Saturday, July 05, 2008
Happy Birthday to me! I had plans to sleep late, but a friend called me early to wish me a happy day, and that was a good start. I have no big plans today but it is a Saturday and a day "off" with lovely weather, so I plan to enjoy it. Other than that, I have a midterm exam for my Old Testament course on Monday, so I'll be studying, studying, studying!
At the end of the month, I have 4 days of vacation and may take some time to celebrate with friends then. Right now the apartment is decorated in "early books and papers" style as it often is when I'm in the middle of a course, and isn't very inviting for guests.
I'm officially shifting back to losing mode from maintaining today. My weight has crept up a couple of pounds and I'm not happy about it, although all my clothes still fit and the numbers on the scale aren't all that bad. But I FEEL wrong. I know why and I know how to change it, and it's time to take action! Time to change the mindset, but I also changed my ticker and calorie range to reflect the true situation. I'm on my weigh down again!
P.S. I had a nice birthday surprise on my (nordic) walk this evening. I took a different path and saw two deer and a rabbit with veeerrry long ears.
Monday, June 30, 2008
The German soccer team lost in the finals against an excellent Spanish team, and, even though I know it's just a game, I feel disappointed for them. The captain of the team has yet to win a big international title, even though he has come close four times. The keeper is 38 years old so he may not ever play in one of the "biggies" again, and certainly not in the next European Championship in 4 years. At 38, he's already an old-timer. What they must be going through today!
How do we deal with disappointment? Do we give up and say we're finished with trying to reach our goals? Do we replay our "fumbled balls" and other mistakes over and over in our minds? Do we try to deny our feelings and say that "everything's okay, I'm happy with second best"?
None of the above - giving up is not an option. Soccer players, like other athletes, have to retire from their professions at an age where many people are just starting to experience success in their careers. They may even become sidelined prematurely with injuries. But they can set new goals and often find ways to share their experience with the next generation.
We can learn a lot from our mistakes, from analyzing how and why we goofed up. But constantly replaying the scenes in our mind is demoralizing and can lead to hopelessness, bitterness, even depression.
Denying our feelings is also destructive - when we do that, we cut ourselves off from our greatest source of comfort - the love of our heavenly Father. When we say, "it's OK, I don't hurt" when we really are suffering inside, it's as if we're telling God that we don't need him. Why try to go it alone when we have such a Helper?
Just some thoughts this morning as I think about disappointments I've suffered in the past - and how it relates to this healthy lifestyle journey I'm on, too.
P.S. Don't feel too bad for the German players - they get 150,00 euros a head for SECOND place while the Spaniards get 250,000 for winning the cup!!!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
I've been limiting my online and Spark time lately and just noticed that I haven't blogged in two weeks. So I'll do a quick entry on my way over to the forum for my Old Testament course. I have to submit a short essay as part of my second progress report which is due today. The course takes a lot of time and there are lots of names and facts to remember. But I'm enjoying what I'm learning, especially seeing how God's plan all hangs together so beautifully and how it has from the beginning.
Weight-wise I'm still at the top of maintenance range, but I'm eating well and continuing to exercise consistently. Maybe I'm at a "happy weight"? I don't think so, though - I'd like to get rid of the extra couple of pounds but my focus right now has to be on studying - and, of course, on watching soccer on TV when I can. Glad the progress report is due today - tomorrow I'll take a study break and watch Germany play against Portugal in the quarterfinals of the European Championship.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
I survived! On the way to the race, a huge thunderstorm complete with thunder and lightning came up and I was beginning to think that the race would be cancelled. But by the time I got to the start, it had cleared up - and the temperature had dropped about 20 degrees! The race was super well-organized and the people friendly.
I finished last of the runners, I think. The sponsor's website is down, so I can't check. But my goal was, first of all to run the distance, and to finish in under an hour. I only walked up one of the hills and at kilometer 5 for a little bit, to stretch my legs. And I finished in around 54 minutes. I forgot to turn off my HRM immediately at the end of the race, so that's an estimate. I know I could have done better if it hadn't been for the 99% humidity and my troublesome ankle. Another goal was to keep an eye on my HR and NOT let myself get lured into overdoing it by competitiveness.
Placing was not a goal - and I could have passed the next-to-last women, but her kids came out on the field to run the last lap with her, so I told her to go on ahead. We had run the last 2K together and encouraged each other. Thanks to all YOU encouragers, too!
Today, the weather is lovely again, but I'll be taking it easy most of the day and resting my ankle, I'll do some upper body and core ST this evening for my 30 minutes of intentional exercise.
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