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Feeling More Positive and a Revision to my Plan!

Monday, August 31, 2009

So -- first the revision. I am thinking I will do two full body ST days a week instead of my previous plan -- Monday and Thursday. This will allow me not to have to do anything post longrun besides a possible row, and still give me one FULL off day the day before my long run. I think this is the best plan! WOOT. :)

I started this morning. Not as crazy intense as I used to prefer to do ST -- but I hit the basic areas. Lower Body - Deadlifts and Sumo Squats, Abs - Reverse Crunches and Weighted Crunches, Upper Body - combination bicep curl + overhead press, lateral shoulder raises, single arm rows, lying single arm tricep extensions, and chest flies. WOOT. Thursday's will be even better because I kind of threw this together on the fly.

My run Saturday went GREAT. I took a nap in the afternoon to help recharge. I ate smart and healthy and not too much all day to help me feel fueled, but not heavy. The ONE bad thing about the run -- I really should have had more water with me.

I tried a new on the go fuel, nothing intended to be used that way, but these Florida's Natural Fruit Stiks. :) Blueberry, strawberry, and orange. They're really good -- but they stick to the wrapper a bit, so not super easy to open, but once they're open they're pretty good, don't stick to the teeth, all that good stuff. Will still be trying sportz beans and gu in the future, but for now I had to get something to have and there we have it.

As for the water -- I finally ordered my running stuff today!

I went to The Athlete's Foot on Saturday and saw that wow, they DO carry like a full line of Brooks running shoes!!! (And Asics, and Saucony's, etc., and have them shelved by type of support...) I was actually really surprised that the feel in the store was unlike any other Athlete's Foot I've ever been in. Usually I go into an Athlete's Foot and feel like it's a store geared towards those guys looking for the latest kicks and basketball shoes, people looking to be cute. This store felt like a RUNNING STORE. They had gu! Nathan Hydration Packs! Lots of running shorts and socks and it was just really interesting...

I went back Sunday w/ my socks to try some stuff on. Decided I love the feel of the Brooks Adrenaline 9 and that'll be my baby. I also got measured again -- when I got measured at another store recently when visiting my inlaws the measurements came back about a full size SMALLER than I thought I was... it was bizarre, but I watched the measuring and that's what the tool said! (I know think his tool was WRONG) because I got measured again and came back as what I THOUGHT I was. Plus that guy at the other store had to immeditaely go back and get bigger shoes because his size from the measurements was too small. :P So anyway -- I'm not down a size in shoes! That was a REALLY important thing for me to know before making any decisions about what to buy.

The sales associate was very knowledgeable and helpful so I feel kinda bad that I'm not buying from their store... but oh well. Gotta do what I gotta do. I could buy the shoe for almost $40 cheaper online and they didn't even have the right width in the store right then anway. SOooooooooo -- I placed my order today for:

The Adrenaline shoe
Adidas running tights (WHEE!!!)
Amphipod Runlite 4 bottle thingie
2 extra modules w/ 10.5oz bottles

So I can either replace two of the standard 8oz bottles w/ the 10.5 oz bottles OR if I get REALLY CRAZY I can run with 6 bottles. :D HAHAHAHA When I tried on the Nathan in the store I got sold on the amphipod because it can be adjusted and custom configured. The Nathan had the awkwardly placed bottles I read about in the online reviews. I'm sure I could get used to it, but why bother?

So the best part -- free 2 day air shipping. OH YEAH. So I should have these babies around Wednesday! WOOHOO!

I ordered from runningwarehouse, btw.

So my weight is still the same today (an unknown number that I am not sharing for the time being), but my waist is down some in measurement and I forgot to consider last week during freakout session that this week is TOM and I'm usually up 4-5lbs prior to TOM. Not saying that is the case necessarily right now, BUT there is a possibility it may go down after this week more than a lb or so. So that is somewhat encouraging as well.

The Athlete's Foot didn't open for an hour after I arrived at the shopping complex, so I did some clothes trying on at Old Navy and another clothing store I've never tried - very cute boutique-y feel but kinda large (Az well?) Anyway. I tried on some stuff, still fit into the sizes I'd normally fit into, felt pretty good about that. So it wasn't depressing at all, which is good -- I was like Dana, do you really want to do this right now??? And it turned out to be a little bit of a confidence booster. You didn't BLOW UP OVERNIGHT!!! You're up a little and it's OKAY! :)

Not to mention the major accomplishment of my run on Saturday! :D I didn't get to bask in accomplishment as much as I would have liked because I made us late to go to our friend's house and it was rush rush, hurry hurry, make a salad, oh you made us late. HAHAHA. So my run was getting kind of a bad rep -- but I was supposed to run 8 miles and actually went about 8.5!!!!!!! HOLY COW!!!!!!!!!!! :D This Saturday's long run is to be 10miles. :) I added a new path and part of town to my running repertoire and I really enjoyed it, so it's good to know a new place I can string on to my "favorite run". It added about 2.5 miles! So that's cool.

I definitely started to feel my body getting tired and a bit sore toward the end of my run, but no sharp pains or anything bad like that, so that's good. I stayed within ranges on Sunday -- definitely went a little over on Saturday night, but I'm actually quite alright with that because I burned a ton of calories on my run. (ended up being over my cal's burned for the week by like... 800? or something?) I tracked it to what I could eat to stay within range easily prior to going over, but then I ate a bit more than that in actuality, but nothing crazy. I didn't make myself overfull. I think I actually just listened to my body and ate more in a smart way so I feel very positive and proud of my actions.

In general, I'm feeling much calmer and happier about where my body is right now and my plans for the future.

