Wednesday, May 13, 2009
That's what I feel like today.
Last night I was squeezing in my upper body ST while watching "My Boys" right before going to bed.
This morning it was squeezing in lower body ST and signing up for THE BOD POD measurement at the gym even though I was soooooooo short on time.
14 min ST = 127 Calories.
I alternated some Lunges (2 15lb dumbbells) w/ Deadlifts (same weights. Then I did some Sumo Squats w/ a 20lber first, then 30lb for the next set -- THAT felt more truly challenging but I bet I can up it next time. I did calf raises w/ 2 20lbers I think... Then I also did the machine Extensions and Curls -- I've always used like... 60-80 on extensions and 40-60ish on curls I think. Well I'm trying to go heavy and make it worth it -- 100lbs on extensions!!! 80-90 on curls!
I've been thinking and thinking and I've decided that I'm going to see what the BOD POD says about how much muscle and fat I have -- but maybe I don't really want to gain that much muscle. I feel pretty strong -- I KNOW I have some pretty strong freaking abs as well. Maybe I really just want to lose some more fat! We'll see. I'm thinking maybe the idea will be to lower my body fat % and then focus on gaining muscle while gaining as little fat as possible if I want to build back up? In any case -- I KNOW I want that marathon at the end of the year. But considering how LONG that training plan is and how stretched out -- right now I'm not running so so long yet. It might be possible to do both for a little while before my running REALLY takes over, ya know?
But like I said -- lets see what the old machine has to tell me.
I'm really nervous about it!!! Back when I had my body fat scale, I think I got down to 22-23% body fat. What if that scale was super inaccurate? What if I've lost muscle mass/gained fat since then? To sum up -- what if my body fat % is actually way higher than that? That would totally suck. But I'm definitely curious. Can't wait to find out. :) hahaha. I've already filled the forms and paid, just gotta wait for a trainer to contact me to schedule the appointment.
This week in my Challenge of Harry Potter Team we're having a challenge on Motivation -- IDENTIFYING our motivations. The reasons WHY.
So I'm gonna do the first of those blog challenges now -- the reasons WHY I was unhealthy.
I was always a chubby kid. My sister never was. My brothers weren't really until they got older into puberty and apparently my one brother has already slimmed down again, but in any case, I was definitely the heaviest out of all of us. I think the biggest reasons I can identify from growing up are 1) not having an idea how much I should eat and not being told NO on seconds(3rds 4ths) if there was still food left to eat. 2) Being allowed to spend all my free money on junk food without any comment.
The types of foods my mother prepared at home were not super unhealthy -- she likes healthy foods and I do believe she tried to make healthy foods available at home, but since we didn't have a lot of money the clean plate club rules were applied and leftovers were always encouraged to be eaten, and I did most of that I think.
After that I always heard everyone talk about how impossible it was to lose weight, how hard it was, all these crazy diets that caused you to lose weight but never worked because you gained it back, no one knew the secret so why even try?
When I started SparkPeople I was even skeptical about the weight loss aspect, I just figured I was here to get healthy. I didn't feel well and wanted to feel good again.
There's a whole other blog assignment for the WHY's of getting started on SparkPeople. :) hehehe. So I will cut off on that topic here.
But also I found a way to be confident in myself, I was always made to feel beautiful by my family, so I just ignored the fact that I was overweight and accepted it as a part of who I was. When I got married I just ate whatever my husband ate and that added to the problem. I just got heavier and heavier. I used to have a WHO CARES attitude about food. Sometimes I would order the worst thing on the menu because wow, doesn't that look scandalously delicious and bad!!! But I'm a wonderful person and already fat so who cares if I eat that??? I can eat whatever I want because I'm happy with who I am!!! It's almost like I was eating to prove to everyone I was happy with my body as is and the thing I was denying admitting to myself was that I wasn't happy with my body. I secretly prided myself on the fact that I'd eat what I wanted without attention to health/calories because that made me SO MUCH COOLER than the chicks ordering the boring salad hold the dressing.
HOW STUPID WAS I?????? Anyway. Like I said, the other WHY's get their own blogs so sorry to end on a downer -- but what a DIFFERENT PERSON I am today. I think understanding those WHY's of how I got there before will help keep me from going back.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Yeah, so I was so flabbergasted this morning when I read that SparkMail and saw the links I didn't even write about my day! :D
Today is a great day.
I woke up way too early, but it ended up meaning I was able to do a lot of nice relaxing this morning AND still get my run AND prepare a cool/different lunch AND take out the trash, which really needed to be done... YAY.
My schedule told me I was to run for 30minutes today. Instead of running the neighborhood I headed to a nearby park that has a 1 mile loop. It's KINDA hilly -- no TRUE flat parts, everything is at least slightly up or down and then there are some MORE so up or down parts. But it's pretty! And I needed a change of scenery.
