Saturday, April 18, 2009
I kinda wanna practice so I can get better. Now that I'm a goal making machine, being bad at something just makes me want to take it on as a challenge and kick it in the butt.
But to give you an idea -- I was in last place. First place was like 2200pts. Then there were some folk in the 1000's, 750,700,500... oh and then me... with FIFTY POINTS. I kinda half believe my equipment may have been malfunctioning?? Um, but anyway. Not good. :) BUT! I did have fun.
I am however disappointed in myself because... there was free food. And I overindulged. Why I'm disappointed? NOT because I ate the food, but because I again ate after I was full and to the point that it hurt. I have GOT to find a way to push that OFF button when I'm out eating and I'm feeling bored and just KEEP GOING. *frustration OVER*
That aside I'm not letting it derail me or get me down -- I've got a run planned after work today and I'm going to go longer than I initially planned. I also have a plan to help me conquer today at the crawfish boil (which WAS supposed to be my splurge meal, but... yeah). I'm declaring last night my splurge, I'm NOT GOING TO TRACK IT (as suggested by many at my last freakout), and I'm going to be very mindful of my eating today. There will be funnel cake today - NOT GETTING ONE. I'm allowing myself a bite of my hubby's and that's it. (Sorry hubby, gotta help em out!) I'm also going to make SURE I have my GUM on me and when I'm full, a piece of gum is GOING IN MY MOUTH to STOP the mindless eating.
SO! I think this plan will really help make me feel on track and it will be another test run of the "gum-to-stop-mindless-eating-when-eating-o
ut" plan. I did this once before and it worked, but for some reason I forgot about it. And last night I wasn't even expecting food, so I was definitely not prepared for that. Sometimes I think the mental preparation is one of the most important parts for me in resisting temptation. If I didn't know I was going to be presented with the opportunity to eat XYZ, then I like have some kind of malfunction and go back to the old me that would say, "OOH FREE FOOD, BETTER take FULL advantage of this!!!" "OOOH I didn't know I'd get to EAT THAT!!!"" *nomnomnom* ???? This is weird. But anyway.
In the ongoing quest to understand the triggers behind my eating behaviors I'm still going to look at these things, even though I DO feel confident in my abilities to maintain a fit and healthy lifestyle overall, I still feel that if I can understand these things better it will make that effort a little easier.
:) So don't worry friends, this is not a freakout, just a full disclosure of how I went off plan, but have changed my plan to MAKE IT WORK, and all is well.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
WOOHOO! Today is so much better!!!!
For one thing, it's reallly gorgeous outside. I did my run outdoors. Didn't really push it, but didn't hold back TOO much either, finished around an 11min mile. It was pretty.
THEN it was time for the MTC WORKOUT OF DOOM again -- repeat from Monday night. Well -- it was better than Monday night! :D At first I was getting kinda stressed and overwhelmed while going through the workout, but then I just took a deep breath and concentrated on completing one thing at a time. I didn't have to take breaks during surrenders like I did on Monday either! :) WOOHOO! There were much less breaks overall, although I did still take a couple. My quads right over my knees are so sore.
Best part of today's workout? Well ok -- two things. I did all my "knee tuck jumps" out in public instead of going down a hallway to jump in secret. I am so... ashamed of my pitiful jumping ability. HAHAHA But I just GOT OVER IT today. BAM. Yes, I am jumping like a maniac in the middle of the ST floor and no I can't jump very high but dangit I'm rockin it the best I can.
And next -- watching myself do certain moves in the mirror and realizing my body looks pretty rockin. Who cares what the scale says??? Who cares if I have loose skin in awkward places that no one can see???? Look at those muscles in my legs when I'm doing my chair sit against the wall! And in my arms when I'm doing rope tricep press downs or shoulder presses or whatever all else. WOOT. No I don't have some fitness model body, but hey my butt is looking pretty good today. :) I was filled with some self-love and more confidence that I've built some muscle lately while doing this MTC which is really what the point of this torture is about, aside from the mental toughness.