OH!!!!!!!!! AND ROWING!!!! The line-ups were redrawn again and as it stands I will be racing in a women's boat and a mixed boat in the more local race that I made top priority, and pending fundraising opportunities there is a chance I could race in another one as well but we'll see. I'm just excited because I never considered the possibility of racing on the same day in two different boats -- I hope I read the lineups right! HA :D

So here's to a great week!

  
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100MILLBUTRFLYS 9/1/2009 11:22AM

    ahhh.. nothing beats a great pair of shoes!!! I remember buying the pair of Mizuno running shoes last year because i needed something that fit and would help me support the extra weight of being pregnant.. OMG!! I LOVE those shoes and they hold up so well! to me worth the $89 investment.

Well have a fantastic week and awesome job on your run!!
♥Cheers♥

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EOSAURORA84 9/1/2009 10:08AM

    you are quite the busy bee...how do you have so much time to do all this in a day???
Good luck on the training.

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TELERIE 9/1/2009 9:49AM

    Woot for new running stuff - isn't it exciting! I love my running tights, and I got some running capris as well - I've basically _lived_ in those this summer. Time for the tights now, as it's getting colder. So glad you're up-beat and wonderful, Dana - all's well!

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FITTYTIF 9/1/2009 12:36AM

    Your blogs always exhaust me but also give me that energy boost I need. Thanks for the motivation

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SKYFYRE 8/31/2009 6:48PM

    Dana, Congrats on a fantastic run!!! That is awesome! I am also proud of you for being able to get this perspective on yourself!Sometimes we just need to have a day with some mirror time to find out we aren't all that bad! Anyway, great motivation: 8.5 miles! And I will check out the amphipod, sounds interesting!

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SPRING4FAL 8/31/2009 6:37PM

    Awesome!! I am glad that you have so many upbeat things to report!!! WHOOO HOOO!!!!

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SWEATONCEADAY 8/31/2009 5:53PM

    so proud of you dana. you will rock that 10 mile run coming this weekend.

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LIMELITESHINES 8/31/2009 4:27PM

    WOW. What an awesome weekend. Running, rowing, life living, shoe shopping WOOHOO! :) Oh and you're SO gonna rock those 10 miles. :D

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WOLFKITTY 8/31/2009 3:20PM

    emoticon Cheers to a good week!!

Jocelyn

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TRECECOOKS 8/31/2009 2:40PM

    Spent a bunch of time catchin' up on your blogs, hon. Keep on keepin' on and you'll be where you want to be. No matter what, you know you are better off than 2 years ago, if not last year.
Thanks for stopping by my blog; made me smile to see you'd been there!!

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TAKEONME48137 8/31/2009 1:59PM

    Yay! That all sounds awesome. Hooray for new shoes! What are the amphipod things? The rowing stuff sounds like fun!

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RHALES199 8/31/2009 1:57PM

    WooHoo! you go, girl!

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LANC92 8/31/2009 1:55PM

    Dana, most of the experienced runners I know only do ST two times a week while training for a marathon. I even have one friend who will not do any lower body ST while training - only upper body and core work. Marathon training is a huuuuuuuge thing! It's lots and lots of mileage. Seriously, your body can only take so much. After all, we are not professionals who do nothing but workout and and get massaged lol! We have jobs and families and other responsibilities. Also, each time you add a bit of mileage to your long run, you'll find out that you start to fatigue right where you last long run ended. That's because you've never gone that far before! This is what helps you to build up your endurance. I'm glad to see that you are practicing with different kinds of running fuel. Very important that you figure out - before your actual race - what works for you. I never could drink Gatorade or eat Gu - both made me sick, sick, sick. But PowerAde, Shot Bloks, and pretzels work wonders for me. Keep up the good work!

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DDOORN 8/31/2009 1:22PM

    Good for you to keep tweaking and re-inventing yourself!

I'm sure you'll be seeing results soon!

Don

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BOVEY63 8/31/2009 1:17PM

    Congrats on the 8.5 miles and good luck with the 10 mile and boat race.
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Crappy Day yesterday...

Saturday, August 29, 2009

so..... really good day followed by really crappy day.

I'm really feeling discouraged today.

The lbs I put on while travelling during August have NOT just fallen back off...

It's still August. I know I'm being REALLY hard on myself, but I just can't seem to stop it.

Yesterday was kind of an all day cheat day... I ate healthy food during the day, but too much of it overall, and then we went out to eat and I ate my food AND some of someone else's... ugh.

This morning I feel so bloated and huge. I know that I'm still a healthy weight. I know that I need food to fuel my workouts, but yesterday was ridiculous.

I'm not going to track it all because I don't want to discourage myself even more but I will try to remember everything I ate and share it with you...

Clif Kids Organic Fruit Twists... 3?
1oz raw almonds
2oz beef jerky
2 bowls of cereal w/ unsweetened soymilk
1 sandwich
1 salad w/ grilled chicken (like a ton of hearts of romaine w/ 1.33 ish servings of grilled chicken? and one serving of a balsamic garlic vinaigrette)
stonyfield probiotic yogurt (I think just one but maybe two... ??!?!?! see how bad this is?)
PB and pretzel sticks
another serving of pretzel sticks
hard boiled egg

I think that's it for what I ate while at home.......we went to a Greek Place and I got the PLATE instead of just a sandwich -- ate falafel, rice, salad, hummus, pitas, two orange slices, and the leftovers of someone elses gyro meat, tzatziki and pita bread. Some tortilla chips and salsa at my friend's house, too.

THERE.

CONFESSION DONE. See???? I might have been a good example earlier in the week but now you can see what happens to Dana when she completely derails. I couldn't help but estimate for the at home eating just now... about 1945 or a little more. So if I had STOPPED THERE I would have been ok, but then add the rest of it and I'm sure I'm over 1000cal over.

