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Sunday, February 26, 2012

Scale up to 128.2 today. Not happy about that but once I realized that it is actually less than my 129 weigh in on Tuesday, I also realized, it could be worse. My food intake the past few weeks has not been great. That last two weeks I have had a positive (instead of negative) caloric intake difference. That is certainly not the recipe for weight loss success. I just need to stick with my usual program and avoid the extra eating that has gotten me stuck back up here. I can't help but wonder why I did/am doing this to myself. I do well and drop a few and then bam, for some reason decide it's quite all right to eat 5 chocolate chip cookies at 100 calories each, plus some ice cream and then get upset that the scale is creeping up. Really? Come on, girl all you really have to do is check the math. It will never work out the way you want it to with this extra eating you've been doing. So, stop doing it. The next time you feel like doing it, examine what it is that is causing the urge. Most of the time it is not true, genuine hunger and you know this. So, what is it? I do know the textures of cool ice cream melting and salty chips crunching are actually soothing but what are they soothing? I think they feel good in the moment but ultimately just add to whatever the issue is, be it loneliness, shame, self doubt. Giving in to those cravings just adds fuel to the fire and causes more lonelines, shame and self doubt. It's like when you drink and then the next day deal with the pain of the hangover. I was so concerned about just getting through the day and managing that hangover that I had little time to address the real issues in my life. I think these food binges are similar. I spend the next day worrying about the damage I've done, feeling guilty about the extra eating, wondering how long it will take for me to un-do the damage. This stops me from moving forward and either puts me a few steps back from where I was or it just keeps me in the same position. I need to stop doing it so I can shift my focus to more worthy things so I can have a more productive, happy life.


One Year Anniversary: 9June07

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Today is my one year anniversary! When I signed up, I truly didn't know how long I would do this, or if I even really would but here I am, one year later and 40 pounds lighter! It has been great to lose that weight but the steps it took to do that are even more empowering.

I finally got active again. I walk 4-5 times a week, I was swimming twice a week during the winter but now have a new bicylce and have been riding with my husband and son 2-3 times a week. I actually miss the swimming so I need to figure out how I can do both in the limited time I have for such activitiies!

I ate fairly healthfully before starting SP but I definitley had some misunderstandings about portion sizes! I did make some other changes to my diet like replacing all enriched flour products with whole grain, and eliminating anything and everything with high fructose corn syrup (even my favorite salad dressing).

I love beer and wine and would drink 3-5 nights a week, often in "excess". This was a real burden on my body, trying to process all those empty calories. Then the next day I would just want to eat everything in sight. Gaining control over my alcohol intake I think was a major factor in getting other things under control.

My other bad habit was smoking. I was one of the people who fooled themselves into thinking that I was a "social" smoker who only smoked when drinking. Well, if you just read what I wrote above about drinking well... you would agree that I was just fooling myself. In fact, I think sometimes I would actually have a beer or glass of wine so I could "justify" smoking a cigarette. I finally gave up that habit in January of this year.

All in all at the end of my first year with SP, I am totally confident that I am the healthiest I have ever been. I still have some pounds to lose but I have all the tools I need to get there and stay there!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

HEATHHILL 11/27/2007 1:24PM

    I just saw your post in the swimming challenge, and came over here to see your Spark Page. I also used to smoke, although I quit about 11 years ago. And I was also fooling myself that I only smoked when I drank. But, since I drank at least one drink every night, well, like you, it was just an excuse! I now normally only drink on the weekends, and even that isn't so much anymore.

I'm also a professional woman with a stay at home husband for our daughter. She's in kindergarten now, so it's time for the hubby to start work again!

We just seemed to have some things in common, so I wanted to stop by and say hi. I'm still working on the weight loss goal, but I only really started in earnest in September, so I'm being patient and consistent and hopefully will continue to see results!

Have a great day! :)

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BETTSI 7/17/2007 4:40PM

    Hi Zen-mama! I wanted to come and see your page. I am so impressed with what you've accomplished in one year! I also quite smoking in January, but for me, I am at the beginning of my weight loss journey. I am struggling a little to find that right balance of exercise/calorie intake, but your success inspires me. You've done a great job.

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

This first week back from vacation has been a little bumpy. Rather than focus on what I didn't accomplish though, I think I need to focus on what I did accomplish. So far that has been meeting my calorie goals and meeting most of my excercise goals. It's funny how I can get totally caught up in what I didn't do and disregard what I was able to do. I need to work on that.



Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Yesterday was a great day, totally on with the calories and lots of excercise and fresh foods. Why is it that I always seem to get on a roll and then something comes up like a vacation? Not that I don't like a nice vacation every now and then.

My plan for vacation is to do my best to eat healthfully but also allow for a few "treats". I also am going to try to limit my alcohol intake since I do tend to like to drink around my brother and my uncles. I'm not sure what kind of opportunities I'll have for excercise but if I can't get any in, I'm not going to stress about it.

When I get back, I know I will get right back on track and continue losing. For me there is no other option.



Monday, February 19, 2007

I just came back from my first walk in about two weeks and it sure did feel great. It is still mighty cold out there but it's a really beautiful day and it was so great to get some fresh air and to move. I think my visitors will be gone by the time I get off work so my plan is to go to the pool and do laps. I really want this week to be completely on track. It's been a while since I have been able to meet both my nutrition AND fitness goals and I'll be leaving for vacation on the 28th. I just would like to have a good solid week behind me to start me out.


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