OH also I forgot to mention that although my leg is not moving as amazingly as it should be during scorpion pushups -- I'm doing those from a full on position and not from the knees now. WOOT. My plyos were from the knee, but dangit they were explosive and I got my claps in.
Anyway I could go on reminiscing about the details, but at times today I was like DONE, last time I have to do THAT for a while. HAHAHA. And I'm proud of completing it. I was worried about how it would go doing that tough workout after a run but I made it. :)
And now I need to go eat my snack. Tummy is a rumbling.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
TOM came roaring in full force today, along with the constant morning munchies. Now, if I eat all my planned snacks, I'm left with a smaller than usual calorie allotment for dinner and I'm not even working out today!! But anyway -- it's still very a very doable range thanks to my super hardcore workouts planned for the week. *phwew*
I just made a quick trip to the local health food store to just pick up what would tide us over till next week and restock ingredients for the homemade snack mix pretty much. I am not enjoying being a girl today. :P
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
... WAS NO JOKE.
OH MAN. I was close to tears once or twice, had to kinda take a break a couple times, and at the end, I was stretching in child's pose and just praying thanks that I got through it all and let it alllllll gooooo........
I mean don't get me wrong -- I felt ridiculously accomplished and tough for completing that workout -- there are definitely benefits (other than the physical betterments I'm expecting), but it was a physically draining and mentally challenging workout FOR SURE.
The upside was that today's workout felt much easier by comparison!!! :D And glad of it, because otherwise I might have thrown in the towel! HAHAHA.
I didn't get going as quickly as I should have this morning and THEN realized I needed to stop and get gas... so rather than a 30min run before MTC, I decided I was more interested in making sure I completed my 2-rep-per-circuit cycle of todays workout than making sure I ran for 30min. I've just got 4 more workouts to complete this full out tough round of MTC and I didn't want to ruin my 2 rep record because I ran out of time. Good thing I did because I barely had time to run a mile afterward! At a QUICK pace! But -- I DID still run! I didn't just wuss out and call it a day. :P And I'm pretty proud of that.
Now I'm at around 1400 calories burned for the week so far and it's gonna be a close call to meet my 4000 calorie goal I think, but I still don't think I need to add in an extra workout tomorrow. (TOM should be making it's first appearance tomorrow and I don't want to be worrying about that AND doing grocery shopping and whatnot...) BUT! We'll see how I feel and how much time I have. Maybe I'll just wear those EasyTone shoes and make my shopping a POWER SHOP. ;) hehehe.
But anyway -- last night when I got home... I was totally drained and exhausted. I looked at my nutrition tracker and realized I still had 1000+ cal to get to my minimum and had eaten less than half of the carbs required to my minimum. !!!!! No wonder I was feeling so loopy during my grueling workout! hahaha. But I definitely listened to my body took care to make sure I didn't push beyond my limits -- I was just RAVENOUS when I got home. I ended up only coming in 7 cal below my max! GOTTA make sure I space out my calories better.
Today I ate breakfast, took an apple to eat right after working out, packed another snack for before lunch, brought a LITTLE more for DURING lunch, and my regular snack for between lunch and dinner. Hopefully this will help me feel a bit more balanced today. I'm glad I packed that snack for before lunch because I was getting SUPER HUNGRY about 30min ago (2hrs till lunch exactly) and it realllly did the trick.
I made a ton of hardboiled eggs over the weekend -- some went to deviled eggs for the Easter Dinner and the rest got decorated. I made some that looked like the people attending the party (in a generic trying to match haircolor/type, eyecolor, givin ya glasses or facial hair kind of way) and some other more abstract kinds, and cute kinds, and 3 had some Star Wars wrappers on them. :) I got the VERY LAST egg dying kit at Target and it was a Star Wars one. It was RIPPED and I asked if I could get a discount -- $2.69 for only $1 and nothing was missing. :) haha.
So anyway - it's been nice to have those available. I forget how much I like hard boiled eggs and then go for a long time without and then have some for a while. I go through phases. :) haha.
12 workdays till San Diego, 15 full days... WOOOOOHOOOOOO!! :)
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