Thursday, November 22, 2012
Waking up a little later than usual (over the jet lag!) to a sunny, breezy, cool south Florida day...
Reading posts on Facebook from friends around the country and the world...
Watching the Macy's Day Parade and smiling to think of how my German friends would react to this very American tradition...
Baking mini-muffins in my Mom's kitchen...
Talking with the neighbors about our outdoor Christmas decorating plans for the weekend...
Getting ready to drive three hours with family members who I seldom see and some little second cousins who I've never met...
Looking for a good version of this song by Siegfried Ochs (attribued to Haendel) and coming across a lovely dance with young ballerinas being guided by their "father" dancers: www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIjr3aODhg0&
So much to be thankful for...enjoy your day!
Sunday, November 11, 2012
"Putzen" actually means cleaning in German, but I'm doing the English version when I should be doing more of the German version.
Just wanted to check in and ask my Spark friends to pray for me tomorrow when I fly back to the States. It's hard taking the trip this time, knowing that Dad won't be there when I arrive, just the condo and the stuff.
It will all be OK, though. I know the Lord is with me and that he'll help me step by step through the process ahead. I've got some good friends there who have been such a support and I know that I can count on their continued help and company. I expect new, different experiences that will only help me grow stronger, although they might be hard to navigate. I already have a couple of possible part-time jobs, and with the holidays coming, there will be music and ministry opportunities galore.
And I look forward to Florida weather, beach walking, and whatever other adventures are in store. It's starting to get cold and nasty here, typical for this time of year here, although we have mostly had nice weather during the month I've been back. Thankful for the fall visuals, with the sun shining almost horizontally through the brilliant-colored leaves. But ready for some warmer temps.
OK, back to packing. I leave in 14 hours and there is TONS to do...
Thursday, October 18, 2012
I just finished booking my trip to the States. I'll be leaving Germany on November 12 and plan to stay in Florida til after Easter, almost 6 months. Walking on water, folks!
Monday, October 15, 2012
...and what a change my life has taken! I arrived back in Germany about 10 days ago, urged by friends and family to make it back to attend my graduation ceremony. I received my second master's in international theological education.
Then I attended a much-needed, 4-day retreat in Switzerland last week. Today I started back to work at the language school and have slipped into planning the annual international worship service at church this coming weekend. But I'm only here for a few weeks to settle my affairs here so that I can go back to the States for a few months.
Losing my dad has been traumatic on so many levels I can't yet begin to describe here. Now I have the challenge of walking through this time of grieving while at the same time handling the executorship of his estate. Those of you who know me know how much I love paperwork and bookkeeping. It is really going to take another of God's miracles to get me through this. But He is in the business of making miracles. In spite of the sometimes-overwhelming sadness, I'm also looking forward to seeing how he is going to work this together for my good and his glory.
I've gained a bunch of weight and am making a gradual fresh start here on SP. Since I'm selling my car here in Germany, exercise will be no problem for the next few weeks. Now that I'm back in my own kitchen, I can also be more careful of my eating and get out of the stress-eating habit. Will be off the prednisone taper soon, too, which will help get rid of some of the extra pounds and puffiness.
When I get back to FL in November, it will be time to inventory all of Dad's artwork, and pack up everything in the condo where he and Mom lived for some 25 years. There will be mementos to pass on to family members and friends, furniture to sell, accounts to settle. Stay tuned for the miracles.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
My dad passed away quietly yesterday morning at 5:30 AM. We had been able to move him to his hometown for rehab, and there were signs of improvement over the first few days. In the end, I think he was tired and ready to go. It's hard to know how much he understood his condition, but he would not have wanted to continue in this state for long. He may have known better than we did that he wouldn't be able to paint again and, for him, that spelled "goodbye" to this life. He had been so lonely without my mom who died two years ago.
I'll be in the States till the end of the month and will return to Germany to put my personal affairs in order. I'll likely need to return to the States shortly after that to take care of things here. Will keep you posted, but regular Sparking just isn't possible for now.
But YES, I'm taking care of me - and have some great support troups who remind me to do so.
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