Friday, June 26, 2009
Usually my emotions are pretty even keeled. So this is not usually a problem.
Yesterday was a total disaster.
So... I forgot to mention this, or maybe I purposefully didn't because it's kind if disgusting so
gROSS STUFF AHEAD. URINE TALK.
On Monday my urine was like... fruit punch colored after the study. Then the rest of the day it got normal and Tuesday and Wednesday looked normal, then yesterday again -- FRUIT PUNCH - but more of it because I drank a lot more of the beverage yesterday, which tasted like a normal sports drink (sweet but not too sweet). ANYWAY. It was gross but I was like, whatever...
But then on my way home I started to feel lower abdomen cramping and whatnot. It sucked.
I took a shower and did some stuff and then went to the bathroom and my pee was still kinda red. Then I ate some food and drank water and watched tV and fell asleep -- that whole time I was feeling crampy and bad.
When I woke up I was feeling better so I started to head to work, but as I was driving to work I felt worse and worse. The people at work said I looked awful and I told them I didn't think I could make it and went home. I called the guy running the study to tell him and he called to find out if there was something in the drink that could be doing that. (he also mentioned that they noticed my urine color and were "concerned" although apparently not concerned enough to TALK TO ME ABOUT IT?!) Anyway... he calls way later and says nothing in the drink should've turned my urine red and they recommend I see a Dr. However by that point I've been drinking water and whatnot and my urine is now back to normal.
WHAT A COINCIDENCE - so they would like me to think. I really don't believe it was a coincidence, but whatever. I looked up stuff online and there aren't too many "substances" that are supposed to turn your urine red, apparently it's usually from blood in the urine, etc... but honestly it had such a pinkish blue undertone... I thought blood in urine would have a more orangey undertone? Anyway.
They obviously didn't want me to continue in the study but today was the last day anyway so I went in and made my paperwork be finalized for getting paid and that's that.
I think I was mostly upset that they were trying to act like it couldn't be anything to do with their drink... when it seems to ME at least, the person with the body that is experiencing things wayyy out of the ordinary that have never happened until I did the study -- that it's something to do with ME or because the exercise aggravated some CONDITION of mine (which is total nonsense, YOU all know I exercise way more than an hour walk on a regular basis...). If it's a coincidence it's a really big one. Especially how my urine would clear up right away after I had been drinking water again.
Anyway -- that had me miffed plus I was feeling poorly, and then my DH came home early so oYAY WHOOPEE but I feel like crap. We started watching TRUEblood finally which was awesome, but then we randomly started grating on each others nerves- - it was like we were both extremely irritable and sensitive (well... I know I was extremely sensitive and somewhat irritable at least). And I went into a total emotional nonsense land and BINGEVILLE.
WHAT GIVES?!? I've had more emotional binge eating this year than like... ever before in LIFE. Is it maybe just because I've been living so long in a healthy lifestyle that now I'm actually capable of RECOGNIZING these events? Like maybe I didn't care to acknowledge my eating habits in any way before, didn't care to relate them to how I was feeling, what I was doing... it was a hobby for me to eat before. A pleasant event to be enjoyed whenever and however I felt like it. Now I think overall I have such a more healthy relationship with food that these occasions stick out like a sore thumb.
That HAS to be it, because honestly it really CAN'T be that I'm now living overall the healthiest lifestyle I ever have, yet I randomly also start emotionally binging. :P
Anyway. I stopped myself at one point saying ok. I will have one more ice cream cone (the prhase one more should tell you something, although I will tell you there was only one before that but among many other foods in between) and after that I will pop a stick of gum and NO MORE FOOD. And I did it.
I didn't just keep going until all the food was gone or until someone stopped me. I stopped myself. I am in control of my urges and temptations. Not the most awesome control sometimes, but it is my choice what I put in my mouth.
I still don't feel phenomenal today -- I think I slept too much yesterday and probably the ridiculous eating might have something to do with it, but the gastrointestinal nonsense is definitely 100% over as of like... 2-3PM yesterday. :P I just feel kinda tired and worn out.
Then today people say I look like I'm about to cry, look sunburned, still look sick, etc. And today's the first time I've worn makeup in WEEKS. So... I kind of made an effort and apparently I still look like crap so that can't be a good sign. OH WELL.
Life goes on -- I'm so ready for next week.
I AM excited about the SparkRally tomorrow, though. And other fun things that will be happening this weekend.
I just haven't snapped out of the funk that started yesterday when I started feeling like poop yet. :( Wah.
Whiniest blog ever.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
So during the Walking Study today my beverage was SWEET! It was really too sweet for me, but the sweetness made me want to keep drinking it, because as you may ahve noticed after drinking something sweet you have that lingering sweet taste in your mouth and it made me feel thirstier/want more...
I gained 2.5kg or FIVE AND A HALF POUNDS from BEFORE we started and after. :) That is before peeing... by the time I left I was still up 1kg I think though. hahahahha.
