dog LOVED being outside and we lived in an apartment w/ no yard, and honestly they shouldn't have adopted him to us in the first place) - he ended up better off.

BUT ANYWAY - since then we had decided to wait much longer, and then finances and situation really have gotten in the way of us getting another dog and we decided it would be better for us to wait until DH gets an actual JOB and we can live somewhere with maybe a small yard at least, and maybe a place we can actually have the kind of dog we would like to have (like we would love to rescue a pit bull).... so today I was cleaning and came across all the paperwork for Roscoe and Columbus. Columbus's microchip company actually sent us a card and a little keyring tag thingie w/ his picture on them... I threw away all of Columbus's paperwork, but I kept Roscoe's. emoticon

  
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LAFTERSFREE 12/16/2009 8:37PM

    a LOT has happened in the past year, Henry and I were talking about that a little bit at the party. thinking about the roscoe thing, and columbus, and just everything major this year... going through all that stuff can be so surreal b/c when u think back ur just like, wow, THAT happened this year. u guys have both had a lot of challenges, im glad we've all been friends and i feel have gotten closer this year, it's been so good to know u both during the good and bad stuff we've all dealt with this year. emoticon

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SWEETZMIX 12/16/2009 11:35AM

    AWW sorry the bad memories of your dogs has come up. You will get through it though!

Hope you got to go & erg today!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/16/2009 9:02AM

    Going through that type of stuff is always tough. We can only hope for the best in this situation.

Sounds like some good analysis on your eating habits.

How it the leg doing today?

ttyl

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JESPAH 12/16/2009 6:24AM

    Sometimes holding onto that sort of thing isn't a kind of historical archive -- it's just a pain trigger. So good on you to toss it. Columbus is okay, and leading a happy doggie life. Which is a wonderful thing. So you can let that go.

And Roscoe? Of course I can't say. But one thing I can tell you about those feelings is that they do diminish over time, even if it feels like that will never, ever happen.

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ANEPANALIPTI 12/15/2009 4:31PM

    Aw I hope your doggie is somewhere and happy! *hugs*

Work it out girl... lol to the shredder... :P



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SWEATONCEADAY 12/15/2009 4:21PM

    i have a huge pile to shred too. sometimes i take it took work. i rarely remember. ah roscoe.... i hope you are happy wherever you are. sounds like you are making progress on your packing and your eating pretty good. i give you an a+.

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TAKEONME48137 12/15/2009 4:16PM

    Awww Roscoe! I hope he magically turns up one day. That would be awesome. Excellent work on keeping up with the food and stuff. I'm mentally starting to get back into things, but I don't want to get super excited/obsessed/OMGI'MTOTALLYINRIG
HTNOWRARRRRR because that's how I end up back to where I was...I need a healthy balance, lol. Anyways, good luck with all the packing, moving, and such. =)

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MBSHAZZER 12/15/2009 4:11PM

    I hope that Roscoe has found a good home... I agree with the other poster, he probably found a family who were not aware of the micro chip! But I think once you're settled, a dog will be a nice addition. It sounds like things are a little too hectic now. Also, I don't know how picky dogs are, but when we were renting, the cats hated it! They picked up fleas from the carpet and ... well, I guess that's what they really hated...the carpet! So, better to have a dog when you are more settled and can flea bomb the place before you move in and get it all set up and ready for a new member of the family!

Good luck on the shredding... I take everything with me to work once a month and do a massive shred in the industrial shredder!

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HOPERY 12/15/2009 3:46PM

    I could bring you a dog or two when I come your way. (which I think we are on Feb. 9th or 10th) We are still looking for a good home for them. You are doing great on the recovery! Happy packing-I'm packing too!

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 12/15/2009 3:41PM

    Awe! Dogs are like family, completely. I hope that someone is giving Roscoe a good home and they are just unaware of microchips :(. I think I remember the Columbus incident, didn't you blog about it?

I think waiting until you are more settled is a much better idea. Dogs CRAVE routine and anything that upsets that is traumatic for them, and potentially results in behavior issues that may be traumatic for you ;)!

What are you trying to do in terms of tracking? Are you still trying to lose or you just making sure you stay on track with it being the holidays and all?

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SEEHOLZ 12/15/2009 3:37PM

    I hope Roscoe will come back or you find that he's been living happily with someone, somewhere!

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KEAKMAN 12/15/2009 3:34PM

    One of the most difficult post-marathon things I had to do (and am still figuring out) is how to adjust when and what I eat as well as how much exercise I get. I feel like I need to eat way more than I need to, and I want to exercise way more than I can. Hope you get it figured out.

Sorry this is a sad day, especially for DH. Glad you have fond memories of Roscoe, and I will imagine him in some happy healthy home.

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CATIATM 12/15/2009 3:33PM

    Oh, I hear ya'. My first blog was about Kadusha, who died two years ago next week. I still miss her, and it's amazing what kinds of things will remind me of her. I'm sorry you didn't get Roscoe back, but I continue to hope that someone gave him a good home, and he's happy. emoticon

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