Thursday, December 17, 2009
Ways I can be nice to myself:
Feed yourself good healthy food -- especially fresh fruits and veggies!
Do strength training.
Get enough sleep.
Drink plenty of water.
Take time to get ready in the morning - do makeup, brush hair, etc. :)
Compliment your cuteness in the mirror!
Take time to laugh and joke w/ DH.
DANCE when the music and the mood strikes!
I just got done doing full body strength training tonight a little while ago. Here's what I did:
3 sets of tricep extensions w/ one 12lb dumbbell
2 sets of shoulder presses w/ two 12lb dumbbells
1 set concentration curls, single arm w/ 12lb dumbbell
1 set regular bicep curls w/ two 12lb dumbbells
2 sets chest presses w/ two 12lb dumbbells
2 sets single arm rows w/ 12lb dumbbell
2 sets straight leg deadlifts w/ two 12lb dumbbells
2 sets sumo squats w/ 1 12lb dumbbell
2 sets bridges w/ 1 12lb dumbbell at hips
2 sets weighted crunches
1 crunches giant set - regular, one leg up, switch legs, one leg movement w/ oblique crunch (kinda hard to explain I guess but it rocks!)
I need heavier dumbbells... but I think this will be good to get me going again until I can get back into the gym. And some stuff I can add another 12lb dumbbell to maybe... at least the tricep extensions I could do 1 per arm instead of one for both. Anyway. I love how I feel when I get done with strength training. Empowered, healthy, fit, STRONG DANG IT.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I'm trying hard to treat myself as I would treat others -- give myself the advice I'd give to my friends.
That's what I tried to do in my last entry.
This morning I was feeling pretty happy with my productivity for the day and everything until I got dressed and put on those old "fat" jeans and they fit. URHGUHG. They're really supposed to just be baggy, I still like them baggy when I'm smaller but right now they fit and I am soooooooo not happy about that.
But slow down hold up, wait a minute!
Think, Dana, Think -- what happened yesterday?
I ate the holiday lunch and there were so many leftovers I took a bunch home to the DH so that he could enjoy as well. While I was getting changed after work, he had already made me a plate! It was so sweet and easy I didn't say no.
So I ate Holiday lunch food TWICE.
At lunch I filled half of the plate w/ green beans, had a tiny bit of dressing, and the rest was turkey. That turkey was GOOD. I suspect it was brined, it was so juicy and flavorful. My DH doesn't even like turkey and he liked that. I also sampled some of the dessert. Mostly just tiny tiny tastes, except some pecan pie.
THIS WAS MY ONCE A YEAR PECAN PIE SPLURGE! :)
I didn't eat till I was overfull. SUCCESS!
But eating that food twice, plus staying up WAYYYYY too late cause I was having so much fun with DH watching So You Think You Can Dance, and The Sing Off, and listening to music and watching funny shows... yeah.
lots of sodium + not enough sleep = BLOAT!!
So relax, Dana. Calm down. Today you ate a rather large bowl of kashi and cottage cheese for breakfast, but you also feel full enough that you're not eating a snack and it fueled you all morning while you packed a ton of boxes and got a lot accomplished! Lunch is a sandwich, baby carrots, and an orange.
If need be there is a nice yogurt for a snack.
YOU WILL BE FINE!!!
I actually had some lower body strength exerted this morning w/ lifting some boxes full of books. HOLY MOLY those were heavy. It felt good. I think I might be up to doing some squats and whatnot now -- my IT band is not hurting for a few days at least now. Just my right ankle/AT still feeling kinda stiff and odd. So I think I'll be ok with something like that not requiring a WHOLE lot of flexion from that area. I didn't do any ST last night at work, so I'm thinking tonight maybe I'll rock a nice full body workout to help keep the happy positive vibes going toward my body.
I'm just so not comfortable in my own skin right now -- which if I think about it is REALLY a good thing. How long did it take me to feel that way BEFORE??? Till I was in the 290's. YEAH. I'm well over 100lbs less than that right now and I feel like I'm getting too fluffy for my taste. I'm not even pushing out of the "healthy" BMI range. I LIKE for my comfort zone to be below that. I hope it doesn't shift so that I can make sure that I NEVER EVER EVER go back to where I was before. And I WON'T!!! Because as soon as I feel that it is reasonable for me to shift more focus and energy towards this situation it will be GONE. :P
It's hard to push those negative feelings toward the back of my mind, though, sometimes. Sometimes I'm not thinking about it but sometimes I can't stop thinking about it. I hope that it will make it easier for me to continue making better healthier choices each day through the rest of this stressful period.
Oh and I REALLY need to do a little grocery shopping. NO FRUIT LEFT after today!!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
So I didn't go erg this morning...