Just goes to show -- in case anyone has had a funky weighin - YES. The food you have eaten and how hydrated you are, when you go to the bathroom, etc, DOES have an impact. Because the activity was light and it was cooler today I sweat very little. When they tested my urine for hydration levels I was actually MORE hydrated after walking than before. hahahaha.
ANYWAYYYYYY I'm sure you're all FASCINATED to hear that. TWO MORE DAYS. *phwew*
BUT!!! Due to the fabulous hydration levels and no pressing obligations for tasks that needed to be done, I was able to head over to the AqC and hit the weight training! I REALLLY taxed my upper body. My lower body is still feeling really sore in areas, so I hit it a little differently and less today. Just did the Leg Ext. and Curl Machines so I could hit my hammies and quads, but not stress the helper muscles that were really the ones feeling funky. I did some slow bridges to hit the glutes a bit, but mostly it was allll about the upper body and abs.
I'm telling you, it felt REALLY GOOD to be doing that. The little bits of ST I've been squeezing in here and there -- although I've been lifting a good weight and all -- just don't have the same feeling of really getting in a good full body weights session. I'm looking forward to doing that again soon.
AND TO So You Think You Can Dacne TONIGHT! :)
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Somehow -- despite less sleep and more workout, I feel a little better today than I did yesterday.
Maybe because I've eaten more food? HAHAHAHA :D I have no idea.
I got less than 5hrs of sleep last night, waking up at 4:55AM to get to rowing. WOOT.
Rowing was interesting -- we were in a different boat than the one I've ever rowed in before and apparently it's less nice and harder to "hold the set" (keep the boat balanced and steady) than in the other one. Well I definitely felt that today!!! Usually when me and my pair were rowing more so than any other time -- we kept leaning onto the port side and it was causing my pair the Stroke Seat to have a hard time on recovery because her oar blade kept skipping across the top of the water due to the boat being lower on that side. I could tell she was feeling frustrated about it but I just kept trying to follow what her stroke WOULD be if she was moving evenly and we usually caught up to each other on the catch. (AKA when you put the oar into the water to begin driving (pushing against the water).)
SO! My coach said she could get me off the water AT 7AM, I figured a few minutes late to Walking Study would be fine, but when we pulled up she apologized for making me late and it was like... almost 7:10AM. Luckily the place was close and everyone had to put in their probes and get weighed and all that good stuff so it didn't really matter, but yeah. It was funny -- I felt SO WEIRD because when we pulled up to the dock she's like, OK, Dana you can go now! And I just left my oar and the boat and sprinted up the hill to my car. I didn't help do anything! hahaha it made me feel very... OFF.
So the "Walking Study" is not actually studying Walking -- it's researching "non-caloric hydrating beverages". So there are three time frames during the day when people are walking outdoors for an hour, and they give us a different drink mix each day to use as our hydrating beverage basically. We are there for about 3 hours because it's like an hour of prep, an hour of walking, and we have to be in monitored recovery for an hour, also drinking the same drink and turning in our urine and getting weighed and all that good stuff.
The thing that has been so unpleasant about it is that the beverage yesterday aND today was so gross for me that it was hard to drink enough to hydrate. Todays was better than yesterdays -- but still a little bitter. Some people have drunk theirs and been like -- OOH!! it's sweet! So I'm ready for that one! :D Also apparently one day you get water... so I have at least TWO good days to look forward to out of the last three. HAHAHAHA.
So... Upper and Lower Body ST was the plan for today in addition to rowing and walking, but I needed to buy groceries. By the time I did that, and took a shower, and got my lunch ready... yeah I had no time for anything. I also hard boiled a dozen eggs and cooked up a bunch of chicken breasts and prepped those for the week.
My eating has been...... not that awesome lately. I've been having more trouble staying on track than I have before. I have two theories -- BOTH might be right actually.
1. I'm burning more calories than I think I am so I really should be eating more.
2. Because I have no idea how many calories I'm burning I'm becoming nonchalant with my intake.
OK so "NO IDEA" Is kinda exaggerating, but honestly, I'm really convinced I'm burning more than the Spark Estimates for my activity... but without KNOWING I don't want to randomly start eating more. The compromise is to be at the top of my range most days and splurging more on the weekends.
Clearly this plan is kind of not really working. Since I adusted my calories to start trying to slowly lose weight I've not lost anything. And mayyybe gained just a little recently. :P
Could I be DRASTICALLY eating too little? I don't really think so. I just want my HRM back. :(
I paid for it to be returned to me yesterday.
SO GET THIS. The buttons are apparently able to be mailed free to you and they snap on. I didn't even NEED to send my HRM in. UM WHAT?!? But because I did, they did a routine check up on it and said I should replace my battery. Well -- in order to keep my warranty for the full two years the guy told me I had to replace my battery. I'm pretty sure that's a load of bull crap, but to be honest I figured why not replace it since I already paid the shipping to mail it there and back again and then I'll have a longer battery life than I would have by keeping my old battery and let's just get it back NOW and not have to worry about whether the warranty would really not be affected. You know?