I KNOW that one day does not a failure make, I KNOW I can get back on this. I think I might have to not allow any cheat meals next week. Or maybe a couple of weeks. Just to get back on track? ORRRRRRRRRR just ensure that I REALLY only have one cheat meal and that everything else gets tracked BEFORE it goes into my mouth? I think maybe the second one is better... not too restrictive so I end up flaking out I think.

There were definitely good things I did yesterday -- I went rowing and burned 600 calories there, then when I went to my friend's house I went to the pool and actually swam a bit there. Nothing super major but I got my face in the water and swam across the pool every now and again. It felt good to know I can do that!!! Maybe not for long, and I don't open my eyes w/out goggles so I had no idea where I was going except to aim and reach out when I thought I was close to a wall... but still. I was a little proud of myself.

But then this morning I put on my "size too big" jeans cause I wanted to be comfy today and they fit. UGGGHHHHHHHHH I'm hoping some of this is bloating from the tragic day yesterday and lack of sleep. Also I DO think they are freshly laundered... but still. No more excuses.

I REALLY think the lack of sleep is getting me. I should have napped yesterday instead of eating. I need to honor my body by giving it the rest that it needs. I just want to DO EVERYTHING. I need to realize my limitations.

So.

Goals for today and onward - eat at set intervals of time. DO NOT CONTINUALLY GRAZE WHILE AT HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (THIS is the BIGGIE.) My schedule varies so eating at specific times of the day will not work for me, but if I eat 3 meals and 3 snacks during the day, I KNOW I will be able to eat enough food. I know I can eat at 2-3 hour intervals. I know I don't need the amount of calories I have been eating -- I need fuel but I have been putting away STORAGE and I don't need to STORE EXTRA FUEL -- it doesn't work like that!

I need a specific strength training plan as well. It has NOT been happening and no more excuses. I know that not working on my muscle has led to me being wider and I do not appreciate it.

I'm having a hard time figuring out when it's ok/realistic to strength train based on my busy schedule. I want to get it 3 times a week, I don't think a split rotation will really work with my schedule right now, but I also want to make sure I'm not giving myself too much to do in a day, that I'm getting a full day of rest before my long run day (which I did not do this week due to rowing unless I run on Sunday... we'll see...)... stuff like that.

Right now it's Mon - OFF, Tue - Row and Run, Wed - Run, Thu - Run, Fri - OFF, Sat- Long Run, Sunday - Row?

So I can see that ST on Thurstay and Sunday will work, but I don't want to do ST on Tuesday because I row AND run and that's just too much going on. Mon is back to back to Sunday... Wed is back to back to Thursday and so on and so forth. Maybe I can do a split rotation on Mon-Thu and then a full body session on Sunday???

OOH. I like that idea. ok. So Tue - Core. Wed - Lower Body. Thur- Upper Body. Sun - FULL BODY.

No more wussing out on lower body ST because I'm afraid of aggravating my IT Band. There are THINGS I CAN DO. And just DO IT already. Avoiding squats is good IF IT'S AGGRAVATED -- but not doing squats will not prevent it from getting aggravated. THERE.

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Corporate Lawyer Trainer has debunked my secret fear that has been allowing me to avoid Lower Body ST. NO MORE.

Are there any more excuses or secret fears that I need to confront?

I think my anxiety about today's long run helped me keep returning to the kitchen yesterday as well... YOU CAN DO THIS, DANA!!!!!!!!

I've been thinking about this all morning - what advice would I give to someone else?

OH! AND ANOTHER THING. NO MORE GROCERY SHOPPING ON TUESDAY MORNINGS. It might seem like I have plenty of time because I'm already up so early from rowing, but after rowing and running and then shopping and coming home and prepping proteins for the week... I run out of time to nap and I NEED it on a rowing in the morning day. SO!

Another goal to help myself succeed and to feel more in control is to go back to doing Grocery Shopping on the weekend. I won't make myself say Saturday or Sunday as a specific, either day will be fine I think. And prepping proteins or batch cooking a meal if necessary on Sunday for the week. I have time on those days and especially for the prepwork, I'm usually hanging out at home and can easily have that going on while I do other things.

Now a personal pep talk to myself:

Eating healthy makes you feel good.
Strength training makes you feel STRONG.
Working your core will help with running stamina AND rowing form.
Giving yourself sleep is not taking away from what you can do during the day -- you will be more productive, have more energy, and just FEEL BETTER during the waking hours if you spend enough on the sleeping hours.
If you feel munchy at home, remind yourself that you can eat something again in 2-3 hours -- then drink some water and or chew some gum.

*PHWEW*

I feel like I've been a wreck lately and I thought I had myself BACK until yesterday and it just scared me. I DO NOT want to let these extra lbs stay on. I WILL NOT let them. I need them gone. I need to make sure I do not regain the weight I lost. I have been feeling very uncomfortable in my skin again lately and it reminds me of how I felt before I started to lose any weight. I know that physically I'm not there again but mentally and emotionally I HAVE BEEN IN THAT PLACE lately and it SUCKS. No more!

  
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WOLFKITTY 8/31/2009 3:13PM

    Reading your struggle strengthens my resolve. :)
Thank you.

Jocelyn

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SEEHOLZ 8/31/2009 10:51AM

    I'm with you on the lack of sleep and respecting my body to get enough rest! It so makes a HUGE difference!
New day-- ( or 2 days later?)--- I hope it's an AWESOME day!

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EOSAURORA84 8/31/2009 10:32AM

    Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat......
this is my new mantra for phase three of the spark diet...dont know who wrote it but i like it and i truly believe that it applies here....you have come so far and done so much since you started your journey...even the best fall sometimes and you know what it is okay as long as you keep the overall goal in mind....dont beat yourself up over this

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SKYFYRE 8/31/2009 6:36AM

    Dana!
You are on fire! I am so glad that you wrote this little blog! You are right about everything in your pep talk, and I needed that! Heehee! I am glad that you have found the resolve to kick the vacation weight to the curb, you are well deserving of meeting each and every one of your goals and I love that you are attacking this one from all angles! Wahoo!

