Tuesday, June 30, 2009
I didn't track my food for today pre-dinner until I came to work and I can already tell it's gonna be a challenge to make it through today!!! :) haha
I forgot one of my snacks -- what's usually tuna or salmon so a big protein bang for the buck in there...
At least I brought a whole pita even though I only need a half for my lunch so I can eat half of that at some point as a snack to help me work it out. :P hahahaha
And I was all worried earlier about eating too much while I was at home and whatnot. At least I can pretty much do WHATEVER for dinner worry free as long as I get enough protein.
UPDATE: HALLELUJAH! :D One of my coworkers had a protein bar leftover from when they did their bariatric diet and it was perrrrrfect. 160cal, 15g protein, Cinnamon and delicious. I feel a lot better now. :)
Monday, June 29, 2009
...was KIND of a bust.
Granted -- JHUBKA84 and her hubby came... um... but that was it. *sigh* But I'm not giving up on Alabama Sparkers!!! I know our local T-Towners had some obstacles in coming, but I never heard from any of the B-hamers that were supposedly going to come. :P
I think they got scared of the heat, but it was actually really gorgeous (ok AND really HOT) outside. :) The Botanical Gardens were just BEAAUUUTIFUL. :D I had a great time, took a ton of pictures of the Lilies mostly. I have yet to upload any, though, so those will be coming later. All those that didn't come missed out.
I made the most amazing Hummus EVER. SO GOOD. And SO EASY. I will post a recipe once I tweak it a bit to see how much of the oil I can cut out, cause I'm sure I can do it with less and still have it be delicious. :) But essentially - can of chickpeas + olive oil + sesame oil + cumin + salt = AMAZING. It was whipped up in my blender/food processor on the food processer attachment. So good. And baby carrots to dip in it! JHUBKA84 brought a delicious chicken salad made by her hubby w/ chicken, apple, grapes, celery, and very little FF mayo apparently! It was really good. :) They had some thin wheat crackers and bread to go with as well.
Then we walked around and looked at the gardens, and JHUBKA84's hubby ran off and did the photobug thing. He rejoined us after a while and then soon they left and me and my hubby tackled the entire gardens pretty much to see everything we could see. They also had a delightful gift shop where we managed to purchase Christmas gifts for 5 people. YAY.
Then we were on our way home, got turned around, and saw a creamery... DUN DUN DUN!!!!
They offered this crazy low cal frozen yogurt called "Only 8" but... I was at a creamery DARNIT. The first time in ages I've been to an actual ice cream shop and I was going to try out a newfangled froyo that only came in chocolate or vanilla??? No. I got one of their freshly made waffle cones and Bear Claw Ice Cream -- dark chocolate covered cashews and caramel swirls in a chocolate ice cream. :) MMMMM. Hubby got a Banana Cream Pie Milkshake which I tasted and it was amazing.
So that kinda foiled my plans for the day being so uber healthy... dinner was really good at the friend's place... I was doing fine, the food was healthy and then I just went into, must eat everything mode. The hostess kept encouraging us to go back for more because she made SO MUCH FOOD, and I just kept obliging. OH and then I ate two big slices of carrot cake.
The next day I was like....... what is wrrooonnnggg with me! UGH. I ate very very well the next day.
But get this -- I've been holding at around 170 for a while now. Day after the Rally+food insanity and Thursday's nonsense and all that???? 177.
I was flabbergasted.
Um but today after yesterday's good eating... 171. :P Whatever body. Get it together.
I've been not weighing myself for a while since before last TOM, but I got weighed in at the study, so it's not like I've been completely oblivious, but I definitely still haven't been losing like my plan was before. Now it's back to being friends with my home scale to find some motivation in numbers again.
sPEAKING OF WHICH.
:D I GOT MY HRM BACK TODAY!!!! YAY!!!!!!! I was all mopey this morning waiting for a knock on the door to get it, I didn't do ANYTHING because I was hoping it'd show up. Oh turns out while they recommended for us to mail it FedEx or UPS, they used the USPS. HAHAHA. :P It was in my mailbox though on my way to work so I was like SWEET. It's back on my wrist and all is well with the world.
So -- this week -- tomorrow morning - Rowing then a run. Wednesday - Run+Full Body ST. Thursday, Rowing + Run. Friday - play day! :D hahahaa. Maybe rowing? Maybe full body ST? Saturday+Sunday - running. Saturday full body ST if not completed on Friday.
OH. And I'm gonna take the mileage down this week for the most part and maybe take an extra running off day or two just because I've had a week off of running COMPLETELY and I don't want to wack myself out by jumping right in at 4-5 mile runs or something.
I'm really still a bit surprised at how big a difference it made in my motivation not to have my HRM. I guess I'm really addicted. I'm sooooooo happy to have it back. :)
And I'm stoked about this week in general -- I get to row BARE MINIMUM twice, I only work Mon-Thur AND it's jeans all week in honor of the holiday. :)
Yesterday was a great re-charger day for me in general, and I'm glad that I don't have to go straight from ONE regarcher day into a madhouse week.
LASHERTHECAT's comment reminded me -- there was also GARLIC and LIME JUICE in my hummus!!! :)
Saturday, June 27, 2009
I'm feeling totally un-funked.
But I am a little tired -- went to bed somewhere between 1 and 2 I think, had to get up at 5:50AM. YAYYYYYYYYYYYY. It was totally worth it.
