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I am off to Hawaii (Wish me luck)

Friday, May 09, 2008

So I am in the last leg of my time before I head off to Hawaii. I am excited but a bit nervous of the over all outcome since this will be a family vacation to scatter my brother's ashes.

He passed away one year ago and it has been really been hard for both my mom and my sister. It actually brought my mom and I back in contact after many years of not talking to each other. But unfortunately this has not been the case with my sister and I.

Fortunately I get to have some down time by myself from Sunday thru Tuesday of next week. (which I am going to take full advantage of) And Wed-Friday will be all family stuff. All in all I am hoping for the best but getting prepared the worst. (Uhg I hate family drama)
Will definately let everyone know how it goes. Wish me luck.



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    Sorry I am reading this a little late. emoticon

I am very sorry to hear about your brother. I know how hard grief can be. I have had way to much of it in my lifetime. I can tell you that everyone handles it differently maybe your sister needs more time to wrap her mind and emotions around her loss.

I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Please let me know when you land. I want to hear all about Hawaii. I have never been and always thought it would be wonderful.

Please let me know if you want to talk.


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BRATALERT 5/9/2008 10:10PM

    Sorry about your brother's passing and hopefully this trip will end your grief. Family drama can sometimes be the best seen movie around. Hawaii seems to be a great vacation.
I know you have prepared yourself for temptation and you will have plenty with warm breezes. Let this time be your challenge to yourself. emoticon

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LOLLYCAKES 5/9/2008 10:05PM

    My heart goes out to you, I wish you all the best during your trip to honor your brother. Do enjoy some time to yourself as well. You deserve it, way to go girl on your loss so far!!

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*PBJMOMMY* 5/9/2008 5:04PM

    What a great way to honor your brother by reconnecting with your Mother!!

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MCOBIAN1 5/9/2008 4:49PM

    Have an awesome time! Relax and have fun!! Try not to think about your weight, after all it's vacation. have a drink for me and we'll chat when you get back! I'm so jealous!!!

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Week 5: Preparation for Hawaii

Monday, May 05, 2008

So instead of stressing myself out with eating and exercise goals, I may or may not be able to accomplish given my current health issues. I am not going to post my usual goals. Instead I am going to freestyle it a bit this week and do my exercising when I am feeling well and rest when my body needs it.

As for my eating regime. I am going to really focus on my portion control and if I do decide to snack on pretzels, sweets, ect. I am going to check the portion size and measure accordingly.

Also I will need to eventually figure out a eating lifestyle/diet that works for my body. So far I have winging it, combining a couple of different diets and their recommendations. But I think I will see more consistent results if I follow just one program.

A diet program that intrigues me is the 3 hour diet. It doesn't seem to put a lot of restrictions on your food. You just the have to be conscious on the timing when you eat. Unfortunately, I tried it slightly last week and it was very difficult for me to stick to it when I hung out with my friends.

I have also tried the fat smash diet (but the first two weeks are really hard to follow given you give up traditional proteins like chicken and red meat as well as bread)

I could probably do the south Beach diet but I would need to give up fruit for the first two weeks (which would mean no smoothies in the morning)

I will keep you posted on my diet program results. emoticon

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ZEN_WOMAN 5/8/2008 5:52PM

    Thank you for Everyones comments.


While I honor your beliefs and know being Vegan works for you. I could never give up meat. I love it too much.

But I am currently trying to reduce my intake for health reasons. Unfortunately, haven't seen a big improvement in my health or weight with the reduction of my red meat or chicken intake. (which is too bad) I will continue to make little treaks to see what works for me.

Thank you so much for being such a great friends. It makes me so happy when I get postings from everyone.

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    For me if I only ate when I was hungry I would never eat. For me it is defiantly PORTION size. Also, I am busy and don't always plan what to eat which leads to eating something pre-made with lots of calories and preservatives.

I think I will check out the 3 hr diet; it sounds like I could fit that into my schedule because that is about how often my son wants to eat.

Don't give up, you will find what is right for you.

P.S.- I can't go vegan, I gave up all meat (not so much as a bacon bit) for 12 days while my sister was on a mission trip and I felt AWFUL! It made me diligent in prayer for my sister but if didn't make me feel better physically or mentally. I was TIRED all the time. All i wanted was a emoticon... it tasted GREAT when she got back!

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AUNTTAROLE 5/6/2008 5:09PM

    Sounds like you are searching for a "fixed" diet plan to follow...well, given that each of our bodies react differently, you may just need to do the simplest plan there is...the one you mentioned...just eat when you're hungry and watch the portion sizes...keep up the exercise too!

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KRZYKAT3 5/6/2008 4:58PM

    Well, I am not going to get into the vegan thing cause I think plants feel as much as any animal; so harvesting them hurts too!

MJ -

I have tried many "diets". My first was when I was 12/13 and we couldn't find any clothes in the store to fit for a big trip to Texas to see my Uncle get his Air Force wings! Mom had to make my clothes - everyone else's were store brought! emoticon

Any way - after 40 years here is what I know. "Diets" don't work.

Altering your eating habits, water, watching your portions (don't have to carry the scale and measuring cup around), and being happy make the biggest differences in losing weight. Also a really good support system helps - & I think Spark is great for that.