I woke up to my alarm and was like... I have to pack stuff today... do I really want to spend the energy and gas to go across town to get like 15 min of cardio in? (Cause I don't think I'd probably be erging longer than that...) Kickbutt crazy Dana would have said yes, but right now I'm barely hanging on Dana and barely hanging on Dana needs her sleep.
So I slept, and then I got up and set Biggest Loser Australia playing while I packed stuff in the office. I decided to do the hardest to pack stuff first -- all the little stuff that was sitting in my desk and on my shelves that is not regularly shaped, that is all kinda random. And it's almost all packed! But it was mostly small items and because of the oddness it took quite a while, I only got two boxes packed. However, I know that when I finally get to the shelves full of books that will go SO quickly. I think it was smart to get that stuff mostly done first. Tomorrow I should be able to make more obvious headway.
So after that, I dunno, I was just in a foul mood. DH and I pretty much argued all morning which is not usual, just happened a bit yesterday as well. We're both majorly stressed by all the things we have to do, and his minor OCD is kind of acting up due to the mice situation so we're all a little on edge. 95% of the time these days we're fine, but the other 5% we're like crazy tearing out our hair. HAHAHA. *UGH* I know it would help w/ stress if I could get some cardio in, but I still think early this morning was just not a good idea with my schedule right now.
We're also having our work holiday lunch thing today. Honestly -- this whole calorie tracking thing is not really working right now. I mean I'm mostly doing it, but at the same time I'm not that committed to any numbers with it right now so..... it just doesn't have the OOMPH in it that I usually have. I think I'm going to continue to track, but I'm not going to have a cow about the numbers. I have a habit of eating better when I'm actually tracking my food, I think. So I think I'm just going to take these next few mega stressful weeks with a grain of salt and just track and be very forgiving of myself for any mistakes. I'd like to lose some soon but then again, I mostly just don't want to gain while I'm not burning the mega cardio calories that I'm used to, and I want to have a healthy holiday trip for the most part sticking to my 2/3 meals healthy a day plan and getting in exercise. I know the place we're staying has a fitness center so if I still am not up to running by then I can always hop on a bike or elliptical or something and get some extra calorie burn in while I'm on the trip.
As for today -- I know that there is turkey, ham, and green beans in the menu selection so I plan to stick mostly to those items, and very little of anything else, and stop eating something if it turns out I don't really LOVE it. I want to make my return to being a picky eater as well! :) Healthy food rocks and unhealthy food is only worth the extra calories if it really tastes amazing. If not, why am I eating the garbage?
There is a party this weekend I intend to be my "cheat meal" this week and I will aim to just be mindful of when I am full and STOP EATING at that point. Back to the uber basics here.
I feel like right now this stuff has to kinda just simmer on the back burner because of LIFE in general. There is a LOT I can still do to reach my goals, but it's honestly not my top priority right now and if I can admit that maybe I can press forward and do all I can without all the guilt and pressure and stress adding on from THIS area of my life. I am healthy. I am strong. I just want to weigh a little less. It's not a major problem.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I'm not giving myself an A+ for yesterday, but an A- at least.
I didn't track my dinner IN sparks but I believe I was within or just barely over range by my mental calculations... :) ALSO I did a short Pilates routine at work -- about 15 minutes, but it feels like more when all that time is spent contracting your abs! HAHAHA. But actually it did involve a couple rolldowns and whatever you call it when you're laying extended and roll your upper body up and over and stretch and some spine stretching, too. Just did Hundreds, single bent leg stretch, single straight leg, double whatever the heck (where you're closed up and opening up again), bent leg lowering thingie (kinda similar to a reverse crunch)... yeah. Today is upper body! RAWR!
This morning, I went a little nutso w/ the breakfast.... our PB was almost gone and so I went ahead and took all of it even though it was more than 2 Tbsp left.. then I had some cereal, and a bit more... and a bit more. EEK!
But then I stopped. And now I'm feeling nicely full and I don't think I'll be that hungry at lunch.
I'm thinking I might be one of those people that needs to eat a larger breakfast? (not as large as today's, which was like 1000 cal... HAHA) Prior to the marathon I think breakfast (or at least - pre-work food) was the largest of my calorie groupings throughout the day so now that my overall calories are reduced maybe I need to shift a larger percentage to breakfast to help myself feel more balanced throughout the day.
In any case -- I believe I will be a little over my calorie range today. But actually I had put in a range in Sparks, and then changed a couple of things on my fitness area and it reset it automatically (although I had already put in what I wanted) and it reset it lower. So I don't really mind if I'm within like... 300cal over what it says occasionally -- but I'd prefer to aim to the mid range. (which is around 1400 cal, 300 over would be like 1850? I think?) It'll be better once I can start getting some cardio in and counting SOMETHING of a calorie burn.