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JESPAH 8/31/2009 6:21AM

    Get 'em gone -- you know you can do that.

Also, you may think of the day as being a nonstop failure, but the reality is that the foods you overdid it on weren't exactly bad for you. You were not grabbing for the fourth muffin or the sixth bag of chips. You were eating hard-boiled egg.

Today is a new day. Tomorrow is a new month.

Time to kick it.

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TAKEONME48137 8/30/2009 7:20PM

    Great blog! I'm sorry you're going through that stuff again, Dana. You seem to know what's wrong and what you need to do to hopefully fix it. You've come this far, you can keep going and being successful. Once again, YOU CAN DO IT! =) =)

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SUMMERVA 8/30/2009 2:25AM

    i like the pep talk! sometimes that's just what you need. i hate having these days, but it's a little comforting to know that even people that I look to experience it...does that make sense? anyway, you'll get back on track. hope all is well with you, dana!

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SLCOLMAN 8/29/2009 9:20PM

    You are amazing and the weight will come back off... Besides that you still look HOT!!!

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HOPERY 8/29/2009 7:36PM

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WHATAGRL42 8/29/2009 7:16PM

    Well, I think that about covers it all! Feels good to purge, I think.

As for your "food binge", it was, for the most part, healthy food, and not junk! And you KNOW you're not going to suddenly become completely sedentary. Worst case scenario: The increased calories might just up your metabolism, and combined with your regular exercise, you'll find in a week or so, those creeping pounds will begin dropping again.

I signed up for a 6 week "intensified boot camp" at my gym: strength, cardio and a nutrition component. Problem is that it's on T/TH directly after my yoga class, across town at my "other " gym. I'm going to have to leave yoga 15 min early (which is just the relaxation part) in order to get to boot camp on time.

But.... maybe having a structured class will rev up my current strength training routine (I just go around and do all the machines every M/W). And maybe because it's only 6 weeks, i won't get burned out.


Put those "1 size up" jeans at the top of your closet before u get more depressed. You're totally back on it. Give it a week or so!!

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RINOACHAN 8/29/2009 3:44PM

    Everyone has bad days. It's good to let it out and get on with it! You can do it!

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 8/29/2009 3:18PM

    I am always amazed at the amount of exercise you are getting, so I was surprised to read this "derailed" blog. It just means you are human! I got derailed earlier this week with not one, but two boxes of ice cream. It was like I was crazed and couldn't stop. Thank God that's gone now, but it cost me 3 pounds that will take a couple weeks to get back off.

I'm back on track (again) and I bet you are too. I had to decide not to shop at a particular grocery store anymore...I've been tempted by their ice cream sale price one too many times.

I just discovered Warrior X-Fit the other day. It's a strength training program on the internet that takes about 25 minutes total to do. The website is
http://xfit.thelogica.com/>
I like it because the exercises are different every day and they are timed. All muscle groups are worked over an 18 minute period. It has a 2 minute warm-up and a 4.5 minute stretch afterward.

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BRUIN2 8/29/2009 12:58PM

    Great blog Dana, glad you got the training all sorted. See how you feel with all that ST. When I read your first plan, a one-day a week full body workout on Thursday's jumped out at me as a possibility....

You're going to rock this. I know so.

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SWEATONCEADAY 8/29/2009 12:42PM

    you can do it!

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 8/29/2009 12:25PM

    I'm so sorry, Dana! I hope things start to go better. You're on the right track, and you have a plan: "I need to honor my body by giving it the rest that it needs. I just want to DO EVERYTHING. I need to realize my limitations." If we all were able to do this, I think we'd all be a lot happier!

You can do it!

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KEAKMAN 8/29/2009 11:29AM

    "I need to honor my body by giving it the rest that it needs. I just want to DO EVERYTHING. I need to realize my limitations."

Did you read what you wrote?

This is very profound Dana. I know, it sounds cliche, but if you can tame your desire to do all and be all, if you can honor your body and realize (and accept) your limitations, I think you will find life to be calmer, and you to be more relaxed.

Why do you want to exercise? or watch what you eat? or nap? It's all in an effort to make your body into the temple it can and should be. To be the best, most useful, most Dana that you can be. If you overdo it, either direction, you hurt you and you hurt your ability to be you.

"I need to honor my body by giving it the rest that it needs. I just want to DO EVERYTHING. I need to realize my limitations."

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LADYIRISH317 8/29/2009 11:08AM

    You said lack of sleep is getting to you. Lack of sleep gets to ANYBODY. I think you're right about needing to schedule nothing but a nap on Tuesday, and to make sure you get adequate sleep other days as well. I'd be happy to cast a Petrificus Totalis charm on you so you CAN'T go anywhere and have to sleep...

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100MILLBUTRFLYS 8/29/2009 11:05AM

    I think a day 'off' now and then is good for the soul. Nothing wrong with it.
Now it's back to the grind stone ;) Take care and keep at it. you've got a huge cheering section and lots of friends here. we're more then happy to help kick tush when needed ;)
♥cheers♥

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AINTSKEERD 8/29/2009 10:47AM

    We've all been in that place, Dana. I'm just coming out of one, myself. Don't be so hard on yourself. You have had an awful lot going on in your life over the last month or so.
It sounds like you are already working out a routine to get yourself back on track. We all know you can do it, and YOU do too. Hang in there as this too, shall pass.
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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 8/29/2009 10:07AM

    Dude. track the calories. really. 'cuz it's the weekly average that counts, not the individual days, and you won't know the weekly average unless you track everything.