But at least I know that if the buttons crack and fall off again what to do. :P And I read on one of the Polar Forums this woman said that a rep told her that SUNBLOCK is what causes the buttons to crack and fall off. ?! So I'm gonna try to be careful about getting sunblock on the HRM but even so, oh well. They'll mail me new ones apparently.
OH and Sunday I made Green Chile Chicken Enchilada Casserole for my Healthy Meal Night and we watched Sweeney Todd on BluRay and it was wonderful. (Both the food and the movie). I had the leftovers for lunch yesterday - yay!
Monday, June 22, 2009
UGh, I just feel so DRAINED today already -- and I haven't even been at work for ONE HOUR of my shift yet. :P
This weekend was good -- not so good on the eating again, but yesterday was not too bad... just one more serving of "Chocolate Hazelnut Biscotti Granola" than I should have had... which is actually a calorie difference of about 300cal... :P But otherwise a decent day.
I made a new recipe that I get to enjoy leftovers of for lunch today so that's fun.
Saturday was realllly nice to be with my family. We ate at Boston Market which does have some nutrition information available so I did pretty well there -- ate SOME of the skin of my chicken but left most of it alone. :)
Had no time to run when I came back before it got dark and I missed my hubby so I decided to go without.
But I DID get in a 5.25 mile run on Sunday and kept the pace RIGHT where I wanted it to end up average -- just under 13min miles. I was trying hard to remember to take it fairly easy since I did not have my HRM to remind me with numbers.
Gotta call Polar today actually because I received a baffling email regarding my service, charging me for a battery replacement and shipping and not even MENTIONING replacing any buttons so...?!?
Today was the first day of that Walking Study. The probe was ok, the walking was good... the beverage I was drinking was... awful. Super bitter and sour. At first I was like whatever... and while I was walking I was thirsty and drinking it but as I went along it just ... ugh. My throat was kinda burning actually. I hope I get a bettertasting one tomorrow. :P
Also we used the hydration belts that have a big bottle in the back and I ... did not really like it that much. It was functional and I liked the bottle itself, but I don't think I'll be going for that style when I finally get my own. :)
Um.... not much else to say really. I'm just ready to get this week over with. Once the study is done, that'll help me get more sleep and do my other workouts better. I'm gonna have to cut WAY down on the running this week. Not sure yet exactly what that will equate to, but I still want to get in a long run this weekend. No distance expectations for the rest of the week, or number of workouts really -- it's gonna be tough because I'm doing the walking study every morning from 7-10AM roughly, tomorrow morning I'll be rowing BEFORE the walking study... and Saturday I work and then have the SparkRally. This week is sooooo packed. BUT! DEFINITELY STRENGTH TRAINING!!! Tomorrow upper and lower, Wednesday PILATES - I haven't done this in a while and I miss it! Saturday full body ST??? Yeah. Cause I have to be at work on Friday at 11AM and I'll be walking till 10 -- head to AqC to use their shower and then into work...
Maybe I can do some body weight exercises with Sparkers at the Rally?
Yeah I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed. I know I can handle all of this, it's just gonna be a rough week and I'm not super looking forward to it as a whole. There will be some fun things: a concert Friday night, SparkRally and Dinner at a friend's Saturday night... but yeah.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Got up not super early (although my alarm went off at 5AM! UGH, forgot to change it last night), and went to the AgC to meet SARAHISKIDA to do an erging session. WOOT. Then I did upper body only ST. My lower body muscles were like - PLEASE NO MORE, and my core was feeling similarly -- plus I was short on time, so I just hit the muscles that were least hit by rowing -- CHEST, shoulders, biceps... and skedaddled.
I got to make use of the AqC locker room for the first time -- with my own little combination lock! :D It's so cute - it's red. hahaa. Anyway. I didn't bring my robe!!!!! I always have a robe. So I wrapped myself in my towel. Why have I not been doing this for ages??? I guess I had a hard time wrapping my head around the idea that I fit in my towels now. Anyway -- I was all worried for like 2 seconds until I got the towel on and I was like - OH. (I'm definitely not a walk around the lockerroom naked type of person -- sorry to the nudie lovers out there, I don't like to see everyone's bits and pieces, nor do I want them to see mine.) hahahaha.
I'm looking forward to a relaxing evening at home. I've planned to make pasta w/ meat sauce and asparagus and then it's to bed semi-early so I can get up at 5AM again and go see my family! :D YAY! Tonight I will pack some almonds+dried cherries little containers and rinse an apple or two, make sure my water is ready as well. WOOT.
Then Sunday is church and later that evening I'll be cooking for Healthy Meal Night and we're gonna watch Sweeney Todd on bluray. I'm sooooooo excited. :D I LOVED it in theaters. :D
Fun note about today -- aside from the towel incident, I have another reason to be appreciating my NOW slim figure as opposed to my BEFORE -- I have a Ouchless Hair band (the thick kind) around my wrist and it actually fits loosely (without squeezing my arm) for a couple of inches down my arm as well!!!! I remember I could not put one around my wrist without it leaving an impression before -- I always thought girls that could do this were definite skinnie minnies. :) hehe.
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