Sunday, September 07, 2008
OK, I know I shouldn't be having the blues when I am so close to my 30 pound goal but lately I have been. I have been so frustrated lately with not seeing a huge change in my weight (when it seems everyone else I see on the spark are losing crazy weight)
Yes, I know I shouldn't be comparing my journey to theirs but hey I am not a Saint and I can't help it when some of the people I read about are the "spark people motivators"
I haven't read one story on the main motivating page that I can relate to lately. I thought motivators should be people that have done it the right way. Lost weight consistently week after week 1-2 pounds and changed their lives, lifestyles and attitude.
I think to be a motivator they also need to be a person I can emulate. Someone who has a page that helps to teach other sparkers how to lose weight as well and keep it off.
But most are people that have lost 100+ pounds in such a short period like 6-8 months. Which when you break it down is 13 pounds a month. I mean if I lost that every month, I would already be at my 50 pound yearly goal. And would be blissfully skinny, happy and satisfied.... Not!
Well I know my journey has been difficult and probably a lot different from the people that are losing weight so easily.
But nevertheless it makes it all the more frustrating not seeing more weight loss given some of the things I have gone through over the last year and a half.
Here are some of the obstacles I have had to faced... I lost my brother last May of suicide, Had to scatter his ashes this May (08) and deal with all the emotions that come with death and loss. All struggling with 50 pounds I put on due to depression and medication. Also up until last May I had been out of work for over 2 years. And finally this year I also had huge stomach pains from April-June.
But with all that said I guess I am doing well. I just wanted to share some of my frustrations with all of you who are reading this blog. So that you can know that we all have our own demons we are dealing with even me.
Quote for September: "There is always going to be someone suffering more than you, but that doesn't mean that your pain doesn't count. "
I wanted to write this blog cause I know I am not alone in my frustrations and wanted to let people know it is ok to feel that way even when you are so close to a goal. It doesn't matter if you are just starting your journey, are in the middle of it or can see the finish line.
We live in a quick fix society where we are inundated with unrealistic promises of weight loss miracles.
This week alone I read in line at the grocery store how I could lose 1 dress size in 1 week or could lose up to 10 pounds in two weeks. These are the headlines we face on our local magazines, no wonder I was feeling a little depressed about my progress. But no more I will not be sucked into that "crap" I will continue to do the lifestyle changes I have incorporated and lose weight steadily every week. Hey like my doctor told me years ago. 1 pound a week still adds up to 50 pounds at the end of the year. (of course the opposite is true too but I will definitely not focus on that)