(Disclaimer here: I'm a scientist and I'm in love with physicsdiet.com because it allows me to treat this process as my own personal science experiment. So it would seem really WRONG for me to not track all my nutrition. Maybe it doesn't bother you, which is OK too.)

I expect that you feel bloated because of water retention, because of salt. You had a LOT of sodium yesterday, based on the foods you listed. Probably about twice the recommended daily dose.

And yes, sleep is insanely important. I make all kinds of unfortunate decisions when I'm tired...
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Just get back on the horse. Don't think too much about it, just DO it. And if you slip some more before getting back into the routine solid, no problem 'cuz we've got your back and we'll pester and harass you until you do! LOL
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_RAMONA 8/29/2009 10:05AM

    Don't beat yourself up... evaluate and move forward. You are doing what most people never manage, so keep it real, but flexible. You are doing fine! ...And if you really feel you need a 'dusting' on your 'britches' just go read my 'There Are No Secrets' blog. LOL!

{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 8/29/2009 10:00AM

    You will get those pounds off, Dana. The first step is acknowledging they are there and not playing excuse games. I think that is where a lot of people trip themselves up, they delude themselves a million ways that is just water, just tom, just water until their set point is reset with those pounds in place.

Also, maybe you NEEDED a high calorie day? I know everyone is different, and part of blogging is being able to spot patterns, so this may not be true for you, but after a few days of regimented eating if I don't do a scheduled cheat it can definitely lead to binging.

Also, I agree you need a concrete ST schedule. ST isn't going to occur by happenstance. You need a plan.

Anyway, you are in a good place, girl, I know you are!

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SPARKNMOM 8/29/2009 9:35AM

    I'm also struggling w/ pants at the moment - I'm up a size and not happy about it. It's good that you're open and honest about it...we help keep you accountable. So....crappy eating day over - done. Today you and I BOTH start anew and we'll get back to where we want to be. Even if it takes WAY longer than we'd like (I've been fighting these additional 10 pounds for nearly a year). We've adopted a new lifestyle - a new attitude. We're not perfect, but we're consistent...so we'll get there!!

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DDOORN 8/29/2009 9:28AM

    Oh hey, Dana, you KNOW those pounds are gonna be history...! You're going to stay the course and tweak and SPARK those pounds away...!

The biggest lesson I learn from those stubborn pounds gained from slips and are SO tough to RE-lose is: do anything I can from allowing the slip to happen again! :-)

Don

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LIMELITESHINES 8/29/2009 9:21AM

    It looks like you've taken all the right steps to get yourself where you want to be. You set up a plan (I love your ST plan!), and thats the number one thing to do!! So you know . . you already know what you're doing and how to get there. We all have our crazy moments (like me and a bakers dozen of donut holes. argh) . . . but do not do not do not beat yourself up. And don't punish yourself (no cheat meal for a few weeks) either! Keep your cheat day. Actually your Greek food evening sounds like the perfect cheat day. I'm consistently 1000 cals over on my cheat days. And I'm ok with that. I just work that right into my week. It lets me go out and not have to meticulously count every little thing. It reminds me that I can still have fun and go out with my friends and not just FREAK OUT over every little thing I put in my mouth. (cause otherwise I would!). It lets me relax mentally, it helps me make it through the week, and it helps my metabolism not slow down. :) (and I know you know all this!) It's just nice to see it again sometimes.

So take some deep breaths, grab your schedule . . . and worry not about yesterday. Only today! :)

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LASHERTHECAT 8/29/2009 9:11AM

    Okay...take a breath now...

I won't spout the usual... cause you already know...

GET BACK TO A ROUTINE!!!

We are alike in that way I think... Without routine I am LOST!

I just happened to notice your blog from the day before... You were really happy.... You gave yourself an A!! Find the right routine and you'll have more A days emoticon

Also.... kudos to you for admitting to yourself (and to us!) what you ate... That took more courage than I have!

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Good Day Yesterday!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

I could have done better with getting to bed earlier, but overall I give yesterday an A! :D

I stayed within ranges, ate a smart meal before going to the concert, came home and although we stopped at Checker's on the way (DH's request) I looked at the menu and really decided I didn't want any of that crap. *SCORE!!!!!!!* Came home, ate another smart meal and stayed within ranges! WOOHOO! :)

This morning I ran 4 miles. It was kind of a dilemma - WHERE TO RUN? I just ran the neighborhood and I can only take so much of it before it drives me nuts and to branch out on a different route from the neighborhood = more hills and I just wasn't feeling that... but didn't feel like driving to my favorite running spot either -- and besides I'll probably incorporate that in my long run Saturday.... then I remembered a park I hadn't run at in a while is a perfect 1 mile loop. The simplicity of that really appealed to me (plus absence making the heart grow fonder) so the park it was!

BAM! :) DONE. Glad I get a rest day tomorrow. Then theoretically long run happens Saturday but it looks like it might be storming -- we'll see. I might shift it to Sunday and not row Sunday since I WILL get to row TOMORROW! :D YAY! (assuming it's also not storming tomorrow evening... grrr) Anyway.....

Today is so far so good w/ calories and food as well. I've planned what I'd like to have for dinner and the only downside is that I'm low on carbs. We'll see how I feel after dinner and if I'm still hungry I'll find something carby to munch but if not I'll just let it be. One day low on carbs won't kill me -- but I WILL make sure to get my carbs tomorrow!!! Don't wanna be low on fuel on Saturday!

The concert we went to last night was fun -- good show! Much less people were there than I expected, but the band was really nice and said that although we were few in number, the ones that came made them feel really welcome and they seemed to enjoy themselves. The Enemy Lovers, btw. They just have a 6 song EP out right now. ummmmmmm what else....