One of my rowing club teammates is going to erg tomorrow morning at 8AM so I am planning to join her to get my heart rate up! WOOHOO! Then run by the store quickly for a few things, and then home, shower, PACK!
I didn't get a lot in the packing vein done this morning, but I did to something that was an annoying tedious task that I was putting off. You know how you get things in the mail that need to be shredded??? Well I had a stack of stuff to shred. Our shredder SUCKS. MAJORLY. It jams all the time, can only handle about 2 pages at once... yeah. So I procrastinated that a lot. I plan to pack up more of whats in the office tomorrow, and I really wanted to do some of that today but instead it turned into sorting and shredding. It's good PREP work for packing, but nothing to really show for it but a trash bag. :P
It was tough cause this morning my DH reminded me that a year ago today is when we adopted our dog, Roscoe, who has been missing for almost a year. (gone Jan 3rd!) We had him such a short time, but it was like... 100% family time since it was the Holidays and we had seriously bonded and loved him like crazy. We still worry about him, wonder if he's dead, or if someone found him, or if he's still stray... he's a beagle mix. He's microchipped so, in theory, someone could take him in and he'd be scanned and we might (in a fantasy world) still get him back.
We also started to adopt another dog once, Columbus -- but DH couldn't handle how much of a puppy he was and not only that it was really too soon since Roscoe and he couldn't handle how NOT ROSCOE the dog was (Roscoe was like his freaking doggie soulmate) so we had to take him back. It was so heartwrenching because we didn't want anything bad to happen to him. But we did find out that he got adopted by a family with a yard (that dog LOVED being outside and we lived in an apartment w/ no yard, and honestly they shouldn't have adopted him to us in the first place) - he ended up better off.
BUT ANYWAY - since then we had decided to wait much longer, and then finances and situation really have gotten in the way of us getting another dog and we decided it would be better for us to wait until DH gets an actual JOB and we can live somewhere with maybe a small yard at least, and maybe a place we can actually have the kind of dog we would like to have (like we would love to rescue a pit bull).... so today I was cleaning and came across all the paperwork for Roscoe and Columbus. Columbus's microchip company actually sent us a card and a little keyring tag thingie w/ his picture on them... I threw away all of Columbus's paperwork, but I kept Roscoe's.
Monday, December 14, 2009
I'm looking forward with positivity, because looking back over the weekend is... eh.
I am choosing to call Saturday Night's party debacle my "cheat meal" of the week... even though I didn't really start eating very well until Wednesday this week. And then Sunday my DH wanted to get Chinese food after we spent all midday working on packing and moving stuff to our Storage Unit (which is next to this REALLY GOOD Chinese food place... :P) so I said... as long as I find something on the menu that is fairly healthy, otherwise I will eat at home.
Well I picked something with a ton of veggies and meat that isn't battered and fried, got steamed rice w/ it. I DID eat one of the crab rangoon appetizers and one of the other things my DH got. But I didn't eat anymore of them.
I also ASKED FOR A BOX AT THE START OF THE MEAL - which I have NEVER done before regardless of how many times I've read about doing it.
We didn't eat until like 3PM for the day... YEAH. It was crazy. I need to remember to eat regularly. But I put most of the food in the box until what was left looked like a smart serving size.
Then at home I had two other meals of my leftovers. :) I ate again at like 6PM and 10PM which is kinda close to how I normally eat, except my first meal is usually much earlier obviously, first snack at 3PM, then lunch at 5PM, snack at 8ish, dinner after 10PM when I get home.
I'm very proud of how I dealt with the food yesterday after the initial mistake of waiting too long to eat coupled with the curveball of Chinese food.
I weighed today and was only up .5lb from pre-weekend numbers and I'm guessing I may drop again by Thursday which was when I had a drop last week.
I'm still having some pain in my hip/knee on the left leg and in my ankle/foot on the right leg. Very very mild/minor -- but I definitely do not want to run again until I feel really great. I don't need to, so I might as well recover. BUT - I definitely WANT to. I'm feeling impatient about it somewhat, but definitely not impatient enough to be stupid and run. :)
So this week I intend to keep up my strength training, and get SOME kind of cardio in... maybe I can get to the aquatic center to erg.
ALSO - today is my DH's 30th birthday. He's sooooooooo not thrilled about being 30. He took himself to lunch at this "Bama Wings and Fish" place that just opened up near our soon to be OLD place. (This way he could have a meal out without tempting me!) I don't think we'll be doing any food related celebrating, and as far as gifts we're waiting till next year. Although I did donate some remaining "Fandango Bucks" to him so he can go out to a movie sometime on his own while I'm at work free of charge (and free of seeing a movie w/out me guilt). :) That's my present to him! hehe.
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