A tool that has helped me the last few months is the nutrition journal and watching the reports (charts) from the nutrition items I track. What a lesson I learned from that! I was not eating enough! Woo hoo - now I am too much but working on getting back into the middle of the road.

It is also interesting to see if you need more protein, fiber, less fat ( probably always gonna be true for me). But it is really helping me to get to a healthy eating instead of extremes like Atkins or pre-purchased NutriSystem foods.

Hope there is a spark in here for you somewhere!

Krzy J emoticon

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Week 4: Exercise and Eating Goal

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

So I started having Stomach pains all day yesterday (Monday) and think that I have aggravated my ulcer again. (My body isn't used to me changing up my diet so dramatically. Saturday and Sunday I mainly had homemade smoothies- made from all fruit rather than juices and sorbets)

So due to this unexpected kink in my plan to lose weight. I am going to take it a bit easier eating wise and see if my ulcer medicine will alleviate my stomach pains. Otherwise I will need to see my doctor to figure it out.

Here is this week's goals: Eating
1. Drink Mainly Water this week (8 glasses a day) (5/5 update Yes)
2. No cola drinks this week. (5/5 no, I had about 3 cans last week)
3. Try substituting a smoothie as a meal (5/5 Yes, almost everyday)
4. Use the recipes in the smoothie book rather than free styling. (free styling leads to less tasty outcomes) (5/5 Yes)

From Last week:
5. Eat healthy. (work on portion control) (5/5 Yes)
6. Eat consciously. (5/5 Yes)
7. Don't snack at night unless truly hungry.
(5/5 - 4 out of the 7 days)

1. walk lunch 3 times out of 5 (No)
2. Go to the gym twice (No)
3. Do pilates machine twice (Yes)
4. Stretch during the day (for back issue) (Yes)

These are extra:
5. Go to yoga (Yes)
6. Exercise on Saturday (No)
7. Incorporate Strength training (Yes)

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ZEN_WOMAN 5/5/2008 12:36PM

    So here are my results from last weeks goal.

I lost 3 pounds from the week before. Starting weight was 226 and got down to 222 on Friday but went back up a little by Monday 223 due to some stomach issues on Sunday.

I think I ate pretty well during the week but snacked a lot on the weekend (tasty pretzels and sweets) and wasn't too mindful of my portions either on the weekend. Overall I would give myself a B+
for the entire week.

Well I hit a bit of a snag due to my back and stomach issues and didn't exercise as much as I would have liked. In fact I think I exercised about a third if what I did the previous week. But I did listen to my body and rested when I needed to rest. Which hopefully help me for this week.

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JEREMY_PATRICIA 4/30/2008 12:18AM

    I am glad you are not drinking cola. That is not good for your tummy. I hope you get better soon. Jeremy emoticon

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Today I am Strong and Powerful

Friday, April 25, 2008

So an account manager called me this morning and I asked him how he was doing and he said, “Today I am Strong and Powerful." and then he asked me how I was doing. To that I just said nothing cause I wasn't particularly feeling strong or powerful or even pretty or thin. I was feeling sort of down and dumpy (to be honest). Yet you can’t say that to an investment manager who is calling you about business.

After my awkward silence he reminded me that I live in one of the most Beautiful parts of the country (Northern California) and that dude (his words not mine) I should be happy.

Well after I hung up, it started me thinking and he is right. I am lucky to live in a beautiful area and when I am really stressed I can drive around in my new convertible (which I love) and even though my weight has been slowly creeping up this week (my scale was especially unforgiving today)

I need to remember that I am Strong and Powerful and continue to do all the things I know will get me to my final goal of being healthier and feeling better about myself both inside and out. So here’s to Tom for reminding me how powerful I can be if I just let myself. emoticon

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MCOBIAN1 4/25/2008 4:07PM

    Good for you on picking yourslef back up!! Yes we do need to remind ourselves every now and then of what we do have in our lives and be thaankful for that. Keep your chin up and just know there are people supporting you on your journey!

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JEREMY_PATRICIA 4/25/2008 2:39PM

    You rock. Patricia emoticon

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Life is what you make of it….

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

I found this poem on someone's blog. I changed it slightly by adding a few lines. But love how it reminds me not to take my size or weight too seriously and enjoy what we have in the here and now.

is not measurable on a scale
is not determined by a size
is not found in a diet…

Is feeling free to be yourself
Is full of possibilities
Is knowing God love’s Me as I AM….

So when I am down on myself I need to Imagine how God sees me. Look through his eyes on my image and be more kind to myself.

Because in the end my life will not be measured on how much weight I have lost or how cute people think I am or even if I can get into my skinny jeans. My life will be measured on how kind I am to strangers and how generous I am to my friends and how open I am to God's teachings.


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JEREMY_PATRICIA 4/23/2008 7:17PM

    This was on a persons Spark Page and I would like to share it with you.

MOTIVATION stands for:

M ake short term goals
O ut with the negative thoughts
T hink of why you want it
I magine how you will feel
V isualize the future you
A cknowledge your successes
T reat yourself with respect
I nvestigate new ideas and foods
O bserve your healthy lifestyle
N ever give up and never give in
S upport one another

May your life be measured by the love you bring to others and to yourself. Patricia

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