Oh I also cooked some more chicken this morning -- I used more than planned because of yesterday's extra meal at work. Gonna meet w/ some pals from rowing on Saturday to eat and hang out - game and maybe watch a movie so that should be fun. :)

  
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CATIATM 9/3/2009 5:26AM

    You renaissance woman! Fit, athletic, musical, speaking foreign languages, cooking like Betty Crocker -- you ROCK, Dana! emoticon

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SUMMERVA 8/30/2009 2:27AM

    LOVE enemy lovers. their first single got a lot of play on 100.5, and I crank it up every time I hear it on the radio.

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MISSY_MAGOO 8/28/2009 11:01PM

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 8/28/2009 1:04PM

    Way to go, Dana! You're a powerhouse!!

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PLATAS0827 8/28/2009 11:06AM

    Great Job Dana.. you always seem to inspire.. and I appreciate that. Keep up the great work!!!

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SWEETZMIX 8/28/2009 10:33AM

    Go Dana, Go Dana...you are just full of a whole punch of FAB!

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DDOORN 8/28/2009 9:50AM

    Great day indeed!

Sleep...that's my struggle too...not enough hours in the day!

Don

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/28/2009 9:20AM

    Another outstanding day. I still wish I had half of your energy.

ttyl

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LASHERTHECAT 8/28/2009 9:16AM

    Congrats on an A+ Day!!

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 8/28/2009 9:07AM

    Big victory on the checkers! It is so true, though, that stuff is not even food! If you really want a burger and fries go somewhere the fries are handcut fresh and the burgers are made by a chef, you know? And yet we have all been duped by marketing and the fact that that crap is basically like a drug to think that it is good. Funny how when you don't eat fast food you don't want to eat it.

Anyway, major victory for you!

Good job finding a forgotten park, as well. I get burned out running around here and the gym sometimes too, but just tweaking the route a bit can help with the boredom.

Keep on rocking!

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DIZZYKITTY 8/28/2009 5:42AM

    Ooh well done you, I'd never stay healthy at a concert, alcohol gets me everytime!

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PRAIRIEDAWNPAM 8/28/2009 12:23AM

    I'm going to have to search the net for all of these new-to-me bands that you mention. Gawd, I'm getting old... LOL

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100MILLBUTRFLYS 8/27/2009 11:15PM

    Keep up the great work! ♥

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HOPERY 8/27/2009 9:57PM

    You are doing awesome!!!

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MDTWEETY 8/27/2009 6:54PM

    I love how you enjoy life! :) :)

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Part run, part doggie rescue!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

So today I was running and at the beginning of my second out and back for this particular part of my route I saw this doggie kinda looking at me and shyly following a bit. I didn't stop and looked back and couldn't see her anymore.

I said if she's still there on my way back I'll stop (I'd almost be at the end of my run anyway) and I prayed that if the dog needed my help, to help me see her on my way back.

Well I get back there and there she is! SOOOOooooOOoo shy. I had to kind of play a slow patient game to get her to come close enough for me to pet her. And then I had no leash or treats or anything! But it was so adorable once I pet her she seemed to be like, OK! We're friends now! Let's play!

She looks like a beagle mix, too, so my heart was right out to her immediately!

Anyway -- I get her to follow me home and get some treats and talk to DH about it right outside our door and he is obviously torn between wanting to take her in and take her to the shelter. (The heart says - oh she's so pretty and sweet and cute and the head says we have no time or money to take care of a doggie!)

I really do think she may be someone's lost dog (or possibly recently abandoned). She seemed slightly underweight, but not too bad off, and she had a fur indent where a collar used to be. So I HOPE that by taking her to the shelter her owners can find her if she is lost.

So anyway as you can probably tell by that last sentence, we decided to be smart about it and take her to the shelter. I drove her over quickly while DH was getting ready for us to leave for school/work -- I left our place to go to the shelter a little over 30min before we'd have to leave again!!!!!!!

Luckily it's not TOO far away. Dropped her off, rushed back home, 5 min shower, throw a ton of food in a bag, and get going! I hadn't eaten anything yet today! EEK! Starving! So I ate as soon as I got to work (don't clock in for an hour still even now, yay for being dropped off at work super early...).

ANYWAY. I intended to do some ST today, did a few pushups in this office hahaha will do some more and maybe some ab work before clocking in instead of the trombone/Japanese practice today. PHWEW.

Slept as long as possible last night, BTW. Started nodding off around 11:30-11:45 last night and got up at like... 8:15. Still feel kinda tired though -- I know you can't instantly recover from little sleep in one night, though.

Food has been on track so far this week, so WOOT for that.

Tonight we're going to a concert after I get off of work -- The Enemy Lovers! :D I'm excited for that. Glad I brought so much food (just threw a bunch of components in a bag instead of a prepared lunch) so I have extras to eat something before I leave work cause we're going straight to the concert.

Tomorrow: 4 mile run (Today was supposed to be 3, it's about a 3.25 route... but I did use the end of it to attract the doggie along with me. hahaha)

  
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EOSAURORA84 8/27/2009 10:46AM

    you always have the busisest days....i dotn think i could keep up...lol....
anyway i am glad that some that was nice found the dog and took her to a good place....have a great day

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KEAKMAN 8/27/2009 8:53AM

    What a blessing you were to that doggie. I hope her owners find her fast!

Ummm, make sure you eat. You need fuel to keep your engine going girl. I mean, I know you are SuperWoman and all that, but you need to eat! emoticon emoticon

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/27/2009 8:31AM

    Busy, busy day. It still amazes me that you have time to do everything.

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JESPAH 8/27/2009 6:13AM

    Awww

Look at all the cool things that can happen when you're out and about! :)

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MONI0709 8/27/2009 12:55AM

    Lucky that doggie found you and not someone heartless! I hope her owners find her soon.