I started running and holding back my pace and I was thinking, man, yesterday was supposed to be 30min as well and I went 32 and only 2.6 miles... should I walk half a lap at the end? And I just decided to GO FOR IT and see if I could get in 3 miles in 30min. I dilly dallied for about the first .5 mile before I decided to rock it. I decided then that I would run 3 loops even if it took me a bit over my time goal for the day.
Well I didn't look at my watch the whole time and as soon as I sprinted across the drive to the parking lot I flipped my HRM to the workout duration screen and saw 30:16.
WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!! :D That is definitely my fastest time for 3 miles ever! I have never maintained a 10min mile pace beyond 2 miles that I know of, so that was really exciting to have done. It makes me wonder if I hadn't dilly dallied at the beginning what the time would be??? And if my dream of a sub30 5K is really all that dreamy or just a matter of DOING it, ya know? :)
So that was great.
Last night I made the first recipe from "The Food You Crave" that wasn't a smash hit. I think I screwed it up though -- because it called for 4 split chicken breast halves w/ the bones in, and then said about 2.5lbs. Well I hate dealing with bones so instead I used 2.5lbs of boneless skinless chicken breasts... which was like SEVEN pieces of chicken. It was Tuscan Roasted Veggies and Chicken or something like that -- and those poor veggies under the tons of chicken just ended up soggy and not so great. I imagine if they had more open air to the oven it would have resulted in better veggies.
But the chicken tasted good! And now we have a bunch of leftover delicious chicken breasts ready to be used! :D So I packed the makings of a super sweet wrap for lunch - A Flatout Multigrain wrap, 1 wedge Light Laughing Cow (original swiss), about 42g of Baby Spinach, one of the Chicken Breast pieces sliced up, and 4Tbsp of Pineapple Mango Chipotle Salsa for extra pizazz. :) I did NOT feel conflicted about the taste of it all together (even though the chicken did get seasoned w/ some rosemary, the overwhelming flavors of the chicken were IT and GARLIC/lemon). It was DELICIOUS!!!!! :D
Not to mention I got tons of protein in my lunch. WOOHOO!
So remember I was blogging about losing fat and gaining muscle at the same time?
Well... in all my internet searching the main people saying YES YOU CAN DO THIS were following that up with, BUY MY BOOK and I'll tell you how! Hahahaha. So it makes me slightly skeptical. There were a few people that seemed to think it was possible that didn't say that, but most of them also said this was still happening at the same time as losing weight, and usually just for people who are just starting or returning to an exercise program. Like how someone who is heavy can be dropping fat and building their muscles at the same time. For people near goal it seemed that most believed you had to bulk and then cut.
I AM TERRIFIED OF TRYING TO GAIN ANYTHING. You know???? hahahaha.
But back to those who are of the "YES YOU CAN" camp -- they also seemed to think that steady state cardio is the enemy of this plan and only with heavy lifting and short HIIT cardio bits can you achieve this. Which means that it seems my marathoning goals are in opposition to my getting ripped goals. ;)
I'm just going to pretend that's not the case and work on trying to lift heavy and altering my diet. I want to experimentally try the dietary rules laid out by one particular person endorsing a "YES YOU CAN" attitude. Wanna know what he said?
I just like this because it sounds the most sensible out of everything I read. Whether that means it's EFFECTIVE or not, I have no idea -- but I'm interested in giving it a try. We'll see. :) Essentially it's eating more protein than I do right now, but not a crazy ridiculous amount (150ish grams), getting plenty of good fats, eating 6 times per day, and only having high GI carbs immediately post workout, the rest of the day low GI and absolutely no high GI before bed.
I've never tried timing my carb intake or anything like that.
Another one I read said to eat 18 cal per lb in bodyweight (2970 for me!) and 2g protein per lb of bodyweight (like 330g????) I was like - DEFINITELY NOT.
The other big news today is me trying to get the Totally Tuscaloosa team activated to spark some local Meetups.
It was THE CHALLENGE issued to us by Chris "SPARKGUY" Downie to make face to face Spark Meetups HAPPEN locally and become active in our local groups so that the types of experiences we had meeting other Sparkers at the Convention could happen all the time. :) I realllly want to make this happen!!! So far, it's been quite. But I posted in all the Alabama teams looking for people from the area, Posted new information in the team and sent a SparkMail to current team members, AND sent a SparkMail to those within a 25mile radius regarding the team so I hope that at least some of that will Spark some activity.
That's all for now! :)
Monday, May 11, 2009
So.... I'm slacking in the ST Program Planning arena. I just HAVEN'T DONE IT yet. BUT! Today I did Pilates at home and got in my run. It was a slow run -- I was REALLY reeling it back today -- but I'm very happy with it because it served it's purpose. I was scheduled to run 30min today and it turned out to be about 32 minutes.
