Monday, February 13, 2012
I have been working on the latest phase of my weight loss journey. Jan 2, 2012 I weighed myself. The scale said 222.2. This is the most I have ever weighed. I felt discouraged and hopeful. I was discouraged because I let myself get here. But I was hopeful because I decided that this is my year to make a change and stick with it no matter what. So I started tracking points with weight watchers online. At first I did really good, but then I got discouraged quickly. I am not a very self motivated person. But despite my diet shortfalls in January I lost about 3 lbs. Then in the beginning of February I decided I was going to join the gymn. I have had some weight loss success in the past by taking classes at the gymn. But now I have a child and rely on only my husbands income. I used not wanting to put my daughter in childcare at the gym and money as an excuse not to join the gym in the past. But I knew I had to do something or I was not going to live to enjoy my life with my husband and daughter. Also I was not teaching my daughter good health habits. So I decided to ask a friend to go with me to check out a new gym that had childcare. We went and I decided right then I was going to join. At first my daughter cried when I dropped her off and this was hard for me. Now after going for about 2 weeks she actually enjoys playing with the other kids. I had some free sessions with a personal trainer and she put me on a somewhat restrictive diet. I lost another 8 lbs for a total of 12 lbs. Today I found out how much it is going to cost to keep using the trainer and their is no way I can afford it. Also I think I would rather try counting my calories than restricting certain foods. Anyway I know I can't do this without support so I joined Sparkpeople to help keep me encouraged and motivated. I really want to lose another 85 lbs.
I am excited, hopeful, nervous, scared. But I need to have faith that I can do this. Really.