Now I'm at work and post work I head immdiately to SparkRally, do not pass Go, do not collect $200... um, but I will collect my hubby who is going to come with me. :) YAY.
We also made a post show stop at... CHECKERS. I got a BLT though. HAHAHHA Which was kind of weird. It was on a burger bun... but not very much bacon on it. They really made it like it was going to be a bacon burger but just left out the burger part of the equation. Small fries, which were honestly too much still, and a baby sized banana milkshake. mmmmm Checkers fries used to be... I dunno THE FRIES. And Arby's Curly Fries. And now... they just don't do a whole lot for me. I'm so happy about this. :) hehehe.
But for today it's 100% healthy food land. Except the Carrot Cake my hubby bought for our get together tonight... forgot about that. But healthy food so far, healthy potluck at the SparkRally, and healthy dinner night w/ some friends (plus carrot cake). At least as cake goes, carrot cake isn't too bad... it also isn't some double chocolate heaven cake that will tempt me into overeating it. I do enjoy carrot cake, but only in smallllll doses. :) So YAY.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Usually my emotions are pretty even keeled. So this is not usually a problem.
Yesterday was a total disaster.
So... I forgot to mention this, or maybe I purposefully didn't because it's kind if disgusting so
gROSS STUFF AHEAD. URINE TALK.
On Monday my urine was like... fruit punch colored after the study. Then the rest of the day it got normal and Tuesday and Wednesday looked normal, then yesterday again -- FRUIT PUNCH - but more of it because I drank a lot more of the beverage yesterday, which tasted like a normal sports drink (sweet but not too sweet). ANYWAY. It was gross but I was like, whatever...
But then on my way home I started to feel lower abdomen cramping and whatnot. It sucked.
I took a shower and did some stuff and then went to the bathroom and my pee was still kinda red. Then I ate some food and drank water and watched tV and fell asleep -- that whole time I was feeling crampy and bad.
When I woke up I was feeling better so I started to head to work, but as I was driving to work I felt worse and worse. The people at work said I looked awful and I told them I didn't think I could make it and went home. I called the guy running the study to tell him and he called to find out if there was something in the drink that could be doing that. (he also mentioned that they noticed my urine color and were "concerned" although apparently not concerned enough to TALK TO ME ABOUT IT?!) Anyway... he calls way later and says nothing in the drink should've turned my urine red and they recommend I see a Dr. However by that point I've been drinking water and whatnot and my urine is now back to normal.
WHAT A COINCIDENCE - so they would like me to think. I really don't believe it was a coincidence, but whatever. I looked up stuff online and there aren't too many "substances" that are supposed to turn your urine red, apparently it's usually from blood in the urine, etc... but honestly it had such a pinkish blue undertone... I thought blood in urine would have a more orangey undertone? Anyway.
They obviously didn't want me to continue in the study but today was the last day anyway so I went in and made my paperwork be finalized for getting paid and that's that.
I think I was mostly upset that they were trying to act like it couldn't be anything to do with their drink... when it seems to ME at least, the person with the body that is experiencing things wayyy out of the ordinary that have never happened until I did the study -- that it's something to do with ME or because the exercise aggravated some CONDITION of mine (which is total nonsense, YOU all know I exercise way more than an hour walk on a regular basis...). If it's a coincidence it's a really big one. Especially how my urine would clear up right away after I had been drinking water again.
Anyway -- that had me miffed plus I was feeling poorly, and then my DH came home early so oYAY WHOOPEE but I feel like crap. We started watching TRUEblood finally which was awesome, but then we randomly started grating on each others nerves- - it was like we were both extremely irritable and sensitive (well... I know I was extremely sensitive and somewhat irritable at least). And I went into a total emotional nonsense land and BINGEVILLE.
WHAT GIVES?!? I've had more emotional binge eating this year than like... ever before in LIFE. Is it maybe just because I've been living so long in a healthy lifestyle that now I'm actually capable of RECOGNIZING these events? Like maybe I didn't care to acknowledge my eating habits in any way before, didn't care to relate them to how I was feeling, what I was doing... it was a hobby for me to eat before. A pleasant event to be enjoyed whenever and however I felt like it. Now I think overall I have such a more healthy relationship with food that these occasions stick out like a sore thumb.
That HAS to be it, because honestly it really CAN'T be that I'm now living overall the healthiest lifestyle I ever have, yet I randomly also start emotionally binging. :P
Anyway. I stopped myself at one point saying ok. I will have one more ice cream cone (the prhase one more should tell you something, although I will tell you there was only one before that but among many other foods in between) and after that I will pop a stick of gum and NO MORE FOOD. And I did it.
I didn't just keep going until all the food was gone or until someone stopped me. I stopped myself. I am in control of my urges and temptations. Not the most awesome control sometimes, but it is my choice what I put in my mouth.
I still don't feel phenomenal today -- I think I slept too much yesterday and probably the ridiculous eating might have something to do with it, but the gastrointestinal nonsense is definitely 100% over as of like... 2-3PM yesterday. :P I just feel kinda tired and worn out.
Then today people say I look like I'm about to cry, look sunburned, still look sick, etc. And today's the first time I've worn makeup in WEEKS. So... I kind of made an effort and apparently I still look like crap so that can't be a good sign. OH WELL.
Life goes on -- I'm so ready for next week.
I AM excited about the SparkRally tomorrow, though. And other fun things that will be happening this weekend.
I just haven't snapped out of the funk that started yesterday when I started feeling like poop yet. :( Wah.
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