Thursday, July 05, 2007
That's what I did last night at dinner.
I knew it would be within my calories so I WENT FOR IT. But I should have known -- I knew it was too much food, I knew it was too much protein, not enough veggies and fruits and carbs...
And now I feel like a big tub of lard. My weight fluctuated up today as well. I'm hoping that by eating better the remainder of the week and doing my excercises I will not see the aftereffects of this one meal on the scale Monday, but I feel like crap right now. WAH!
I was just thinking, it'll be ok, it's within our calories so it will be fine. But it just goes to show that just becasue it's within your calorie range does not mean it's ok. The worst part is I dragged DH down with me. And I did it FOR him!!! That's what he wanted to eat for dinner, even though he himself said are you sure we shouldn't make this into two dinners? And I was like, it's in our calories. So I'm feeling guilt.
I'm trying not to beat myself up about it, and forgive myself... but right now I still PHYSICALLY feel bad so it's kinda hard.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
OK! :D SO I DID IT!!! I was sooooo nervous that I wasn't going to hit it on Monday but -- I DID.
And what did I hit? THE BIG 50!
No, not years. POUNDS LOST!!! :D WOOHOO!!!
Yeah, I've been talking about it for a while but now I've actually DONE IT. I weighed in on Monday at 239.5. I'm in the 230's NOW!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? CAN I BELIEVE IT????
I weighed 294 at the end of last year. I made a choice that I was never going to weigh that much again and I was going to CHANGE and become a HEALTHY PERSON. Now I'm packing things like roasted peppers for lunch and I have gone down 50lbs.
My idea of a reward for my halfway point was to get some running shoes so I can start learning how to run (one of the goals I mentioned in my last post). Well, I've discussed it with my DH and he has agreed (assuming we have the extra money at the end of the month) that we can get me some running shoes.
Now I have to figure out what are some relatively cheaper but quality running shoes I can get. Any suggestions?
The biggest thing about this milestone is it means I am over the hump. (well the halfway hump -- I know there will be some other kinds of humps and bumps along the way, especially when I near my goal.) But from here on out I can count DOWN from 50lbs to 0lbs remaining till goal. I just can express how successful I feel and how accomplished.
Again -- this is something I kind of resigned that would never happen to me. (See that language? I didn't even give control of my health/weight to myself.) And now I've taken charge and look where I am!!!!!
Anyway. I'm just excited. :)
Went to the gym today with DH and did Strength Training. He did really excellent and we had a much more positive experience than last time. (I'm learning how to be a good spotter and wasn't really there for him all the time like I should have been leading to tension and whatnot....) But this time I did better! And he did a great job with his stuff. He did 3 different upper body machines, 2 lower body machines, and 1 core machine. Sparks recommends 2-3 upper, 2-3 lower, and 1-2 core. So he is well on track to having a very good ST program going. I'm basically acting like a little Personal Trainer hahaha. I do my ST while he's in the shower, so when he's doing his I just follow around, write down the reps and weights of each excercise, suggest what to do next, make sure he's keeping good form...
Can you BELIEVE III can do that???? hahahaha. I would have had no clue what to even begin with last year. It's halfway through the year (not quite halfway through sparks, that would be next Monday for me I think), and I have learned a RIDICULOUS amount.
I feel so much better prepared for growing older and having children. You know, those things that will have me taking care of my body better and taking care of other people's bodies while they are too young to do it for themselves??? I was afraid in a way of not knowing how to eat healthy and setting a bed example for my future children, but now I feel MUCH more confident about that future.
I will shut up for now. :)
Friday, June 29, 2007
So because I can't get enough of SparkTeams and Challenges, I joined yet another one. :D This one is like a summer camp set up with cabins and whatnot. The challenge for my cabin this week included the following:
"Write down where you want to be with health and fitness and what positive steps you will take to get there."
We're also supposed to post it somewhere on our SparkPage. I'm gonna blog it and then put it in my "About Me", or whatever that main section is called.
MY HEALTH AND FITNESS GOALS
Health: Reach and maintain a healthy weight according to the BMI Chart. If I reach and maintain this weight and find it seems to frail for my frame, I will then add weight in a healthy way. Gain muscle, etc. Eat fruits and veggies daily. Be active in daily life.
Fitness: Become athletic. Learn to run. Have nice muscle tone.
Positive Steps to Reach These Goals:
1. Continue to follow SparkPeople.com's diet guidelines, eating within my ranges, and updating nutrition plan each 10 lbs lost.
2. Once financially possible, purchase some basic running shoes and begin Coolrunning.com's "Couch to 5K" program to learn how to run.
3. Continue strength training and change up strength training excercises when the current ones become too easy.
4. Continue Cardio a minimum of 3x a week 45 min per session. Try to change up cardio from time to time to keep body interested and not get in a rut.
5. Think positively and not let small failures defeat me.
6. Be patient with my body as it lets go of more weight.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Man. Those 10lbs are killin me. and by those 10lbs I mean the ones I lifted yesterday because I am SO SORE today. Still did cardio this morning. Lunch was packed in a rush, but I'm making burgers tonight! :)
I'm excited because I already seasoned the meat and everything when I made them on Sunday, so all I have to do is just pattyfie them and cook em. Shouldn't take long. Also making potato wedges. So cooking! But SIMPLE. It will be nice because I am HUNGRY.
Work has SUCKED. Our administrative staff apparently can't do their job and they are so far behind that we are all having to assist them. Their jobs are so tedious!!!!! Why do you think I don't have that job????? HELLO!!!!!! But now I get to do some of that stuff in addition to my normal duties. It's so wack. They should be able to get it under control. If not, they should be replaced. It's that simple. Maybe they do need ONE more person. But the job's been done with 3 people before, so why not now?
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Ok, so today DH and I did ST at the gym for the first time. Today was his first day doing it, and my first time doing at AT the gym. I did my same ST excercises because I like them and want to get better at them, and don't feel like using the machines.
But since I was at the gym anyway, I wanted to do something I couldn't at home, so I used 10lb weights instead of my usual 5lb weights. Let me tell you -- I can feel the difference!!! It kinda sucks because I don't want to go back to using my 5lb weights because I guess they really are too light for me now, and I don't want to just keep buying weights....
But I should have time to do mine at the gym everytime he does his, so I guess it'll be ok except for the times I can then I'll just use the 5lb until I can maybe get some heavier ones.
Anyway. I just felt SO HOSS. I LOVE doing ST. It really makes me feel tough. There was something cool about watching myself doing them in the mirror, too. And I mostly didn't think I looked bad doing them either. hahaha I was like, ok, I look awesome, I look cool and tough! WOOHOO.
Could be the skull and crossbone on black earrings, or the smudged black eyeliner that I didn't take off last night, or the cut open neckline black t shirt with the navy spaghetti racerback sports bra straps showing. But I was like, oh I am so mean and tough, you can't mess with me. I'm STRONG. hahaha
Oh, I'm so cheesy.
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