I ran two loops of the apartment complex next to mine (so much prettier than mine to run...), and anyway after the first one a drizzle started and I was like -- man, I guess it's gonna rain again. Only for a SPLIT SECOND did I contemplate cutting the run short. Then I said to myself:
There is nothing I have on me that can't get wet.
My HRM is water resistant to 30m, I didn't even have my Mp3 player on today (which was a little tough but the battery is dead right now - WAH! although I've run with it in light rain before no problem). So I was like LET'S DO IT.
It never started raining -- only teeny tiny drops from time to time. AND on my second loop through I found a $5.00 bill. :D HAHAHAHA SO! Good things come to those who do their workouts!
I came home and did pilates and that's that.
Last night saw the return of "Healthy Meal Night" which was GREAT. I made another "The Food You Crave" (Ellie Krieger) -- Tricolore Penne w/ Chicken I believe it was called. SO GOOD. It wasn't exactly to recipe, but it turned out fantastic.
UM but then that night I also had a half a cupcake and two muffin halves. I know that one of those muffins = roughly 540-600 calories (one was 540 the other was 600). I really was not tracking all day, but I'm sure I didn't have that many calories left over. Add to that that I totally splurged on Saturday for dinner AND on Friday for dinner and it equals = Dana was still kinda in vacation mode. BUT! VACATION MODE IS OVER!!!
Long-term Marathon training mode is ON. ;) hahaha.
There has been a lot of discussion about loose skin around me lately -- it was a popular question for me at the SparkConvention after the Convention was over and it's recently come up on a SparkFriend's page.
I've posted all my thoughts about this topic on here before, but now that I'm almost a year into maintenance... they're about the same. ;) HAHAHA.
I do believe that by losing weight slowly, making sure you're hydrating and strength training, you can give your body the best chance it has of it's skin rebounding and shrinking.
I also think that based on your circumstances (genetics, how long you've beenoverweight, HOW overweight, how fast you gained, etc.etc.) your skin may react differently than someone else's. We've all seen some Biggest Loser contestants that appear to have nearly NO loose skin (Ali Vincent anyone?) And others that REALLY have it (I dunno, I'm not watching this season, but Aldo from BL Australia had some when he won, I remember watching Heba and some of the other ladies LAST BL Season Finale and noting the waggliness of the upper arm area -- although theirs wasn't SO bad). Some people's skin reacted differently than others.
I HAVE LOOSE SKIN.
Is it a lot? No. But the location of it (a random bit over my belly button) makes it so that midriff baring is not super attractive. EH. Whatever. I kinda feel like my skin has shrunk a lot but is similar in shape to how I was before. When I look at Ali from BL's befores, her belly button was a nice puffy symmetrical donut round shape. My belly before included a big ROLL OVER my bellybutton so you couldn't see it unless I opened up the rolls -- know what I mean? Thus even though my skin has DEFINITELY shrunk (It's obviously not as large as I used to be) there's still some extra where my biggest rolls were. Right over the belly button, right over the crotch, upper upper thighs, upper upper arms.
But ya'll have seen pictures of me -- I wear shirts that bare most of my arms and feel very comfortable. I wear fairly form fitting clothes and feel very comfortable as well. That doesn't mean I look super fab naked or in a bathing suit, though.
I've decided I'm ok with this -- it's definitely worth it to be super hot in clothing and only semi not so hot naked. I still look so much better naked than I used to!!! Rolls are not cute no matter how smooth and unwrinkly they are. HAHAHAHAHA. The only thing that occasionally bothers me is thinking how much work I put into this body and I don't think it reflects the amount of work I put in, or how strong my abs really are -- ya know?
But I'm considering recently that I really don't think I've changed my body composition that much since I've been maintaining -- I still see where I could stand to lose some fat and gain some muscle. I know that it's extremely difficult to try to do both of these things at the same time -- most people who are trying to change their composition end up building muscle and THEN losing fat to achieve this goal.
I'd like to learn to understand this better -- basically you have to have a caloric excess to gain, yes? But a caloric deficit to lose? But what if you're maintaining and just shifting fat to muscle? Can it be done? I know some people say it can and some are naysayers and say don't bother it's illogical. I dunno.
My main goal this year is to work towards the MARATHON. But this is something that's always in the back of my mind. I DO want to be stronger, I DO want to have more muscle.
I need to go get measured by the BOD POD at my gym. I think I'll call today about setting that up. :) I keep thinking about it and not doing it -- but I have some freaking cash at the moment and need to set it up before I spend it. HAHAHAHA.
OK! This was a long one but that's all for now.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
No sooner do I sit down after my run to track in on SP than do I hear thunder rolling and it start pouring down! :D Glad I got my bootie out there running when I did! :D
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