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MDTWEETY 8/26/2009 10:11PM

    Awww! I hope the doggie finds its owner or a new home. Poor thing. Good for you for rescuing her!

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TELERIE 8/26/2009 5:31PM

    So glad you did the dog rescue! I understand the temptation to keep her, though.


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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 8/26/2009 4:24PM

    Awwww, what a good person you are! I'm glad you got her to the shelter, and I hope her owners find her there.

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DDOORN 8/26/2009 4:13PM

    What a samaritan you are! :-)

Enjoy the concert...love live music!

Don

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CATIATM 8/26/2009 3:45PM

    Aww .... a doggie ... I never would have bene able to give her up! *LOL*

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TAKEONME48137 8/26/2009 3:39PM

    Awww the puppy sounds cute! That sucks you guys can't keep her, but that's cool that you took care of her to make sure she got somewhere relatively safe. Yay for food being on track! I'm failing on this comment. I thought I had more to say and I don't. Oh well...hahah good luck with the running!

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SEPPIESUSAN 8/26/2009 2:28PM

    Everywhere I go these days I see people with adorable doggies, and I'm always so jealous, but I can't get a dog because I'm allergic, and because it would be locked up inside a tiny condo too many hours of the day...sigh. You must be all pumped up about marathon training by now!! I need to get back into running...it's been a few weeks...but there's been a heat wave, and I've been spending a lot of my time in the ocean! :) Yay for boogie boarding. Have fun at the show and good job planning ahead with the munchies.

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SWEETZMIX 8/26/2009 2:15PM

    Dana you did the right thing. I know it is tempting to keep the dog. I want one too, but I think like you. Time & money right now. Hopefully the owners are still looking for her.

Enjoy the concert! It seems like you were having one of those days, but you just made the day work for you. Still got in a run, a little exercise at work & extra food for the concert!

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PRAIRIEDAWNPAM 8/26/2009 2:07PM

    I'm a sucker for lost critters, too. Do keep in touch with the shelter in case she is not picked up. Saddly, a lot of municipal shelters have a high kill rate and don't hold onto animals long. I tend to bring them home and call the shelter with the info of what I've found and how the owners can be in touch. That said, we are filled to the gills with cats and dogs right now, so I don't know that I'd be able to bring another one home right now.

...Pam

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SEEHOLZ 8/26/2009 2:03PM

    I have to say, I'm too scared to get friendly with dogs--- I would have done something though- called DH, called the shelter, the neighbor etc... It's actually a nightmare of mine to be stuck on a street, alone with a strange dog-LOL- if that happens, it's not funny! So, I applaud you ( and anyone for that matter) for being not only brave, but taking the next step to take her to the shelter!
Have fun at the concert tonight!

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 8/26/2009 1:41PM

    Maybe you should post a few flyers around, beagle mix found taken to shelter with the number of the shelter?

What kind of band are they? I haven't heard of them.

Have a great time at the show!

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NATURALLYME126 8/26/2009 1:33PM

    Great blog as always! Did you ever find your dog by the way?

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COACH_NICOLE 8/26/2009 1:19PM

    Yay for you for taking care of that dog. Whenever I see an abandoned dog like that, I do the same thing. I'm usually worried they might get hit by cars or something.

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YAY! MY KITCHEN IS STOCKED!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

FINALLY.

*phwew*

I am beat.

I slept very poorly last night... got to bed a little after midnight, woke up at 2ish by the hubby coming to bed, woke again before 4, woke again like every 15 min until 5AM. ROWING TIME!

So I rowed. We ended up waiting 20min for one of our rowers who overslept. But I think we made up for it on the row! We went out working on some drills and whatnot but on the way back we traded 6's and 8's, and then all 8's the rest of the way back! *PHWEW* My owie was bandaged so I don't think it got any worse, it just hurt a bit when there was pressure on it. It's ugly and pink, but I re-ointmented and bandaged this morning both before and after rowing. I'm hoping the rowing break between now and the next time I row (hopefully Friday afternoon!) will help.

Then I ran a little over 4 miles. It was kind of a hard run today mentally and physically. Not so much in the sense that I was running hard -- I was trying hard to take it easy... but I just felt weary... and now that I look back it was likely due to lack of sleep! YEESH! (I ate some pretzel sticks on the way to rowing and sharkies in between rowing and running.)

Between the two activities I burned a little over 1000 cal today... and I didn't start my HRM for a while into the rowing (which is all good cause we were doing drills and whatnot to begin with for a while anyway I guess...).

THEN I went grocery shopping. Took way too long in the store, but I definitely got everything I needed and wanted. We are SET for the week (and in some items for more than a week, ya know...) Since I'm not in love with the Sharkies for on the run fueling (stick in my teeth like mad! They're a little TOO soft), I saw some Clif Kids Fruit Twist thingie... and thought why not! It looks like it'll be a shi-shi pull and peel twizzler. Only ya know, made with FRUIT and whatnot. I'll try em out on my run this weekend -- DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNNN EIGHT MILES.

Last weekend was less stressful because I've run that far before, but here on out my long runs will mark NEW TERRITORY in length of runs. :) Exciting! It also means I need to look up some routes...

Anyway back to shopping... so then I got home and cooked up some chicken breasts and hard boiled some eggs... and I NEEDED FUEL. After everything was put up I got some PB and pretzel sticks and ate that while watching TV and running back into the kitchen to check on my food stuffs.

I was so beat.

DH and I watched the rest of the show I was watching (CSI: NY) and then an episode of "Save My Bath" (A bathroom remodeling show on HGTV), and then I finally showered. HAHAHA. Got ready, made my lunch, ate some cereal, and well here I am at work.

Ugh. I was hoping I would be able to get a nap in this morning but... I grocery shopped too long and then sat w/ hubby in front of the TV instead.

Tonight I will SLEEP. Oh and then run tomorrow AM.

P.S. - OHHHHHH I just realized why today my protein is so high and carbs so low on remaining -- I adjusted my calorie burn yesterday and it readjusted my intake back to Spark Ratios. I think I'm gonna keep aiming for high protein but leave the ranges as they are in Sparks. I expect my body will be wanting more and more carbs as I run longer and longer and that was my plan before anyway so here I go!

  
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SKYEFYR 8/26/2009 12:11PM

  Isn't a fully stocked kitchen the BEST feeling in the world? Knowing you have healthy choices for meals and snacks is just wonderful. I've always been grateful that we planned ahead when hubby had his knee replaced and bought a full size freezer so I can really stock up on foods that can be frozen and just hit the supermarket for staples each week. Just makes life so much easier!

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EOSAURORA84 8/26/2009 9:57AM

    good luck on the long run.....i can barely trot on the treadmill...lol....

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 8/26/2009 7:31AM

    Sounds like another busy day in the life of Dana. Can't wait for the next exciting episode.



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S318830 8/26/2009 1:54AM

    It's a tremendous feeling when every long run is a new record! Enjoy the feeling, it's awesome!

And I love reading about how enthusiastic you are about the rowing. That's just so great! You're so motivated right now and it's catching! Keep it up!

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4565S568SDS 8/25/2009 10:48PM

  Sleep? What is this sleep thing?

If you want something healthyish that's also fruit-snacky, I love http://www.amazon.com/Floridas-Natu
ral-Nuggets-Assorted-4-8-Ounce/
dp/B000LKV4GS They might be too sticky. It's been a while since I've had them but I stocked them this morning and remembered they exist. emoticon

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DDOORN 8/25/2009 10:03PM

    Yeah, sleep...my Achilles Heel also...speaking of which...yawn... :-)

Don

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SWEATONCEADAY 8/25/2009 8:56PM

    yay!

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RUN_LIFT_EAT 8/25/2009 8:55PM

    Yeah you will definitely need more carbs. I needed more with just my half training, but it is kind of nice to be able to pretty much eat what you want and not gain.

I love having groceries, and i like planning the list, but man I do not like the grocery store and i loathe bringing them in the house. Oh well, eating is good.

I am still so impressed with you rowing! Your rowing was definitely an inspiration to get me to take the swimming lessons. It is really exciting to think of all the options out there in the fitness world, we'll never get bored!

Girl, as far as your blog comment about slight worry over readjusting to lwoer calories and carbs after your marathon training ends, that is where I am with this reduced cardio thing. I honestly think that if I can force myself to recognize that I need to eat less I will see some positive results, maybe not major ones, but positive is positive b/c I think when I lift for 45 minutes and then do cardio for 45-60 minutes I almost have to be sabotaging my efforts in the weight room. It is scary though. Okay, sorry for making it alll about MOI!

Glad to keep up with you SWEATSISTER!

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SWEETZMIX 8/25/2009 8:36PM

    So busy sO early in the day before work. Sleep....LOTS OF REST TONIGHT!! I know it is tempting to hang with the hubs instead of napping.

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GAYEMC 8/25/2009 7:48PM

    OMG,You just wore me out reading this. I'm lucky that I can get showered and dressed before work. And I have increased my walk to work from 15 min to 20. What you do is awesome!

As for rowing, I always loved that as a kid, but in a regulay row boat, not a scull. That's something I've always wanted to take up. I feel like I'm home when I'm on the water.

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NATURALSOAPGIRL 8/25/2009 7:11PM

    Stocked fridgie!!!! Hurrayyyy!!!! I have to say - WOW you got a lot done in one day! The rowing and running and shopping and boiling and cooking.... that's more than I get done in a whole day! lol. Good for you. Bet you have lots of energy from it too (at least on the days when you get enough sleep). Get to bed earlier, woman!

Someday I hope to accomplish many things in one day like you... lol. But until then I'll be me.

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SKISINCO 8/25/2009 7:08PM

    Yay for a stocked fridge, pushing through your run, rowing and may you get a great nights sleep!

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CATIATM 8/25/2009 6:19PM

    Have you tried Gu? I use it on my long wogs. You need to drink something with it because it's sticky, but it's a great quick fuel.

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KSGROTHE 8/25/2009 4:54PM

    emoticon on the rowing and the running even on too little sleep!

And you got your kitchen stocked on top of that! You rock!

Now, just make sure you get to bed early tonight. I know how hard it is to stay on track when you're sleep deprived!

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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LIMELITESHINES 8/25/2009 4:05PM

    YEAH for a stocked fridge! i went shopping last night. tonight is a wash . . I have bootcamp. But tomorrow.. . tomorrow is cooking day! yay! lol

I didn't sleep well this evening either. It must be something in the atmosphere!!! ;)

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PRAIRIEDAWNPAM 8/25/2009 4:00PM

    Is there much difference between a sport candy and the genuine Jelly Bellies? Good luck on your run this weekend and way to go on getting that kitchen re-stocked. I'm making my shopping list. Thursday is my shopping today. We're streeeeeeeeeeetching the last of our food now; so far, so good.

...Pam

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100MILLBUTRFLYS 8/25/2009 3:34PM

    ugh.. i so feel ya on the no sleep thing.. went to bed myself closer to 1am..then baby was awake at like 2:30, then ds1 was awake and babbling till like 3am, then dh's alarm at 5:15am..at that point i had some choice words for him lol!

WOO HOO on a full kitchen/pantry! feels good doesn't it? mine's full too.. and i've got oodles of recipes to use on them as well.

have a great tuesday!

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BRUIN2 8/25/2009 3:22PM

    What a day!!!

Have you tried Sport Beans? I can't remember... I like them SOOOO much more than sharkies!! No sticking in your teeth, and the flavors ROCK!

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